"Xingqing!"

Song's mother threw herself into Song Xingqing's arms, crying bitterly.

"Xingqing, how did your father get this disease, how did you ask your mother to accept it! Is it okay to have a cut on the head? Mom was really scared in her heart......"

Why wasn't Song Xingqing scared in her heart? But she has no way back now, so she can only rush forward.

"Mom, don't be afraid, the doctor said that if the tumor is benign, Dad will get better as long as he has surgery to remove it."

Mother Song raised her head and asked with tears in her eyes, "Benign?" Is that still malignant? ”

Song Xingqing's lips trembled but she couldn't say a word, her mother's words were like a sharp knife directly piercing her heart, she didn't dare to imagine what would happen if the tumor was malignant, Song Xingqing could only pray silently to heaven in her heart.

"Mom, no, Dad is a good man, God will bless him to get better soon!"

Song Xingqing's words were for her mother, and for herself.

At the insistence of Song's mother, Song Xingqing accompanied her into the doctor's office and asked Song's father's attending doctor about the situation.

"Doctor, my mom and I panicked when we heard that we were going to have an operation on my dad's head, we had never encountered this kind of thing, so there are many situations I want to know from you, will surgery like my dad be dangerous? Is it risky? ”

"Like you, people must be a little unacceptable when they hear about craniotomy, I can understand the feelings of your family as a doctor, but this craniotomy is the only treatment plan, and only by opening the surgery to remove the tumor can your father be cured."

"Possibly?"

Mother Song was frightened by the doctor's three words and jumped up from the chair.

"What do you mean, doctor? Is it all a craniotomy or is it just a chance to be cured? ”

Song Xingqing patted Song's mother on the shoulder and motioned for her to sit down calmly first and listen to the doctor's next words.

"Because we are not yet sure whether the tumor in the patient's brain is benign or malignant, this needs to be cut out after the operation and sent for examination to reach a conclusion, if it is benign, it can be cured after surgery, but if it is found to be malignant, it will be very troublesome, and it is likely to recur in the future."

The doctor's words made Song's mother hide her face and cry, and Song Xingqing had no choice but to comfort her and say: "Don't cry Mom, now even the doctor doesn't know whether the tumor is benign or malignant." Why are you in a hurry to cry? I'm sure Dad will be fine! ”

Song Xingqing comforted Song's mother while continuing to ask: "Doctor, when can my father arrange surgery?" ”

"Before the operation, I will arrange for the patient to have an examination, and when the examination is completed, we will arrange the operation as soon as possible. Don't bring too much negative emotions to the patient, and don't let him have too much psychological burden, in fact, the patient's condition is related to certain changes in the internal environment and genetic mutations, but it is by no means caused by a single factor. For example, the patient's daily habits and way of thinking will also have a certain impact on him. ”

"Mindset? Doctor, what does this mean? ”

Song Xingqing frowned, incomprehensible.

"That is to say, if the patient lives in a state of mental pressure, burden, irritability and confusion for a long time, or always thinks about too many unhappy or sad things on weekdays, and the mood is always tense and depressed, it may also cause this kind of lesion."

The doctor's words hit Song Xingqing's head violently like a mallet.

Hearing the doctor's words, Mother Song was stunned for a moment, then turned her head to look at Song Xingqing with wide eyes.

"Xingqing, do you know that your father has been unable to sleep every night for you and Gu Chongyi's affairs recently! All day long, there is a frowning and sighing look on his face! Now think about what the doctor said, maybe your dad is worried about you being angry with you! ”

In the face of Song's mother's verbal accusations, Song Xingqing didn't want to defend herself, or she began to think in her own heart that maybe Song's father's illness was really caused by herself, even if it was not caused by herself. His own affairs must have also made Song's father worry a lot, thus aggravating his condition! Such a realization made Song Xingqing feel painful! She bit her lip tightly until the corners of her mouth were bitten by her teeth and blood flowed down, and Song Xingqing didn't feel any pain.

Compared with Song Xingqing's silence, the doctor's words calmed Song's mother's excitement.

