Ilan's thoughts fluctuated on the top of the mountain for a long time, only to realize that if she didn't go down the mountain, it would be completely dark, and she went down the mountain in a panic, and it was dark before she reached the halfway point of the mountain. She was in a hurry to descend the mountain, but she began to be afraid of the rustle of the leaves in the wind, and always felt that there were footsteps in all directions, and those slightly swaying branches, in the twilight outlined the longing and ghostly posture of teeth and claws, and the quiet and distant scenery during the day became a shadow peeping in a potential corner at night. Her shoulders were particularly cold, and she tensed up excitedly, fearing that a hand would come up the next moment. Yilan became more and more anxious, constantly cheering himself up in his heart: "This is my mountain, this is my mountain." "It seems that this gives confidence and security.

In a panic, Ilan bumped into a thin branch that poked out, the pain was not painful at all, but it was too unexpected, especially when she was still nervously suspicious in her heart, and immediately screamed out of control with an "ah", her heart was beating wildly, and only after seeing it clearly did she let out a breath and walk forward with courage. After walking for a while, a black shadow suddenly fluttered in front of her head, and she screamed in front of Yilan's head, flapping her wings and flying away, her heart froze, her whole body froze, and she involuntarily took a big step back, as if she had touched something on her head, and screamed again, even more poignant than before. Stroking her fried scalp and turning her head suddenly, the tip of her nose was the end of a branch, and the blackness trembled under her nose.

Ilan's heart was beating like a drum, and her mind was blank for a few seconds before she stiffened her neck and turned around and continued to walk, and after a few steps, there was a warm liquid flowing down her face, she actually ...... I cried, I was really scared. At first, she knew how to wipe it, but then she thought that she was the only one here, and no one saw her wolf bèi, it didn't matter how wolf bèi was, and she didn't wipe it, so she let the tears fall by themselves, and the tear stains dried by themselves, she just kept her eyes open and tried to pay attention to the soles of her feet, and she didn't dare to look at other places at all. Not to mention, after crying, the psychology of fear and fear is actually much smaller, there is a feeling similar to "I'm like this, only one life, love to take it or not" The feeling of being a single, and then even if the image is not good, it can be called even rolling and climbing, after all, I didn't fall all the way to the foot of the mountain.

After getting into the hovercar, Ilan looked back at the mountain behind her, which still stood quietly in the night, outlining a silhouette darker than the night, and the terrifying descent was like an illusion. Ilan thought blankly: Where is her mountain, it is its own, and in two years, I will change my younger brothers and sisters to take care of it. Then it occurred to her that the farm she was thinking about was not owned by her, but rented. Even the warm feeling that Huo Sibei brought to her will not be permanent, at most two or three years, and after graduation, she will go her separate ways. She basically watched Moss Star for the rest of his life, and his life had just begun, and they were like two straight lines, occasionally intersecting, drifting apart.

At this moment, Ilan's mood was extremely gloomy, and all she could think about was the negative side. She bitterly realized that she had nothing in this world, nothing had really been grasped, and when she returned to Moss, she might be as alone as she had been in the first three years of school, shrinking into a corner, afraid that she would not be loved, hated, and remembered. To be honest, if she really accidentally stumbled and died in the mountains today, no one would find out immediately, at least no one would come to her until Duanmu came back on Monday, she died quietly like this, and was only discovered a few days later, how ugly it would be. Ilan couldn't help but use her imagination, her whole body shook, her nose couldn't help but be sore, she sadly felt that this was most likely the end of her life alone on the farm in the future. A lifetime of loneliness in exchange for a few sighs from others, so why is she still working so hard? The ending is already doomed, so why go through the process?

Thinking of the pitiful appearance of the young Tong Yilan following behind the nursery of the Jiqì people, and then thinking of the desolation of her and Ayou's dependence on each other in the future, she was born and abandoned, and she was old and didn't know where to go. Lonely people usually have a bad fate, no one to worry about her, and she is actually quite tired because she depends on her own maintenance. On this frightened night when she could only carry it alone, in the dark and lonely wilderness, in the car with the windows closed and not having to worry about others, all her negative feelings were vented. She was lying in the car, thinking of all the difficulties of life, thinking of her life being stretched, calculating expenses all day long, living a shrunken life, and the tuition and living expenses still to be earned, she couldn't help but feel sad, and the more she cried, the more sad she became. She had never tried to cry in such a wanton disregard for her image, and once all the suppressed feelings had the opportunity to break through the threshold of rational restraint, they would be surging and uncontrollable.

