Day by day, I gradually grew up, finished elementary school, and went to middle school step by step, and the grades were reasonable, and I didn't have to worry about my parents. My mother goes to and from work every day, busy, seems to have forgotten about petitioning, is used to the current life, said that life is very quiet, if it continues like this, it is really good, but unfortunately it can't.

I remember one night when I was in my second year of junior high school, I slept for a long time, and in the middle of the night, someone suddenly knocked on the door outside, looking for my father. There have been this kind of things before, the public security bureau has an action or something unexpected, my mother and I are not surprised, after my dad got dressed and left, we continued to sleep. My dad hadn't come back from school in the morning, and there was no one to eat at noon, so I found some leftovers to eat. In the afternoon at the school, the students began to go viral, the night before the public security bureau caught the hooligans, the man was the secretary of the commune, the woman was the accountant of the commune, and the two were playing hooligans in the toilet of the commune compound and were arrested.

When I came home from school in the afternoon, my parents came back and were discussing it at home. My mom muttered to my dad, "It's not you on duty, what are you asking you to do?" and all that offended men was hidden. ”

"Why can't you hide, Lao Liu and her daughter have a fever, go home and go to the hospital with the child, and the people below don't dare to arrest them, so why don't you come and call me!"

Seeing that I was back, my parents stopped talking. I was curious, so I asked my dad, "Dad, this kind of hooliganism deserves a sentence, right?" ”

"Hmm." My dad casually agreed.

My mom asked me warily, "How do you know?" Listen to whom? ”

"Our school is full of rumors, and there is no one who doesn't know." I said disdainfully, and continued to ask my dad, "How many years do you have to be sentenced?" ”

"The little hairy boy asks what this is doing, go up!" My mom banged me.

That night, just after dinner, Mrs. Guan came to my house excitedly. I was doing my homework in my room, and the three adults were talking in the outhouse, and I could hear that Aunt Guan was very excited: "What's the matter, let me talk, right?" It's hard to hear behind people's backs. ”

"Lao Luo may not be able to come back this time, what can I do with that mother!" My mother's voice.

"How can this man be blessed all his life? Right? Aunt Guan's words were full of schadenfreude.

“…… Not necessarily, I haven't given a surname yet, maybe I'll come back in a few days. ”

"You can come out so well when you go in the Public Security Bureau, Lao Zheng, how many years do you think you can be sentenced? Can you be sentenced to 10 years? ”

“…… It's hard to say, this kind of thing ...... "It's inconvenient for my dad to speak."

Aunt Guan immediately saw through my dad: "I know that you don't say anything!" ”

“…… It's not that I don't want to say it, but I really haven't found out yet. ”

My mother played a round game: "Ask Du Sensei to ask." ”……

Nothing to say for a while.

After a while, I listened to my mother's voice: "Lao Guan, you said, if Lao Luo can't come back, I'm afraid he will have to change the new leader, right?"

"Then you don't need to ask!"

"I don't know what the new leader is like?" Sounds like my mom is talking to herself......

"Old Ma, what do you want to say?" It was Guan Damiang's voice: "Lao Zheng! Do you say your wife ......?"

Aunt Guan, who had a loud voice, suddenly suppressed her voice, I stopped writing, stretched out my ears, and was engrossed and didn't hear what was said.

The three of them chattered outside for a long time, until I finished my homework and leaned on the head of the bed and fell asleep.

In the middle of the night, I drank too much water to wake up with urine, and got up to go to the toilet. When I went outside, I saw that the lights were still on in my parents' room opposite. Because the toilet was in the yard, I wanted to call my mother to go with me, but when I saw that the door was open, I didn't think about it, I pushed the door and went in. A room full of food stamps! All kinds of colors, on the bed, on the cabinet, on the table, there are small bundles of bunches. My mom was sitting on the edge of the table, writing something on a big piece of paper, densely packed, and my dad was sitting on the edge of the bed, with a bunch of colorful food stamps in front of him, tied with the white cotton thread that my mother had sewn the quilt, and there was a bite in his mouth. Seeing me enter, both of them were stunned and looked startled.

I came to my senses first: "Mom, what's wrong, why are there so many food stamps?" ”

My dad bit the half of the white thread in his mouth and didn't speak.

