Ji Qingling smiled noncommittally, but did not speak.

The two of them were relatively speechless for an unknown amount of time.

Ji Qingling slowly spoke, "Sister Yuan, I feel very bitter in my heart, I don't know why I think of many things in the past recently, and I can't be at peace for a moment, those things have obviously passed, but I can't let go." Even when I was studying, I often wandered, thinking that listening to the guqin, drinking tea and burning incense when I was in Yunxiangtang could calm me down a little, so I came. ”

Zhang Yuan sighed lightly, but didn't ask her where she had so much sorrow at such a young age, just thought about it, turned around and went to the study to get a book for her, "You can read it when you have time, how can it be smooth sailing in this life?" I also read it when I feel very depressed, I can't tell how useful it is, but I can solve it in the end. ”

Ji Qingling looked at the title of the book, "Diamond Sutra", and suddenly became embarrassed, "Sister Yuan, I don't want to become a monk yet." ”

She felt uncomfortable, but she was not so disheartened that she wanted to become a monk, after all, there are still many people and things in this world that make her nostalgic.

Zhang Yuan was angry with her, "Reading the Diamond Sutra is to become a monk?" Don't be so narrow-minded, okay? You treat religion as a kind of philosophy, and you feel depressed because your spiritual world has no support, and it is good to read philosophy. ”

Ji Qingling's gloom has not decreased, she feels depressed, it is because of her son Junjun, who has no chance, not the boring troubles she thought, but-

"I've heard that copying the scriptures or meditating on the scriptures can surpass the deceased loved ones, haven't I?" She suddenly looked at Zhang Yuan with a look of hope.

Zhang Yuan was choked by her, "How do I know, I'm not a monk and nun." ”

In the next moment, she saw Ji Qingling's eyes dim, and hurriedly added, "But it should be okay, the key to this kind of thing is the heart, you have this heart, your family should be able to feel it." ”

Seeing that Ji Qingling's face regained a trace of brilliance, she sighed in her heart, there are not many simple and simple girls like her in this world, and she really wants to copy the scriptures and books to pay tribute to her relatives, "I sometimes go to some temples to listen to the preaching of senior monks, if you are interested, I will take you with me." ”

In fact, she is not interested in Buddhism, but since Junjun's death, she has been thinking about him all the time, in her previous life, she used alcohol to anesthetize herself, in this life she does not want to repeat the mistakes of the past, so she pressed this thought deeply in her heart, she thought that if she didn't think about it, she could forget it, and she could start again, but she really couldn't do it, when the heart lock of defense was broken, the overwhelming thoughts swept over, so that she did not have a moment of peace.

When she saw other people's children on the road, she thought that my handsome was so cute at the beginning; Seeing Fu Zijun, she also thought that Junjun was still more like her father; When she saw KFC, she thought it was Junjun's favorite food......

She was afraid of being intimate with Fu Zijun, because she was afraid of having children, worried that she would still not be a good mother, and would harm Junjun again; But sometimes when she is crazy, she wants to have a child with Fu Zijun, but she understands that even if they give birth to that child, it will not be Junjun.

Now her mind, eyes, and heart are full of her own cute and pitiful child, and she can't live in anyone else.

Her absent-mindedness is too obvious, Wang Ling when she has not recovered from a long illness, the requirements for her have also relaxed a little, the burden of schoolwork is not so heavy, she has more time to think nonsense, when Fu Zijun saw the pages of the hand-copied "Diamond Sutra" on her desk, she was so shocked that she almost knocked over the water in the cup.

He knew that her love was not good for a while, but he didn't expect Yan zhòng to reach this point, did she want to become a monk?

With a judgment in his heart, he began to observe her carefully, she no longer burns heavy dishes recently, she doesn't do baking, and even the food at home can't even see the shadow of minced meat, if it was before, he must not have noticed, after all, she is just as delicious as vegetarian dishes, but now the problem is that she has begun to eat vegetarian.

"Qingling, I want to have a good talk with you." He appeared behind her and found that she was copying the Diamond Sutra again, so engrossed that he didn't even notice that he had entered the door.

"Scared the hell out of me." Ji Qingling stroked his chest, "What's wrong?" ”

"You're starting to study Buddhism?" He couldn't hold back the boredom in his heart, and went straight to the point, he also knew a lot of noble ladies who ate fasting and recited Buddha, but they were all old people of the grandmother's generation, and there were some unfavored rooms used to relieve depression in their hearts, how could she need religion to calm her soul in her early twenties?

"Huh?" She subconsciously looked at the scriptures on the table, and looked embarrassed, "I shouldn't be studying Buddhism, I don't know anything, I just copy the scriptures." ”

"Why do you want to learn this?"

