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Zhang Yang pushed Wang Yan into the co-pilot, sat in the cab by himself, and slowly drove the car, and the car fell silent again. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Wang Yan still didn't cry after all, but stubbornly looked out the window, her two hands stirred vigorously on the corners of her clothes, and the mink coat she was wearing was also wrinkled by her.

In the early hours of winter, it was quiet, Zhang Yang didn't know what kind of highway this was, after starting to get down from the highway, it was getting more and more desolate, faintly, in the distance was a bare huge hill, a road was winding in it, until Zhang Yang passed through a hill, he found that this was not a hill at all, but a sand dune, this jumping highway has passed through the desert, no wonder it gives people a desolate and quiet feeling...... Slowly, the Ferrari came to a halt on the side of the road, where the view was open to the undulating sand dunes looming in the darkness.

"Say it! Why not be happy? ”

Zhang Yang parked the car, opened the door and got out of the car, and walked to the co-pilot, there was a chill in the desert in the early morning, and Zhang Yang didn't want Wang Yan to get out of the car.

Wang Yan didn't make a sound, gently opened the door and got out of the car, leaning on the hood, looking at the rolling hills in the distance, under the faint moonlight, like a holy goddess statue, full of divine brilliance.

It was a very long silence that was not broken until Wang Yan fought a cold war.

"We got in the car, it was a bit cold."

"Zhang Yang, why did you do that in the club today, Zhou Shao, I also know that he is not a good person, but he can be regarded as above board, have you ever thought that I would be embarrassed?" Wang Yan didn't move, her voice was like an animal without the slightest emotion, everything was fine at the beginning of today's game, but when she got to the back, she was out of her control, and Zhang Yang crushed Zhou Shao's palm.

"Nope."

Zhang Yang was silent for a long time and spit out two words.

There was another long silence, Wang Yan's eyes were always staring at Zhang Yang's face, this face made her unforgettable.

Finally, Zhang Yang spoke again.

"Wang Yan, I am a child born in a peasant family, I am selfish, I am self-interested, in my bones, I hate and even hate those sons and brothers who honor their fathers and are arrogant, I am jealous that their birth is better than mine, I am jealous that they are rich, I am jealous that they can change different women and famous cars every day, I am jealous of everything they ......"

"At a very young age, I aspired to be a useful person, I studied hard, all my spare time was spent studying, I studied calligraphy, I studied tea ceremony, I studied all the things that were popular in high society, why? In order to prepare for the day when he entered high society...... However, I failed, I completely failed, I failed to arrange my life trajectory, I applied for the most famous university in China, my score was much higher than the admission score there, I didn't go in, an alumnus with a total score of 70 points less than me went, but I went to a low-end university......"

"Zhang Yang......" Wang Yan's body trembled, and gently held Zhang Yang's hand, she felt Zhang Yang's emotions, and she wanted to stop him from going on.

Zhang Yang gently pulled Wang Yan closer to him, letting Wang Yan's body rest on his chest, he didn't stop, he also needed someone to talk to, the depression over the past few years had made him about to collapse.

"I understand, I failed, that last university, even if I work hard, I can't really get ahead, no matter how good my grades are, it's in vain, if according to my design, I have carefully calculated, I need a long thirty years to achieve my goal, and it has to be smooth sailing, at that time, I am already old, my goal, my ideal, will follow my age to disappear......"

"In fact, I am not an art department, I don't like to draw, but, for the sake of freedom, for the sake of less constraints, I chose this subject where I can often find an excuse to go out, I gave up all my hobbies, I don't write anymore, I don't play Go anymore, I don't study the tea ceremony anymore, I don't care about famous cars and magazines anymore, as for those real high-class life, it is always just a fantasy in my mind, I know most of the world's famous wines, I know a lot of famous works of art in the world, It's a pity that I haven't drunk a good bottle of wine, I haven't seen real art treasures, I have always lived in an illusory world, I have fallen, I have been reading novels on the Internet all day, playing games, staying in the dormitory all day long, I use boring things to pass my boring time and boring youth, I think, my whole life, will live like this......"

