It's quiet! So quiet! Like my mother's warmth*, there was a faint sound of dripping water in the darkness, and I closed my eyes and felt my body sink into the darkness layer by layer. Sleep, my consciousness, my emotions, don't wake up, it's not easy to sleep so smoothly and comfortably all the time. Someone seemed to be talking, someone seemed to be crying, but none of those voices could penetrate the dark inner walls. I smile, it's such a wonderful place, there is no calculation, no love and hate, no joy and anger, only warmth, calm, soothing and safety.

A faint flute sound came from afar, its breath so close to this mist, silently merging with it, calmly passing through the thick mist, hovering in my ears, gradually wrapping me, don't be noisy, I want to sleep? I flicked it impatiently, it stubbornly burrowed into my ear, plucked my eardrums, tickled my ears, and I chuckled: "I hate it......"

The voice roamed over my body mischievously, like a mischievous little hand, and I couldn't be quiet, and I sighed and opened my eyes in a huff. There was a bright light in front of me, and I blinked in confusion and heard a gentle voice: "You're awake." ”

Turning his face, he saw Yun Zheng sitting on the edge of the bed, holding a short jade flute in his hand. I smiled silently and sighed faintly: "Yun Zheng, why are you suffering!" "Why wake me up? Wouldn't it be nice for me to sleep like this? I'm really tired!

"I've slept for seven days, and if I don't wake up, your little red girl will kill someone." With a hint of joy on his face, Yun Zheng put down the flute and helped me sit up.

I was stunned, and when I raised my eyes and saw Xiaohongfu sleeping at the end of the bed, I smiled: "This kid is frightened, right?" ”

"I'm also tired, I've watched you for so many days, and I haven't had a good rest." Yun Zheng said. I lifted the quilt and got out of bed, my body was a little weak, Yun Zheng hurriedly supported me, I chuckled: "I'm fine, help me carry Xiaohong to the bed and let her sleep for a while." ”

Taking off Xiaohong's shoes and covering the quilt, I looked at Yun Zheng: "I want to go for a walk in the garden." ”

"I'll be with you." Yun Zheng took my hand and looked at me gently.

"Your courtyard is so beautiful and picturesque." Sitting in the small wooden pavilion where I met Yun Zheng last time, holding the fragrant tea that Yun Zheng made for me, he smiled faintly: "By the way, how is the recovery?" ”

"She wasn't going to do that fast. Now it's okay to live with me for the time being. I've been coming to see you every day for the past few days, and I'm very worried. Yun Zheng said with a smile. I was a little apologetic: "I'm really sorry not to go." ”

"It's good to have friends who are worried about you." He smiled softly, "A woman like you is worth befriending." ”

I smiled self-deprecatingly. Really? I look down on it, what love, what friendship, just stop at the point, it's too deep, I really can't afford it. When I returned to the room, I saw Xiaohong running out in a hurry, and when she saw me, she threw herself into my arms and cried "wow": "Girl, it turns out that you are here, and I am afraid that you will not be there......"

"Silly girl." I hugged her and whispered, "How can I be willing to leave our little red behind." ”

"The girl hasn't woken up, I'm so scared......" Xiaohong whimpered in my arms, "The doctor said that the girl may never wake up, I ......"

"Fool, isn't this awake?" I smiled and wiped the tears from her face, "Okay, don't cry, let Yun Gongzi see the joke." ”

Xiaohong sobbed and wiped her eyes, and I pulled her into the house: "Go and clean up your things, disturb Yun Gongzi for so many days, we should also go back." ”

"You can live here forever." Yun Zheng said gently, "Your body is not well yet, so you don't need to be in such a hurry to leave." ”

"But I'm afraid that my family will be worried......" As soon as I spoke, I was interrupted by Xiaohong: "Grandpa Fu doesn't know about the girl's fainting, but the girl is a guest here Yun Gongzi, so he doesn't worry, the girl lives here, so that the heartless dead nerd is not happy......"

I shuddered, I had been avoiding the name since I woke up, and when I suddenly heard Xiaohong mention it, I still felt a throbbing pain in my heart. I was stunned and said, "Is his injury healed?" ”

"The girl will kill him!" Xiaohong said angrily, "He made you so angry that he coughed up blood, what do you care about him?" He knows that the girl is unconscious, and he won't come to see you......"

