Ji Hongye knew that he was afraid, how could he not be afraid? He was also an ordinary person, and he also knew that manpower was limited, and people could never control life and death, which he could not do no matter how he planned, so he would also be afraid of losing.

Yes, he was scared, this was what he thought in his heart, what did he dare not admit? If it was usual, she would probably smile and say thank you to the third brother, but now she is so relatively speechless, she is estranged in her heart!

He wanted to owe her an explanation, he liked her, and he talked to her like that because he cared about her, and hoped that she would treat her wholeheartedly and not hide anything. This kind of small contradiction is a normal situation that occasionally happens between lovers, and there is no need to distinguish between right and wrong, but if something happens to her, it is naturally his fault. Whether her accident today was caused by his attitude or not, he should have made it clear to her.

"Ah Jin, do you blame me?" he asked calmly.

Nalan Jinxiu wanted to shake her head, but she couldn't, she found that she was becoming more and more reluctant to do things against her will. If someone else said those things to her, she wouldn't care, and if it was said by some inconsequential person, she probably wouldn't have taken it to heart. But the person who questioned and doubted her like that was not someone else, it was the third brother, the person she was going to marry.

She is not so willful that she can only be spoiled by him, but when anyone's feelings are questioned like that, most of them feel uncomfortable. Although she also felt that her decision to marry him was a bit abrupt, but, in the final analysis, the reason why she was abrupt was because that person was the third brother! If she had changed someone else, she would rather go up the mountain to be a sister-in-law than agree to marry so easily.

Ji Hongye felt that he was going to be drowned by her eyes, how could this girl look at him like this? Saying that pain is not pain, saying that suffering is not bitterness, there is a trace of resentment, and there is a trace of fear, but more of it is still at a loss. She seemed to be very uncomfortable and entangled, and the emotions that should have been vented were held in her eyes.

"You, Ah Jin, do you have something to say to me?" Ji Hongye found that he had never known what hesitation was, but now he was a little stumbling when he spoke.

Nalan Jinxiu originally planned to talk to him heart-to-heart, but now the timing doesn't seem to be right, if she chooses to say it now, she probably won't be able to eat this meal again. She looked at Ji Hongye, his demeanor was no different from usual at first glance, but there was a faint redness in his eyes, which proved that he had the same troubles as her. Even she herself thought that she was probably going to die, and the third brother probably thought so too! He should have been very worried, and he probably didn't even eat.

"Let's eat first, I'm a little hungry. Nalan Jinxiu stood up and walked to the table and sat down.

Ji Hongye sat next to her and gave her vegetables as usual. He first served her a bowl of white fungus lotus seed soup, Qu Qingjia said that after she woke up, she could eat something to replenish her qi and blood, and it was best to add some sugar. He put another piece of fish meat on the plate, bowed his head and carefully removed the fish bones, and he had no intention of moving his chopsticks.

Nalan Jinxiu looked at him for some reason, she felt a sour nose, she held back the tears that were about to rush out, lowered her head and drank the bowl of white fungus lotus seed soup. Then the mood calmed down a lot, she raised her head and put a small piece of pork ribs on his plate, the third brother is a picky eater, there are many things that are taboo, he likes to eat stewed pork ribs with lotus root the most.

Ji Hongye had already cleaned the fish bones, and was about to hand them to her, when she saw that there was an extra rib on her small plate, and she was looking at him with a smile. His lips moved, he wanted to say something but didn't say it, and finally just quietly ate the rib.

The third brother has always had a lot of rules for eating, saying that he doesn't eat or sleep. In the past, he didn't speak, and she herself said that she would talk endlessly. If he kept ignoring her, she would lose her temper, and then he could only put down the chopsticks, listen patiently to her, and after answering, he picked up the chopsticks and continued to eat.

She used to think it was funny, but she just liked to see his helpless expression. Therefore, it often takes a long time for the two of them to eat a meal. It's really the first time that I've been so silent now, Nalan Jinxiu is a little unaccustomed, and Ji Hongye is even less used to it. But he is not a talker, and even if he wants to say something to break the awkward atmosphere now, he still can't find a topic.

"I'm done. The two said in unison. Then, the atmosphere was even more embarrassing, Nalan Jinxiu pulled the corners of her mouth a little stiffly, smiled, and said, "I'll clean it up!"

