After a night of fierce ideological struggle, I still decided to take the initiative to call Qiu Wenchao to apologize, after all, I hurt people that day......

"Hello?" The call was answered, it was Qiu Wenchao. His voice sounded tired, and I think he must be tired.

"It's me......" I said in a small voice, "...... I'm sorry. What I said that day was too much. ”

Qiu Wenchao didn't answer, the only thing I heard was the sound of his breathing coming from the earpiece, this rhythm at a frequency, as if he was whispering in my ear.

I continued, "You know...... As soon as I got excited, I couldn't speak through my brain. ”

When I was in love with Qiu Wenchao in the past, I often made mistakes impulsively, and even threw my temper on him. But Qiu Wenchao never blamed me, but patiently taught me, telling me to control my feelings and not lose my temper. But it seems that in the past few years together, this shortcoming of mine has not been corrected. Now that I think about it, there is really some truth in saying that details determine love, maybe people just can't stand my bad temper and break up.

"You're not wrong...... Qiu Wenchao's voice was slightly hoarse, and I felt a little distressed when I heard it.

"Let's go get the certificate tomorrow, and after dealing with the aunt, we'll go through the divorce." When I said this, I had already made a decision regardless of Qiē.

"How can this work......

"I repaid my aunt, she treated me so well before, and now it's nothing for me to do such a little thing for her. And, who else but me would like to go with you to get a certificate? Is your boyfriend? I really didn't mean to be ridiculous when I said this, but I was worried that Qiu Wenchao had misunderstood, so I quickly explained: "I mean...... Didn't my aunt now think I was her daughter-in-law? Except for me, if you marry someone else, can she rely on her? ”

"......" Qiu Wenchao didn't speak, I knew he must be very embarrassed. On the one hand, I didn't want to go against my mother's wishes, I didn't want to disappoint my mother, and on the other hand, he was afraid of breaking my heart.

I thought carefully about Ning Shaoling's words that day, and felt that what he said was really right. In fact, the most despicable thing is himself, using his aunt to "kidnap" Qiu Wenchao and letting him marry him "logically", which is definitely done by a despicable villain. Just imagine, Qiu Wenchao never expressed 'want to get back together with me' or 'still like me' from beginning to end, it was because he didn't want to deceive me that he said 'fake marriage', instead of 'I haven't forgotten you since I broke up, let's get back together!'" ’。 What a kind, honest boy he is, but I, on the contrary, self-righteously think that others still have residual thoughts about me, which is nothing more than wishful narcissism.

Many times we are all the same, thinking that what we pay will be rewarded. I thought that TA would have an ordinary greeting and a polite smile to have a good impression of himself, and then he started a large-scale brain supplement activity, thinking that the opportunity had come, but in fact he was just thinking too much. So sometimes, you really can't take yourself too seriously, because there's no such thing at all!

And now, what I should do more is to fulfill my aunt's last wish, there is nothing more important in the world!

"Don't think about it, many things can't stand the wear and tear of time......" I was shocked to say such philosophical words (⊙o⊙)...

"Does it really matter?" Qiu Wenchao confirmed again and again.

"Really. You rest early, wait at the small park station at 9 o'clock tomorrow. ”

"Weiwei ......" Just as I was about to hang up the phone, Qiu Wenchao stopped me, "You saw it all in the bar that day?" ”

"yes, yes."

"How did you show up there?"

"It's not because you...... Maruko said I saw you, so I'll come and take a look. ”

"Oh......"

"Actually, I'm curious to know, why did you say break up back then? And then...... Why did you 'bend'? "I've asked Qiu Wenchao for the second time, this time, he should be able to tell it all, right? There is nothing left between us to hide......

"Actually...... It's because my mom ......."