She didn't speak, obviously not knowing how to answer him, did she have to say, because I was going to overtake our son? Fu Zijun will think that she is crazy, the two have not been intimate yet, where did the son come from.

She couldn't tell her secret, but the more she couldn't tell it, the more painful she became.

"You don't want to become a monk, do you?" Although he thought the idea was ridiculous, he couldn't help but ask.

"Sister Yuan said that this is philosophy, a philosophy that can calm people's minds." She has to admit that she is not enough to see through the red dust, although it is also painful, but once she is reborn, she still can't avoid the prosperity and excitement of the world, and she is a person who is greedy for enjoyment, and the Buddha who has the heart to become a monk will not want her.

It turned out to be Zhang Yuan? Fu Zijun frowned, as a man, he intuitively didn't want his wife to read these books, she was young, he wanted her to enjoy her life and married life like a little girl, instead of spending time with vegetarian chanting all day long like those wealthy ladies who had fallen out of favor.

"Feeling bad lately? Shall I go out with you for a few days? Seeing that she had been frowning lately, he felt uncomfortable.

Thinking that the initiator of this qiē was the threatening phone call that day, his face became even more ugly, and he secretly looked for someone to check, and all the clues pointed to Chen Zhilei, Fu's public relations director.

Although Chen Zhilei has been a classmate with him for many years, for him, she is just an ordinary classmate, and later his own colleague, he has always been emotionally dull, because he has no interest in her, so her admiration for him, he has never been aware, he always thought that she was willing to come to Fu's in order to show her talent, in view of her work ability, he also gave generous treatment, and later heard Ji Qingling vaguely mention it a few times, he only treated her as jealous, and didn't take it to heart at all, if it wasn't for this time he made up his mind to investigate to the end, I really didn't expect her to be crazy enough to attack Ji Qingling.

Such a person is no longer suitable to be his work partner, he has always been very clear about public and private, and he also understands what is most important to him, although Chen Zhilei's work ability is strong, it is not that there is no one who can replace her.

But because of the events of that day, the rift between him and Ji Qingling was not so light to make up, especially since she had lost so much weight recently, which made him kiss her forehead in distress.

"Do you still have time to play?" She looked at him suspiciously, since they "lived together", he had almost no entertainment, and he didn't go to work for three days a while ago to take care of her, it was not his workaholic style at all, is Fu Shi going to fall?

"It's man-made, don't worry, even if the Fu family really falls, I can afford to raise you." Seeing her write her thoughts clearly on her face, he rubbed her hair amusedly.

"I can afford to support myself." She replied with a backbone, and then realized that she was really funny like this, so she was embarrassed not to look away.

"Okay, don't be cranky, I'll book a ticket, let's go to France, okay?"

She raised her head excitedly, and then shook her head as if she thought of something, "Forget it, I missed a lot of Mr. Wang's homework when I was sick before, and I want to make up for it as much as possible." ”

Although Wang Ling didn't have much time to care about her, Shen Fuyan was a strict teacher, and if he knew that she had slipped out to play, he would definitely have to keep thinking about it.

"Don't worry, I'll tell them, you just have to go out and relax for a while, and then you can come back and have the energy to study better." As long as there is a heartbeat in her eyes, he will definitely try to help her make her wish come true.

Fu Zijun has a strong sense of action, he just mentioned yì with Ji Qingling in the evening, and the two of them had already gotten on the plane the next morning, Ji Qingling tugged at the shawl on his shoulder, still a little incredible, "Have you already arranged it?" ”

He smiled, "It's not interesting to arrange, it's a trip that says go." ”

She chuckled, her depressed mood was dispelled a lot by the excitement of traveling, this was the first time she had traveled with Fu Zijun, "Is this a honeymoon?" ”

Thinking that he would go to work in the company the day after he got married, and then always avoid her on business trips, and he didn't want to spend his honeymoon with her at all, he felt a pain in his heart, he owed her too much.

"Not this time, next time we'll plan a honeymoon trip." He stroked her hair apologetically.

She didn't care, she already felt very satisfied.

The excitement of the trip soon turned into the exhaustion of the international flight, and after laughing with him for a while, she leaned on him and fell asleep, he called the stewardess to come and get a blanket, carefully covered her, kissed her hair, and read the text in his hand while holding her hand.

Because of the haste of coming out, he still had some affairs at hand that had not been completed, so he could only take Wen Jiàn to the plane to watch, and after getting off the plane, he had to find an opportunity to have a TV and telephone conference with China, in fact, he was not as idle as she imagined.

Seeing that the stewardess looked enviously at the wedding ring of the ring finger of the two, such a golden and handsome man would be gentle and careful to this point, he is the perfect husband in every woman's mind, this woman who sleeps with her head down is really a blessing! R1152