86_86324 walked out of the bedroom, I went back to the living room and sat down next to Duan Ke.

Maybe Duan Ke saw that my eyes were still red, and she pinched my arm with her hand, with an expression on her face that wanted to say nothing.

"Don't say anything comforting," I said to him, squeezing a smile on my face, "I can stand it." ”

"Are they all in there?" She finally asked me.

"Well," I replied, puffing out another cigarette and lighting it, "don't sit here all the time, go, go and visit my room." “

After finishing speaking, I got up and walked to my bedroom, Duan Ke immediately followed, it seems that this girl can't sit still for a long time.

Pushing open my bedroom door, I could smell the familiar smell of my bedroom, even though the house was full of rancid odors. The curtains inside were drawn tightly, but because the sunlight outside was strong, the curtains seemed to glow, and the bedroom was bright. The quilt was neatly spread out on the bed, and the items on the computer desk were neatly arranged. I hadn't been back in months, so my mom must have cleaned such a tidy bedroom.

It's really the most comfortable place in the world, I sighed, and I couldn't help but lie down when I saw the soft quilt on the bed. The whole face was buried in the quilt, and after a while, I smelled the faint fragrance of the quilt. When I close my eyes, I immediately have an image of my mother tidying up her bedroom. I think my mother must have wanted me to be more comfortable the next time I came home when she was tidying up the mess and cleaning up the mess on the table. I'm comfortable lying on the bed now, but she's gone.

In the dream, the tears of the mother in the hometown are dripping through the stone and looking forward to the return.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but feel another pang of pain in my chest, and I almost burst into tears again.

My surroundings suddenly lit up, and I looked up to see that Duan Ke had opened the curtains, the sun was shining in, and she was holding on to the guardrail of the windowsill to look out.

"I thought only girls loved beds." She said to herself.

I'm lying on the bed in a "big" shape right now, somewhat indecent, and the excitement of returning to the bedroom just now makes me forget that there is another person behind me. I embarrassedly rolled over, walked over to the computer desk, and said to her, "There are some books on the desk, you can flip through them." ”

Duan Ke nodded, his eyes already looking around on the computer desk. I went back to bed and sat down for a while, then exited the door, I needed to be alone for a while. Walking back into the living room, I went out onto the sunny balcony, pulled over the chaise longue that my dad used to use, and fell asleep. The row of potted plants on the balcony in front of me, although no one has been caring for it for a long time, is still shining green in the sun, and it looks better than my dad used to take care of it.

During those two hours of sleeping in a recliner, I thought about it a lot. Thinking about my parents, my friends, my previous life, and my future. My parents and friends are probably gone, which means that all my ties to the city have been cut off. In a way, I am now a new person, a person who has no past.

But when I think about my future, I don't have a rut. I've been back at home I've been looking forward to for a long time, but my parents are gone, and it's just an empty room for me.

Where am I going tomorrow? Or do you want to stay in this empty house?

Uncle Wang is right, touching the scene is the most terrible thing, and if I stay here, I will only fall into the whirlpool of memories. If I could find a target, I would get out of here immediately, but I just couldn't find it.

It's like there's no hope, you have a lot of resources around you that you can use but you don't know what to do with them. No wonder Uncle Wang said that people must always find hope in life. I remembered the days when I used to walk on the highway, and although I was shrouded in fear and loneliness every day, I finally had a goal in mind and knew where I should go.

For two hours, I smoked all the cigarettes I had left. Since the incident, my addiction to smoking has become bigger and bigger, but this is fine, there is no point in living for a long time, and I can't commit suicide, so I can only choose this kind of chronic suicide.

Duan Ke quietly appeared behind me and gently tapped my shoulder, which shocked me into thinking.

"It's twelve o'clock, I'm hungry." She said.

I turned my head and joked to him, "You should walk with a little noise in the future, I have a small heart." "I looked up at my watch and realized that I had been sitting here for a long time.

"Of course I walk with a sound, it's your ear problem." Duan Ke retorted, turned around and walked into the living room.