Later, she was finally tired of crying, there were no tears, her mind was exhausted and her brain couldn't turn, she automatically stopped sobbing, stared at the starry sky with dull eyes, didn't think about anything, just looked at it stupidly, from the starry sky to the fading starlight, the fish belly was first revealed, and the grass and trees and forests began to show vitality again.

As the day dawned, the depression brought by the night gradually subsided, and the bright light changed her mood, and Yilan finally twisted her stiff neck, staring at a small red wildflower that was swinging in the wind in front of the car, and thought incredibly: I am crazy with fear, I am crying like that because of the collapse of love. Last night's idea was too wrong, everyone is born to die, because the end of the doomed death is not right, then who is still born, anyway, will die. But everyone has survived, whether it is a legendary life, or a mediocre life, isn't it just a process, it doesn't matter if people are unhappy in their lives, there are more unsatisfactory people, who dares to say that everything is going well? If you don't cover the coffin, sometimes you can't make a conclusion if you cover the coffin, some people have a beautiful life, and they are still criticized after death, peace and health are blessings, don't force others. Besides, isn't there any descendant to count on at the worst of all? The descendants are good, people can explain the past in this life, and in a high way, they have also made a little contribution to the development of the human race, which is the meaning of most people's lives. If she can find a real person to marry and have children in the future, it is the best, if she can't find it without fate in the future, it's good to be free, if she is afraid of loneliness, she will go to an orphanage to adopt a child, give him love and give him a home, so that there is less of a lonely person in this world and more warmth, if you think of such trouble, you can donate a little money as much as you can, and she can live a meaningful life in the name of a good person. At a lower level, even if she doesn't do good deeds, she lives alone and lives in peace, successfully supports herself, and does not encroach on social resources, which is also a meaning.

Ilan, on the whole, is a reasonable and transparent person. Last night, I will vent all the sorrows that have been accumulated for many years and are not for outsiders, although the mental consumption is very large, and the body is also very tired, but the heart is unprovoked and smoother, and the vigorous scenery in the early morning is stimulated, and the self-discharge is relieved, and a heart gradually settles down. She secretly warned that in the future, she will never think too much about being alone, she must not indulge herself in a miserable situation, and she will be sad to see everything under the collapse of love, in that case, she should let herself sleep directly, if the sky is not bright, it has been dark, and under the hint of the gloomy environment, she may not be able to think about how sad this world is, in fact, she has survived this one, and now the world is still peaceful, her life is still stable, and she will get a diploma in three years, and then she will change to a big farm to save money, The prosperous days are ahead, and there is nothing that cannot be overcome.

After finishing the psychological construction, Yilan let out a long breath and secretly scolded herself for being too timid, a few branches and a bird could scare her like this. After a few words of self-comfort, some people are still scared stupid, and there are fart and urine, she just cried, which is good, and she hasn't cried for a few years, so it's a good thing to properly guide her. Ilan brushed his face, made up his mind, and drove the hovercar back to the observation point. After carefully washing my face and taking a shower, I was still dizzy and my eyes were swollen. She was glad that Duanmu didn't come back today, otherwise she wouldn't even be able to step out of the door, and she would be scared when she went out. After taking the nutrients, she was going to sleep for half a day to refresh herself, and then check on the slope in the afternoon. If Sister Lin planted her land, it is estimated that she will only be depressed for a while, and she will have to roll up her sleeves to work, and she will have to seize the time to rest and patrol the land.

stayed up late or cried, even if she was sleepy and tired, she couldn't sleep for a while, she tossed and turned in bed several times, but she didn't succeed in falling asleep. Looking at the communicator, she couldn't help it after all, if Huo Sibei looked for her later, she would have been the same to him, she was too frightened by herself last night, and vented the pain of living alone hard, and it was none of his business. If he hadn't looked for her, he would have just taken advantage of it, the two of them didn't look like people all the way, and from now on the bridge to the bridge and the road to the road, the shorter the time, the less painful. This sudden affection that was not in her plan should be regarded as a mess in life, and it will help to live a solid life after being straightened out.

She clicked on the communicator, and what jumped into her eyes was a series of video requests from Huo Sibei, starting from yesterday afternoon, and it was densely packed at night, and there were also in the early morning, once an hour, he didn't sleep all night? Yilan first looked at the time when the first video request was issued, estimated it for a while, and snorted secretly in his heart, Huo Sibei actually continued to be angry for most of the time unreasonably before thinking of looking for her, and he couldn't see that he had a big temper. Then he looked at the row of video requests and was a little worried, it was not good for his health not to rest like this, and the training of the mecha team members was very hard. Later, she couldn't help grinning, thinking of her fear last night, and someone was uncomfortable at the same time, she was much more balanced. After a while, he muttered, he seems to be proficient in these doorways, shouldn't it be pre-set and then sent out in batches according to time?

