"I want to kill him."

Sitting on the sofa, the weekend had been narrated for nearly half an hour, and he tried not to mention the names of the specific people involved and the history of the case, but even then it took a full half an hour to tell his experience and the thoughts that often popped up in his mind recently.

"Dr. Johnson, I'm a police officer, and even the tricky perverted killer hasn't made me lose confidence. But ......" paused for the weekend: "The idea that popped into my head ......"

"This is the first time I've premeditated to kill someone."

Johnson was shocked when he said the first pervert - the killer killer over the weekend, the guy who cut off people's feet and the bleak environment in which he grew up would be uncomfortable, but the next drug-drug case, the Gobi shootout, the Cecil Hotel-sexual-assault to death, resembling the genius of Dexter's cop...... Little by little, he didn't believe everything he had to say about the weekend.

All of this is so bizarre.

Later, Johnson didn't know whether he should doubt it or not, the weekend story was too true, and every experience could be said to make you empathize, but as a psychiatrist, he could only analyze from the patient's statement, even if he had doubts about the statement.

"Ordinary people...... Well......" Johnson cleared his throat: "Ordinary people will awaken the self-healing function while speaking their hearts, which is why it is easier for patients to figure out something after seeing a psychiatrist." It's not that he doesn't understand, but he can't think about it for a while, and through narration, he will re-examine everything he has experienced from another perspective...... You ......"

Both of them began to lose their words.

Johnson gathered his thoughts a little and continued: "I'm afraid you don't think so, at this time. Mr. Zhou. IMHO. You should be waiting for my help, saying this will not make it easy for you at all. ”

"Yes." The weekend did not deny: "That's why I came to see you, please believe that the one sitting across from you is by no means a fragile uh man." ”

"On the contrary, I think you're too strong to be believed." Johnson secretly added in his mind: "If that is all true." ”

After thinking about it for a while, I still didn't think much about it, and asked back: "Why do you think so, shouldn't people who come to a psychiatrist for help be very fragile people?" ”

"At least you're not crazy." Johnson made a little joke: "Zhou." I could call you that, right? Zhou, what you have experienced, many people can't bear it, some people may leave a psychological shadow when they see the person who jumped off the building fall to their death in front of them, and some people can't even face the death of their relatives. There are levels of endurance in people, and I really doubt how you can face so many misfortunes strongly. He glanced intently at the weekend's expression.

At that time, a sentence that had been hidden in my heart for many years and had never been said to anyone finally came out: "I generally choose to be indifferent." ”

What could he do?

No matter which country you are a police officer. Whether it is a patrol officer, a criminal police officer, or a police detective, when they arrive at the scene of the murder. Seeing family members sitting on the ground crying, what can I do on the weekend? Is he going to follow the compassionate? Is the case still solved? This is not a human tragedy, especially when I see my wife being raped by someone - and her husband is finally convicted of excessive defense when she accidentally kills someone, if you don't choose to be indifferent on the weekend, he will never live to this day, Christina's example is there, there are so many struggles in the world!

"Apathy?"

Johnson seems to have found the source of the disease: "Apathy does not mean that you have not experienced or felt it, indifference is the most hurtful way to deal with emotions in the world, you have chosen the wrong path." ”

"You pile up all your emotions in the dead corner with indifference, thinking that you can no longer see or hear, who ever wanted to look back, only to find that it was you who was squatting in the dead corner, and those 'unwilling emotions' that were frozen in indifference filled every place you could see."

Johnson searched for the only remaining cases in his mind as much as he could, and said: "In the eighties, there was a serial murderer in Mexico who specialized in cutting people's tongues, and after he was arrested, he confessed to the reason why he cut 14 tongues in three years...... Zhou, do you understand what I mean by this? ”

"I understand that anger turns a weak person into a terror, this guy must have gone through an incredible mental struggle to kill fourteen people in three years, it is a relief for the police to catch him, he will cry like a the moment he is arrested......"

"I'm not talking about that."

He corrected, "I mean, apathy can ruin you before you know it, Mr. Policeman. ”

"You have to communicate with people, even if it's very useless to sit on the doorstep steps with someone's thighs in your arms."

Weekend shook his head and said, "No kidding. He really laughed: "All the people I know are police officers, do you think whose thighs I hold and cry won't make headlines at the police station the next day?" ”

How could this man, who had just entered the homicide department and planted his own flag when the dragons were leaderless, show vulnerability, wouldn't that mean that he would fall short?

"To be honest, I don't really want to prescribe medication to you, although giving you some antidepressant prescription medication can help ease your mood."

If the psychologist thinks that the drug treatment within his authority can no longer control the condition, then they will recommend a psychiatrist for the patient, which has to be treated differently according to different situations.

After listening to everything that Johnson said over the weekend, he explained: "Man is a creature that needs a balance very much, not only physically, but also psychologically, have you ever heard the saying that all geniuses have quirks, the meaning of this sentence is misunderstood by most people." Zhou, in your world, solving cases is the only way you can prove yourself, don't deny it, at least according to your narrative, it's true. If a person is too prominent in certain aspects, he will appear outstanding in that field, which will lead to him not being able to achieve anything other than something that he is good at. When have you ever seen a house with only one wall? A car with only one tire? A horse with only one hoof? ”

"You are like this, the more you are not good at other aspects, the more willing you are to stay in the field you are good at, and the sense of accomplishment you give here cannot be given in other directions. Slowly, the environment you were exposed to changed, Zhou, you found that there were still some things around you when you were in Monteck, and when you arrived in Los Angeles, there were none. Because you can't change those things and don't want to touch them, in this case you choose to be indifferent, then of course you are only left with perverts - killers and criminals. ”

"Cultivated in this environment for a long time, let alone you, I will also have extreme thoughts, after all, there are people in front of me who handle things in this way. You, on the other hand, have a lot of experience in this area. ”

"You're angry at what they're doing, and then you're going to think, 'Why can't I do this?' and that's where those horrible thoughts come from."

Looking up at the psychiatrist in front of him on the weekend, too many thoughts caused by the other party were flooding into the depths of his mind, like a gust of wind blowing a thousand waves.

Johnson was relieved after finding the cause: "Zhou, the police are the guarantee of community policing for those of us, but for you, the definition is all. Work is not everything, and if my wife were sick, you would never see me here; If my classmates choose to meet today, you will not be able to meet me here, psychologist is my profession, my job, everyone in the United States puts their family first, their own life second, and the third should be work. ”

"So we can live in peace."

The weekend understood that if a person has been in the field he is good at for a long time, he will be very proud of the sense of achievement, this pride refers to the thought, then, the person who has this kind of thinking will become angry once he encounters a setback, and no one likes to be killed in the field he is good at.

"Looks like you know what to do, and at the same time, I'm sorry, not following the treatment that a psychiatrist should use. Mr. Zhou, the time has come. ”

"You have to have your own life."

The weekend figured it out in an instant, and the shit-like Ted knew to find Penelope as a life adjustment...... (To be continued......)