PS: Happy New Year~

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Xuanmu said that he wanted to see the sea of clouds.

Yanran nodded.

In the breeze and cold moon, there are granular snowflakes floating outside the house, gently lapping on the transparent glass windows, making a crackling sound.

Yun Hai sat quietly on the bench in the corridor, frowning and looking tired.

He was a little surprised when he heard Yan Ran's words, and looked at her blankly for a long time, thinking that he had heard it wrong.

He wants to see him?

He remembered that in the autumn nine years ago, he said to him: "Lu Yunhai, from now on, you and I are no longer brothers...... See you again, don't know each other! ”

The air seemed to condense instantly, and even his breathing stopped, and he held the doorknob of the ward tightly but did not dare to open it, and his palms were cold.

There are all kinds of broken fragments flashing in his mind, immature faces, or crying or laughing, or frolicking and joking, or chasing crazy, they are wearing school uniforms, no matter what kind of expression flashes on their faces, they are so pure and clean, that is what he remembers each of them in his memory, but he doesn't know how to face them as adults.

It's not just memories that are shattered and torn......

In the end, Yunhai opened the door of the ward, the light in the ward was very dim, and a light came in with the crack in the open door, and he sat on the bed, wearing a white hospital gown, his face was as pale as paper, as if his eyes were pierced by the light, and he squinted slightly and looked up at him.

His silver-gray hair, chapped and white lips, and a tired expression made him look much older than his peers, exuding vicissitudes and bitterness that did not match his age.

Yun Hai stared at him for a long time, a pair of dark black eyes half-squinted. If the deep sea has been silent for hundreds of billions of years, it is impossible to detect any of his joys and sorrows.

He couldn't reconcile the person in front of him with the big boy who had no heart and lungs and played at all times, and had a sunny and clean temperament nine years ago.

I only felt a cramping pain in my chest, my eyebrows were knotted at the center of my eyebrows, my chest seemed to be blocked with a boulder, and a countercurrent blocked in my chest, making him unable to breathe, his nose was sore, and his eyes were overflowing with tears, and he tried to maintain it. Try to hold back and not let it out. In this way, he maintains his last pride and dignity as the eldest brother.

Time stood still, and the room was quiet and oppressive.

I don't know how long it took, but they laughed, very tacitly. I can't tell who laughed first and hated it. And who chose forgiveness first.

Xuanmu asked him. Why has he been looking for him for so many years?

He lowered his head and was silent, not knowing what to answer.

"Waiting for you. I...... Waiting for you. He said, his voice choked, as if he had exhausted all emotions, no longer a business wizard who was extremely intelligent, playing with people's hearts, and arranging troops, as if he had returned to the simple and clean big boy nine years ago in an instant.

No! It was a long time ago, when they were very young...... The age of fighting and frolicking in a mud pit.

I only felt as if someone had stabbed him in the chest, the pain made his eyebrows knotted, and tears slipped down uncontrollably, he hurriedly covered it with his hands and buried his face in the palm of his hand.

The moonlight poured into the quiet room through the window, and because it was so quiet, the sound of crying, choking, and even the sound of tears falling on the floor through the fingers was extremely clear.

"Damn! Why are you crying......" Xuanmu said, his eyes also red.

Yunhai, the eldest brother in his life, is a brother who was born and died, a sibling, how can it be a sentence "See you again, don't know each other!" "The love that can be cut off.

When they were young, the two often fought over who should listen to whom, until one time the two got lost in the deep forest, and Xuanmu was injured, and it was Yunhai who walked for two hours with Xuanmu, who weighed about his own, before he walked out of the deep forest.

Xuanmu woke up and said to him, you will be my eldest brother in the future, and I will listen to you.

Again, they simulated actual combat in the training camp, Yunhai was injured, and Xuanmu hid him in a cave and told him that he must live and wait for him to return.

In the end, Xuanmu came with the rescue team, but he made several cuts on his body.

They were brothers who had died, but he took his words seriously, hiding in the darkness like a shadow all these years, watching him face all the pain and despair alone, but unable to do anything.

Xuanmu said that he had been waiting for him all these years......

Such a sentence was enough to make him emotionally broken.

He is not worthy of being his eldest brother at all, and the emotions that have been suppressed for years explode instantly, and tears are full of tears, and he can't wipe them off.

"Who the is crying...... I didn't cry...... Not...... I just have sore eyes...... His eyes hurt ...... "He lowered his head and didn't dare to look at him, what a shame."

They had very little conversation that night, and the brothers were like that, they didn't need too many words, they all understood, even if they didn't say anything, they all understood!

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The sanatorium in Switzerland has beautiful scenery, icebergs, lakes and seas like peach orchards, but it is as terrifying as hell for him.

He was back there again, but unlike before, this time he did it voluntarily.

Maybe it was a change of mood, and he began to carefully observe everything here, the pleasant scenery, the natural beauty, in fact, this place is indeed beautiful.

The progress of the treatment was much more difficult than Yanran imagined, the first two months were the most difficult, in order to cooperate with the treatment, Xuanmu and Yanran could not meet, coupled with the inability to adapt to the new diagnosis and treatment methods and adverse reactions, Xuanmu fainted many times, both physically and mentally were extremely traumatized, and even couldn't recognize anyone for a while, and even forgot about himself.

It was only later, with appropriate medication and psychological intervention, that the situation gradually improved.

Because he couldn't see Xuanmu, all of Yanran's sources were through the sea of clouds. It's also strange to say, there were a few times when Yun Hai was afraid that Yan Ran was worried and deliberately concealed Xuan Mu's illness, but for some reason she could really feel Xuan Mu's pain and suffering, and under her repeated questioning, Yun Hai could only tell her the truth.

Maybe it's because she thinks about it day and night, she can always see him in her dreams during that time, and the general dream is chaotic and confused, and there is no trace to be found, especially after waking up, she will forget most of it. But the memory of meeting him in the dream was very clear, and the logic was very clear, and she even followed his guidance in the dream to visit the hospital room where he lived, chatted, and even kissed......

It was also because of the dream that she knew Xuanmu's situation well, but this dream was too real, and even secretly coincided with reality, which made her wonder if the dream was real.

She had never believed in any ghosts, but the dream was so strange that she was faintly afraid.

If her dreams are all true, and she and Xuanmu can really meet in the dream realm, it means that the two of them are having the same dream, as if someone has overtaken their souls and locked them in a small space...... Completely detached from reality, the soul meets in another dimension, and just thinking about it makes her hairs stand on end. (To be continued.) )