Su Shanyun couldn't stop crying as she looked at the blue sky outside the window.

It was the day after she was reborn, but the experience of her past life still lingered in her mind like a nightmare.

She remembered that she was forced to the edge of the cliff by Bai Yinghuai and resolutely jumped off the cliff, and then when she opened her eyes, she found herself lying on a soft sandalwood shelf bed.

Sheets with small pink flowers, goose-yellow curtains, and a veil embroidered with a few red roses.

This is the boudoir before she leaves the cabinet.

Could it be that I am dreaming? Su Shanyun sat up in a panic, and pinched his face in disbelief, it would hurt, then it was not a dream.

She got up and got out of bed, put off her shoes and walked to the gold-rimmed oval mirror, in which a little girl of eleven or twelve years old was reflected, the corners of the little girl's eyes were stained with tears, and her delicate face was like a pear blossom with rain, her body had not yet grown, but there was a faint curve, her figure was not tall or short, and she looked slim.

She looked at the people in the mirror, feeling a little familiar and a little unfamiliar.

"Miss, why are you up? Is your head less dizzy? A maid who didn't look much older than her came in at some point, and asked in surprise.

Su Shanyun recognized her at a glance - she was her personal maid, named Green Lotus.

"No...... Don't get dizzy. Su Shanyun hadn't come to her senses yet, and stammered in response.

"You don't know how worried the old man is about you these days, he came to feed you medicine last night...... Since his wife passed away, the old man has really been a father and a mother......" Green Lotus chirped.

Su Shanyun knew that the master she was talking about was her father, Su Ziming.

She remembered that her mother died of illness at the beginning of the spring when she was nine years old, and then her father kept the rules for her mother, and did not marry her step-family until she was eleven years old, and she looked out the window at the red azaleas in the garden full of trees and knew that it should be spring, but she did not know whether she was ten or eleven years old, so she asked the green lotus, "Green lotus, what year is it?" ”

Lu He looked at her dumbfounded, and couldn't help but sneer: "You, it seems that this wrestling has confused you, this year is the year of the Lunar New Year, the year before last your mother died of illness, and the third master died of illness last year." ”

That means she's now reborn back into the spring of eleven.

This is the most deserted period of the people in the house.

It was also the third month that my father resigned from the position of deputy director of the Zongren Mansion and came back to take over the affairs of the Su family.

"Oh." Su Shanyun didn't ask again, but her eyes unconsciously turned red again.

Looking at this place where she had lived for twenty years, the memories of her past life also flooded her like a tide.

Tears rolled down her eyes again.

"Miss, what's wrong with you? Are you dizzy again? Let's lie down first. Seeing her looking out the window and crying, Lu He thought that her body was not feeling well, and hurriedly helped her back to the bed.

Su Shanyun lay back on the bed again, looking at the bright sunlight outside the window, but she was still extremely panicked in her heart, as if she had returned to the past when she was in dire straits.

In the last life, she was both talented and beautiful, famous in the island city, since the age of fourteen, there has been an endless stream of people who come to the door to ask for marriage, but she has not been carried away by praise and lifting, she wants to find a person who is happy, but unfortunately that person has not appeared, and she is unwilling to compromise, so the personal life event has been unresolved.

But it is precisely because of her prudence and calmness in her life's major events that she has earned a 'good name' in the island city, but it has aroused the admiration and curiosity of those young talents even more, and they have tried all kinds of ways to ask for marriage.

But this kind of wild bee and butterfly will only make her more and more disgusted, so as soon as she hears that someone is coming to propose marriage, she has a headache.

In the blink of an eye, she was sixteen years old.

In the spring of this year, a son named Li He came to Su Mansion to hand over a post to Su Shanyun's father because he had admired her name for a long time, saying that he wanted to marry her.

Su Ziming felt that it was a bit reckless for this person to come to the door in person without inviting the matchmaker, and they didn't know each other before, for fear that he was a disciple who didn't know the height of the sky, so he didn't give him an interview.

Li He waited at the gate of Su Mansion every day, so scared that Su Shanyun couldn't sleep at night.

But she also admired his courage, so she asked Mama Song to accompany her to look out secretly through the crack in the door inside, wanting to see what kind of person he was.

Li He was dressed as a scholar, looking white and elegant, with a graceful demeanor, but his eyes were like beasts waiting for his prey at the entrance of the cave, Su Shanyun sighed secretly and quietly returned to his boudoir.

