Every time he recalls that moment, Bai Soho seems to have experienced the despair of watching but powerless again. Even when she rushed over desperately, the bloody breath on her face seemed to linger on the tip of her nose.

Xu Jun felt that the person in his arms was trembling slightly, and his heart sank, knowing that it would not be a good result.

Sure enough, when the sudden emotional turmoil of the girl in her arms passed, she still told the scene: "You were hit by a car and died on the spot." ”

Obviously, he was still alive, but when he heard Xiaohe talking about such a bizarre dream, a strange feeling was like a dense vine, tightly entangled with Xu Jun. He patted the girl in his arms who began to tremble again, and muttered in denial: "It's just a dream, Xiaohe, it's just a dream, it's not real......"

The dream that Xiaohe said was so terrible, in that dream, did he not even be able to be with her until he died?

"Xu Jun, you were only thirty years old that year."

Bai Suho's cold voice interrupted Xu Jun's self-talk, and the fear in his heart rose up, and he couldn't help but shiver.

"Since I was a child, they all said that I was a father and a mother, but I have almost no memory of my parents in my head, and I don't feel very sad, but in that dream, they said that I killed you. Xu Jun, do you know how desperate I am, I would rather die by myself than let you be hurt in any way. I want to die myself, I think I killed you! ”

The sadness and hopelessness in the voice that vibrated on Xu Jun's chest in the dark night were so clear and intense, penetrating the flesh layer by layer and conveying to Xu Jun's heart. Let him empathize.

Once again, he had the illusion that it was not just a dream, that was really the final end of his life!

Just when Xu Jun couldn't hold back the fear in his heart and wanted to interrupt Bai Suhe, Bai Suhe's voice calmed down.

Then I woke up. When I woke up, I started to get scared. I'm afraid that's true, I'm afraid you'll still die in front of me at the age of thirty. ”

It seems to be a big dream, and after waking up, there is endless emptiness. Bai Suho hugged Xu Jun tightly. Only in this way will you not be flustered.

"So from that moment on, I decided that I must be brave, I want to be with you, and I will not let you die in front of me again! So I stayed away from Wei Yan. I insisted against the wishes of your family. I thought so. I can change everything that happens in my dreams. ”

"At the beginning, Xu Jun, I really thought I did it. We are happily together. I was admitted to the same university as you, and I thought that those dream things could be passed. You are everything in my life. ”

"However, it turns out that this is a dream, a beautiful dream that will eventually be shattered."

After a light sigh, Xu Jun's arms suddenly became empty, and the girl who was holding him softly just now had already left his arms and stood in front of him looking at him with a cold expression. Only a little residual warmth remained on his chest, reminding him that the hug he had just given had actually happened.

"I just found out that there is a problem with my amnesia, there is a problem with the fact that I sent people to eat and drink for nothing, there is a problem with the cause of death of my parents, and everything you have said to me is problematic."

The eyes that were still blank just now have become sober, hiding the deepest pain, Bai Suhe opened a miserable smile at Xu Jun: "Xu Jun, there are so many questions, do I still have to deceive myself and ignore them?" Of course, you will think that I have changed, so you doubt me, so you have to question me like this. ”

"Then I'll tell you who I am. Xu Jun, I am Bai Soho. It's just that in the past, Bai Suho didn't ask for anything but love, but now this Bai Soho wants to live clearly once. ”

Xu Jun's heart was torn apart by Bai Suhe's smile, and he was throbbing, and he hurriedly defended with a hoarse voice: "I didn't, I know you are still my little lotus......"

"If you really don't, you won't believe what Wei Yan told you, and you won't ask me who I am."

Bai Suhe turned his face, not wanting Xu Jun to see the tears that almost rushed out of her eyes, mourning was more than death, even crying, she didn't want him to see it again, just taste such sadness and irony alone.

"Let me guess what she told you, she will say that Bai Soho is possessed by a lonely ghost, she will say that you didn't see my true face, and then, you think, yes, Xiaohe refuses to listen to you now, refuses to swallow her anger, this must not be Xiaohe'......"

