Winter weather, the air is overcast.

After covering the snow for several days, it finally fell on the night of the winter solstice. Time seemed to have fallen silent.

A carriage stopped at the gate of the Lin Mansion, and a young man got out of the car, and the man was wearing a royal blue plain Huhang robe.

A crack opened in the heavy wooden door, and a girl in green clothes greeted her.

"Young Master Cousin is here?"

"Lamei, how is your young lady today?"

Lamei said: "Back to the young master, young lady, she is still the same as before, reading, playing the piano, painting, and she was sick once ten days ago. ”

Cui Jinchen was pleased: "Ten days is already a great deal. Did you take the medicine on time? ”

"The slave and maid are staring every day, please come with me, young master."

The Lin Mansion is quite large, and the two chatted while walking.

"Young Master Cousin, the eldest lady's body should be seven months, right?"

Lamei counted the days. The eldest lady has been married to her cousin for eight years, and she has two sons and a daughter, and this is the fourth child.

Cui Jinchen smiled: "It's hard for you to remember, I will be born in two months." ”

"What is the fetal like, male or female?"

"The doctor said that the mother and child are safe, and they will be able to give birth smoothly in the future."

Lamei hurriedly congratulated and said, "Congratulations to the young master, I have added another son." ”

Cui Jinchen just smiled lightly.

In addition to Jasmine, he has also accepted two aunts over the years, and each gave birth to a daughter for him, and when he has more children, he has lost the joy of being a father for the first time.

"I just want her to go well, my sons and daughters, and I like my daughter."

When Lamei heard this, she sighed slightly in her heart.

There are so many young ladies in Gaofu. The eldest lady is the most blessed. Not to mention the children, the young master waited for her as before.

The second lady married into the Ren family, although the Ren family is one of the richest families in Tongcheng, it has a sour smell of copper.

Ren's family is prosperous, and the second lady, as the granddaughter-in-law of the long house, manages the food, drink and Lazar of the house, and works hard.

The second lady has two sons under her knees, and she was pregnant with a sister last year, but she didn't keep it for four months and had a miscarriage.

Aunt Ren has always been a hands-off shopkeeper. I only know that I can make money and take concubines. Now there are four aunts in the house, and I heard that there is one outside.

Although the second lady didn't say much when she returned to her parents' house, she was not very happy in the end, and she had aged fast in the past few years.

But fortunately, Uncle Ren knows how to measure. I have a lot of respect for Miss Er. Never meddle in the affairs of the inner house. is even more afraid of the Gao family. I didn't do anything out of the ordinary.

The third lady married into the Mei family in the capital, although she raised her eyebrows with Aunt Mei, she gave birth to a daughter for three children in a row. Damn it. When she gave birth to the third child, she hurt her inside, and it was not easy to get pregnant.

Although the men of the Mei family have no children before taking concubines, it is difficult to settle in the end.

Fortunately, the queen mother deliberately took care of Aunt Mei and got Aunt Mei into the Ministry of Rites, so the third lady had a straight waist in Mei's house.

Lamei thought of her own young lady, and sighed unconsciously in her heart.

……

The second door was placed, and the sound of the piano came out.

Cui Jinchen paused, listened carefully a few times, and said, "I never thought about it again." ”

Lamei laughed and said, "Why didn't the slave and maid hear it? ”

Cui Jinchen shook his head: "You listen to it every day, naturally you can't hear what's good, I rarely come here, and I feel good." ”

Lamei said casually: "No wonder she said that distance produces beauty." ”

"Who is she?" Cui Jinchen asked vigilantly.

Lamei hurriedly covered her mouth, her face a little strange.

"She's been here?"

Cui Jinchen rolled his eyes. Only she can say that distance produces beauty.

Lamei knew that she couldn't hide it, so she lowered her head and said, "Before leaving, I came over to take a look, and I didn't say anything, so I looked at it from a distance." Tell the slaves and maids to wait well. ”

Cui Jinchen wanted to vomit out a mouthful of blood in his heart.

His wish in this life is to be an idle cloud and wild crane, watch the flowers bloom and fall in front of the court, and look at the clouds in the sky.