My mother stood up and reprimanded me: "If you don't sleep so late, you don't have to go to school tomorrow!" ”

"I'll go up to the hut to see if you haven't ...... yet"

"What are you doing here in the thatched house?"

"Mom, why do we have so many food stamps?"

"What kind of food stamps, if there is one, it's not your family, hurry up and go to sleep!"

My mother was talking and pressing, and by the time she had finished saying this, I was already standing on the floor outside, and my mother closed the door of their room. I had to go to the toilet by myself. When I came back, I saw that the lights in my parents' room had been turned off and the door was closed. Lying in bed, I was still thinking, where did I get so many food stamps? If it's all from our family, that's amazing, how rich it is, and the food stamps can be exchanged for money in those days. But my dad and my mom can't have so many food stamps, my dad has a monthly ration of thirty catties, and my mom and I have twenty-seven catties per month. On the other hand, I also think that it is not impossible to do this, my mother is very good at passing the day, the water drops wear the stones, and the sand gathers into a tower, so I thought about it and fell asleep.

At breakfast the next day, I remembered this incident again and asked my mother, "Mom, why do we have so many food stamps in our family?" ”

"What food stamps?" My mom asked me rhetorically.

"Huh? Last night I saw so many food stamps in your house and my dad. ”

"Sleep mocked, dreamed of it? Hurry up and eat, the socks soaked in the basin are not yours, wash them out and go to school after eating, such a big girl, don't pay attention to it at all. ”

"What did you dream, I saw with my own eyes, my dad still used the thread you sewed the quilt to tie bundles one by one, right, Dad?"

"If you talk nonsense, I'll tear your mouth, it's over!" My mom was annoyed.

My dad put the bowl down and said very seriously: "Don't you dare to talk nonsense outside this kind of thing, do you hear?" ”

"I know."

"You know! Hurry up and leave after eating! ”

I'm a junior high school student anyway, and I'm not so stupid that I really think I'm dreaming, but looking at my mother's attitude, I'm not happy to ask again, I think I might be afraid of revealing my wealth, I don't want me to know, and what's the use of knowing? I can't catch flowers with dry eyes, and I feel that I am idle and boring when I think about it like this, and I forget about it after a few days. Now that I think about it, that was the only time I've ever seen these food stamps.

It was spring to see the food stamps, and after a short time, I remember that when I was wearing a single coat, my dad suddenly fell ill. At first, I just had a bad appetite, and I went to the hospital to prescribe some stomach medicine, but it didn't work, but I became no longer strong, and then I went to the hospital, and a blood and urine test showed that it was hepatitis and was hospitalized directly. My mother accompanied my dad in the hospital, and Aunt Guan was in charge of the grocery store. My mother didn't worry that I was at home alone at night, so she let me live in the school, most of the students living in the surrounding countryside were students, and the dormitory was also a chase shop for more than 20 people. I went to the hospital every weekend to see my dad, and every time I went, it was very uncomfortable, because every time I could clearly see from my dad's body how much the disease had advanced this week, it was eating away at my dad little by little, and finally my dad felt tired from talking, and he had to rest for a while after saying a few words. Every time my mom and I were speechless, sometimes my dad fell asleep, and my mom and I sat on the chairs outside the hospital room and were silent for a long time. Once, my mother suddenly said, "Your grandmother's house, can you still find it?" ”

My grandmother was in the countryside and had been back with my parents a few times, and I thought about it, "Yes." ”

"Remember, if you can't find it, remember Wenjiazhuang in Niutou Town, and inquire about it."

"I can find it."

Then there was silence.

Although they are preparing, no one wants to say their biggest fears. In school, if there is a knock on the classroom door, it can scare me into a god, afraid of the cold news: "Zheng Nan, something happened to your family, you go back." "When I came home on the weekend, I was afraid to see white paper pasted on the door of the courtyard, and I was afraid that there would be a woman's cry in the courtyard. I can't turn back the clock, all this didn't happen, my dad wasn't sick, and he was still riding his 28 Golden Deer bicycle as before, coming from a distance and shouting: "Come up, girl, carry you!" ”