As soon as she stood up and received the empty bowls of the two together, Ji Hongye held her hand, and he said lightly: "You go sleep for a while, I'll come." ”

Nalan Jinxiu had just woken up, and she didn't feel sleepy at all, she felt that the third brother should be the one who needed to rest. At such a close distance, she realized that his eyes were bloodshot. Therefore, this time she did not listen to him as kindly, but pulled out her hand and continued to clean up.

Ji Hongye withdrew his hand and clenched his sleeve tightly, his heart was empty now, as if he had lost something very important. Seriously, he couldn't quite get used to her indifference.

"Third brother go back and sleep for a while, I think you need to rest. Nalan Jinxiu lowered her head and put the dishes and chopsticks into the food box, not looking at him.

Ji Hongye endured it for a long time before he said, "What did you want to tell me just now?"

Nalan Jinxiu obviously didn't expect him to ask like this, she thought that if she didn't take the initiative to mention it, the third brother would definitely not say it. The two of them were together, and she always said a lot, and he just listened silently, occasionally giving a response or two. She cleaned up the table, fastened the lid of the food box, and tried several times before she made a sound, she said, "Third brother, go back to Jinling!"

Ji Hongye's body was obviously stiff, and he looked into her eyes, which were very calm and couldn't see any emotion. It was because of this that his heart was completely panicked. Ah Jin is a full six years younger than him, and the two of them get along, and he has always tolerated her or restrained her. Whether she wants it or not, she will follow him in the end, and she has never mentioned her thoughts.

It is precisely because of this that Ji Hongye always feels that she approves of her arrangement. It wasn't until this moment that he realized that the reason why Ah Jin didn't refute was not that she completely accepted it, but that she wanted to satisfy him as much as possible. Now she made such a request, which should not be impulsive, but deliberate.

"You don't want to go back with me, are you serious?" Ji Hongye paused for a long time before asking this sentence.

Nalan Jinxiu nodded, she turned her cheeks to the other side, and said lightly: "I don't think it's suitable for us to be together, and Jinling City is not suitable for me." ”

Ji Hongye's eyebrows sank suddenly, and his voice was still as soft as usual: "Then where is the right place for you, Northern Xinjiang?"

"I don't know, at first I also thought that Northern Xinjiang was very good, the people here are simple and simple, and there is not so much red tape. However, I have a bad reputation here, and I am afraid that it will not be easy to live. ”

"So what?"

"I want to be a traveling doctor, go to more places, see more herbs. ”

Nalan Jinxiu finally said what she wanted to do the most, in fact, this kind of life has always been what she wanted. In the last life, she chose to stay in Jinling for the sake of Zong Xuanyi and be a golden bird in a cage. In this life, she also wanted to live like this for Ji Hongye, but she sobered up earlier.

Ji Hongye's face turned pale, and he didn't know that Ah Jin didn't like the rich life in Jinling City. But what she wants, he can't give it, he has worked hard for so many years, step by step to get to where he is today, and he is destined to be impossible to let go of everything he has and drift with her. But can he selfishly ask Ah Jin to follow him? Break her wings, put her in a golden cage, and be the official wife in Jinling City.

Will he still like her like that?

Ji Hongye's heart is extremely clear about all this, but it is one thing to be clear, and it is another thing to be able to do it. What if he let Ah Jin go and let her drift away, what if she suffered? Moreover, he knew better that he couldn't do without her, and he didn't want to go through that kind of life without her a second time.

"Impossible, I wouldn't agree. He said softly, his demeanor was calm, and his tone was resolute.

Hearing him say such a sentence, Nalan Jinxiu didn't know whether his heart was relaxed or lost. She is very conflicted now, and reason tells her that she can't go back to Jinling, and she can't repeat the old path of the previous life. But emotionally, she didn't want the third brother to give up on her like this.

Maybe she can't compare with his scheming position, but she doesn't want the third brother to abandon her easily. It's human nature, and she doesn't find anything incomprehensible. There are so many people in this world, and each one wants to be important to others, especially that person is also important to himself. But if she did, it would be harder for her to make a choice.

Ji Hongye had an impulse in his heart, which was not inferior to wanting to destroy the world. He couldn't tolerate her wanting to leave him, but reason told him that he must control his emotions.

If she knew that for him, she was the one who could not be absent, he wanted to trap her by his side, all the time, and even hoped that her every word and deed, every move was under his nose. She must avoid him, and she must be more afraid, because this is already a kind of sick attachment and possession.

Therefore, he has been patiently observing her reaction, and he feels that if she has the slightest hint of disgust, he may not be able to accept it. may use their own way to keep her by their side. Even if it would hurt her, he couldn't care about it......