"Family, don't be too excited, in fact, this disease is not said to be obtained overnight, what you should do now is to cooperate with our doctors to help the patient actively treat, and anything else can be put aside first."

The doctor's words calmed Song's mother a little, but she was still angry with Song Xingqing.

"Xingqing, do you think you are worthy of your father! You tell me to let Gu Chongyi go! I don't want to see him again! ”

After Song Ma finished speaking, she left the doctor's office angrily. Song Xingqing hurriedly chased after her and stopped Song's mother in the corridor.

"Mom, it's none of Chongyi's business, if you want to blame me, blame me......"

Song Xingqing choked up.

"Of course I'll blame you! I'll give you two choices now: one is that he leaves and you stay. From now on, you will be cut off with him, and the second is that you will go with him and we will be cut off from now on! Take your pick! ”

In the face of Song's mother's resolute and indignant attitude, Song Xingqing couldn't say anything except tears, Song's mother's words were undoubtedly digging her heart and digging out her flesh, because no matter which choice it was, it would bring Song Xingqing unbearable pain.

"Mom, don't force me like this, okay? I'm really sad in my heart......"

Facing Song Xingqing, who was in pain and sobbing. Song's mother did not relent, she insisted on her daughter to make a choice with a sad face and indignant tone.

"If I don't force you, the result is that your father is forced into the hospital, and he is about to be forced to the operating table! How can you, as a daughter, be so selfish and only think about yourself? Have you ever thought about your dad and your mom? We raised you so big, we didn't expect anything in return, but how can you harm your parents like this? Have you ever had a conscience? ”

Song Ma's accusations pierced Song Xingqing's heart like needles, making her heart ache and almost suffocate.

Song's mother's loud accusation immediately attracted the attention of people inside and outside the ward, and everyone looked over one after another.

Song Xingqing didn't respond, just kept crying. Gu Chong, who was in the ward, also walked out when he heard the sound, and hurriedly ran over when he saw Song Xingqing's body trembling and crying.

"Xingqing, what's wrong with you?"

Song Xingqing didn't look up at Gu Chongyi, just shook her head and continued to cry.

Seeing Gu Chongyi's appearance again at this moment, the resentment in Song's mother became even stronger, and she couldn't help but scold.

"Get out of here! I never want to see you again! ”

Faced with Mother Song's sudden anger towards him, Gu Chong was stunned for a moment, and then said to Mother Song: "Auntie, calm down first, don't be angry." Is there anything we can say? ”

Mother Song's anger did not decrease but rose, she pointed at Gu Chongyi's nose and shouted: "If it weren't for you, my family wouldn't be what it is now!" If it weren't for you Xingqing, he wouldn't have left me and his dad, and his dad might not be lying in the hospital today! What face do you have to stay here, you culprit! Let me go! ”

Gu Chongyi obviously didn't understand what Song Ma meant by what she said, he didn't understand why Song Ma thought that she was the culprit of all this.

"Auntie, is there any misunderstanding between us?"

"There is no misunderstanding! Now everything is clear! You hurt our family like this, do you think I will still let Xingqing be with you? ”

"Mom! Please, don't say any more! ”

Song Xingqing finally spoke. She crouched on the ground crying out.

"Xingqing, what the hell is going on?"

Gu Chongyi felt very confused and aggrieved in his heart.

"Chongyi, you go back first......"

Song Xingqing choked up and spit out such a sentence for a long time.

"Xingqing?"

Gu Chongyi couldn't believe that Song Xingqing would tell him to leave.

"Why?"

Gu Chongyi wanted to ask clearly.

Song Xingqing didn't get up, she only felt weak and dizzy, she squatted on the ground and held her head with her hands.

"Please, Chongyi, don't ask, okay? You go first......"

Song Xingqing didn't want to mention the reason to Gu Chongyi again now, as long as he thought of this, Song Xingqing would be in pain. She couldn't accept the possibility that her father's illness was related to her.

Gu Chongyi lowered his head and clenched his hands.

