Chapter 223: Desolation and loneliness
Qu Mengmeng's heart is cold!
Qu Mengmeng began to be silent! Of course, Qu Mengmeng has been silent for a long time, but before it was only the silence of words at most, but now it is the silence of the heart!
Also, Qu Mengmeng felt that he had to wait. At least, from the perspective of time, Bai Xiaohua's appearance was after Qiu Zichuan separated from himself. Therefore, the separation is not because of Qiu Zichuan's empathy.
Moreover, more importantly, Qiu Zichuan has been silent, except for separation, except for no longer talking to himself about some ideas, except for no longer saying some ridiculous things to himself, Qiu Zichuan is the same.
As for the so-called Qiu Zichuan who did not change the customer password of the mobile phone and let himself check it, it must not be Qiu Zichuan's deliberate behavior, it is neither Qiu Zichuan's style of doing things, nor Qiu Zichuan's conduct.
Also, Qu Mengmeng didn't know when he had been obedient to Qiu Zichuan, and Qu Mengmeng didn't know when he had been silently accompanying Qiu Zichuan as long as he was unhappy.
If it is said that he used to constantly question and entangle because of his suspicion of Qiu Zichuan, it is because Qiu Zichuan is still in love with himself, and his own questioning and entanglement still have a coquettish element.
What's more, whether you love Qiu Zichuan, doubt Qiu Zichuan, or hate Qiu Zichuan, at least it revolves around Qiu Zichuan, and the premise is that you think Qiu Zichuan still loves you!
And now, Qiu Zichuan is indifferent to himself, and Qiu Zichuan is distant from himself. This made Qu Mengmeng suddenly feel like he couldn't find the center of gravity, and suddenly there was nothing to surround around!
And at such a time, Qu Mengmeng, who still subconsciously wanted to protect his home, knew that any touch of Qiu Zichuan's emotions at this time might bring unexpected consequences!
Qu Mengmeng didn't know what to do!
Go talk to Bai Xiaohua?
What's the matter! My husband's heart is gone, what's the point of looking for someone! What's more, if Qiu Zichuan knew, it might only exacerbate his dislike for himself!
Talk to Qiu Zichuan?
Is it possible? What to talk about? Talking about yourself going to check his call history again? Wouldn't that also make him hate himself even more!
Besides, every time he saw that friend and colleague divorced, and one of them was entangled, Qiu Zichuan's eyes were full of contempt and disdain, in his own words, the most reluctant thing in this world is emotion! Only people who have no personality can be emotional Laipi!
What to do?
When the alarm clock rang from his son's bedroom, Qu Mengmeng remembered that he had sat in the living room all night!
Qu Mengmeng felt the loneliness of life for the first time!
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Qu Mengmeng began to wait in silence! Waiting for Qiu Zichuan to come back and see her as his most beloved little sister again, waiting for Qiu Zichuan to finally stop hating her for secretly reading his communication records and seeing himself as an innocent little girl!
Qu Mengmeng still thought that her peeping-like behavior hurt Qiu Zichuan, and she was lucky to think that Qiu Zichuan was like this, maybe he was just relaxing outside! As many people have said, men will come home when they are tired of playing outside!
Summer goes to autumn solstice, autumn goes to winter.
Qu Mengmeng still carefully asked Qiu Zichuan about the warmth of food and clothing, and would still call Qiu Zichuan before getting off work every time, asking if he would go home for dinner in the evening, and what he would like to eat if he went home for dinner. Qiu Zichuan still came back late every day, and then, it was still quiet from the study to the guest room.
But when such calm reached the depths of winter, Qu Mengmeng couldn't bear it!
This is a day that has just entered December, Qu Mengmeng, who has been busy all day, is about to get off work, thinking that he will be cold and lonely again when he comes home, lamenting that such days do not know when it will end, and the center can't help but start to be angry again. And in anger, I couldn't help but open Qiu Zichuan's call record on the computer again~
But this opening, with the up and down pull of the mouse, Qu Mengmeng's eyes suddenly widened!