"Xiaohe, don't say it!" Xu Jun finally couldn't bear such words, and grabbed Bai Suhe's shoulders: "Xiaohe, it's me who is wrong, it's me who is a bastard, don't say it, I know you or you, I know it's wrong!" ”

The two of them were so close, his heavy breathing was on her face, she looked at him quietly for a moment, and shook her head: "Actually, you can't say anything wrong, Xu Jun, I'm not me anymore." ”

She had already explained to him the changes she had made in the way she could imagine, and what she would think in the future was his business.

"So, go back Xu Jun, wait for me to find out about my parents' affairs with your family, and then we will meet again."

Xu Jun shook his head desperately, and his tone was almost pleading: "No, don't do this, Xiaohe, do you really want to find out?" Is it okay if you don't check it, can I ask them to give you everything back? ”

Bai Soho fell silent.

Xu Jun, you also know it, you also know that there is really a day when the water will come out, maybe we will not see each other.

What a tragic fate this is.

Xu Jun, forgive me, I can't let my parents die blindly. Forgive me.

Bai Suhe resolutely brushed Xu Jun's hand away from his shoulder, turned around, and walked towards the hazy night.

Xu Jun looked at Bai Suho's thin but resolute back, and then looked at his empty hands, and already knew Bai Suho's decision.

Has it changed after all, and is it still necessary to abandon him like this after all? So what is his love for so many years?

When White Soho walked into the house. The light in the living room was still on, and Ge Yu was walking around the room, fidgeting, until he heard the sound of the door opening and saw Bai Suho's figure, and only then did he think that a big stone in his heart fell to the ground.

"Xiaobai, what does Xu Jun want to do?" Although Ge Yu was not worried that Bai Suho would be hurt, she was worried that Bai Suho would be sad.

Bai Suho threw himself on the sofa, buried his face in the soft pillow, and calmed down all kinds of complicated emotions in his heart. Only then did he speak sullenly: "I didn't do anything." Just a few words. ”

Ge Yu knew when she saw Bai Suhe like this that she didn't want to say it. She didn't ask again, no matter how good the relationship between good friends is, they must have their own privacy. Xiaobai doesn't know all about her. Xiaobai didn't want to say it. That's it. As long as she doesn't come back crying.

"Then let's wash and sleep early, although we still have to go to work normally these days, I think. The nerves at work must be tighter than usual, what about you, do you want to go to work tomorrow? ”

Bai Suhe changed his posture and lay on his stomach, and after thinking for a while, he shook his head: "Don't go, continue to ask for sick leave, I'm going to a place tomorrow, and I'm going to see Lin Le the day after tomorrow, during this time, let's ask for leave first." ”

"Where to go? Do you want me to accompany you? Ge Yu felt that Bai Suhe must have something big tomorrow, otherwise Bai Suho, who had always been afraid of taking leave and deducting his salary, would not go to work so easily.

"No need, I'll go by myself, Ge Yu, I'm going to go to the psychiatrist that Lin Le helped me find."

Ge Yu sat down beside Bai Suho in surprise: "Really? Hey, although it is more unexpected, but you should also go to a psychiatrist, the sooner you can get your memory back, you can make a decision sooner. ”

"Well, that's what I thought too."

Originally, she planned to take care of Lin Le's affairs wholeheartedly, but Xu Jun's actions tonight still made her want to know about the events of the year earlier.

In the past, I still subconsciously held the idea of not wanting to lose Xu Jun, so I put it off again and again. But now she finally understood that what had happened could no longer be changed, and sooner or later it would have to be faced, and it had been waiting there for her to be discovered, and it had been waiting for too long.

She's going to be a brave person, isn't she?

Early the next morning, Ge Yu went to work as usual, and after Bai Suhe took a few deep breaths in the mirror, he also went out of the house. Last night, she had already called the number Lin Le gave her, and it was a man who answered the phone and told her an address and asked her to come over today.

Along the way, Bai Soho was very calm, and there was no longer the nervousness of going to the hospital to see a brain department. All the panic and uneasiness seemed to be exhausted at that time.