"Publicity!" Wang Yan turned her body, wrapped one hand around Zhang Yang's waist, and gently stroked Zhang Yang's indifferent face with the other hand, for the first time, she really understood this man who often showed obscene expressions, and for the first time, she knew how painful and helpless this man's heart was, which made Wang Yan very shocked.

"After getting to know you, I really understood the life of the upper class, I knew that a store loses tens of millions a year for a rich person does not matter at all, the value of a person's clothes can be spent hundreds of years in many ordinary families, I also know that the art worth millions can be placed on the ground casually, hung on the wall, I am a failure, my mood is getting lower and lower, I dare not face you, I am jealous, jealousy is like poison corroding my heart and every vein, I chose to leave you, I don't want to hurt youBecause, I know, you are simple, and behind your brutal surname is beauty and kindness. ”

Zhang Yang felt that Wang Yan's body was trembling, gently patted Wang Yan's shoulder, and sighed.

"When I was about to graduate, an occasional thing changed, I began to try to use my own changes to achieve my dreams, but, I still failed, whether it is at that level of society, it is not easy to enter the top of that society, even if it is the underworld, as a result, I was hunted down, chased and killed thousands of miles, I struggled on the line of death, I was like a fly without a head, I kept becoming stronger, but I found that my strength was like an ant in the eyes of some people, My strength is a joke in the eyes of many people, whether it is Maimaiti or a general, they can easily kill me, I don't know what the reason is, I can't die every time, until now, I don't know, there are people who don't want me to die...... "Zhang Yang's voice is a little hoarse, a little heavy, a man can't control his own life, and he needs someone else's charity, which is a kind of sadness.

"I have a certain ability, my mind began to go to the extreme, I tried to trample all the opponents I could step on under my feet, my vanity grew crazy, I met Maimaiti in the cave, our hatred is slowly dissolving, I know, this all stems from the beautiful and kind Snow Lotus, Maimaiti loves Snow Lotus very much, he knows that Snow Lotus has a good impression of me, he is willing to give me a chance for Snow Lotus, he let me go, I know, as long as I can maintain a relationship with Snow Lotus, Maimaiti will never touch me, evenand he will use his connections to pave the way for my success......"

"I began to run away, just like I ran away from you, I knew that there was a powerful family behind you, with the wealth of the country, and the same was true of Snow Lotus, I began to keep running away, I was afraid, my little bit of poor man's vanity scared me, I had thought more than once to use you and use you as my stepping stones, but I couldn't do it......"

"Don't say it, don't say it......!" Wang Yan felt like his heart was stabbed by a knife, his hands gently stroked his cheeks, this man's heart was far more complicated than his surface, he was under unimaginable pressure from ordinary people, he was jealous of others, but there was a trace of arrogance in his bones that made him disdain to do those things.

"No, I want to say, let me say it, I think, I'll never say it again!" Zhang Yang pushed Wang Yan away, and a pair of deep eyes stared at the pair of black and white pupils.

"I can't do it, I've thought a lot, a lot, if I really take advantage of you, my conscience will always be uneasy, even if I really enter the so-called high society, my waist will never be straightened, my chest, will never stand up, my only way is to escape, I hope to stay away from you, I hope I will meet you again when I soar!"

"Today, I lost my temper, I saw you and Xuelian surrounded by countless men, admiring, my heart was like being pricked by a needle, I couldn't stand it, I could run away from you, but, I couldn't escape my own thoughts, crazy revenge swallowed my mind, I was jealous of them, crazy jealous of them, I knew that they all had great wealth and far-reaching backgrounds."

"At the same time, I also look down on them, they are vulnerable in my eyes! I also know that you have a bigger background than theirs, and I magnified your deception in my heart a hundredfold, a thousandfold, in order to find a reason for myself to retaliate against Zhou Shao, I did it, but, I don't feel good, I have to say, Zhou Shao is a gentleman, but he is an idealistic, ambitious, and talented gentleman, he is not a loser, and the most important thing is that his means are all above board, and I, I am dirtier than him, darker than him, My only thought is to strike at everyone who approaches you, but to make some high-sounding excuse for myself! ”

(To be continued)