Then Li He waited outside the gate of Su Mansion for five days, and Su Shanyun couldn't bear it and asked his father to inform him of his decision. Su Ziming didn't want to pay attention to this kind of person, but when he saw that his daughter had a request, he went out and told Li He what his daughter meant, and Li He left.

Unexpectedly, the next day, someone came to report in a panic that Li He committed suicide by jumping into the river on the bridge not far from Sufu last night.

Su Shanyun was sick for a month after learning about it.

People say that Su Shanyun is a red face and a disaster.

Since then, there have been fewer and fewer people who come to the Su family to ask for relatives.

Maybe it was because this incident had too much psychological impact on Su Shanyun, since then she was afraid that someone would come to ask for marriage, and the reason why she was afraid of marrying was because she was afraid of men.

The days passed day by day, and in a blink of an eye she was twenty years old.

Those who tried to marry back then naturally talked about her in a derogatory and ridiculous tone, which was quite demeaning.

Su Shanyun couldn't say anything about the bitterness in her heart, but she felt that maybe this was God's punishment for her, so the whole person became a little negative.

Thinking of the worried eyes of her father and stepmother, and the bitter persuasion of her relatives, she finally agreed to marry Bai Yinghuai, a rice merchant in Guangzhou.

Anyway, the Su family and the Bai family have some business dealings, and they know each other's family situations better, and Bai Yinghuai seems to like Su Shanyun a lot, every time she comes to the Su family to do something, she will walk over and over on the verandah leading to her boudoir, just to be able to see her.

Su Ziming is also more satisfied with this family business, he feels that Su Shanyun is older after all, and if he is as picky as he was back then, he may not be able to get married, so he thinks that as long as the other party likes her, he will be good to her, and his family background will not be very bad.

Who would have thought that not long after marrying Bai Yinghuai, Su Shanyun felt like she had been sent to hell.

If she could do it all over again, she would rather become a monk than marry Bai Yinghuai.

Su Shanyun clutched her chest, as if the chest pain caused by the violent coughing in her previous life still existed.

The wariness and fear of men once again germinated from the bottom of her heart, and she didn't know if she would meet them in this life, and what if she did? Anxious tears welled up again, and she started to burn in a few moments.

"A few days ago, I fluttered butterflies in the garden and fell and I was stunned for three days, and now I have a fever again, this kid ......" Su Ziming's low and anxious voice came from outside the door.

Green Lotus hurried to help him lift the curtain.

Su Ziming's eyes immediately looked at Su Shanyun who was lying on the bed.

Su Shanyun, who was burned in a daze, was lying there like a frightened kitten, and Su Ziming's heart hurt when he saw it.

Su Ziming stood three steps away from her bed and called her out with concern, she answered softly, opened her eyes and looked at her father.

His father wore a royal blue lake silk jacket and a white jade hairpin in his bun, with elegant facial features and extraordinary bearing.

"I've sent someone to ask for a doctor, and I'll be here soon, so bear with me." Su Ziming said to her.

"Okay." Su Shanyun said obediently, looking at his father carefully, as if it was the first time he saw him.

"Green lotus, go and bring a basin of water to the eldest lady to compress her forehead." Su Ziming commanded again.

"Yes." Green Lotus walked out.

Su Ziming hesitated, sat down on the chair in front of her bed, and said softly: "Shanyun, I heard that Lu He said that you have been looking out the window and crying for the past two days, is there something on your mind?" ”

Su Shanyun shook her head.

"Miss your mother and third uncle?" Su Ziming asked again.

Su Shanyun didn't know whether to nod or shake her head, she naturally often thought of her mother and third uncle, but what she had been thinking about in her mind for the past two days was those things in her previous life.

She was very worried that she would not be able to hide from those people and things in this life, but she felt that since God had given her the opportunity to be reborn, she should live a different life from the previous life in order to live up to its deep meaning, but she had no confidence in herself at all.

In her previous life, she lived so desperately, and in this life, she wanted to change, but the pain in her previous life was so deep that a thick wall was built in her heart, as if even the sunlight could not reach there, and she didn't know if she had the ability to break through them.

"Hmm." She didn't want her father to be sad, so she nodded at him.

Su Ziming reached out and probed her forehead, and said softly, "Good." ”

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