She took the bus, and after changing buses a few times, she found a place according to the signs on the phone.

A small façade, and there is no eye-catching signboard, if it is not clearly stated that it is on the right side of Tianyuan Hotel, she may not be able to find it.

The roller shutter outside the door was pulled down, and at first glance it looked like it was closed, but since he was here, Bai Soho still stepped forward and knocked on the door.

In a few moments, someone pulled the roller shutter up from the inside, but only half a person high, and the man bent over and poked his head out to look at her, and asked, "Who are you looking for?" ”

"Is Dr. Yao here?"

The man came out of it and stood in front of her: "Bai Soho? ”

Bai Suho nodded repeatedly: "Well, yes, how do you know it's me?" ”

The man pushed the roller shutter up with a "swoop", turned around and walked inside: "I only have you to make an appointment today." ”

Bai Suhe also walked in, and after listening to this person's words, she couldn't help but look around. In a cramped room, there was only one computer on the desk, a bookcase full of papers, a few chairs, and a pile of papers and a few instant noodle boxes thrown on the floor.

Lin Le has been looking for this person for so long, which shows that this person must have some ability, but is it really reliable with such a narrow façade, messy furnishings, and such a simple person? Don't they all say that being a psychiatrist is a lofty profession? Shouldn't it be sitting behind a desk arrogantly and calmly examining the person who has come to ask for help?

What's the matter with this guy in front of you with unkempt hair, unshaven beard, high trouser legs, and flip-flops on his feet?

Bai Suho's suspicions were not dispelled until she sat down, and the person took out a notebook and began to question.

"Age?"

“26”

"Name?"

"White Soho."

"What's the problem?"

"Amnesia."

"How long? Long-term or intermittent? ”

"Long-term, fourteen years."

Only then did the man put down the pen in his hand that kept writing and drawing, and looked at Bai Suho's gaze becoming weird: "So you lost your memory when you were eight years old?" ”

Bai Suhe nodded, suddenly remembered an important question, and stood up suddenly: "By the way, how is the fee calculated on your side, is it charged by the hour?" What is the price, and can it be discounted? ”

The man saw through Bai Soho's mind at a glance, and the girl almost had the words "I have no money" written on her face!

"Don't worry about this, Lin Le said it, the cost is more or less his."

"However, Lin Le has been lately, it may not be convenient for him to give you this fee, so I'll do it myself."

That person had a little change in his opinion of Bai Suho at this time, it seemed that she was not too picky, but thinking about Lin Le's explanation, he still refused to talk about this topic again: "Okay, you don't have to worry about it, as long as Lin Le is still panting, I will ask him for it." Let's move on, how did you get amnesia? ”

"It was said that I fell and hit my head, but I went to the hospital for a check-up, and the doctor said that my head was fine."

The pen in the hand of the person behind the computer desk clicked on the paper: "This shows that your amnesia is likely to be a psychological problem." ”

"That's why I'm coming to you." Bai Suho replied.

"Doctor Yao, you still give me a price, even if Lin Le pays me, I have to have a number in my heart......" Seeing that the man didn't speak, the messy thoughts in Bai Suhe's mind began to stir again, Lin Le went in this time, although she entrusted her with all her property, but how much she owed Lin Le, she still had to remember, the previous more than 1,000 yuan had not been repaid.

"Shut up!" Dr. Yao, who has always had a gentle attitude, interrupted Bai Soho's rambling in a cold voice, how could Lin Le be such a bold person, how could he know such a stingy woman? What kind of vision is this?

"Did you get any stimuli before you were eight years old?"

"If I had known, I wouldn't have come to you." Although Bai Suhe closed his mouth, he was still a little indignant in his heart, this person is really, he can't ask for a price!

"And no one else told you about you before you were eight years old?"

Bai Soho blinked his eyes and thought for a while: "They said that my parents died in a car accident, and they adopted me, that's all." ”

Dr. Yao was so angry that he slapped the computer: "Can you be a little more stupid as a woman, why don't you say such an important thing?" (To be continued.) )