Chapter 12: The Past
"No, no, no!" She shook her head in horror, not believing it anyway, "Impossible! I'm not pregnant, I'm just eating bad stomach! ”
The sister hugged her tightly, and she no longer had the same calm and calm as before: "Don't worry! Since I have left you in the capital, there is a way for the Cheng family to take you back in a beautiful way! ”
Didn't my sister say that she should stay in the small grange with peace of mind?
Didn't you say that you would find her someone to marry again?
Why did you suddenly change your hexagram?
She was full of panic and pushed her sister away: "No, I won't go back!" I don't want to marry Cheng Xu! I don't want to be called a prostitute or a woman! I don't want to look at the white eyes of those subordinates! I don't want to be pointed at for the rest of my life......" she said, looking down at her lower abdomen, which was flat, and nothing could be seen, and the doctor's words were like a lie, a joke, "I don't want this child ...... either"
"But," my sister was worried, her face full of worry, "After all, this is the child of the Cheng family, and it is also the first child of Cheng Xu, and it is the ...... of the long house."
Cheng Xu, child...... It made her tense heart break.
She jumped up screaming and interrupted her sister, "Why are you all bullying me? Why are you, like those people, all helping Cheng Xu speak? You're not my sister! You're not my sister! She didn't even have time to put off her shoes, she ran out barefoot, "I'm not going back!" I won't go back if I die! I wouldn't have given birth to this child......"
My sister chased after her and held her in her arms: "Shaojin, Shaojin, listen to me......"
"I don't want to hear anything!" She struggled, kicking her sister with her feet, like a madman, "You will only let me endure it, let me accept my fate, let me die, why should I endure it?" Why should I accept my fate? Why should I die? Is it because I'm a girl? What am I doing wrong again? Why did God punish me like this? ”
"No, no! It's my sister who is not good, my sister didn't take good care of you, it's my sister who failed her mother's trust and made you wronged......" My sister's tears were like hot droplets, falling on her neck and burning her heart.
But is this my sister's fault?
Why should my sister tolerate her vexatiousness?
Just because my sister is the one who loves her the most?
And what is the difference between her, who makes her relatives hurt her enemies, and Cheng Xu, who hurts her?
She was weak and fell to the ground.
"Shao Jin, Shao Jin," my sister turned pale with fright and pounced on her, "What's wrong with you?" What happened to you? ”
"I'm fine." She muttered, her heart like ashes, "Sister, help me to bed......"
Maybe that's her life!
She can't accept her fate!
"Second Miss, Second Miss!" Fan Liu knelt on the side and cried like a tearful man.
She couldn't shed a single tear.
Her fate had already deviated in the quarter of an hour when she promised Cheng Ji to go for a walk in the garden.
If she wants to blame, she can only blame herself for being stupid.
She does what others want her to do.
If you want to blame, you can only blame herself for being useless.
When Cheng Xu bullied her, he only knew how to beg for mercy and cry.
She grabbed something and tried to stand up, but her legs were limp and had no strength, so she had to crawl towards the bed.
My sister grabbed her and said in a loud voice, "Don't be like this, don't be like this."
She turned a deaf ear and said, "Sister, send me back to my rented house!" The Cheng family will definitely find it soon...... Even if they don't want me anymore, they will find me before leaving...... You don't care about me, if the people of the Liao family knew that something like this happened to me, they would definitely laugh at you...... I'm alone, I can't drag you all into the water...... I just ask my sister to take in Fan's mother. They found me, and they will definitely not let Fan's mother go...... Pity her for breastfeeding me, but she ended up like this...... I'm also dragged down by ......."
"Second Miss, don't say that! Don't say that! Fan Liu also pounced, "I took you away." Yes, it was my idea, I instigated the second miss to come to the eldest miss, and it has nothing to do with the second miss! It's all my wicked slave who has done it......"
My sister looked at them, but her eyes slowly cooled.
"Shaojin," her sister put her shoulder, the corner of her eye swept over her stomach, and then looked into her eyes fixedly, and said solemnly, "Don't you really want to go back to Cheng's house?" You must know that if you choose to stay in the capital at this time, then you will never be able to return to Cheng's home in the future. You have to think clearly! ”
She already had an idea.
Wen Yan just shook his head indifferently and said, "Sister, you send me back to the place I rented, I don't want to toss anymore." ”
My sister looked at her for a long time before she got up and helped her onto the kang.
She grabbed her sister's sleeve and said, "Sister, you promised me that you would help me take care of Mother Fan, you must speak and count." ”
My sister nodded, tears flashed in the corners of her eyes, and said, "My sister's words count." ”
She doubted her sister for the first time and made her swear: "I want to swear in my mother's name......"
Pain flashed in my sister's eyes, and she swore seriously.
She smiled at her sister and said, "Sister, my whole body is weak, let someone stew me with ginseng and an old mother**!" ”
The elder sister stared at her, as if she was afraid of missing any subtle expression on her face, and after a while, she said softly "yes".
She closed her eyes.
When the chicken soup was served, she obediently drank the chicken soup and went back to sleep.
My sister has been watching over her.
