Psychiatrist is a very unfamiliar word for the weekend, in another world he is familiar with, this kind of person is no longer resisted by people, but this kind of person seems to be specially prepared for those rich people, it is rare to hear that people walk into which psychological counseling center to chat for an hour, more often they choose to invite three or five confidants to have a few sips, scold a few words loudly, and vent.

It's just that after going through all the things last night, I made up my mind to see a psychiatrist on the weekend, because for more than a year since I came to the United States, he actually had a frustrated mood for the first time, and in the unbridled thoughts of negative emotions, the whole person began to become impatient, and his mind was full of all kinds of anger, instead of casually scolding a sentence without a sense of picture 'I'm going to kill him' to vent.

You must know that this kind of thing is not terrible to say casually, but the terrible thing is - think!

Thinking is the driving force of everything, if you don't want to, people can't fly to the sky; If he didn't want to, everything would be simple, but he thought about it, and he thought about it very carefully.

So, I took a morning off work on the weekend and drove alone from Los Angeles to a psychiatric counseling center near Beverly Hills to see a psychiatrist with a master's degree in psychiatry and psychology for $500 an hour. The reason he spends such a large sum of money on a weekend to see a psychiatrist is that his health insurance has a clause that reimburses 100% of the cost of counseling.

In the United States, 30% of people will regularly see a psychologist for psychological counseling, more than 80% of people will see a psychologist from time to time, and the probability of the police seeing a psychologist is 100%. Even former President Clinton and Hillary Clinton fell into an embarrassing situation where they couldn't be in the same room when the peach news exploded. They all chose to see a psychiatrist. Psychiatrists are not a nightmare in this land. Going to a psychiatrist is as normal as going to the hospital for a cold or a church to a priest for confession.

"Mr. Zhou, you're early, and it's your turn in fifteen minutes, why don't you wait while drinking coffee?"

When he walked into the clinic on the weekend and checked the time at the front desk, a smiling lady kindly told him this, and then followed. The lady walked out of the front desk and personally ushered the weekend into a more intimate space to make him a cup of coffee.

It was an empty room with only one chair, and the coffee was placed in the cup slot on the arm of the chair in the house, and the room was very soundproofed and very quiet, and anyone could sit on that chair and think about any problem they might face.

The strange thing is that I didn't think about anything on the weekend, and I felt the comfort brought by this quiet in this environment, and I slowly became sleepy.

It's weird. For the average person, this empty room is like a cage. It's like the interrogation room of a police station, where all the negative emotions in the heart will constantly impact the mind in a quiet environment, otherwise, there is no need to see a psychiatrist. Can be ...... on weekends I really fell asleep like this, and I slept soundly, almost without much effort the moment I closed my eyes......

When, when, when.

There was a knock on the door, and Weekend rolled his eyelids in shock at the sound, and then slowly straightened up and turned to look at the lady who had opened the door and smiled slightly.

"Mr. Zhou, you are the first person who can fall asleep in this room, WOW to me (expressing surprise)." The lady continued: "Dr. Johnson is waiting for you......"

"Okay."

I didn't think anything was wrong on the weekend, didn't I just sleep for a while?

When I got up and followed the lady to another room at the end of the corridor, the weekend saw a large room after the lady opened the door, this room was not unbelievably empty, the bookcase, the desk, the sofa opposite the desk and the various chairs next to it were placed to make people look very comfortable, take the placement of bookcases and desks, the bookcases standing around the wall did not simply surround the desk to make people feel the doctor's erudition, but surrounded the whole environment, forming a relatively mild range, this smell of books can smoke people consciously and automatically pay attention to their own behavior......

"Dr. Johnson, Mr. Weekend has arrived."

"Welcome."

This psychiatrist did not show aggressive enthusiasm, let alone the coldness of rejecting people thousands of miles away, and his extremely moderate attitude was like a man asking for directions one meter away from you, which not only kept a safe distance but also reflected his cultivation.

