When the spring flowers bloomed, her brother-in-law kept a family affair for her.

She was reluctant to marry.

"It's a fake couple!" My sister said, "Lin Shisheng has a childhood sweetheart's fiancée, and the date of marriage is set, but the father-in-law committed an accident, and the girl was also discredited." The person who presided over this case was your brother-in-law's brother-in-law, and he walked to your brother-in-law through the door. That Lin Shisheng's family is a hereditary four-rank servant, he took the post at the age of fifteen, very capable, and now he is the commander of the left army of the Yulin Army, from the third grade ......"

"That's even worse!" Her head shook like a rattle, interrupting her sister's words, "Kindness and retribution, even if I get married, I'm afraid that Lord Lin will not treat me well if he has a grudge in his heart." Why bother a benefactor to become an enemy? Besides, I don't want to marry at all......"

My sister laughed when she heard this, and said, "This matter was brought up by Lord Lin on his own initiative. ”

She was stunned.

My sister explained to her carefully: "Even if his fiancée finds a way to save her, his father-in-law's incident is so big that it is a little difficult to hide his name, how can he marry Lin Shisheng as his wife?" Lin Shisheng knew this, and didn't want his fiancée to be wronged, so he came up with this idea - you and her are fake husband and wife, and a year later, on the grounds that you have no children, you will be the master to admit his fiancée to him into the door. You have taken the position of a wife, and you will have something to rely on in the future, and you will have incense to worship when you die; The girl and Lin Shisheng became husband and wife, had children, and got what they wanted. How can a benefactor become an enemy? Speaking of which, we helped him a lot! ”

She still disagreed, and said, "In the end, it takes the name of husband and wife!" ”

If Lin Shisheng wants to do something to her, she will tell the heavens and the earth to be unspiritual.

My sister was silent for a long time and sighed softly.

There was a commotion outside.

Holding incense looked nervously at the door.

My sister smiled and said to her, "You rest first, we'll talk about this later", got up and wanted to leave.

She happily took her sister's hand and said, "Is something wrong?" You don't have to hide it from me, if I send someone to inquire, I can inquire. ”

My sister thought about it and said with an inexplicable expression: "Cheng Xu has been making trouble these days, I'm afraid that I accidentally revealed my whereabouts this time and was found by him." ”

That's why my sister is in a hurry to marry her off?

She immediately said: "Then I'll marry Lin Shisheng!" ”

My sister hesitated instead, and said, "I was too anxious before, but now that I hear you say this, it's like tearing down the east wall and making up the west wall, which may not be a perfect solution." Then you rest first, and I'll send the uninvited guest. ”

She smiled as she watched her sister come out of the inner room.

The noise outside was even louder.

She first hid under the quilt, but later saw that the matter could not be calmed down for a long time, and she was worried that her sister would be bullied, so she asked Fan Liu to help her go out.

Fan Liu refused, and later couldn't screw her, so he had to say: "The master also rushed over." The eldest lady will be fine. ”

She asked Fan Liu worriedly: "Father, what do you say?" ”

"The lord and the eldest lady went to the study." Fan Liu said, "With the eldest lady here, the master won't blame you." ”

Yes. Father won't blame her, but he will blame her sister!

How can she sit still?

Supported by Fan Liu, she went to the study.

Zhixiang and the others were standing far away in the verandah.

She motioned to Zhixiang and the others to remain silent, and quietly walked over.

His father's voice came faintly in the room: "...... You're getting bolder! How dare you make your own decisions on such an important matter? If Shao Jin has three long and two short ones in the future, what are you going to do? Who dares to say that they can be thoughtful and complete in the affairs of this world, and never make mistakes? Are you just making sure that all of your qiē is right? Can you ensure that Shaojin will be able to worry about food and clothing in the future and not be bullied? ”

The father's questioning became more and more severe, and the sister's voice was aggrieved and helpless: "Daddy, I, I can't help it?" I can't watch Shao Jin hang himself, can I? Can I stop her once, can I stop her twice, three times? Not to mention ......"

My sister's voice was lowered, she couldn't hear it clearly, but her father's voice was like thunder: "What did you say?" You repeat! ”

She couldn't help but put her ear to the door.

"Shaojin, she, she's bleeding profusely...... It is impossible to have children in the future......" my sister choked up and whispered.

She was stunned, but she felt a little surprised.

Or maybe she was young at the time and wasn't sad or sad.

"Smack!" There was a sound of crisp slaps and father's anger in the room: "You are a wicked obstacle! Look at the good things you do! You might as well strangle your sister to death with a rope! ”

The slap seemed to hit her in the face, and the harsh words seemed to stab her in the heart.

She couldn't help but rush in and stopped in front of her father: "Daddy, it's all my idea, and it has nothing to do with my sister." If you want to beat, hit me, and if you want to scold, scold me. My sister couldn't screw me before she agreed. It's all about my sister! ”

The father looked at her with an obscure expression, then at her sister, and walked away: "I don't care about your business anymore." Do it yourself! ”

She turned around and brushed her sister's face that had begun to turn red, and asked her sister in pain, "Does it hurt?" ”

"It doesn't hurt!" My sister shook her head, tears flashed in her eyes, "Sister doesn't hurt." ”

How can it not hurt.

Especially being scolded like that by my father.

She shouted to Fan Liu to fetch water and said, "It will be much better to apply a compress with ice water." ”

My sister called out to Fan Liu and said, "You are not in good health, go back to the house and lie down, and I will accompany you in a while." ”

"Where is my sister going?" She hugged her sister's arm in fear.

"Silly girl!" My sister held her head and said with a smile, "My father slapped me this time, how can I die if I don't go to shake the Cheng family in front of the Cheng family!" Don't worry, Daddy doesn't really blame us, this is just his explanation to the Cheng family. ”

She didn't believe it.

