84_84047 How much love does it take to do this? What kind of mood has she been in for so many years?

Why are you so stupid, my flower, how can you write such words that shake my heart?

Su Mingyan was in pain, her forehead was lowered on the edge of the table, and her face was hidden under the table, covering all the pain and tears, the taste of heartache, even if she left at the beginning, it was not so sharp as today.

It was as if he was going to cut his heart open and make him inescapable.

"Yao'er" he called her over and over again, she was like the sand blown into his heart by the wind, he had rubbed it for a long, long time, and had already blended with his blood, if he wanted to take her away, it would be a pain he couldn't bear.

His heart was bleeding.

For her persistence over the years, sourness, and for his ignorance over the years, she waited with endless lovesickness.

It's that he's not good, he didn't see himself clearly, if he hadn't gone all over again, he might never have known, he might have liked her for a long, long time, and she would have been able to hold all his feelings very early, pay attention, I'm afraid that she will be wronged, I feel sorry for her, and I'm afraid that she will be angry, but he is young and ignorant and he hasn't thought about it, is this already beyond friendship?

No, it's love now, it's just that he's never said it to her, he thinks he just needs to prove it, he thinks she'll understand, and now he wants to tell her, but she's nowhere to be found.

"It's still possible in this life, but you can, will you come back?" Qin Chuyao's mental journey of more than ten years, or sad or happy, sour or sweet, resentment, thoughts, hatred, stupidity, strangeness, joys, sorrows and sorrows that he didn't know, jumped on the paper, and every word could burn his heart......

The pain induces other feelings, like a shadow, continues to ferment, and a burst of pain is more than a burst, rushing straight to the throat, and there is a fishy smell in the mouth.

The office door was opened without warning, and Su Mingyan accepted the love, and before he looked up to see the person who came, he shouted angrily, "Get out!" ”

His voice was painful and harsh, like that of a wounded leopard.

Seeing him attached to the table, Su Mu ran in anxiously, "Ming"

Hearing that it was Su Mu's voice, Su Mingyan raised his head, his face was tears that had not been wiped away, and his sad and painful look shattered Su Mu's heart.

"Son, what's wrong with you?" Seeing the blood spilling from the corner of his mouth, Su Mu suddenly panicked and ran to him, "What's uncomfortable, I'll take you to the hospital." ”

Su Mingyan turned around and hugged Su's mother, like an injured child finding support, his face buried in her and couldn't hold back anymore, crying bitterly, "Mom, I can't find her anymore"

Su Mu's body shook slightly, patted him on the shoulder with one hand, and held his head with the other, and naturally saw things on the desk in her sight, especially the open diary, only a few glances at it, it must be Qin Chuyao's.

As soon as her eyes were closed, Su's mother was also in pain in her heart.

Her son had always been excellent and proud in her eyes, even if he had been working against her a few months ago, and although she was disappointed, and although he was angry, she had never seen him suffer so much as he did now.

What did she do? She also loved her son so much, but she forced him into pain step by step, if she hadn't come to pick him up today, she might never have known how much damage her foolishness had done to him.

"I'm sorry, it's my mom who is bad, I'm sorry for you." She had already realized her mistake after Cao Shihan's incident, but it wasn't as profound as it is now.

The mother and son are each in pain and remorse.

"If you really love her so much, go to her, and my mother won't stop her." If it is still unclear how much he loves that girl, then her mother is also in vain, what family prejudices, what face, these are not important, she is also thorough in front of life and death, and the health and happiness of her family is the top priority

A month later, San Francisco, USA

After a busy day, I walked out of the R&D room and went directly to the garage, and the mobile phone in the bag rang halfway, "Forget your trip, it's really far away, even if you go quietly, it doesn't matter, along the way, I'm listening, the voice in the clouds, it says, don't give up"

"Mom." Qin Chuyao answered as he walked.

There was a sigh, "He's been here for more than a week, do you want to see him?" ”

In fact, as early as three months ago, Su Mingqi had looked for Long Chaoying, but at that time she refused to say, the company was very busy, so he could only return to China temporarily and leave the matter of finding someone to Hu Lixing.

He? Who?