But he never thought that he was accidentally calculated by the two foxes, and as a result, he became the prince and the prince, haunting the palace all day long, and dealing with a little fox. But the two ......

Sure enough, you can't be too soft-hearted, otherwise, he is the one who is free now.

What a repentance for breaking my bowels!

……

While they were talking, the two of them had already walked to the gate of the courtyard.

In the main hall, the fragrance was thick, and the woman sat in front of the piano, lowered her eyebrows and forehead, raised her ten fingers lightly, and the sound of the piano floated out from between her fingers.

Cui Jinchen involuntarily walked into two steps.

She was wearing a peach-colored cardigan, a pink collared mid-shirt, moth eyebrows frowned, and her fragrant skin was like snow. The years have not left many traces on her body, and she is still as beautiful and moving as a double ten woman.

Cui Jinchen suddenly remembered that ten years ago, when he first entered the Gaofu, he had also heard her play the piano at the gate of Pingwuyuan, and the tune was mournful and natural, like a babbling stream.

Now in this piano, there is a little more sour and painful, which makes people sad.

She should mourn too.

When the Great Zhou Dynasty was founded, Emperor Ming Dao appeared alone at the emperor ceremony, and the phoenix chair was always empty. No one knows that at this time, she has been trapped in the palace for a long time, and she has been greatly shocked, half crazy and half crazy.

Emperor Mingdao died, Emperor Renzong succeeded to the throne, and it was no longer suitable for her to be in the palace.

So the emperor and the queen discussed and moved her to the Lin family's courtyard. The emperor ignored his previous suspicions and personally checked her pulse.

However, when she was sick, she was good and bad, when she was quiet, she was docile as water, and when she was mad, she was irritable.

The emperor said that in her body, there is an infinite **. **No, madness is not good.

In a flash, six years have passed, and her illness is still not cured.

"Young Master Cousin?" Seeing him standing still, Lamei couldn't help but call out loudly.

"Shhhh

Lamei then shut up.

When she first arrived in Lin Mansion, people from Gao Mansion occasionally came to see her, but in the past few years, there have been fewer and fewer of them. On the contrary, it is the young master of the table, once a month, rain or shine.

It's just like this, and it doesn't follow the rules in the end, in case the eldest lady knows, I'm afraid that ......

At the end of the song, the woman got up, her eyes fell on the two people at the gate of the courtyard, without any expression, she turned around and walked towards the inner room.

Cui Jinchen felt a slight pain in his heart.

For six years, she had never looked at him with such faint eyes. There was nothing in the eyes. But he couldn't help but come over, even if he glanced at it, he felt at peace in his heart.

Lamei carefully saw the disappointment in Cui Jinchen's eyes, thought about someone's explanation, and said lightly: "Young Master Cousin, she left a sentence when she left, saying that when you come back next time, let the slave and maid tell you." ”

Cui Jinchen knew who she was in Lamei's mouth, and said with a smile: "What did she say?" ”

She said, cherish the people in front of you.

Cui Jinchen's body trembled. If struck by lightning. She...... What did she say...... What do you mean.

He has been married to Jasmine for almost a decade. From the beginning of the shore Qimei, to the current insipidity, the two don't know when they started, and they have become speechless.

Thereupon. He is looking forward to this monthly trip to the Lin family more and more. I thought no one could notice. Who knew she had always known.

"What else did she say?"

She said. Men are always thinking about what they can't get, and that's a bad thing. ”

Lamei said again: "But she didn't say this to the slave. It's to Bei Gongzi. ”

"What did Bei Gongzi say?"

Lamei said with a smile: "Bei Gongzi said that he doesn't have this bad problem, even if he has it, he will change it." ”

Cui Jinchen's figure trembled again. These two old foxes never speak casually. These words were clearly addressed to him.

That woman really knows him. Cui Jinchen smiled bitterly.

That's right, the high iris used to be his request.

She has become like this now, sometimes normal, sometimes stupid, living in seclusion in this small world, not seeing the light of day, as a man, he deeply sympathizes.

It was because of this sympathy that he would come to see her every month, and at first, he didn't think much about it...... Who knows, after a long time, something hidden in my heart ran out again.