"Huh?" I was puzzled and asked, "Why?" ”

"She was diagnosed with cancer two years ago, very unexpectedly, very suddenly. That's when I felt the fragility of life for the first time...... Even if you live a good life, there will be a day when you suddenly fall. Imagine that the neighbors who usually chat with you, the colleagues who commute to and from work together, and the close family members, when you get along with them inadvertently, the disease and death are approaching them step by step, and this qiē happens quietly...... No one knows......" Qiu Wenchao said this, a little choked, he paused for a few seconds and then continued: "Thinking of this, if you knew that this person would suddenly leave one day, would you still quarrel with him to the point of red-faced?" , do you have to argue with TA to the death? Do those misunderstandings and disputes still seem important now? People who live well don't think about these things at all...... Because they have the right to live, and they squander it at will...... They don't value life and time, so most people in the world are doing stupid things. ”

Speaking of which, it dawned on me.

"Since time and life are finite, why don't I do something meaningful?" Speaking of this, he looked at me with a firm look in his eyes, and said, "Weiwei, I am really happy to be with you...... But, but that's not who I really am, and I feel like I feel alive only when I treat everyone with my true side. ”

"Hmm...... When was it? I asked.

"After a year with you, I noticed something 'abnormal' about myself...... Sometimes, in the face of some good-looking boys, there will be a feeling of heartbeat, which ......"

"Okay, needless to say...... I don't want to listen to it anymore, I really don't want to hear it, the man in front of me who used to love deeply, when he is in love with himself, is in ...... spirit No, it should be said that there has been a change in sexual orientation, which is simply inexplicable, unreasonable, and embarrassing...... However, it was somewhat comforting that he was not aware of the change in his sexuality before he fell in love with me.

"Vivi ......"

"Don't say I'm sorry, you don't owe me ...... I don't hate you either, really. The most important thing at the moment is to take care of Auntie, and don't talk about anything else, you know? You also pay attention to rest, don't get too tired. That's it, get in touch again. After that, I hung up the phone and didn't even say goodbye, because I knew that if I said more, I guess I wouldn't be able to stop the tears.

To be honest, I really have high expectations in the two years since the breakup. I was expecting that on my birthday, I would receive a call from Qiu Wenchao, telling me that he was still thinking about me; Expecting to hear from our mutual friend that he will not forget me; Looking forward to meeting Qiu Wenchao at the corner one day, meeting the old love at the corner, the old love is rekindled, and we are happily back together. The expectations that have been intertwined with countless days and nights over the past two years have reminded me that as long as I sincerely hold on to such expectations, the day of realization is just around the corner. At that time, I thought it would be good to just look forward to it like this, and I didn't ask for anything, and I wouldn't lose it and wouldn't have it again, so I wouldn't be disappointed.

This constant temperature makes me feel safe, but it's actually the deadliest thing - I only stand still in my memories, I can't walk in the past, and I can't have the future. So I think Qiu Wenchao is really brave, he is so real to live.

After talking to Qiu Wenchao on the phone tonight, I cried for a long time, and although my eyes were swollen, I was also relieved. Fortunately, there is no class tomorrow and Saturday, otherwise this crying and swollen face will make the students laugh? No big deal, go get some sleep, tomorrow is another day!

I quickly washed my face, wiped away my tears, and got ready for bed...... Suddenly, the phone rang.

At this time, who will call me? It's still an unfamiliar number......

I pressed the call button.

"Who are you talking to on the phone? The phone is always busy......"

"Huh? Who are you? "Because I cried so much just now, now I speak in a nasal voice.

"You're Mr. Huang, right? I am Ning Shaoling's mother. ”

"Huh??" I was so frightened that I bounced out of bed and cautiously said to the other end of the phone, "You, hello." ”

"Are you free tomorrow? Something...... About my son, I want to talk to you. ”

My little heart was so scared that I almost stopped! Could it be that Ning Shaoling is in trouble? No, if something really happened, the first person to call me should be the school, how could it be the student's parents? I was about to ask her what had happened, and she said, "Tomorrow at 10 a.m., Peninsula Coffee House, 16 Nanshan Street." He hung up the phone......

I had a sense of foreboding......