The people outside the door saw the two people in pain in the house, clenched their fists, and wanted to enter, but after all, they were still afraid of alarming the people in the house, and left the door quietly.

Seeing Xue Ru crying for a while, Xie Fanyan quickly sorted out her mood, although the scar was picked open, Xie Fanyan didn't want to alarm more people, especially inadvertently said something to Xue Ru that shouldn't be said, fortunately, this girl didn't think deeply, otherwise she really didn't know how to explain.

Seeing Xueru crying so miserably, I hope she really understands.

"Okay, don't cry, I'm just letting you understand how ridiculous what you're doing, I won't really kick you out, even if you leave the palace, it will definitely arrange for you, not because of you, it's for Ah Yu." Xie Fanyan said.

"The maid understands, the young lady, the young lady is still caring about the third grandmother as before, but the maid is not sensible."

"Do you really understand?" Xie Fanyan was a little unconvinced, she was afraid that Xue Ru would have a grudge in her heart.

"The young lady's eyes are so painful and sad, if the maid still doesn't understand, the maid has served the third grandmother for so many years in vain, and the maid really didn't know about the young lady's murder before." As she spoke, Xue Ru raised her head and looked at Xie Fanyan, "Who wants to harm the young lady?" ”

The expression was serious and firm, and it could be seen that it was not just a random question, Xie Fanyan almost wondered if he said anyone's name now, Xue Ru would go to him desperately.

"You don't need to know, come, come here." Xie Fanyan stretched out his hand to Xueru.

Xue Ru hesitated slightly, a little ashamed, a little ashamed. But he still got up and grabbed Xie Fanyan's hand.

Xie Fanyan brought her to his side and sat down, "You are a loyal servant, I can see it." But for Ah Yu's matter, we all have to let go, because she has a spirit in heaven, and she must also hope that she cares about us, and we live our own lives, rather than hoping to see us suffer for life because of her. ”

Xue Ru shook her head. muttered: "The maid has served the third grandmother for so many years, how can she let go, how can she let go......"

"If you can't put it down, you have to put it down! I can't let go of it for a year or two. Can't you let go of it for three years, four years, five years, six years, or even a lifetime! I'm a sister with her, but no matter how close Ren is, I don't believe that I will suffer for the rest of my life for this matter! ”

"Do you know why? Because she doesn't want to! She didn't want to see me suffer for her whole life. So we have to pretend that we don't suffer. If you pretend to forget, maybe it won't be painful, maybe you really forget. ”

forgot that he was actually Xie Fanyu.

Forget that this body belongs to my sister Xie Fanyan.

Forget all the pain and weirdness.

Forget everything about the Liang State Mansion.

Then with the remnant soul in the body, with the consciousness that is not under his control, the sisters become one, and they exist in this world at the same time as their sisters.

No one has ever left anyone.

Xue Ru just cried, but she didn't say anything to refute Xie Fanyan.

Xie Fanyan gently stroked Xueru's shoulder. Wen Sheng comforted for a while, facing this maid who was sad because of herself. But I just can't tell the truth.

First, because the situation was originally walking on thin ice at this time, she told her that she would fake her death and get out after she "gave birth" to the child, if she couldn't tell Xue Ru in time at that time, would Xue Ru have to accept the fact that she left again painfully?

The second is such a thing, the strange force is confused, and considering Xueru's small heart, it can't be accepted.

Thinking of the old beggar I met at the door last time, I pierced my identity and abnormality at a glance, but unfortunately this most secret secret is destined not to be shared with the closest people in this life.

When Xue Ru slowly stopped her tears, she asked her to go back to rest first, "In the future, get along well with people in Ji Di Yuan, don't be embarrassed, look at how many accusations they have endured these days to protect you, Xue Ru, since you understand my heart, I really hope that you can let go of those painful pasts, I know it's difficult, but I still need to work hard, not for myself, for Ah Yu, for her peace of mind, let her rest assured." ”

"Young lady, Xueru knows what she should do." Xue Ru nodded, and walked out of the house backwards, in a trance, all the paranoia and pain after hearing the news of the third grandmother's suicide were converted into resentment and blame for the young lady, but it turned out that his resentment and hatred were found by the wrong person.