After a long time, Cui Jinchen smiled bitterly and said, "In the future, I won't come." ”

"Young Master Cousin?" Lamei's heart tightened.

"You, take good care of her."

"Young Master Cousin, don't worry."

Cui Jinchen then took a deep look at the inner room and turned to leave. His eyes were a little hazy, and he blinked instinctively, strode out of the courtyard, and got into the carriage parked at the door.

"Third master, where are you going?"

"Go home."

Cui Jinchen said lightly.

Jasmine's belly was already big, and he should have gone back to accompany her sooner.

The woman was right, men are always concerned about what they can't get, but they often ignore the people around them.

Jasmine has been married to him for many years, managed the middle feed for him, and had children, and she has long since lost the temper of the eldest lady.

Who is he...... Lost her.

Cui Jinchen's eyes couldn't help but sink.

"Stop, let's go to the Drunken Immortal Residence first."

Jasmine loves to eat the dishes of Drunken Immortal Residence, and he hasn't brought them to her for a long time.

……

Lamei looked at the slender figure of the young master and disappeared around the corner, with a touch of helplessness at the corner of her mouth.

The young lady's eyes are not the same as the young master, and the young master has come all the way, if the eldest lady knows, it will not be another turmoil.

Miss can live here alone, food and clothing are not worried, she is already the emperor and the queen, or live a peaceful life, and cure the disease, it is serious.

Lamei withdrew her gaze and turned to enter the back room.

"He's gone?" The voice was still cold.

"Miss Hui, the young master has returned home."

"He always has to stand for half an hour, why did he come and leave today."

"Maybe there's something going on in the house." Lamei said carefully.

"What's going on in that house, it must be that the eldest sister is cautious and jealous again. That's how she used to be. ”

Lamei didn't know how to answer, so she could only laugh with her.

"Where's the crape myrtle?"

"Back to Miss, Ziwei is boiling medicine for Miss."

"Medicine, medicine again?"

Lamei smiled: "If you don't take medicine, how can you get better." ”

"I'm not sick, where did I get sick?" The tall iris changed his face.

Lamei hurriedly said: "Miss is weak, this medicine is for Miss to replenish her body, not to cure diseases." ”

Gao Iris sat coldly in front of the window, not speaking, and his eyes were a little cold.

Lamei couldn't guess what Miss was thinking, so she tossed the carbon basin. poured a cup of hot tea for the young lady, put it on the kang table, and sat down on the couch, picked up the sewing basket, and started to needlework.

There was silence in the room.

After a long time, Gao Iris turned his head and said quietly: "What are you embroidering?" ”

Lamei was embroidering attentively, and said casually: "I'm embroidering mandarin ducks." A pair in the water, a pair in the forest, a pair of wings......"

Before the words fell, only a crisp sound was heard, and the tea cup on the kang table had fallen to the ground.

Then there was another loud bang, and the kang was flipped to the ground. Gao Iris jumped down from the kang and stood barefoot on the ground, his face hideous, and the anger in his eyes spurted out.

Heartbreakingly shouted: "Where is the surname Lin, I want to find her desperately...... You're hurting me...... You forced me...... Lin Guifei...... You deserve it. You are the one who seeks death. I didn't hurt you......"

Lamei was so shocked that she shook off the embroidered handkerchief and hugged the high iris.

"Crape myrtle...... Ziwei, come on, Miss is sick......"

The high iris struggled desperately. The bun he was holding was scattered.

"I'm not sick. I'm the Queen...... Ha ha...... I'm the Queen...... You all kneel down for Hongu...... I am in this world. The most noble woman. ”

……

Hahahaha......

They all said I was crazy, but I wasn't crazy, they were the ones who were crazy.

I was born in the Prime Minister's House. I grew up living with my wife, and my biological mother was an aunt.

My aunt is very beautiful, but she eats fasting and recites Buddha and doesn't ask about the world, so I have no choice but to live according to Mrs. Bow.

It is said that the belly is separated by the mountain, although the lady treats me well, but the eyes of me are always faint, which is very different from the eyes of her eldest brother and eldest sister.

It was a look with doting, with pride, with love.

I worked hard to learn piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, poetry and songs, and needlework, not for anything else, just so that one day, that kind of eyes could fall on me.