Qu Mengmeng saw that Qiu Zichuan's call with Minister Tan Li of the Propaganda Department of the Municipal Party Committee was much more obvious in the second half of the year! Take a closer look, and it's not just the frequency of calls! In particular, the duration of the call has increased significantly compared to before, especially after some calls made by Minister Tan Li in some evenings, almost every time it was more than an hour!
In addition to returning to the provincial capital for the big bow, this woman usually wishes alone on the waterfront at night, what is she going to do!
And not only that, since the National Day, Xu Jing's phone call to Qiu Zichuan has also been obvious! Some calls are a minute or two, while others are more than ten minutes! What's more, since June, that is, after Xu Jing's birthday, Xu Jing's text messages to Qiu Zichuan have also increased significantly, sometimes even three or four a week!
What the hell is going on with this Xu Jing!
What's more, seeing that Xu Jing had been calling Qiu Zichuan frequently since before the National Day, checking Zhongqu Mengmeng, he suddenly found that there was almost no phone contact between Qiu Zichuan and Bai Xiaohua in the first few days of the entire National Day holiday!
What's going on?
Qu Mengmeng flipped the call record forward to the month when Qiu Zichuan returned from the United States, and then went back to see that at the end of November, except for the month when Qiu Zichuan just came back to check the business in various places, it showed that Qiu Zichuan and Bai Xiaohua had a call almost every day, and the interval between one day and two days was almost rare, so why did they not talk during the whole holiday? How could it be a blank for days on end?
Of course, Qu Mengmeng would never have thought that in that month when there were fewer calls, Bai Xiaohua was precisely in Ordos, in Wuxi, and in Suzhou with Qiu Zichuan!
Don't say, the two of them have been together these days!
But this time, Qu Mengmeng quickly connected the blank call between the two with the two of them going out together!
Qu Mengmeng remembered that in mid-September, Qiu Zichuan said that he would go to Hangzhou to study, but he only said that it would be about 20 days, and Qiu Zichuan came back at the end of the big vacation, as if he would go to work with an interval of one day!
Be! They must have been together for a few days!
Thinking of this, Qu Mengmeng seemed to suddenly remember something, the mouse in Qu Mengmeng's hand began to move again, and new web pages on the computer began to be opened again, Qu Mengmeng wanted to find the roaming place where Qiu Zichuan was answering other people's calls in the past few days.
Soon, Qu Mengmeng saw the results he wanted to see!
The 1st to the 4th are in Yangzhou, the 5th in Nanjing in the morning, and Shanghai in the afternoon!
What are you still saying! Qu Mengmeng was speechless again
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The previous little sister next door, and later the same school girl, her first love, and the only love of her life! Is there a more perfect love in this world? Qiu Zichuan, how can you say that ruthlessness has become so ruthless!
And if you want to change, you will change! But why do you want to torture people like this!
Qu Mengmeng is about to explode!
For a few days, Qu Mengmeng always thought that it was a matter of course for himself and Qiu Zichuan to hold their hands together! When she saw someone else divorced, she even thought that there was no such word in her life dictionary.
And now, although Qu Mengmeng still thinks that his home can't be gone! But all this in front of him made Qu Mengmeng feel that he could hope for anything more!
But Qu Mengmeng still longs for Qiu Zichuan to open his heart and talk to himself once, even if he doesn't love himself anymore, he Qiu Zichuan can tell himself directly!
At this time, Qu Mengmeng looked at the time on the computer and thought that his son was out of school at the moment, Qu Mengmeng immediately picked up his mobile phone and dialed his son's phone, telling his son that he was going to work overtime tonight and let his son go to grandma's house for dinner!
Qu Mengmeng decided to have a good talk with Qiu Zichuan, and it was today, right now!
