Sunday afternoon, Xianshan Cafe.

The afternoon sun sets on the table, and the lavender potted plants come to life in the sun. Because it was a Sunday, there were quite a lot of customers in the café. I stirred the remaining half of my coffee with a spoon and waited for someone.

On Thursday night, I received a call from Qiu Wenchao and heard the news that his mother was seriously ill. At his pleading, I promised him to complete a white lie. On the other hand, I also put forward my own request, hoping to find a time to have a good chat and want to ask some things clearly. I don't know if I made the right move, but I think it's time to have the courage to ask the person about the question that has been buried in my heart for two years.

If you don't ask now, you won't know in the future. That's what I thought in my heart.

After waiting for about 10 minutes, I saw a familiar figure at the door of the café.

I waved my hand at him, and Qiu Wenchao also saw me, nodded in response and walked over.

"I'm sorry, I'm late." He was still wearing the same light gray sweatshirt he wore two years ago, and I can still recall the scent of the dress.

I shook my head and smiled, and said, "I didn't have to wait long, sit down, what to drink?" "At this time, I thought of Americano without sugar and no milk, which was his favorite.

At this time, the waiter came over, and Qiu Wenchao said, "Give me a glass of boiled water." ”

"Tastes have changed?" I looked at him and asked.

"Huh?" He didn't seem to come back to his senses, and suddenly remembered before he smiled and said, "Boiled water is good." ”

"Hmm...... How are you doing? "I found it a bit blank to ask this, my mother is like this, how can it be good?

"Almost, what about you? Got a job? ”

I nodded and said, "Found it, in Quang Nam Middle School, teaching Chinese." ”

"That's good!" He wiped his hands with a wet tissue and said with a smile. It seems that he still retains this habit of cleanliness.

The two of them chatted for a while, and after the cups they brought to each other were empty, the scene suddenly fell silent, and they stopped talking to each other, and even I seemed to have forgotten what I wanted to ask him. If he hadn't asked first, I wouldn't have taken the initiative to open the conversation.

"Vivi, do you have something to ask me?"

"Oh, yes." Suddenly, I heard him call me Weiwei, and I was a little flattered. I scratched my head, how should I ask?

"What's the matter?" Seeing that I didn't speak, Qiu Wenchao asked again.

"I ...... I wanted to ask...... "I'm really nervous, and when I'm nervous, I can't talk properly."

Hearing me start stammering, Qiu Wenchao actually laughed out loud. He said: "You are still the same as before, you stutter when you are nervous and talk, and you are like a puppy when you do something wrong, and your eyes are pitiful." Qiu Wenchao looked at me, and I saw the previous gentleness in his eyes. He took a deep breath, as if he had unloaded something in his heart, and said, "Do you want to ask me why I broke up with you in the first place?" ”

Qiu Wenchao actually took the initiative to pick up the topic, as before, if there is a problem, just say it, if there is anything to say, he is like this.

I nodded slightly, my eyes looking to the side, not daring to look at him. It seemed that the strongest part of my heart was about to collapse as soon as I looked into his eyes, and I was afraid that before I could speak, the tears would burst uncontrollably.

At this time, Qiu Wenchao suddenly stood up, stood in front of me, and bowed godly, I was frightened by his action.

"I'm sorry. The damage that was done to you back then...... I'm really sorry, I know I can't compensate...... I have failed you and wasted the best of your youth......"

"No......," I shook my head, smiled, and said, "You've told me a lot of sorry back then...... Right now...... Now I just want a reason. You can't die in vain, can you? Haha"

Qiu Wenchao raised his head and looked at me as if he wanted to say something.

"Can you sue me?" I asked tentatively, but I was also afraid to know the truth, afraid that what I was thinking was true.

"This ......" Qiu Wenchao seemed to have something unspeakable, and now it was his turn to speak in a knot. I...... I'm falling in love with someone else. ”

"Oh?" Like someone else, male or female? That's what my first instinct was.

"yes...... Vivi, do you hate me? ”

I said I hated you to believe it? I said I don't hate, do you believe it? I can't tell if he's telling the truth or not.

"Do I know that girl?"

"No, she (he?) What you don't know, it's something else. Qiu Wenchao looked distressed.

"Oh." I looked out the window, and for some reason I thought of Ning Shaoling, remembered that day he looked into my eyes, and said to me seriously: "He is my boyfriend." "That's not what a 15 or 16-year-old boy should say, but I can hear his attitude.

"You know what?" I suddenly said, "I'm teaching junior high school ...... now."

"Ah, yes, the high school entrance examination, it's quite busy, right? Be a class teacher? Qiu Wenchao heard me change the topic, and even his tone became relieved.

But I didn't answer his question, saying, "There was a male student in the class, and suddenly one day he told me that he was gay and had a boyfriend. ”

Qiu Wenchao's face changed, and he smiled awkwardly and said, "Huh? Open...... Just kidding, right? ”

"No, it's true, I saw them kiss." I don't know why I'm exaggerating.

"This ......" Qiu Wenchao looked very embarrassed, "The current child is a headache." ”

"yes......" I said nonchalantly, actually paying attention to his expression.

What he just said must be false, I can see it. Now the question is, do you want to expose him? DO YOU WANT TO SUE HIM, IN FACT, I HAVE SEEN A QIĒ IN GAYBAR THAT DAY...... But I thought about it and thought, isn't that how it works? If he doesn't want to say it, why should I force him? If you see through it, why guess it? What's more, now that my aunt is seriously ill, I can't hit him anymore. I found that I still cared a lot about his mood in the end, what was going on? Do you still love him? I shook my head vigorously.

Qiu Wenchao looked at me and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

"Nothing...... That's all for today. ”

Qiu Wenchao looked at his watch, and I found ...... He didn't have the watch I gave him before we parted. "Okay, the time is about the same. That ......"

"Call me if you need me any day."

"Why not tonight?" Qiu Wenchao said suddenly.

"So fast?" I was a little surprised that I hadn't prepared anything.

"While my mother is still awake, she is still awake" Speaking ......of this, my heart seemed to be stabbed. It's all come to this point, it doesn't matter if he's gay or not, what do you do if you're still entangled in the past?

"But I'm dressed like this......"

"It's okay, it's fine." Qiu Wenchao said with a smile, stretched out his hand, and continued, "Let's go." ”

I took his hand, and at that moment, I felt the warmth of his palm, warm, as if it had never left. Now, I need to assist him in completing a white lie.

But at that time, how did I know how greedy people's ** was. If you give, you hope to get something in return, and you want even more than you give.