Communicator logs show text messages starting in the early hours of the morning:

"Elan, where are you? There is no car for you in the garage. ”

"Elan, where are you?

There are several articles, and Ilan feels that this is definitely issued in batches, and the words and sentences are exactly the same, but if there is one more sentence or one less sentence, he will not say anything else.

Ilan complained and frowned, he had been to the garage downstairs of her dormitory, and he said yesterday morning that he was there, shouldn't he have been waiting there, Ilan was shocked, and thought that there would not really be such a stupid person, so he was a little relieved.

She hesitated for a moment and sent a long text message back:

"I chose a planting major, and there is an observation point near the field, and because I have to collect a number of jù, I will be permanent. The observation point is a small building, two people living together for two years, and the person you hear is my new neighbor, who can also be called a roommate, because the bedroom is door to door, only a few steps away. We go to school together, we get out of class together, the seats are together, and there's a lake that we manage together. I'm relieved if you can accept it, and I'm sorry if you can't. ”

The message passed, and Ilan felt that her words and sentences were not good, she was too naïve, full of a kind of provocation like anger, but she couldn't catch it back if she sent it. She stared at the communicator closely, and sure enough, the reply came quickly:

"Ilan, I want to talk to you."

There are also video requests. Ilan didn't care about that, her current dignity was unremarkable. She replied, "Not right now, I'm busy." ”

After a while, the other head came back and asked, "When is it?" ”

Elan sighed, can her eyelids be swollen in the afternoon? She thought about it for a moment and replied, "Afternoon, wait for my video." "Dusk is also afternoon, and she should be able to recover by then.

Immediately the other end of the sentence came: "I want to see you." ”

Ilan almost cursed, how to see it? It's a long way to go, can she still inspect her fields? Obviously, a question that can be clarified by video conferencing prefers to be talked about in person. Ilan didn't answer, she was thinking about how to squeeze out time.

There was another sentence immediately: "Ilan, I really want to see you, we need to communicate." ”

Yilan's heart was a little blocked, Huo Sibei's tone seemed that he was ready to solve the problem rationally, and she didn't meet him again, as if she was making trouble unreasonably, who was making trouble at first? After thinking about it, he is now calm and knows that it is good to communicate. With a long sigh, she wrote, "I'll go back to the dormitory in the afternoon, and I'll contact you when I get there." She lamented in her heart that the body she had made up by sleeping in the morning could not be used for her inspection work.

"You give me the address of the observation point, and I'll come here."

Yilan really didn't want to pay attention to him, he was getting more and more inches, he didn't leave room for her, he had to know all her dens, he knew about the rooms on the dormitory floor last time, and he wanted to come to the observation point this time. After a night of catharsis, Yilan was in a state of physical and mental fatigue and laziness at this time, in other words, she was not able to detain herself as steadily and decently as usual, in other words, she was still in the aftermath of a kind of wanton and unrestrained love, and at present she was more open-tempered, so she was angry and replied: "I'm afraid you can't stand the stimulation." ”

It was estimated that there was silence for a while before sending a message: "Yilan, I'm sorry." Ilan, I want to see you. ”

Ilan couldn't get angry anymore. She asked, "Did you sleep last night?" ”

There was silence over there, and only said, "Yilan, give me the address, and I'll come over." "Elan knows that, he never lies too much, and when he doesn't want to say something, he is silent or something else. She got up, and carefully observed her face, thinking that it would take a lot of time on the way if he came over, and her swollen face should be a lot better by then, or she could also go over, but she might be seen by many people, and people saw her obviously crying like this and chatted with Huo Sibei Station, and tomorrow the two of them would have to go to the Tuduo forum to be gossiped about. Let him come over, he won't come once, and he will pester her to come over in the future, come over early and say it's open, let him go back early to rest, everyone will have classes tomorrow.

She didn't answer, and she started to say again, "Ilan, I'm sorry. ”

Ilan couldn't even sigh, people apologized several times, she couldn't be unforgiving anymore, so she reluctantly sent the address of her observation point. There was no more information to harass her, and she wondered if it was too late to hurry up and sleep.

Ilan waited on the sofa in the living room, slowly sleepy, and before she could sleep, the doorbell rang. She woke up in a hurry, and was so anxious that she wanted to rush upstairs to see her face, but she only took one step of stairs and came down again. She sighed and walked over to open the door.