My sister is used to whitewashing peace in front of her.

But she thinks it would be good if she could give the Cheng family an explanation like this.

But Cheng Xu still made trouble.

She was afraid that the Liao family would find out.

asked my sister: "What happened to the Lin family?" ”

My sister said: "I have discussed it with your brother-in-law, and I think it is better to find you another family affair!" ”

She believed her sister and didn't bother anymore.

Who knew that Lin Shisheng came to the door.

He was tall and handsome, a man of talent, with bright and sincere eyes.

She didn't like it.

That Cheng Xu, Cheng Xu is not a talent, he looks gentle as jade, humble and sincere?

As if he knew what she was worried about, Lin Shisheng took a document to her and said, "If you don't believe it, we will use it as evidence." ”

She kicked Lin Shisheng out.

My sister then rushed over and asked her breathlessly, "What did Lin Shisheng say to you?" ”

She handed her sister the paperwork she hadn't had time to tear up.

My sister sighed softly and folded the paperwork in her sleeve.

Lin Shisheng went and returned, asking to see his sister.

My sister persuaded her: "Or, do you think about it?" ”

If Lin Shisheng had looked more ordinary, she might have felt safer.

She shook her head.

"Then I'll go back to Lin Shisheng." My sister got up, but before she walked out of the door, she ran in with incense and said, "Grandma, Lord Lin and Uncle Cheng Xu fought. ”

My sister hurriedly walked out, she grabbed her sister and said, "Sister, you should answer the Lin family's family affairs in front of that person!" ”

"But?" My sister frowned.

She said: "Instead of marrying someone and hiding it, it is better to marry Lin Shisheng frankly." ”

My sister thought for a long time before answering "yes".

In this way, she married into the Lin family, and a year later, she took a concubine to Lin Shisheng, and she moved to the Lin family's grange to recuperate.

But when Lin Shisheng brought his newborn son to visit her, when she looked at the little baby who was white and soft, with eyes as clear as a clear sky and a faint blue color, her heart ached for a moment and she regretted it.

If that child were still alive, it would be like this, right?

Will lie soft in her arms, look at her curiously with wide eyes, and will eat little finger and be reluctant to put it down...... Although the child is Cheng Xu's, she gave birth to it, and she also has her blood!

At night, tears wet the pillow.

But she couldn't say anything, she couldn't say anything, she couldn't even show the slightest strange thing - in the spring of the year she got married, her sister and brother-in-law's first child had a miscarriage, and her sister never conceived a child again.

If my sister knew that she had remorse for what happened to her, where would she put her sister? What is my sister's suffering?

She remembered what her sister had said that day—if there is any retribution, it will be upon me.

Is this retribution?

should have been retribution for her sins, but the retribution was given to her sister and brother-in-law!

Her sister and brother-in-law are innocent, but they bear the responsibility for her that they should not have bore it.

Not only can she not regret it, but she also has to forget about it, as if those things never happened, live well, and live happily.

But in the dead of night, she still can't help but think of the child, the night she lost it...... As if tightly entangled in vines, I couldn't sleep at night, and I couldn't breathe.

She began to eat fasting and recite the Buddha, begging the Bodhisattva to forgive her sins, and asking the Bodhisattva to bless her sister and brother-in-law with prosperity, and to repay her whatever retribution she had...... It wasn't until five years later that her sister gave birth to her nephew Liao Chengfang that she was relieved.

Now, the blood stains on the tips of her hands have turned over those memories again, years of patience are like a broken water bottle, and the hidden secrets flow out, Zhou Shaojin can't tell whether she is in a past life or this life, she cried hysterically.

It seems that this can help find an outlet for the pain that has been blocked in the chest, so that the pain, regret, self-blame, and guilt will not be so painful.

"Sister, sister," she lay on Zhou Chujin's shoulder and cried so much that she couldn't help herself, "I regret it so much, I regret it so much...... But I can't say anyone...... I don't want that child...... I'm afraid you'll be sad to say it...... No matter how much I recite the scriptures, no matter how much I fast, I can't wash away the sins from my body...... Why didn't the Bodhisattva accept me...... And let me suffer like this again......"

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I was a little sad to see a reader leave a message saying that I was very cold to my friends who supported my book. For me, the reader's opinion is very important, I sometimes read everyone's message, will check and fill in the gaps, and fill in the details that I have not paid attention to before, it is precisely because of everyone's message that I write the article will be more logical. This time, I may have thought it out too much, thinking that everyone was old friends and just following the old routine, but I forgot that there were new friends who were constantly joining.

As I explained earlier, the first half of the year was almost no work, after work, there was a lot of work not done, some colleagues helped to do, some had to make up for themselves, plus the unit this year's archives work wanted to upgrade to the provincial special level, of which only the financial archives began to sort out in 1998, the archives bureau was very busy, and now we have not been able to set the time for our unit to help sort out the files, and the clerical files and professional files need to be sorted out by ourselves, seeing that the day of inspection is coming, I am very anxious, The mood is very impetuous, and I want to postpone the opening of a new article for another month, but the new article has an outline in February, and I feel itchy when I think about it, so I can't hold back, and I still open a new article.

As a result, the work of the unit cannot be lost, and the new article has not been written well, so I really have no energy and time to manage the comment area, so I can only secretly glance at it with my mobile phone when I am in the unit. Please forgive me if it makes everyone feel unhappy!

I'll do my best to make sure a moderator maintains the comment area.

Thank you again for your continued support!

Another: Thank you for recommending "Jinling Chun", the collection of "Jinling Chun" has risen a lot!

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