At that time, I was really stiff and couldn't move. My mind was a mess, and all sorts of thoughts kept popping up. I want to be desperate and forget it, with such a mature beauty in my arms, at this time, wouldn't it be the stupidest fool in the world not to eat her? I don't love the woman in my arms at all, once I eat her, according to my spleen surname, I have to marry her, although I promised her to take care of her for the rest of my life, but this is fundamentally different from marrying her as a wife.

I was suffering here, but Gu Ruoyan was full of joy, closed her eyes contentedly, and sighed: "Alas! That's great! There is a strong embrace for me to rely on, which really makes people feel very down-to-earth and warm! ”

She tilted her head sideways and adjusted the sleeping position that was most comfortable for her. I felt the waves under my palm as her body moved, and according to my senses, her abundance was so large that I could not fully grasp any one that I could hold up my palm. I only had a slight evil thought, and the hot blood in my body could not be stopped, but it only rushed to my head, and then spread from the top of my head to my whole body.

I just felt hot and restless in my body, and some places were ready to move. I quickly withdrew my hand from Gu Ruoyan, for fear that if I continued to contact like this, I would really not be able to control myself and make a big mistake.

Gu Ruoyan opened his eyes and said dissatisfiedly: "What's wrong?" I want you to hold me. ”

I had to find an excuse and said, "I ...... I smoke! Smoke a cigarette! As he spoke, he grabbed a cigarette from the bedside table, took one and lit it.

Gu Ruoyan adjusted her posture again, and muttered: "How can there be such a big addiction to smoking?" Do you want to smoke while lying in bed? She leaned sideways, half-lying in my arms, with one hand around my waist, one thigh restlessly restlessly on my feet.

The lust in my heart pounded against my sanity as her body turned, my smoking hand trembling slightly, and my heart beating at least twice as fast as usual. To distract myself and reduce my high thoughts, I asked her, "Manager! If a man wants to break up with his girlfriend but doesn't want to hurt her, what should he do to get the best of both worlds? ”

Gu Ruoyan smiled and said, "Impossible!" Unless this girlfriend doesn't love that man, how can there be the best of both worlds? If there were, there would be no such thing as suffering in this world. ”

I took a puff of my cigarette and said, "I know, I mean, how do I minimize the damage and keep her from heartbreaking?" ”

Gu Ruoyan raised her head to look at me, there was a little joy in her eyes, she said: "You don't have to break up with your girlfriend, I said that I only want to be your lover, and I don't want any name, I know I don't deserve you." You can still associate with her and even get married, I can hide in the dark. ”

I sighed and said, "How do you know I mean myself?" ”

Gu Ruoyan smiled: "I don't know you yet?" is so kind-hearted that he goes too far, he never thinks about himself, and even breaks up, he has to find ways not to hurt her. Do you think that if you agree to me, you are already sorry for your girlfriend? You're really ...... Honestly! ”

I was silent, took several puffs of cigarette, and finally said, "I want to break up with my girlfriend, but it's none of your business." It's my own fault, I like another person in my heart, and I don't want to be so deceived anymore. I know that I will never fall in love with someone else again in my life, and I will never be able to give her happiness, so instead of procrastinating and hiding it like this, it is better to leave her as soon as possible so that she can find happiness again. In this life, I am destined to owe her! ”

Gu Ruoyan was very sensitive, she thought for a moment, and said, "Have you met that big star again?" ”

I have already seen Gu Ruoyan's keen judgment. At this moment, I am used to seeing her exact surname, so I can only nod yes. Gu Ruoyan said again: "You...... Haven't you forgotten about her yet? Tang Qian didn't say you, you are addicted to this kind of unrealistic fantasy, it will harm you for the rest of your life! ”

I smiled bitterly and said, "I know it myself, but the emotional thing is really not under my control, every time I see her once, I will love her more, no way!" ”

Gu Ruoyan hugged me tighter, and she sighed: "Alas! Oh, yes! It's really not under your control! I know it's impossible between us, but don't I still like you? Feelings are so helpless! ”

I had no desire at the moment, and my desolate state of mind made me reach out and hug the plump body in my arms. It's like sympathy for the same disease, full of pity for Gu Ruoyan. Gu Ruoyan in her arms didn't know what she thought, she let out a sad sigh, and then fell into a deep silence, just hugging me tightly.

After a long time, suddenly Gu Ruoyan came out of the quilt all of a sudden, she knelt on the bed, and reached out to hold my cheek. In a slightly melancholy tone, he said, "Look! We're both poor people! There are people who love but can't get love, who knows the pain except ourselves? We...... It should ......," she said, her fiery lips pressed against me and kissed me. In her frantic kisses, I felt a hint of bitterness in her heart. I vaguely felt that it was the deepest pain in Gu Ruoyan's heart, and the person she loved didn't mean me!

I didn't refuse her kiss, I even took the initiative to open my mouth and welcome her tongue in and suck it. But I don't have any evil thoughts in my heart, I just have the same state of mind as Gu Ruoyan, in this world, no one knows myself better than the other party, and no one understands their pain better than the other party. As a person who has fallen from the end of the world, this kiss is just a kind of venting and comfort.