The lady slowly closed the door, and when only weekends and the psychiatrist were left in the room, "Sit down." ”

Weekend nodded, smiled politely, and walked over to the couch and sat down.

The doctor didn't wear a coat, and the white shirt and straps of his bib pants also made people feel very formal, especially the gold-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose, and at first glance, you would think that this was a rich but rather sloppy nerd, and you would not feel that he had any aggression in him.

"Mr. Zhou, you shouldn't have any symptoms of insomnia and excessive worry, right? People with long-term insomnia can easily see that worry is the cause of insomnia, and it is obvious that you do not have either of these points, so what is the purpose of your visit? ”

Over the weekend, Dr. Johnson found that he did not have any cases in his hands, and his empty hands were judging from experience: "I've been coming up with a lot of frightening thoughts lately. ”

"I'm listening, please continue." He picked one out of a pile of chairs, and the pure black chair was placed in front of Weekend, and when he sat down, he didn't expect Weekend to cut off the topic directly.

"That's it."

The doctor sat in front of him on the weekend, and when he heard this word, he didn't show anything, even though he was surprised, but he still opened another topic and said, "Mr. Zhou, are you married?" ”

Weekend shaking heads.

"Where's my girlfriend?"

"What about fixed-sexual-partner?"

"What's wrong with your body?"

"How many times do you masturbate? How many times can you reach it in weeks? ”

When he saw that he had been shaking his head on the weekend, the doctor said with special affirmation: "Mr. Zhou, aren't you curious?" ”

"What?" This time it was the weekend's turn to be stunned.

"First of all, you are definitely not G-A-Y, and secondly, there is nothing wrong with your body, as a normal man, don't you have a yearning for women...... I mean, don't you want women? ”

"Uh...... "What is this way to see a doctor?"

There was no official answer over the weekend.

The doctor began to dissect himself and said, "I am seven years old Chinese New Year's Eve and I have a wife at home, she is very beautiful, and she belongs to the kind of person who can make you think of something just by looking at her lips. But after seven years of our marriage, no, three years to be exact, I began to pay attention to all kinds of beautiful women in and out of Beverly Hills in stockings, not that I didn't love my wife, but I still had the urge to other women. ”

"What about you?"

The weekend was silly.

When he first came to the United States, he would choke enough to go to the bar with his colleagues to find more casual foreign girls to vent, and even had this idea in the early days of coming to Los Angeles...... But when beauties like Leonova and Penelope appear in their own world, he can see the beauty from each other's appearance, and he can see the hotness of the body, that is...... Didn't think anything would happen.

Dr. Johnson didn't wait for him to answer, and asked directly, "When did it start?" ”

Weekend hastened to explain: "Doctor, I ...... when I watch a premium channel at home"

"I'm sure you're physiologically fine, Mr. Zhou, but you have to tell me when you started losing interest in the best things." Johnson did not accuse: "People's lives are like this, we are all a leaf falling with the wind, dancing in the process of falling a little more wonderful or a little more stable is their own choice, when you choose to give up a wonderful and smooth fall, then, it is easier to control the landing position, when you give up the specific direction of the fall, you have the wonder of the wind." ”

"Mr. Zhou, sometimes we feel that giving up is a kind of loss, but we don't know that while giving up, there will always be something else in place, such as the thoughts in your mind that make you afraid."

Adam!

The haunting name once again came to the back of Weekend's mind, and he seemed to have been in a state of tension since Adam appeared, even after Adam died.

Could it be that during this period of time, I lost -- desire-hope--and the idea of chaos kept appearing in my mind?

Dr. Johnson stood up and took out a document from his desk: "Mr. Zhou, this is an attached confidentiality agreement, if you want to have a deeper communication with me and are afraid of revealing something, you can sign this agreement with me, with this thing, I will refuse the court summons, even if you are heinous." ”

"It's not that serious." As he spoke, he stretched out his hand, took the document and looked at it carefully.

He didn't know if he was perfunctory or comforting himself with this sentence...... (To be continued......)