Xie Fanyan's question was not answered, and the figure of the old beggar became farther and farther away, just like seeing his sister's shadowy figure in that strange space that day, it seemed that he would never be able to catch up, and when he woke up, he became a sister.

"You stop, you stop!" Xie Fanyan shouted unwillingly.

The ear was just Chen Jinyu over and over again, "Ayu, Ayu, wake up, wake up." ”

Ayu, Ayu.

Xie Fanyan's eyes suddenly turned black, and he fainted softly in Chen Jinyu's arms.

Seeing Xie Fanyan fainting, Chen Jinyu was anxious, so he held the person in his arms and wanted to enter the mansion and return to the garden, but before leaving, he didn't forget to tell the guards: "Don't leak a word about today's affairs, otherwise you all know the rules of the palace." ”

The guards hurriedly replied, "Yes." ”

Fortunately, the palace occupies an independent street, the street is deserted on weekdays, and there are no idlers lingering in front of the door.

Only then did he order to go down and ask the doctor to come to Xie Fanyan for diagnosis and treatment, and Xie Fanyan woke up slowly.

As soon as he woke up, Xie Fanyan saw the familiar and unfamiliar environment of the garden, the bed in the open hall of Luodian, the fans on both sides were the flowers and plants made by Luodian, hanging with purple gauze curtains, and brocade with silver hooks.

It seems that he has been sleeping peacefully in such a bed all along, and then the words heard by the people he met before were nothing more than a dream.

However, everything that happens cannot be dismissed as a dream. Xie Fanyan propped himself up and sat up, looked at Chen Jinyu, who was full of concern, and asked, "What about that beggar from Fangcai?" ”

"He's gone. Don't you want to leave after talking nonsense, only Madame will believe those nonsense. Chen Jinyu's voice was soothed, and her voice was full of demagogic calm.

"I want to see him. Can you help me? I want to see him. Xie Fanyan begged Chen Jinyu, although he didn't know why he wanted to see the beggar, and he didn't know what kind of answer he was longing for, but he really wanted to see him, and the master in his mouth.

Maybe that master is really a stranger in the world, and he can see his own strangeness at a glance, maybe he will be the only person in this world who can see himself clearly. Whether it's a spirit or a ghost, whether it's a soul or a human, I can't even tell myself.

She needs someone to see through her. Mentor her.

Xie Fanyan's heart suddenly swelled up with this stubbornness similar to madness and despair.

"Why do you want to see him?" Chen Jinyu was silent, and then let the worried Liby Yu go down first, sat down in front of Xie Fanyan, and asked seriously.

"Tell me. Why are you so out of control today? It's not like you. Chen Jinyu pondered the words, "We are husband and wife, you can tell me anything." ”

Can you tell you anything?

"Have you ever said anything like that to me before?" Xie Fanyan suddenly asked.

"Before?" Chen Jinyu was a little surprised by Xie Fanyan's question, but still thought about it seriously, "I always thought that your heart was not here with me, so I didn't dare to ask, I was afraid that if I asked, you would tell me the truth I didn't want to hear." Then the relationship between our husband and wife will be over. After speaking, Chen Jinyu held Xie Fanyan's hand guiltily, "I really don't know that you have something unspeakable." Ayu, tell me everything, who did you offend, and who tortured you like this? You say you didn't drink poisoned wine that day, so who is going to harm you? Tell me all, okay? ”

Xie Fanyan smiled, "Since you haven't said such things before, what's the point of saying it now?" I'm not the same person I used to be. As he spoke, he stared at Chen Jinyu again, "Do you love your wife or not?" ”

Love or not love your wife? Why don't you just say that you love her or not?

This question was a little strange, but Chen Jinyu still replied quickly: "I love you naturally, you are my wife, and you are the one who wants to be together for the rest of your life." After speaking, his tone was much softer, and he said: "You know, I used to always think that the woman I married as a wife, no matter who it is, I will use all my patience and pampering to her, to be a couple who really love and harmonize, I have vowed countless times to be good to my wife, and in the end I didn't do it, I retreated, I thought you had someone in your heart, so I was very angry and sad, thinking that I could only be a superficial husband and wife with you in this life, so I moved out and gave you purity and freedom, I was afraid of disturbing you, You asked me to leave again, and I never thought of letting you leave me, Ayu. ”

With such an affectionate confession, Xie Fanyan's eyes were much more sad, and he said astringently: "It turns out, it turns out that you love me because I am your wife, not love me, yes, maybe for so many years, you have never understood me, let alone found that I am worthy of love, you love me like a wife, just because I am your wife." Xie Fanyan didn't think about saying these words, at this moment she didn't have the slightest figure of Fu Qingtong in her mind, but was full of bitterness and sadness, the words in her heart were vented, and the emotions were born from the same origin as the remnant soul of this body, just like that.