"Xingqing, I'll wait for you to come to me and give me an answer."

After Gu Chongyi finished speaking, he went downstairs with a reluctant expression, and the crowd of onlookers gradually dispersed. Mother Song wiped her tears and ignored Song Xingqing, who was squatting on the ground, but walked straight past her and walked towards the ward where Song's father was.

Song Xingqing was immersed in self-blame and guilt alone, everything that happened now was beyond the limit of Song Xingqing's heart, her heart was tormented, and she was about to collapse.

At this moment, Song's mother reappeared in front of Song Xingqing with a towel from the ward.

Mother Song didn't speak. just squatted down and wiped away Song Xingqing's tears with a towel in his hand.

Song Xingqing only noticed the white hair on Song's mother's temples at this time, seeing the white hair that kept growing out, Song Xingqing's heart was sour, she couldn't remember how long she hadn't looked at her mother so carefully, it turned out that unconsciously, in the countless days and nights she grew up, her mother was no longer old, and her temples were white.

At this moment, a voice sounded deep in his heart: Song Xingqing, you can't just fall like this! Your dad is still lying in a hospital bed waiting to be treated. Your mom has been through so much pain and stress! What you have to do now is to stand up and share the burden with them, instead of hiding in the corner like a coward!

Thinking of this, Song Xingqing held Song's mother's hand and stood up again.

"Mom, I'm sorry......"

Song Xingqing hugged her mother tightly, and she told herself in her heart. If you can't fall down like this, you must be strong, if you are not strong, who will you show for cowardice?

In the ward at night, Song Xingqing accompanied Song Dad, looking at Song Dad's still tightly locked brows in his sleep, Song Xingqing felt pain in his heart. It was only then that she began to think about how much pressure and pain she had forced her parents to endure. keeps telling others not to be so selfish, but the person who is selfish is none other than himself.

Song Xingqing recalled that when she was a child, her father would ride a motorcycle to pick her up and go to school every day, and in the windy and rainy weather, her father was always used to take off his coat and wear it on Song Xingqing to protect her from the wind and rain. In Song Xingqing's impression, his father has always loved him, even if he did something wrong, his father always patiently taught himself and gave himself the opportunity to correct his mistakes.

Thinking of this, Song Xingqing's eyes were wet again, and she desperately covered her mouth to prevent herself from crying, afraid that she would wake up her father because of this.

Now seeing his father lying on the hospital bed with a pale face and a weak body, the pain in Song Xingqing's heart is self-evident. She regretted it, regretting that she had brought so much mental pressure to her father because of her dedication to love. What made Song Xingqing feel most guilty was that even though his father was reluctant, he finally chose to support him. Regardless of whether her father's result today is caused by her own reasons, Song Xingqing, as a daughter, can no longer forgive herself, even if her father's illness today is not caused by the relationship between herself and Gu Chongyi, but as the only daughter of her parents, she not only did not think that she would stay with her parents after graduation to take care of her companionship but decided to follow her lover away from home, Song Xingqing only remembered that she loved Gu Chongyi, but she didn't remember that her parents also loved her deeply. This made Song Xingqing feel deep self-blame and guilt in her heart, and she felt ashamed of the love her parents gave her.

Song Xingqing thought about it so much, and she finally made up her mind.

Song Xingqing took out her mobile phone and edited a text message for Gu Chongyi: Chongyi, the doctor said that my dad can't be stimulated anymore, and he can't take care of him without me, so I'm sorry, I can't leave here and there is no way to accompany you all the way, you go back, leave the city, if you can, forget about me......

Song Xingqing's hands kept trembling, and she finally closed her eyes and sent the message with her hands shaking, but after a long time, Song Xingqing did not receive any reply from Gu Chongyi.

Song Xingqing was very lonely in her heart, she originally thought that Gu Chongyi would say something to herself, but there was nothing. Later, Song Xingqing thought about it again, even if Gu Chongyi said something to himself, what was the use? It doesn't do anything but add to the distress and suffering, does it? (To be continued.) )