Until I was ten years old, I didn't even think about the meaning of "Alexander" that I carried, just as I followed a script, and no one or event around me ever aroused my interest.

Perhaps, as I thought in my own heart, it was all arranged.

Who or for what purpose, when the goal is achieved, there is no need to investigate all influencing factors other than the result - this mode of thinking, in our Alexandrian family, regardless of gender, is the only one that is recognized and allowed.

It's as if my blindfold automatically becomes a part of my body as I wear it out day after day.

……

10th birthday party.

My father is the current head of the Alexander family, and you can imagine how powerful it is to be in the face of exquisite pomp and circumstance.

Maintaining the nobility and inviolable majesty of my family, I can't see it, but I can feel the deviation from reality just by the sound of communication.

The conclusion was that I wasn't happy, not as happy as I should be as a birthday protagonist.

In fact, it has always been a molded atmosphere, which is not much different from year to year, and this is a theme that belongs to those in power, using my formalism.

So I also came to realize that birthdays are the days when adults get together and communicate.

When did I really realize that I was redundant, and even later began to care about it again, I think it was on this day - the tenth birthday party became an irretrievable demarcation point.

Sit down in specially decorated chairs and start with the banquet. I had been sitting upright with a composure on my face, mentally estimating that more than an hour had passed, and that the belt had been tightened tightly, but the effects had been immune to it as early as the second month I had used it.

In this way, another hour passed, and I was sure that I would not feel the hardship, and that I could still take it in stride, and continue to be an impeccable lady of Alexander's current family.

It's just that I still have to face the most basic premise, no matter how extraordinary my status is, I am also a human being.

I hadn't eaten a drop of water since the end of the lunch meal, and my throat finally burned unbearably after more than an hour of insistent neglect.

Want to drink water. Any water will do. I don't need any fresh juice or coffee milk that has been carefully mixed up, just give me water.

With the slightest movement, he pondered the sounds around him, and made sure that the center of the topic he heard was not himself, so he slowly moved his arm. Because of the intricate design of the long skirt, it is just hidden. I searched for the front of the area where I didn't need to make a big move. Unfortunately, all I could touch was a wine glass for wine, and disappointment and nervousness crept up my forehead, and I hummed softly. The feeling of self-containment of dryness became stronger because of the tremor, and I had no choice, this was the only option.

"Go get me a glass of water." The extremely small decibel that has been restrained has not responded to the fluctuation of air turnover after waiting for a long time.

Is there no one with me?

At least one or two waiters!

I completely forgot that my waiter had just been summoned by my mother.

It's just that the endurance ends here, as if fate was deliberately playing this trick, anyway, the timing is not right.

I couldn't see it, even though the banquet hall I was in at the moment was in the castle where I lived, but as soon as there were more people, I began to be at a loss.

Aside from the limitations of my physical factors, the etiquette I studied also taught me not to be loud.

I bit my lip flap tightly, for fear that a breath and air entering my mouth would aggravate this torture and shorten the time for revealing the embarrassment.

Is there any way to fix it? And what can be done to procrastinate?

It's really burning eyebrows.

My limbs gradually weakened, and then I tensed up again because of my uneasy emotions, and just as my face began to change color, I suddenly felt a familiar breath approaching me, with a faint fragrance, which made it easier for me to hold my breath than when I was in a dream.

"Brother, don't ......" The tone of the voice was not finished, but it stopped because of the cold touch that came to his mouth.

"Drink it all." pounced on himself and invaded all his nerves.

I obediently opened my mouth and grunted and drank very infigurably, and there seemed to be a vague gasping sound around me, but I had not forgotten to ruminate at all.

"Let's go! I'll take you somewhere else. ”

But ...... wanted to speak, but it turned into air.

Even my body refuses to betray my original intentions, I want to go.

Brother, take me.

"Xunjian." The vicissitudes of life are not to be underestimated, bringing inexplicable hairs to stand up.

"Father."

"You ......" didn't have the heart to listen to what his father wanted to say, only a voice cried out in the bottom of his heart, full of supplication and hesitation that bordered on fear.

Are you going to leave?

You've just come to me.

Don't stop it!

If I could make a wish, it would be my wish.

It's only today, let me be willful once!

My throat was stiffened by the imminent atmosphere, and I knew that I was completely lost in my composure.

"It's okay, don't be afraid." Brother's gentle voice sounded again, and suddenly his hand was held in his palm again, "Let's go!" ”

It was just that his little hand was wrapped in his slightly larger hand, and his restless heart suddenly stopped being at a loss, stood up in a daze, and walked out.

"Hmm......" he sighed with emotion, but I felt like I was stepping on the clouds, and there was not much realism.

Hearing that I didn't respond, he suddenly stopped, "Why are you still so nervous?" My father had agreed. ”

Agreed...... How so?

It's just that I don't have the heart to listen at all, and I don't want to investigate the reason.

It would be enough to be with my brother, but I can't say anything like that.

"Since you are happy, don't force yourself." He paused and put his hand over my left and right cheeks, "It's your birthday, how can you not be happy?" Laugh a little! ”

As soon as my face became hot, my breathing became abnormal.

Now, brother, did you hear my messy heartbeat?

Have you ever seen my already red little face by the moonlight?

Brother, I want to be able to see, to see your face, to see what kind of expression you will have when you face me at this moment.

"Follow me ten more steps, and there is a gift I have for you."

It doesn't matter, brother, you're the gift I want.

"One-step, two-step......"

Ten steps later, the smell of calamus fills the courtyard.

The cold is over, and the flowers have woken up.

There is no glory and withering in the eyes, and the solitude is long-lived.

It was that night that I was able to see.

This year, Angelica was ten years old and Xun Jian was twelve years old. (To be continued......)