I stood up, I also felt hungry when she mentioned this, so let's settle lunch first and then discuss where to go with Duan Ke. I went into the kitchen to see if there was anything else in the fridge that worked. I regretted opening the door of the refrigerator, and the smell told me that the contents of the refrigerator were not much better than the corpses outside.

The rest of the backpack was barely enough for the two of us to last a while, and I immediately felt that I had thought too much about it just now, and if I didn't mention anything else, it would just solve the problem of food and clothing, which would be enough for us to run around. When we walked out of the supermarket, we should still ask Uncle Wang to order something, so that we could rest at home for a day and not have to go out to find dinner.

"Are you going to stay here, or somewhere?" Duan Ke asked me as he chewed on a biscuit.

I shook my head at her and said, "Don't stay here, we'll leave in the afternoon." “

"Where to go?"

"Looking for food, don't you see that the backpack is empty?"

"And we're back to the supermarket?" She asked me with a little excitement.

"I don't know."

"Actually, I think it's very good there, there is electricity, and you can take a bath, why don't we talk to Uncle Wang and let him stay with us?"

"Well," I thought, "I'll talk about that then." ”

After a light lunch, I went back to the recliner to enjoy the sunshine, while Duan Ke sat cross-legged on the ground and played with potted plants.

"You say, are we fated?" She asked me suddenly.

"What?" I immediately said that it wasn't that I didn't hear her clearly, but that I didn't expect her to ask such an ambiguous question, and I really didn't know how to answer it.

I paused for a few seconds, then continued to say to her, "Forget it, you see, all the people in the school are dead, but you don't die, and you still follow me for so long, and finally miraculously appear on the highway." ”

"Well, who told me that I was so boring at that time." She said.

"Fate is just a matter of probability, and the probability we can encounter is already the fate of fate." I laughed and said, "It's like God shuffled the cards in the world, and we just happened to be shuffled together." ”

Duan Ke looked at me and smiled, don't look over.

In order to avoid embarrassment, I changed the conversation and continued to ask her, "Do you have any other places you want to go besides going back to the supermarket?" ”

"Park." She said.

"Far away."

She rolled her eyes for a long time, and replied to me with a smile: "I still want to go home." ”

"But I haven't found the plane yet." I said with a smile.

"But I can drive."

"Driving?"

"Yes, drive back, as long as we can find a car."

"However, the highway ......is blocked," I didn't wait for me to finish saying this, and I immediately thought of Uncle Wang, who wanted to turn around and go to the national highway but was blocked. Yes, under normal circumstances, when people choose inter-provincial transportation by car, the first thing that comes to mind is to get on the highway, and national highways and provincial highways are usually just the routes chosen by travelers when driving.

"And the national highway!" I immediately said again.

"What if the national highway is full of cars?"

"Then it's just a matter of going to the park."

I immediately pulled out the traffic map in my bag, looked through it a few times, and felt that this plan was feasible. However, you can't see the road conditions in the book, so you have to go and see it yourself. Although Duan Ke can drive, her driving experience is only more than a year, and she doesn't know if she can cope with the road conditions of national and provincial highways. We decided to go back to the supermarket first to see if we could get Uncle Wang's help.

Without further ado, I closed the traffic map and was ready to go. Actually, I didn't want to help Duan Ke go home, I knew that when she got home, she would probably be in the same situation as I am now, I just wanted to get out of here urgently, as long as she could help me name a place, and it would take a certain amount of time to get there. Maybe after this time, I will be able to forget the grief of bereavement. But isn't it a little too selfish to exchange the pain she will face for the relief in my heart?

Forget it, I'm too lazy to think about it so much, it's a question of whether I can go so far, maybe it's just two young heads talking on paper here, so let's go back to the supermarket and find Uncle Wang first. I went to the bedroom to change into a clean set of clothes, and Duan Ke also tried a coat, although it still didn't fit, but she said that as long as it was clean. With the beard off my face, I finally turned the house around, except for my parents' bedroom.

One hour later, Duan Ke and I were standing outside the door, preparing to say goodbye to my home. I threw the keys inside and I decided not to come back.

"Are you willing?" Duan Ke looked at the key that was thrown in and asked.

I took one last look inside, then slammed the door behind me and said, "Reluctantly." ”。