Ironically, my excellence was not appreciated, but rather jealous.

I was disdainful in my heart, but I didn't show anything on my face.

I'm proud of myself.

……

I never imagined that the one who ruthlessly tore me apart was an ugly-looking maid.

She smiles when she meets people, pats her ass quietly, and befriends everyone. From the lady to the little maid in the house, there is no one who doesn't like her.

To be honest, I pity her. I saw myself in her, and we both relied on pleasing others in exchange for the peace of life.

I treated her very well, and everyone thought she was in my eyes, only I knew that it was just a sympathy.

……

I never thought that such a maid would turn into a young lady of the Hou Mansion and fall into the eyes of the Queen Mother.

I suddenly felt a little ridiculous, this girl's life is too good.

What makes me feel even more ridiculous is that after so many years of begging for perfection in the Prime Minister's Mansion, all I got was merciless ridicule and contempt.

My cousin's deep affection for me put me in an embarrassing situation, but it also made me see clearly that the so-called family affection is just an illusion used to whitewash peace without touching the interests of others.

And the man who gave birth to me actually wanted to marry me off.

One by one, they all came to persecute me, and they all wanted to trample me under the ground. Even Lin Xi, who used to be my maid, stood in front of me with a piercing smile and his head held high.

I suddenly felt that these ten years have been in vain.

In this world, it is never that you can take a step back and open the sky.

Lin Xi can nirvana, I am the third lady of the dignified Prime Minister's house, why do you want to look up to people's snorts, why do you want to look at people's faces.

No, I'm going to stand at the top and look down on all the people.

……

No one knows that under my gentle face, there is actually a calculating heart.

So, I started with my cousin and took advantage of the eldest brother's love for the eldest sister, and the purpose was Linxi.

In fact, my jealousy of Lynsey gushed out the moment my eldest brother fell in love with her.

The eldest brother is in my heart, handsome as jade, knowledgeable, and almost perfect. But such a person likes a maid.

How willing does this make me.

And what was even more unexpected was that this maid rejected the eldest brother and attached herself to the prince of Jingwang.

Linxi, Linxi, your good life really makes me jealous to death, and I think that you should help you with my kindness in the past.

……

I became the queen as I wished.

On the night of the candles in the cave room, when the man with a majestic instrument and extraordinary bearing lifted my red head cover, in an instant, my heart beat like a drum.

Only this man who reigns over the world can be my beloved. I am willing to prostrate at his feet, watch him guide the country, give birth to children for him, and take care of the harem.

However, I was wrong.

Candle night in the cave room. I waited with my eyes open until dawn, and until the red candle of the dragon and phoenix burned out, he was still reluctant to touch me.

I finally understood that even when people climb to the top of the world, there will always be things that they can't get.

But what I don't understand is why others can always get it easily, and I have learned all my life, and I have exhausted all my skills, and my wish has always been disappointed.

I was unwilling.

The days of the deep palace are deceitful. Infighting. Although I am a queen and have a prime minister's mansion behind me, I am not favored by the emperor, and the court is cold.

And that Lin Nan is just the opposite. A market woman. I don't know a few big characters. However, with a bit of posture, he won the emperor's heart, but it made the palace go up and down. All revolve around her.

How can I not hate.

Every lonely night in the deep palace, I lay alone in the cold quilt, thinking that at this time, Lin Nan must be tossing and turning in the arms of the emperor, and hatred is like blood, flowing through the internal organs.

However, there was nothing I could do but wait, waiting for God to give me a chance.

……

I didn't wait for God, but I waited for the Queen Mother.

When this most noble woman in the country of Xin said that sentence in a light tone, I instantly understood what she meant.

Without hesitation, I started getting ready to do it.

Although I repeatedly told myself that this was the will of the Queen Mother, I was just acting on the order. But my heart is always happy.

……

Lin Nan died, and Lin Xiyuan married.

The people I hated no longer exist, and this palace will be my world from now on.

The Queen Mother handed over the power of the harem to me. Slowly, she even told me about the major affairs of the court.

Our two women, one in front and one in the back, firmly control the country of Xin.