"Xiaohong, don't talk about him like that." I sighed faintly, "You won't understand what I have to do with him." ”

"I don't understand, I just know that the girl is going to be angry with him this time." Little red eyes turned red, "If the girl has anything long and short, I want that nerd to pay for her life!" ”

"Fool......" I touched her head and smiled softly, "go wash your face, it's all spent." ”

Xiaohong wiped her face embarrassedly and went out. Yun Zheng smiled: "You maid is also devoted to you." ”

"I treat her as a sister." I said lightly, Yun Zheng heard my meaning and smiled, "You just woke up, so I'll rest later, I'll come back to see you later." ”

"Okay." Sending Yun Zheng away, I sat on the soft couch in a daze, recalling An Yuanxi's words that day, there was still a faint pain in my heart, nerd, I don't believe that what you said is true, I believe that you have a hard time, but what you said is so desperate, do you want to force me to death?

Xiaohong came in a few times, didn't bother me, just sighed, and then saw that I had been sitting in a daze, and finally couldn't help but say: "Girl, you have been sitting all afternoon, do you want to go out for a walk?" ”

"Huh?" I looked at her blankly, and saw that her face was full of sorrow, and she smiled, "No, what time is it?" ”

"It's just time to get there." Little Red Road. It turned out to be six o'clock. I looked out the window at the darkening sky, and saw a dark red glow hanging on the horizon. I only heard Xiaohong continue: "The girl doesn't want to go out, do you want to play the piano?" ”

"Huh?" I turned my head and saw that Xiaohong had taken out something from the cabinet, which was my guitar wrapped in the piano case, and said, "Why is this thing here?" ”

"The girl was in a coma before, and the doctor said that he could try to talk to you, or make some sounds in your ear that you know and like, so I brought this instrument, but we won't play with it, and we won't use it." Seeing a smile on my face, Xiaohong smiled and handed over the piano.

I took it, tuned it, and plucked the strings. As soon as I touched it, all my emotions were uncontrollable, my thoughts swirled in the pain before I fell unconscious, I played a prelude, I hummed softly, I remembered the cold eyes of the nerd, and the tears finally couldn't help but slide down.

I thought about our future and thought it wouldn't be too bad.

I didn't think that the love I gave was just dust.

Back to the lonely stage, the empty existence.

I listened to the monologue of the soul, longing and pale.

Once again, imagine the future, and there is no longer the color of dreams.

I know that no one can be blamed, and everyone is helpless.

It's crazy times, everything is so fast.

Maybe I don't belong now, but I have to wait.

I want to go back to the age of innocence, without torture and hurt,

With true and innocent love, waiting for you to come back every day.

I want to go back to the age of innocence, where there is no more torture and harm.

With true and innocent love, waiting for you to come back every day.

An Yuanxi, we can't go back, can we? Those warm days that belong to us can't go back, can they? Tears dripped onto the strings and were torn apart by the strings. The hand that pulled the string was gently pressed, and he raised his teary eyes and saw Yun Zheng's hazy face: "Don't play." ”

I meekly put down my guitar and looked at him and smiled. There was a rare trace of worry on his calm face: "Is there any misunderstanding, isn't it okay to make it clear to him?" ”

"You don't understand, Yun Zheng, the problem is not here." I smiled sadly, "I know him, he is the kind of person who would rather suffer himself than make me sad, and he must have his own pain in doing this." ”

"Since there is a hidden secret, wouldn't it be better to say it?" Yun Zheng smiled lightly: "What is there in this world that can't be solved?" ”

"You still haven't understood, Yun Zheng." I sighed faintly and shook my head, "He would rather do the same than me, he must have made up his mind." If he is willing to choose me, even if the road ahead is difficult, I will accompany him, but if he gives up on me, I will not force him, force him, as long as he knows what he wants. "To put it nicely, this is called respecting his choice, it's not good, maybe it's just that I don't love enough, after all, I'm still a cold person.

Yun Zheng looked at me quietly with a thoughtful expression.

An Yuanxi came to me after the injury recovered and resigned from the embroidery village. He didn't look haggard after the injury, but his face added a bit of heroism, I looked at his handsome face, and my heart was like a knife: "Have you thought about it?" "What I'm asking is, are you really determined to give up on me?

"I've figured it out." He looked at me quietly, and with just one glance, I knew he really had it figured it out.

"Okay." The rupture has been completely completed. He turned away, his gait calm and resolute, his coat fluttering in the wind, with a demeanor I had never seen before. I looked at his back and laughed softly, and the acquaintance with him kept flashing in my mind.

"I'll beat you on the head, and you will make your head a pig's head......"

