Chapter 398: I'm still here, but you're no longer there
When the letter was not read, Lin Dong was already in tears, he didn't make any sound, and the room could only hear the "pop" sound of his tears falling on his mind, which was like raindrops falling on stones, but at this moment, Lin Dong felt that these teardrops were like sharp swords, directly piercing the most secret places in his heart, and it was not until this moment that he finally knew what the unforgettable pain was like.
Once upon a time, he originally thought that he had forgotten Bai Xinlan, that period of time mixed with happiness and pain, they used to love each other, snuggled up to each other, the sorrow of life is that when you are the happiest, but suddenly the situation suddenly changed, ending in tragedy!
He has loved, hated, hesitated, since that autumn rainy night, his life trajectory has quietly changed, all along, the deepest place in his heart, will always retain that good memory, if life is only as first seen, where are you now? Where am I?
After experiencing emotional setbacks, Lin Dong feels that he is very lucky now, so many women love him, power and money, he has everything, if he wants, he will become the master, but all this is not what he wants, he just wants to live happily, he doesn't want to experience pain again, that kind of taste only people who have tried it know, desperate, helpless...... Even the whole world has lost its original color and has become boring.
Lin Dong once hated Bai Xinlan, and those who broke up will always have such and such unwillingness in their hearts, but with hate, there is also love, the most beautiful thing in life is to have a sweet first love, and the most perfect thing is to stick to the first love to the end. The hand of the son grows old with it! But the real world is always full of regrets, and this kind of beautiful thing is not something that everyone can experience.
Lin Dong felt that his world had collapsed, and he had loved and hated it. A woman who has never been forgotten in her heart can be so strong! Lin Dong felt that he was really stupid, if he could have persevered and could have turned around and held Bai Xinlan's hand, maybe she would not have silently endured loneliness and loneliness alone, and quietly left this world under the torture of illness.
There are no ifs and maybes in life. Reality is always cruel, and when you miss someone or something, you will never get back what you were back again.
Lin Dong sobbed very suppressedly. His expression was like a smile, laughing at his lack of persistence; His expression seemed to be crying, sad for Bai Xinlan's misery, and bitter tears flowed down his eyes. Slip off the cheeks. Dripped on the letterhead, the letter in his hand had long been soaked with tears, but he didn't realize that his heart was cold, his eyes had lost their lustre, and deep self-blame and despair enveloped him, impacting his heart again and again, making it difficult for him to control himself.
Li Ziqi turned out to be his biological son. This sensible and cute little boy is so likable, he is the crystallization of his love with Bai Xinlan. It was all Bai Xinlan's sustenance, but now, he was no longer there, Lin Dong's fingernails had already pierced his skin because of excessive force, and the letterhead in his hand that was wet with tears was also crumpled into a ball by him, and the blood flowing out of the skin merged with tears, making the handwriting on the letter paper blurry.
Bai Xinlan chose to break up for him and the child in her belly and then bear the pain alone, now that she is long gone, Lin Dong actually hated Bai Xinlan's ruthlessness, which made his outlook on life distorted, and gradually, Lin Dong's dull eyes became hideous, he wanted to vent, but his body was not controlled at all.
Bai Xinlan is dead, Lin Ziqi is gone, Lin Dong feels that God is too unfair to him! Why does this happen to you? Did you do something wrong? Slowly, Lin Dong's body trembled, he got up from the ground, walked to the door with heavy steps, and saw him say to the butterfly with a hideous expression: "You call Wang Ranya and ask her to arrest Zhan Tianyang and wait for my disposal!" ”
After Lin Dong said this, he turned around and went downstairs, Butterfly was stunned when she saw this, she was frightened by Lin Dong's hideous expression and cold tone, Lin Dong has always been a very kind person, but now, Butterfly knows that he has changed!
Lin Dong held the letter paper mixed with blood and tears in his hand, and after getting in the car, he directly instructed the driver: "Go back to the hospital as soon as possible." ”
The butterfly followed and got into the car, and the car was quickly speeding down the road. Lin Dong wanted to know where Bai Xinlan's grave was, he wanted to see her and atone for her, after getting into the car, Lin Dong sat motionless, his face was still very distorted, but his eyes were very empty, as if he was remembering something.
Soon, the car came to the hospital, Lin Dong walked upstairs with heavy steps, and after entering the ward, he only said one sentence: "Where is she buried?" ”
Bai Xinyu originally looked at the ceiling blankly, but when she heard this, she turned her head and said, "In Dongshan Cemetery, No. 125 South District." ”
Bai Xinyu burst into tears when she spoke, she was the one who knew everything about her sister, she wanted to tell all the past after meeting Lin Dong, but Bai Xinlan told her: "Xinyu...... If you really have a chance to meet Lin Dong, please keep it a secret for your sister...... Unless you're sure he doesn't love me anymore......"
This is Bai Xinlan's last words At that time, she had fallen into a coma, and she had no chance to speak at all, if it weren't for the final return, she wouldn't have been able to say this sentence, Bai Xinyu was very scared, she was afraid that Lin Dong would complain about herself, and even hate herself, although this was her sister's last wish, but she didn't know what Lin Dong would think, at this moment, she was unaccompanied, and she had already pinned everything on Lin Dong's body, if Lin Dong had a gap with herself, how should she face it?
She also felt sad for her sister's tragic fate in her heart, her sister is strong, it is because of her that Bai Xinyu knows what true love is, a terminally ill woman, how much courage does it take to make such a choice? She knew that the person her sister wanted to see most in the last days of her life was Lin Dong, but she chose to give up for him, even if she was surrounded by loneliness and pain, her sister would rather bear it alone, Bai Xinyu had made up her mind from that time to complete her last wish for her sister, so she chose to be silent and live alone with her sister and Lin Dong's children, she will never forget this difficult time, although the life was not good, but she also insisted, because she believed that life itself was a persistence, Those who give up can only hide in the corner and sob, and only those who persist in walking can see the dawn of victory! (To be continued......)