"So, if this position is not me, it is anyone, the soul in this body is not me, it is anyone, you will love it. Whoever it is, as long as she is your wife. As he spoke, the bitterness of his heart was vented through tears.

Chen Jinyu saw that Xie Fanyan was emotional, and couldn't bear to interrupt, but slowly patted Xie Fanyan on the shoulder, gently comforting, but her heart was a little inexplicable.

She is her own wife, and of course she will love her.

What kind of tears did she shed?

"Chen Jinyu, you don't love me, you're not love, love is not love for love, love is just love." In the end, Xie Fanyan said this sentence slowly.

When I said this, I felt a heartache in my heart.

This kind of pain made Xie Fanyan suddenly realize, what was he doing, why did he invest so much emotion in this person who was not very relevant, and why did he cause his emotions to be excited? Thinking about it, Xie Fanyan closed his mouth and slowly calmed down the excitement in his heart. But his heart became even more uneasy.

"Fool." Seeing Xie Fanyan quiet down, Chen Jinyu said, "Why are you so excited?" Isn't it in vain that I am embarrassed for my body, it doesn't matter what I love you for, the important thing is that I love you. ”

All that matters is that I love you.

You love me. Is it?

Xie Fanyan shook his head, closed his eyes a little tiredly, and slowly lay down again, "You love this identity, you don't even know if I'm your former wife." Chen Jinyu, what qualifications do you have to say love. ”

Is it a former wife?

It seems that something has really changed, but it has changed again. It's still that person, isn't it?

I'm still blaming myself for not caring enough about her.

Chen Jinyu was at a loss for a while, but she couldn't defend herself, she really didn't know what to say.

"I'm so tired. If you want to take a break, can you go over and pull up the screen, or you can go out first. Xie Fanyan turned around and said with his back to Chen Jinyu.

Chen Jinyu was slightly stunned. It seems that the two of them get along a lot more comfortably these days. I don't need the screen that blocks each other's vision, is it inexplicable, do you have to go back to the original distance?

"Okay, you take a break, I'll go out." Chen Jinyu pulled the quilt tightly for Xie Fanyan, glanced at the thin body wrapped in the brocade quilt again, turned around and went out, and closed the door again.

At dinner, Xie Fanyan hadn't gotten up yet. Chen Jinyu had dinner alone, and then remembered what Qiu Liyue said yesterday. put down the dishes and chopsticks again, changed into clothes, and went to Yuehuaju.

Originally, my heart was made up and down by Xie Fanyan, and I was very uneasy, but Chen Jinyu still needed to go to Yuehuaju to explain some things to Qiu Liyue.

I have thought about it for a long time, I must say it.

For Qiu Liyue, after all, there is a responsibility and a sense of guilt and pity.

Slender Su had already been guarding the door according to Qiu Liyue's instructions, and was very happy to see Chen Jinyu.

"You're here?" Xian Xian smiled and stepped forward to greet her, she used to be a maid who served Chen Jinyu, although her status was not as good as Yueran Yuelin, but Chen Jinyu was very lenient and harmonious, so Xian Xian consciously had a familiarity with Chen Jinyu.

"Hmm." Chen Jinyu replied lightly, "You all came out, what about your aunt?" ”

"Auntie, she is waiting for the master, and she can't wait for the master to be nagging in front of the maids, and the maids will simply come out to hide and welcome the aunt in order to clean their ears." Xian Xian said with a bit of a joke.

Su Su also laughed on the side.

Chen Jinyu was not infected by their smiles, but only slightly, "Hmm." After a few sounds, he followed Xian Xian to the door of the house.

"Master, go in, I'm afraid my aunt doesn't want to see us, I haven't been here for so long, but I want to accompany our aunt more." Xian Xian smiled and pushed Chen Jinyu, Chen Jinyu glanced at this bold girl with a wry smile, and still entered the door without speaking.