Qin Chuyao paused suddenly, and asked with some uncertainty, "Is it Ah Yan?" ”

"Hmm." Long Chaoying didn't deny it, and sighed again, "Do you want me to tell him your address?" ”

When she left, she already knew about Su Mingyan and Cao Shihan, and Long Chaoying still didn't understand why she insisted on going back to the United States at the beginning, and she didn't avoid being found by him, and she deliberately didn't live with her.

This is not like her, with her character, she should be eager to find Su Mingyan.

Qin Chuyao's hand holding the mobile phone tightened, his breathing became more and more rapid, and his lips~ flap trembled slightly.

"Don't sue him." After some struggle, he still refused ruthlessly, and after refusing, he couldn't help but want to know more, "Where is he now?" ”

"Downstairs." Except for the first day, she didn't invite him in the door.

It's useless to come in, she won't tell him about Qin Chuyao's whereabouts privately, she will persuade him to go back before, but she doesn't bother to persuade him now if she doesn't see his determination, she won't even make this call.

At the beginning, Su Mu disliked Qin Chuyao so much, and Long Chaoying was very mindful in her heart.

"Is he okay?" Qin Chuyao asked again.

"Not great, but not bad either." It's just that there is less vigor in the past and more loneliness.

This night, Qin Chuyao tossed and turned and didn't sleep well, and the next day she was absent-minded, and she was in a state of emptiness when others talked to her several times, and she had to scream several times to react.

He didn't come, she missed him, he came, and she couldn't go to see him.

He always had an easy way to mobilize all her restlessness

Two days later, on Friday, at half past eleven in the evening, Su Mingyan checked into a white car outside the hotel.

Gu Xize put his hands on the steering wheel, half-sideways, looking at the person in the passenger seat, his eyes were deep and dark, and he finally took the lead in breaking the quiet, "Either go up or go back, choose one." ”

They had been parked for more than half an hour, and it was not early yet, so they couldn't sit in the car all night and wait.

"I" Qin Chuyao met his gaze, flashed, and the hand holding the door handle was tightened so tightly that the green tendons on the back of the hand were clearly visible.

"Since you're so entangled, let's go back." Gu Xize said that he was about to start the car.

"Xize" almost immediately, Qin Chuyao spoke up.

Gu Xize stopped his movements, turned his head to look at her again, was silent for a second, and leaned over to help her open the passenger door.

"I don't know your concerns, but I know the true desires of your heart." She will come here from San Francisco, and she has already done a good job of proving it, "Go down, you go and meet the person you want, if you have anything to say, the two of you will say it to your face, don't carry it yourself, he is a man, and this responsibility should be there." ”

It is enough for him to do this, personally send the beloved woman downstairs to another man, and push it again by the way.

In fact, he can't change anything whether he pushes or not, the person in her heart is always Su Mingyan, and it is only a matter of time before she returns to that person.

It's not that he didn't fight for it, but it was in vain.

Qin Chuyao took the bag, looked at him with encouragement in his eyes, gritted his teeth, and got out of the car

When she closed the door, she looked at the person in the driver's seat, pursed her lips, and wanted to say a lot of things, but in the end all she could say was these few words, "Nishizawa, thank you." ”

Also, I'm sorry.

"Hurry up, he'll definitely sleep any later." Gu Xize was full of bitterness, but he still held on to the last step, "Good luck." ”

Accurately found the room where Su Mingyan lived, and the person was a little cowardly when he arrived at the door, pacing back and forth, but he never had the courage to knock on the door.

She left without saying a word, he must be very angry, to be honest, she was quite afraid that he would be angry, but she was more worried about another point than this, would she have wasted her efforts by blatantly violating the agreement with that person like this? A repeat of the past?

After hesitating, Qin Chuyao decided to call Su Mingyan first.

Thinking about it, he immediately took action, took out his phone from his bag, and entered the number that was memorized backwards.

One, two, each of which seemed to knock on the heart, was finally answered on the fifth.

"Hey." A deep voice, indifferent, "Who?" ”

Qin Chuyao stared at the door, his throat choked, as if he was stuck by something.

How long has it been since she heard him?

The mouse on this big night is broken, I'm really not used to it, and I tossed it several times before copying it.