Linlang went to find Ying Zheng with me for no reason from the beginning, and then approached with fear, but she didn't know why I left as soon as Ying Zheng appeared, and I didn't know where Lin Jixiang and Meng Yi said to me from.

"The princess is already well, Madame should be at ease." Linlang timidly persuaded me.

Along the way, I can hear the news of Chang Man every day, although it is delayed, but I get the exact change of her condition for the better or worse, and know that the condition is still under control, I am still a lot more steady, and now I listen to Linlang report to me about the new recovery of Chang Man to reassure me, although I have received some comfort, but I just let go of a heart, and I can't be happy.

I don't know when all my happiness came from the young man I fell in love with.

"Where is the emperor now?" I asked.

"Madam Hui, the emperor is resting in the palace, but no one is allowed to disturb him." Linlang replied truthfully.

I hurt Yingzheng's heart so much, do you want to be brave enough to accompany you? I don't know if my presence will make Ying Zheng more difficult or make Ying Zheng feel better, but I am desperate to do something about the cold night that Ying Zheng stood on.

"Don't pass on dinner, the palace is going to see you outside the emperor's palace." I'm ready to ask for it but not see it.

Knowing that I was in a very bad mood at this time, I couldn't eat even if I passed the meal, so Linlang didn't persuade her, she prepared a costume for me, and then followed me to Yingzheng's dormitory in silence.

The outside of the dormitory was filled with guards, both in the open and in the dark. But Lin Jixiang and the others were gone, thinking that they were all waiting in the dormitory, so no one dared to stop me until I approached the dormitory. Until I happened to meet Mama Wei who came out of it at the bottom of the steps at the entrance of the hall.

"Lady Creek is well-off!" She blocked my progress.

Looking at Mama Wei's look at me asking for peace, it was obvious that she was very disdainful of me at the moment, and it was inferred that even if Ying Zheng was angry, everyone was able to understand some mysteries, after all, Ying Zheng's anger this time was too tyrannical, and people had to gather all their energy to deal with it.

"Can the emperor be in the palace?" I don't talk about their attitudes, I just want to know the situation of Yingzheng.

Mama Wei glanced back, but still chose to block my decision in front of Ying Zheng.

"The emperor is tired. Just rested, if Mrs. Xi has something, when the emperor wakes up, the old slave will relay it for Mrs. Xi. ”

All of Mama Wei's decisions are for the good of Ying Zheng. She didn't let me in, obviously because she felt that the current situation was the best for Yingzheng not to see me, and I had expected this situation, but it did hit my heart realistically again.

"Go ahead. The main palace is here waiting for the emperor to wake up. "Surrounded by walls. It's the most beneficial way for me to have peace of mind.

Mama Wei didn't want me to disturb Yingzheng and make Yingzheng more and more unhappy, but she couldn't decide whether my appearance would really make Yingzheng feel sad, so she looked at my resolute expression, and she had to let us make up our own minds.

Mama Wei left, Lin Jixiang soon got the news that I was outside the palace, he appeared at the door of the hall, looked at me for a while, saw that I did not move or look at him, and then retreated to the hall in discouragement.

Lin Jixiang knows my stubborn temper. He must also know that he will blame him for treating me like this, but he can't stand the situation of Yingzheng and me. He wanted to take a chance, bet on whether he would forgive him for what he did after he contributed to the reality he wanted.

There is one thing I have explained thousands of times, but he has never wanted to believe it, that is, he feels that I really love him, but I am now concerned about Ying Zheng and gave birth to a daughter for Ying Zheng, so I don't know that sincerity.

"Madam, Imperial Doctor Yu said that your leg disease can't stand for so long." As night fell, Linlang couldn't help but persuade me.

My legs are beginning to ache, and the results of all these years of maintenance have begun to peel off bit by bit in my willful stiffness, and if I stand and do not move again, I will inevitably recur the old disease, I understand, but what is these pains compared to the pain in my heart.

The door of the hall has been open, the candles in the hall are bright, I don't know if Yingzheng has slept, but Lin Jixiang appeared at the door of the hall again, I can't remember how many times he stood at the door and looked down at me under the steps outside the temple door.

I still haven't looked at him, I don't expect my meager influence to shake the belief in the clan hatred and sense of mission that has accumulated in his heart for generations, I know that he will feel sorry for me at this moment, but I know better that he will be firm in the future.

"Don't say anything more to persuade this palace." I weakly ordered Linlang, but said it majesticly.

The more painful my body is, the more I feel that my heart can be better, otherwise those feelings of depression will eat back on me in my heart and take my life.

I accompanied Yingzheng this night, just like he didn't sleep because of me last night, which is very fair and my way of atonement.

I don't know when I started to be supported by Linlang, and when I realized it, I was already leaning on her as weak as I was, but my mental power was still strong, and my heart was still filled with the bitterness of Yingzheng in the palace.

Lin Jixiang finally couldn't stand it anymore, he walked down from the temple gate, raised his hand to help my favored body, but I indifferently refused.

"The emperor is asleep, I don't know that Mrs. Xi is waiting here, Mrs. Xi will go back first." He was a little angry, probably angry at my persistence and self-harm.

"Please stay away from Hongu." I spoke weakly.

In fact, I didn't want to speak, especially because I felt that I shouldn't say too much to Lin Jixiang, but Lin Jixiang was so close to me, and I couldn't retreat, so I could only coldly persuade him to retreat.

My attitude was what Lin Jixiang had expected, but it was one thing to think about it, and it was another to encounter it, and his breath of pain permeated every inch of the air around us, and his voice was mournful.

"Mrs. Xi, the emperor said that if you mutilate yourself, then there is no need to cherish all the people who serve around you, where you are lost, they should not be accompanied by their hearts, have you forgotten?" He definitely didn't want to use Yingzheng to suppress me, but he could only use Yingzheng to suppress me, and continued to threaten: "Or do you think you don't need to use your legs to go up and down with you?" ”

Yes, Ying Zheng did order this, I didn't forget it, but I didn't think about it, I can't let the servants who serve me with all their hearts follow me to suffer, but I don't even have the right to punish myself? (To be continued......)