Qu Mengmeng wanted to go to Qiu Zichuan's company, Qu Mengmeng knew that he felt that he couldn't talk about it at home, and Qiu Zichuan had no way to ignore him. And going to Qiu Zichuan's office is very different! That at least shows that he is determined not to talk about it, he Qiu Zichuan is now without himself in his eyes, and he must face up to the reality that he has to completely spread out this matter when he goes to his office!
And now is the right time to go to Qiu Zichuan's office, Qiu Zichuan's company also leaves work at half past five in the afternoon every day in winter, and if there is no entertainment, Qiu Zichuan's habit is to leave the office at half past six every day. And I must talk to Qiu Zichuan today!
Will he socialize? Would you like to give him a call first?
But leaving the office and going downstairs, Qu Mengmeng hesitated for a moment!
Don't worry about it so much! Go first, if you call, he will never let himself go!
didn't have time to go downstairs to his car, Qu Mengmeng quickly strengthened his mind again!
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But half an hour later, when Qu Mengmeng's car just drove into the foyer of the office building in the gate of Qiu Zichuan's company, a car parked on the side of the foyer made Qu Mengmeng who was tumbling with a thousand words in his heart along the way, and tried to think that he must say everything today, and was dumbfounded!
The orange-red Focus, and the license plate on the rear of the car, Xu Jing's car!
Qu Mengmeng, who had already reduced his speed on the curve in front of the company's gate, was stunned for a moment at the moment! Then he shook his head, followed the direction helplessly, turned half a circle in the open space in front of the foyer of the building, and then drove straight away from Qiu Zichuan's company!
Qu Mengmeng burst into tears, Qu Mengmeng didn't know where he should go at this time!
Qu Mengmeng drove endlessly, as for Xu Jing, Qu Mengmeng didn't want to think about it at this time! No matter what Xu Jing was saying or doing in Qiu Zichuan's office at this time, Qu Mengmeng only felt disgusted! All just feel dirty!
At this time, Qu Mengmeng just wanted to find someone to talk to! Qu Mengmeng hated himself for why he only had Qiu Zichuan in his heart for so many years, only this family, he didn't even have a girlfriend who could talk to his heart, and he still adhered to the old ethics that family affairs should not be publicized, even Hu Li, who revolves around him all day long, is just a little sister who likes to fight and make trouble in his eyes, and he can't confide in his heart!
And with his family, whether it is his parents or Qiu Zichuan's mother, things like this that add trouble out of thin air are absolutely impossible to say in Qu Mengmeng's opinion!
Twilight has already fallen, looking at the lights and road that slowly extend forward with the car, Qu Mengmeng's heart at this time is not only sad or sad! Qu Mengmeng felt very lonely!
Qu Mengmeng felt that he was tired, where did Qu Mengmeng want to park the car, Qu Mengmeng also wanted to calm down and think about it!
Where is this?
At this time, Qu Mengmeng realized that he had driven the car to the outer ring at some point, and looked at several houses on the side of the road in front of him leaning against the woods, and the door numbers were dotted with neon signs, and there were a few cars parked in front of the door!
In the middle of the night, Qu Mengmeng, who had parked the car, vaguely seemed to remember that this was a few beer houses and cafes, and I remember that I once drove by here, Hu Li said that the decoration here is very emotional, she and her classmates have come to play a few times, one of which Qu Mengmeng also looked at at that time and seemed to remember what it was called "Romantic Forest"!
I also went to drink a beer, I also went to drink coffee once, thinking that I had always only guarded Qiu Zichuan, only guarded the children and home, and at this moment Qu Mengmeng thought that he should also relax himself!
But looking at the darkness everywhere except for the lonely street lamps and some sporadic lights in the distance, Qu Mengmengxuan dispelled such a thought, thinking to himself What is it if a woman goes to such a place at such a time!
But at this moment, Qu Mengmeng saw another scene that shocked her and made her extremely unwilling to see it, but she couldn't avoid it!
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