"You rice worms who have never earned a copper plate and don't produce anything, do you know what it means to 'know that Chinese food on a plate is hard work'......"

"Okay, you're an Yuanxi, I usually treat you well, I didn't expect you to do such a thing, I, I'm dead......"

"An Yuanxi, give me the water bladder you drank again, do you know what it's called in my hometown......"

"Mr. An, I'm your boss, not your wife......"

"Manager An, didn't you say that no one dares to marry a woman like me? Actually, I know it myself......"

"Stupid! You've been tricked! You're going to leave me right away......"

"An Yuanxi, I owe you a life, and I will give you back ...... next life"

"An Yuanxi, I want to get dressed, you are not allowed to peek at Ha ......"

"And what do you tell them my name? It can't be Ah Hua......"

"An Yuanxi, if you have loved someone, will you forget her soon......"

"An Yuanxi, I recently watched the stars at night, and I noticed that your red luan stars are moving......"

"An Yuanxi, do you like me......

……

His handsome back spread out in my eyes, and my thoughts and expectations were also scattered. Nerd, you don't know that when I am with you, my whole person is alive, but unfortunately, what I think is happiness is an unattainable dream after all. Farewell, my nerd.

I stayed in the temple until the end of the month, and my mood gradually became calmer than ever. Before leaving, Yun Zheng suddenly opened his mouth and proposed to me, everything was so natural, I wasn't even surprised, I just smiled faintly: "Yun Zheng, you deserve to marry a better girl, you know my history." "It's not that I look down on myself, but Yun Zheng, in my eyes, is a person who is so pure that people can't bear to blaspheme.

"I value you, not your body." Yun Zheng held my hand and smiled gently, "It's not your past either." ”

I looked at his warm eyes, not unmoved, although I knew that this man had always been tolerant of me, but I didn't know that he could tolerate it to this extent: "I can't afford such a heavy burden from the Yun family." ”

The corners of his lips pursed into a gentle smile, and he said calmly: "I want you to be yourself, not the head of the Yun family, not Yun Zheng's wife, those are just false names." You can love the people you love and do what you want to do, I just want you to be free and happy, I like your intelligence, strength, and bravery, and I also like your selfishness, coldness, and truthfulness, I will not restrict you in the name of 'love', imprison you with the responsibility of the Yun family, I don't want you to change your essence, you are you. ”

Tears slipped out of the corners of his eyes, Yun Zheng, Yun Zheng, how can I be, worthy of you? Yun Zheng quietly held my hand and said softly, "Let me accompany you in the future, okay?" ”

I raised my teary eyes and smiled like a flower: "Good! ”

Maybe the happiness I've been looking for has been found. Who knows what form happiness exists? Maybe An Yuanxi's protection, the care he gave me, is happiness; How can it be said that Yun Zheng's tolerance, his connivance with me, is not a kind of happiness?

In this early summer, I married Yun Zheng and became his wife. On that day, the night was quiet, the moon was white, and the wind was free.

――2006、12、12

Silk silk; Volume II; Cangdu chapter; finish

The second volume is over. Well, I know that there are a lot of opinions on the second volume, alas, everyone will smash it, but the content of this volume is essential. I will take a break in the third volume and write it again, and some structures still need to be sorted out, so please don't squat in the pit for the past two days. Once again, I would like to thank all of you for your support, encouragement and encouragement. Hehe. Slept.

A list of lyrics quoted in the second volume of "Silk Silk".

Serial number/chapter/song name/lyricist/singer

1/Chapter 72/"Out of the Stopper"/Xi Murong/Cai Qin

2/Chapter 153/"The Age of Innocence"/Ding Wei/Ding Wei

List of cited materials in "Silk Silk".

Serial number/book, article name/author/source

1/"Golden Man", "Porridge"/? / "Ten Philosophical Stories"

2/"Liu Haisu: Opening the Door to Chinese Human Body Sketching"/Shang Yiren/"Literary History Collection 6"

3/"What kind of surname morality do we need today"/Pan Suiming/Southern Weekly, December 5, 2002

4/ "Tales of the Upper Dam" / Pipspi / Friend's Manuscript

5/"Ordos Mongolian Ethnic Customs"/? / "My Lovely Ordos" website

6/ The astronomical calendar of the Yellow Emperor's Neijing/Zhang Qicheng/Typhoid Forum

7/"The Origin of Yucheng Hot Pot"/Anonymous/Sochu.com;