So, where is the meaning of my existence now, to serve the young lady well, and let the third grandmother go with peace of mind?

This may be the most spacious and bright road, but can you really do it?

The other maids in the garden saw Xue Ru coming out of it with red and swollen eyes, and went to their own room in a trance, thinking that Xue Ru was heavily responsible by the young lady, so their hearts were balanced a lot, and the few little maids who had been paying attention to the news also dispersed and went to work separately.

Chen Jinyu only went back in the evening, and Xie Fanyan came to Kwai Shui in the afternoon, just to avoid the more intimate awkwardness of the two people, Xie Fanyan secretly hid the changed cloth in a black cloth bag, and called Lirong Liyu to instruct them to deal with it secretly every day.

So when Chen Jinyu came back, she looked at Xie Fanyan's face carefully, seeing that her face was a little pale, and her heart was tight, sitting in front of Xie Fanyan and chatting with each other.

Xie Fanyan came to Kwai Shui, regarded it as a talisman, did not have so much restraint towards Chen Jinyu, and also talked to him, but Chen Jinyu suddenly sat down next to Xie Fanyan, hugged Xie Fanyan hard, and muttered in Xie Fanyan's ear: "Ayu, will you blame me?" ”

"Blame you, blame you for what?" Xie Fanyan asked a little strangely, if he really has no grudge against him, it is naturally false, but because there are too many places worth blaming and complaining, he feels strange because of the suddenness of this sentence.

"At the beginning, I first concealed the news of Xueru's arrival, and then prevented you from going to the Liangguo Mansion, and your sister committed suicide, I didn't expect it. But it's really not my intention, I just don't want you to look at others more than me, plus your sister is originally stubborn. I really thought it would be good to let her be punished and have a long memory waiting for you to go again, but I really didn't expect her to ...... I'm sorry. Chen Jinyu hugged Xie Fanyan, her tone was a little cautious, like a child who was afraid of being blamed, with a little nervousness.

That's what it is.

Xie Fanyan's expression stiffened for a moment.

"Oh. I see, it's okay. Xie Fanyan tried to speak in a flat tone, "The past is over. No more needless remarks, I forgive you. ”

"Ayu, I really ......" Chen Jinyu was a little anxious to explain something.

"That's it! I said, the past is over! I don't want to mention it again. Xie Fanyan interrupted impatiently. She didn't want to talk about it again. The section with Xueru had already consumed a lot of Xie Fanyan's effort, and he felt tired when he thought about it. The near-death feeling, the pain, the hopeless darkness, she didn't want to think about it at all.

She doesn't blame anyone, she is to blame.

Chen Jinyu saw that Xie Fanyan was emotional, and hurriedly stopped what she was about to say, just hugged Xie Fanyan and gently comforted her.

I don't know when. Xie Fanyan became more and more greedy for such a warm feeling, and he didn't want to break free more and more.

It's like a gentle net. I know that the shackles are getting deeper and deeper, but I don't want to break free against my heart.

"The servant just wants to leave the palace, the servant just wants to leave the palace by doing these things, young lady, can you let the maid leave? You can not save the third grandmother when she sees death, and you can also ignore the life and death of the servant. Xueru begged Xie Fanyan again.

"You said that you hurt Fat Rong and deceived Fat Rong because you wanted to leave the palace?" Xie Fanyan sneered, feeling extremely cold: "Do you think I will kick you out?" ”

Xue Ru stopped talking, just shook her head and nodded again, unable to see what she meant.

"Don't save when you die, haha, don't save when you die! We grew up together, what do I look like to Ah Yu, shouldn't you look at it, if I can, if I have even the slightest chance to save her, do you think I won't go? Looking at Xueru's appearance, Xie Fanyan cried out for his sister from the bottom of his heart.

"I didn't know that she would commit suicide in the Liang Guo Mansion, because I was already too busy to take care of myself at that time, I was killed, I was killed and drank poisoned wine, don't you know?"

There was some movement in the doorway, and then it fell silent again, but neither of the agitated people in the room noticed.