Qiu Liyue had already seen Chen Jinyu from the window, and at this time she was already at the door, and she was afraid that she would be too eager, so she finally chose to sit at the table, and hurriedly poured a cup of tea for Chen Jinyu, but the moment Chen Jinyu came in, she couldn't help but raise the teacup and put it to her mouth.

It's just that he didn't touch his lips at all, but he put down the teacup, got up as a sudden discovery, and said in surprise: "Master, you're here?" ”

"Promise you, I'll come naturally." Chen Jinyu smiled at Qiu Liyue indulgently and dotingly, and said while taking off her robe: "But have you had dinner?" ”

"Thinking that the master hasn't come yet, it's useless, and I plan to eat with the master, I used to eat alone, I can only think about it like this, this time I finally have the opportunity, and the master can't refuse." After speaking, he smiled and shouted out of the window to Xian Xian and Su Su to let them set the meal.

"I came here after eating, if you haven't eaten, I'll accompany you to use some more."

Xie Fanyan approached the beggar and reported his sister's birthday.

"The red face is drunk and the flowers are drunk, and the most important thing is that the world can't keep it." The old beggar pinched his fingers and calculated, shook his head and said, "But there is a sign of dead wood in spring, willows and bright flowers, there is such a strange life in this world, it is clearly a dead person, you say, how do dead people die in spring?" How to put death in the place and come back to life? ”

"The red face is drunk and the flowers are drunk, and the most important thing is that the world can't keep it." Xie Fanyan muttered to the beggar, "The red face is drunk, the mirror flower is drunk, and the most important thing in the world is that you can't keep it!" Why can't the world stay! ”

Xie Fanyan's eyes were a little crazy, and suddenly he walked to the beggar in a few steps, and grabbed the beggar with his hand, but he didn't think it was dirty or smelly, so he asked hoarsely: "You say, you say, why can't the world stay?" ”

The old beggar didn't panic, but looked at Xie Fanyan's gaze and suddenly felt a little pity, "This fate is involuntary but from heaven, heaven is ruthless, this lady let it go." ”

"I won't let go!" The pain that Xie Fanyan suppressed in his heart suddenly rose, "You tell me why, why is there still a desperate place to live?" ”

Chen Jinyu didn't expect Xie Fanyan to have such a big reaction, and hurriedly stepped forward and pulled: "Ayu, Ayu, don't be like this, he's just talking nonsense, don't believe him." As he spoke, he suddenly remembered the last time Xie Fan committed suicide by drinking poison and alcohol, could it be that now her gaffe is because of that incident?

Thinking about it, I felt a little guilty in my heart, I didn't care about Xie Fanyan well at that time, which caused her to have such an unbearable past.

"Ayu, let's go back, good, let's go back, it's already over, it's over, the world can keep you, isn't it already a desperate life? You see that you are doing well now, and you will always be good in the future, and the worst is in the past. ”

Xie Fanyan shook his head, "No, there is no past, it is me who remains in the world, but unfortunately it is her who can't be kept, it is her." O thy wife! The one who survived in the desperate situation is also me, not your wife! ”

"What stupid are you talking about?" Chen Jinyu tightly imprisoned the out-of-control Xie Fanyan in his arms, concealed the panic in his heart, and comforted him gently: "You are my wife, and you will always be my wife." You're still alive, you're still there, you know, don't be obsessed with the past, it's all my bad in the past, I care too little about you, don't get excited Ayu, let's go back, go back and talk about it. ”

Several guards were also stunned in place, not daring to move for a long time, they didn't expect that the beggar's inexplicable words would cause such a big reaction from the young lady, what did those words mean?

But no matter what it means, the current situation is very unfavorable to their side, that is, they see the uncontrollable side of the masters, which is the most humiliating thing for the masters, but it is a disgraceful thing for them.

Xie Fanyan struggled to find the beggar, but the beggar had already left, just leaving a sentence from afar, "This lady, if you meet in the future, I will definitely take you to my master, my master is very powerful, maybe he can help you solve the confusion in your heart, and if there is no fate, Mrs. should not suffer herself, no one in the world is not bitter, but everyone suffers by themselves, and it is also a sin." ”

"You stop, you stop!" Xie Fanyan wanted to run over, "You make it clear to me, make it clear, what can't be kept in the world, where did it go, where did it go?" (To be continued......)

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