One of my glances can make people shudder, a word can manipulate life and death, and people who have not tasted power will not understand this feeling.

In the face of power, what husband and wife are harmonious, father and son are filial piety, brothers and brothers are respectful, all are bullshit.

At this time, I don't care at all, whether I am in the eyes of the emperor or not, and I don't care if the people in the prime minister's mansion hate me or not.

What I care about is whether I can stand at the top of power long enough like the Queen Mother.

……

A dream.

Yesterday, the ministers knelt down three times and knocked nine times and still prostrate at my feet, but today it is a killing sound that shocks the sky.

I knew she was coming.

In fact, she has always been there, uniting the Gao and Cui families, using old things to create public opinion, and trapping the Queen Mother in injustice.

The use of natural disasters to store grain and induce bandits, as well as the three foreign and external affairs, all of them are planned and then moved.

This time, it was not me who was defeated, but the entire Xin country that was defeated.

So, I'm still not reconciled.

What she has is nothing more than good life, and what I lack is just luck.

……

As I said, the one who ruthlessly tore my pride apart was a maid.

When Lynsey stood in front of me with her head held high, I felt weak for some reason.

I can't be weak-hearted, it's not my fault, they forced me, it's all their fault.

I didn't want to enter the palace, but the people in the high mansion forced me to enter the palace;

I didn't want to kill Lin Nan, it was the Queen Mother who forced me to kill her;

I don't want to turn my hands into clouds, and those who turn my hands into rain are those vicious concubines, cunning traitors, who want to take my position and cut my power, and I have to take action.

Everything I do is for the sake of heaven, I am right, and you are the one who is wrong.

She looked at me coldly, a touch of pity flashed in her eyes, she said, what is heaven, what is the Tao, what is the way of heaven?

She also said that my face is not even as good as a lotus.

Why should I pity her, why am I not even as good as a lotus...... One by one, you lowly slaves and maids, climb on my head.

I'm the Queen......

Emperor Ming Dao made three plans and six ceremonies, and eight sedan chairs lifted the queen of the palace......

I am the most honorable person in the world......

Ha...... Ha...... Ha......

They all said I was crazy.

I tell you secretly, I'm not crazy, it's them who are crazy.

They killed the heavens and destroyed the heavens, usurped the throne, and were chaotic ministers and thieves, and everyone was punished for it.

……

"Miss has finally come to peace."

"Why has I been taking the medicine prescribed by Lin Gongzi for a few years, but it doesn't get better."

"Shhh Don't say that word, Miss will get sick again when she hears it. ”

"Hey...... Miss is like this, in this life, how can it be good, if only she didn't enter the palace at the beginning. ”

"Who said no, if you don't enter the palace, Miss will marry a solid person, and it will be for a lifetime."

……

I slowly opened my eyes and listened to the words of Lamei and Ziwei drifting apart, tears falling from the corners of my eyes.

Who can I marry without entering the palace?

Marry Cui Jinchen like an eldest sister, drop herself into the dust, and look up at this man.

Like the second sister, she married into a merchant's house, managed the food, drink and Lazar of the house, and had to fight wits and courage with several aunts.

Or like the fourth sister, she married into Meifu and couldn't even give birth to a son.

I sneered in my heart.

Will they be happy?

I guess the smile on their faces is just to hide people's eyes, and the bitterness behind them is only afraid of vomiting for three days and three nights, and they can't finish vomiting.

Don't think I'm crazy, I know better than anyone else.

The reason why I hate this forest character so much is because this forest character originally belonged to me.

The person who was in Linjia Village, laughing and playing with Lin Bei and Lin Nan, should be me;

And she should be in the Gaofu camp, struggling, unable to survive, unable to die.

God...... How unjust you are!

So, I'm not reconciled.

What she has is nothing more than good life, and what I lack is just luck.

Tears welled down her cheeks.

Lin Xi, if you live in Gaofu, will you be a high iris again...... (To be continued......)

PS: The big chapter of 6,000 words, the bun was written for a whole day.

It's really painful to want to smash the wall.

High Iris is a character carefully created by Baozi, who wants to dig her a little deeper, a little deeper.

I don't know, will it satisfy you!

Buns did their best!