But after three watches, my tired sister began to fall asleep because she couldn't support it, and two quarters of an hour later, my sister fell asleep in front of the bed.
She opened her eyes.
If such an ugly thing happened, for the sake of her reputation, with her sister's caution, not only would no one bring it over, but she would also send the people who served her in the grange, otherwise her sister would not be alone by her side.
She pondered in her heart, listened to the movement, quietly got up, and walked out of the inner room lightly.
Sure enough, there was no one to be seen outside.
She walked silently through the twists and turns of the small grange.
It should have been fifteen that day, there was no wind or snow, and the moon hung quietly in mid-air like a round jade disk. The withered branches of the trees in the courtyard are scattered and haphazard, leaving a dappled shadow on the ground.
She walked all the way, shivering from the cold.
Woods, firewood houses for farm tools, wells...... She lingered for a long time.
When she tried to open the corner door of the kitchen in the backyard, her sister burst out.
"What are you going to do?" My sister squeezed her wrist tightly, pinching her like a heartache, she never knew that her sister's strength was so great, "Do you know that you are the only bone and blood left by your mother in this world?" How can you do that? What does your father think? What do you make your mother under the Yellow Springs think? How did you tell my mother when I saw her a hundred years later? What face do you let me have every year to worship my mother during the Qingming Festival and Dragon Boat Festival? You, you've let me down so much......"
My sister said, her eyes reddening.
"Sister, am I useless?" "I want to die, but I can't find a place to die—if I hang myself in the woods, and others find me dead in your house, they think you killed me; I want to find a place that is not easy for people to find, but it is still your house, and you can't pick it up; Why don't you have a lake in your house? If only there was a lake, I tied a stone and jumped in it to feed the fish, and I didn't know it; Or maybe there's a small river, the current is a little bigger, and the bones can be washed away somewhere else, and I'm a lonely ghost......"
My sister slapped her in the face with a "snap".
It took her a while to feel the slightest pain, and the tears began to fall.
"Sister!" She threw herself into her sister's arms.
But her sister pushed her away and said, "You really don't want to go back to Cheng's house?" ”
At that moment, my sister's gaze was as cold as moonlight and as gloomy as the shadow of a mottled tree.
She froze.
My sister strode forward, stared into her eyes and asked her, "Are you ready to never return home?" ”
She nodded sheepishly.
My sister gently stroked her cheek, and she didn't know that there were finger prints on it.
"It's good!" My sister said lightly, "One life for another, you should pay back their lives." In the future, everyone will have nothing to do with each other! ”
She didn't understand, but her sister said, "Let's go back!" Sister will help you decide this matter. ”
She still didn't understand.
My sister said, "Don't worry, I won't hand you over to the people of the Cheng family, so you will stay in the capital with me." ”
However, it will be difficult for my sister to do it!
She shook her head.
The elder sister smiled and asked her, "Do you still believe in your sister?" ”
She nodded busily.
My sister took her shoulders and walked back: "Then you will trust my sister again, I will not let the people of the Cheng family take you away!" ”
Of course she believes in her sister, she doesn't believe in her sister, who can she trust?
She obediently followed her sister back to the wing, and her sister fed her a soothing pill and said, "You can sleep well, and when you wake up, everything will be fine." ”
She closed her eyes.
But I couldn't sleep.
She even heard Fan Liu's cry and her sister's voice: "You have been in the capital for more than a month, and the Cheng family has already found it." It can be seen that she feels that she has grasped Shaojin's lifeline, and she doesn't worry about her going back by herself. Now it's their Cheng family's fault, then the Yuan family can still be like this, if Shaojin goes back, I'm afraid that she will be tortured to the point of losing his life in less than two years! What's more, this child's month is not right, others can understand the reason for this if they think about it carefully, Shao Jin is really as she said, don't think about raising her head for the rest of her life...... is even more deserving, anyone can think of it and insult her...... Rather than lose your life like that, it's better to gamble...... If there is any retribution, it will be retribution on me, and it has nothing to do with Shaojin......"
Her business, don't bother my sister!
She wanted to speak out loud to her sister, but the lights and shadows rushed towards her again, and her mind was in a mess, and she quickly put the matter behind her and fell into a deep sleep.
Later, Fan Liu fried a bowl of medicine for her, she drank it for three days, and on the fourth day, the child was gone, she was bleeding profusely, her sister brought a sideburns with a plaster, and the old woman with a mean face came in to check her pulse, and at dawn, the bleeding stopped, but she didn't even have the strength to breathe.
In a drowsiness, she heard her sister talking to Fan Liu: "...... Send that piece of flesh and blood to me in Xinglin Hutong, give it to Cheng Xu, and personally send it to him, let him know how he lost his wife and children, and let him know what his mother has done...... There is no reason why they have done sins that only we are ......"
The voice was full of gritted hatred.
She was just thinking, it turned out that Cheng Xu was in Chengjing, and now he would never pester himself again, right?
As if the big stone in her heart had been removed, she let out a long breath and fell asleep peacefully.
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I read the sisters' messages, thank you for your support for "Jinling Chun", the reason why I haven't posted for almost a year is because I'm too busy with work, add more or something, I really can't do it, I can only keep changing...... I beg your pardon!
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