Kiss after kiss, a little salty taste added to my lips, and when I looked closely, it turned out to be a tear slipping from the corner of her eye. My heart moved, and I reached out to gently wipe her off, and said, "Actually, you still love your husband very much in your heart, don't you?" ”

Gu Ruoyan didn't answer, she just said in a very soft voice: "Tang Qian!" Let's do it! I want to! All right? ”

I shook my head slightly and said, "Kissing is already the best comfort, but if you go further, I'm afraid I'll regret it later." You actually see me as a substitute for your husband and don't really like me. You will find the happiness that truly belongs to you in the future, and I don't want to affect your life later because of your indulgence today. ”

Gu Ruoyan said frustratedly: "I...... I didn't treat you as a substitute, I really want to be with you! I need it, I can't stand it anymore, Tang Qian, I beg you...... Love me once! ”

Knowing what Gu Ruoyan really thought in his heart, I was much more relaxed. She didn't have any other friends, and when she saw that I cared about her, she clung to me, and she was even willing to be my lover, but she never thought of marrying me, proving that the only thing she loved in her heart was her ex-husband. The second is because she has not had a man to love her for too long, and as a normal woman in need, it is really difficult to endure to the extreme, so after she grabbed me, she asked me to accompany her in bed regardless of shame. Do whatever it takes to seduce me.

After thinking about this, the heavy burden that was on my back just now is gone. I don't need to spend my whole life taking care of her, because she doesn't love me in the first place, I just need to wait for her to find true love, and I will be free. This is in line with my original intention of helping her in the first place, and she will never be cocooned again.

I smiled and said, "I know you need it a lot, so you should come out of your ex-husband's shadow as soon as possible and find someone who really loves you sooner." I'm not suitable for you, you've survived so many days, and you still care about waiting a few more days? ”

Gu Ruoyan wanted to cry without tears, she shouted: "Tang Qian! I can't get through it anymore! I need it now! She said as she stepped over my legs and rode on my lower abdomen, holding my head with both hands and kissing me again.

I turned my head and said in a deep voice, "Gu Ruoyan!" Sober up! Don't give up on yourself because you lost a loved one, indulge yourself, you will regret it! After saying that, I lifted the quilt and jumped out of bed.

Gu Ruoyan finally cried, she suddenly lay on the bed, crying silently. Instead of leaving, I sat back on the edge of the bed. patted her on the shoulder and said, "Manager, it is painful to be abandoned by your lover, but you are still young, you still have a long life to live, and you can't suffer for a lifetime." Think about my words, make more friends, and don't rely on me alone. You are so beautiful, there will definitely be a man who really loves you. Don't you want to live happily with someone who loves you and you like? Are you willing to be my lover only? I know these are things you say against your will. Time is the best cure for heartbreak, and I'm sure you'll figure it out. ”

Gu Ruoyan couldn't listen, she cried and shouted: "You go!" Let's go! Now you don't even want me, man! None of them can be relied on, what is the point of my life! ”

I sighed, "I won't leave you alone, my purpose is to make you happy." So you have to believe me, in this world, I am not the only man Tang Qian, there are many good men who just don't find out. I know that you don't actually love me, but just want me to relieve your loneliness and emptiness, so you offer to be my lover and not fully own me. But I can't be with someone who doesn't love me just because it's to satisfy my physical needs, it's not only irresponsible to you, but also irresponsible to myself. I'm sorry! You are not in the right mood today, and you may not like to hear my words. Think about it again after I'm gone, and I hope you can recover soon! ”

I said that I was going to stand up and put on my shoes and leave, but suddenly Gu Ruoyan got up and rushed towards me, hugged me from behind, and cried: "Tang Qian! I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I won't do this again, please don't go! Don't leave me! ”

I put on my shoes, turned my head and said, "I won't leave you, but you have to be honest with me, you came to me today, is it really because you can't leave me, or because you can't bear the loneliness, and ask me to be your husband's replacement?" ”

Gu Ruoyan sobbed, and said for a long time: "All of them!" I only have you to rely on now, and I really can't live without you. And...... I really need ......."

I said, "So you can be my lover, as long as it satisfies your needs, and you don't hesitate to do such stupid things?" ”

Gu Ruoyan lowered his head and whispered, "I'm sorry!" ”

I wanted to get angry, but when I saw her pitiful appearance, I couldn't get angry. I had to turn around and wipe the tears from her face. Sigh: "Manager! If you're really struggling, just go find someone who loves you. It's okay to ask me to introduce you, but don't say stupid things about who to be your lover. People are always responsible for themselves, aren't they? ”

Gu Ruoyan raised his head and said, "Tang Qian!" I know you're upright and kind, and you won't do anything against your conscience, and I shouldn't have seduce you! But you said that I would regret it or something, I know in my heart that as long as it is you, I am really willing to do everything, and I will never regret it! ”

(To be continued)