"I thought that anyone could misunderstand me, but you wouldn't, you who accompanied me in the garden, but I didn't expect you to be so indistinguishable from wrong! Leaving the palace, where do you want to go, I want to settle you well, but you are making a gun behind your back, making a bad idea, Xueru, can you take a closer look? In your eyes, am I really the one who can't save my sister when she dies? ”

"I dig my heart and lungs into my sister, and everything is planned for her, but I don't want to be misunderstood by you who is closest to her in the end! I know that you are faithful to her, and it is also for your loyalty, I remember your goodness, but you can't wronged me! My life and death are uncertain, she committed suicide in the Liang Guogong Mansion, how can I save her? I fell out of favor with the son, lost power to the old lady, and deliberately was concealed from the news, and at the same time had to deal with the poisoning of the bad guys, how can I save her? ”

"You only know your third grandmother, don't you have me in your eyes? Do you know that your eldest lady is dead, and if she dies, she will be wronged by you like this, even if she is underground! I'm alive, and I can't get back the dead person if I live, only I'm sorry for my sister who is my sister, and I'm sorry for my sister if I don't have a sister! Xueru, how much have you seen clearly? ”

"The younger sister will only rob her sister's things, the younger sister will only create a bunch of trouble for her sister, and the younger sister will only willfully make this request and that request, Xueru has been so many years, haven't you seen your sister's concern for your sister? What exactly blinds you? When did you see that the younger sister took the initiative to care about the sister, and when did you see the younger sister once asked the older sister, how are you? Even if it's just once! ”

The master and servant, who have been separated by too many things, have been hidden at the same time, and they have fallen into excitement at the same time.

The people standing at the door tugged at their hearts, this was the first time she mentioned her after the death of that sister, it turned out that no matter how deep it was buried, some things happened, and they couldn't forget it.

Although Xie Fanyan's expression was a little strange, Xue Ru didn't think about it seriously, at this time, the past in her mind came out in an instant, and it was the eldest lady's endless care and love for the second miss.

The eldest lady really cares for the second lady's younger sister.

Eldest lady, young lady, is her life and death uncertain? Killed and drank poisoned wine?

How did you not know? only knew that as soon as he came in, he was arranged by Chen Jinyu to the back kitchen, forbidding him to pass on the news to anyone, and the people in the back kitchen ignored him.

I stayed in the palace for a long and short time, and when I woke up, everything changed.

Although he also knew that the young lady Xie Fanyan seemed to have a serious illness, and the doctor Yu who came and went to the garden decocted medicine every day to diagnose the pulse, but he didn't think about it.

Did you really misunderstand the young lady?

No! No!

So what is the point of her persevering with all kinds of accusations with a clear conscience for a while?

"Second Miss just doesn't say it, everyone knows that she is most dependent on the young lady, she is so dependent on the young lady, how can you say this, how can you not save her, how can you not shed a single tear after the death of the second lady, how can you continue to live so calmly and continue to be happy?" Xue Ru was desperately trying to convince herself that she had not misunderstood Xie Fanyan.

"She's just too dependent on me! That's why when I heard the news that I drank poisoned wine, I would kill myself if I had no business! She's just too dependent on me, that's why she's so unscrupulous and willful! She just relies on me too much to make her life a mess! She just relies on me too much, so she doesn't know how to live without me, and she doesn't know how to take revenge! You can only live by stealing life day by day, and you can only waste your life day by day, you know, Xueru! The one who lives may be the most painful, but the pain cannot be expressed, but the pain that can be expressed by tears and vented by the voice is not real pain! Xueru, don't you understand? The pain of losing a loved one can only be buried deep in the heart, but it cannot be revealed, because once you think about it, once you mention it, you will lose the courage to continue living, you know? ”

Stealing a living? Wasted life? No, don't say that about the third grandmother.

Although the third grandmother's life at that time only revolved around the third young master Fu Qingtong alone, her life was not meaningless.

I wanted to accuse and refute, but when I saw Xie Fanyan's uncontrollable and excited face, and saw her eyes red from anger and pain, I swallowed everything I wanted to say.

How can you say it?

It turns out that each other is so painful!

It turns out that no one has turned his back on whom, and no one has forgotten whom. (To be continued......)

PS: My eyes hurt so much that I kept crying. I can't write anymore, I must change it by tomorrow morning, and now I want to sleep, I'm really tired to say.