6. Impulsive epiphany
【Knock】
There was a sound in my chest that made me feel extremely irritable, and I knew that the hour, the time when Yun Qing Yangshou was exhausted had arrived. In her own room, she was alone, without any relatives and companions to send her the last leg of the journey.
This kind of death should be the last thing people want to see, loneliness mixed with the fear of death, which will make a complete person collapse and fall apart in a moment. I can give her a little time to see her loved ones again, but why...... But I can't say anything.
Have I been expecting that Yunqing's last moment will be enough to have me by her side? Obviously I am nothing, and I don't even retain the identity of an "ordinary person" in the end. I'm here to bring her away, and I'm not even a friend who has accompanied her on her last journey.
The alarm bell in my heart kept urging me, and I finally understood something, after all, no matter how much delay is now, it will not help, it will only add endless pain to Yunqing.
"Yunqing, at the moment, you will die of poison."
The pen in my hand slowly grew larger, and at this moment I didn't even dare to look directly into Yunqing's eyes. I knew it must be hateful and angry eyes, even if it was just self-deception, I didn't want to see that kind of cloud.
"Ruyang is at the end of his life, put aside his troubles and leave with me."
“…… Well. ”
"You!?"
Why? Why is it different from what I thought?
Overwhelmed, I inevitably met Yunqing's eyes, and although there was inevitably a fear of death, there was not the slightest anger about me.
Why, when everyone knows that they are going to die, they have to resent me to a greater or lesser extent, why don't you? Did you hide it, or did you just ......
"What's wrong, splash ink?"
This moment was supposed to be the time when Yun Qing died, so all the feelings in her body should have been detached. However, I was afraid of her as usual, because I didn't know how to face her.
"Thou ...... Why not, get angry? ”
"Why are you angry, although I am a little scared, but this kind of thing is definitely not the reason for splashing ink." Yun Qing looked at the scroll in her hand blankly, and it was the cause of her death written on it, "And it's better to say that it's because of the splash of ink that I'm not so scared." ”
"Huh?"
"Now, there should be that kind of unconscious way to die for a moment." Yun Qing pressed my head, as if this was the thought she had been holding on since she saw me.
Now she's got her wish, but it's the first time, and I'm afraid it's the last. I like it, but unfortunately I can't experience it again.
"Even I'm afraid of pain."
"It won't hurt, not at all! Only this is the only one I can swear to you! ”
I held up my pen, yes, I know countless ways to die without pain, and here it is enough to make a slight stroke, and everything can be over. Whether it is the existence of Yunqing, or my nostalgia as an "ordinary person", or this incomparably long embarrassment.
Come on! Hurry up and do it...... As long as you are ruthless here, you will never have any worries in the future. Didn't Lord Hades say that too? Yunqing After she is reincarnated, she will have a better life than now, although it is inevitable to forget everything she remembers in this life, but those things, those relatives, and ...... What am I?
"I'm sorry!"
I waved my pen, but it didn't fall on Yunqing's body. I seem to have forgotten something, but I seem to understand something. But suddenly one thing became clear to me......
"Thou shalt not die ......"
I snatched the scroll from Yun Qing's hand and tore it to shreds with ease. The countless possibilities in my mind to help Yunqing survive all came up in an instant, and it was only at this time that I realized that I didn't seem to be as dull as I imagined, maybe it was just because the monotony of the work I had been engaged in all the years made me feel hopelessly stupid.
Calculating, hiding, acting, and ...... Strength, in fact, I can do all of this. Therefore, Yunqing cannot die and will not die. It's not yet to the point where I'm going to kill her, she's not the one who should give me her life right now.
"No...... Can you die? ”
“…… Wait a minute, and soon you will be clear. ”
I put down my pen and waited quietly for that moment to come. I know her character and I know what to do.
The time that should have been urging has long passed, and although there are usually some deviations within the range, this time it is obviously much longer. As for Lord Hades, it is obvious that she has to deal with work every day, and she will not even come to me personally if she is planning to go out to play recently.
Therefore, if it is really strange that I have not been back for a long time, then it should be Hades' side who came to check on the situation......
"Splash ink? How did it take so long? ”
The folding pen suddenly appeared beside me, and I looked at Yunqing with a blank face in a little surprise. I'm afraid she's surprised at why I'm so late in the face of an ordinary person who has no power to fight back.
"It's been a long time, have you forgotten?"
"Woo, I'm sorry for the folding pen, I lost my watch when I came, so ......" I shook my head, my palms were already oozing fine sweat, and my body was trembling unconsciously because of nervousness and excitement. But on the other hand, every decision I made in my mind about the next move was very clear, as if I had already implemented it myself.
There is no reason to fail, for the sake of Yunqing, it is also a bet on my name to splash ink.
"Sister Folding Pen, please stand back, I'll start now."
I re-met Yunqing's eyes, maybe I was scared and uneasy because of this, but now I think I can face Yunqing's eyes that are not angry at me.
Not just as an "ordinary person", but also as a machine spirit. It was enough for her to accept me as an "ordinary person" and tolerate my deception as a machine spirit. Everyone has a selfish side, and even I don't think I'm an exception now.
My selfishness, my previous hesitation, is now clear. I don't want Yunqing to die, and I don't want her to forget my existence after reincarnation so easily, even if time can't become forever, I want her to always remember me.
Splashing ink, and everything she did for Yunqing, as for the consequences, I am willing to bear it all.
"Yunqing, please believe me!"
I fixed my mind, and at the same time I saw the confusion in Yunqing's eyes, and the folding pen behind me hurriedly wanted to hold me as if he realized something, but this temporary thought was not at all comparable to the response I made after calculating the time.
I'm sorry Sister Folding Pen, forgive you for being a wayward sister!
"Demon Rope!"