87_878011 (thirty-three) Grandma

"We don't have mothers, listen to them. Mother was going to heaven, and I always thought it was that wonderful place. But now I know that my mother is dead, and she killed herself.

As far back as I can remember, my grandmother didn't like me. Yes, I was young and didn't know why.

'Eat eggs as promised. Grandma called my sister and brother, but she didn't call me.

I watched from the sidelines and was engaged. I don't know why my grandmother didn't show me that expression.

'Cause. Grandpa found me and he called my name very kindly.

I looked up at my grandfather. Grandpa squatted down and gave me the egg in his hand.

I smiled at the egg and took it from my beloved grandfather.

'Silly girl. Grandpa stroked my head.

My family was very wealthy, and in my young memory, I only knew that my grandfather was a company and could make a lot of money.

But when I got the egg, I looked at my grandmother, who was very doting on my sister and Chengcheng. I'm sad and I don't know why. My understanding is different from that of my sister and Chengcheng, and their grandmother is a kind angel in their eyes.

I know them very differently, but although my grandmother is not as fond of me as my sister and Chengcheng, she is also lukewarm to me

'Grandma, here's my greeting card for you. ’

'If you have nothing to do, do something meaningful, don't do it idle. ’

At one point, I tried to do something to please my grandmother, but she turned a blind eye to me.

Until one day, I broke the vase while playing hide and seek with my sister Cheng Chengyi.

Tell who broke it. She spoke very harshly, and I was scared.

In fact, all three of us are responsible, but none of us want to admit it.

'Say it or not. Grandma has a temper and doesn't know why she's so grumpy.

'It's not you. Grandma looked at me.

'Not me. I'm about to fall tears.

'Don't say yes. Grandma took the needle out of the closet.

I was a little scared, and I stepped back.

You don't say it, you don't say it. 'Grandma pricked me with a needle, and I was in pain. My tears have fallen, and they are welling up.

On that day, it was not only me who was stabbed, but everyone was a little affected. It's just that I've been pricked a little too much.

I later learned that my father had been in a car accident that day. Since then, I have gone to heaven and been reunited with my mother.

Yes, we were naïve, and we really thought that my father was just leaving.

We spend our lives without parents like this. Because our family was not poor, we did not lack food and clothing in our childhood.

It wasn't until later that my grandfather died of illness. I was twelve years old, and I didn't know how terrible death was.

But then something even more terrible happened, the house was on fire. They all went out, and I was the only one. I was struggling alone in the fire, and in a blur I saw my sister and grandmother inheriting. Cheng Cheng ran over, but I didn't grab Cheng Cheng's hand.

'Undertaking, undertaking. It's grandma's voice, but it's all she has to do with inheritance.

I watched Seungsei disappear into the fire while I relied on myself. Jumped off the windowsill on the second floor.

Later, there was a conversation.

'There's not a lot of gasoline, what are you doing, kid.' ’

It's almost over, you see, the fire won't be extinguished in an hour or two. ’

I held my breath, and there were wounds all over my body. But I still moved forward, and at that time I only had one sentence, leave. Leave here and never come back.

Only Seung-seung ran into the fire, and his sister and grandmother were indifferent.

'Where there is a sister, there will be a paradise for Inin.' ’

'Liars, liars, all liars. ’

It wasn't my body that burned in that fire, it was my heart. That kind heart has been completely extinguished by the fire. My body is bleeding and my heart is bleeding. ”

I was cruel to myself, and I had painful memories when I thought about them, but I played them over and over again in my heart.

I gripped the cup so tightly that I almost crushed it. But I don't have that much strength.

Grandma, grandma. I don't know if you'll ever think of me and remember that cause. Or you will be ashamed of the cause that you have forsaken.

Grandma is old, you will not remember. Or do you have the guilt of your life?

Cause, cause, cause.

I'm ridiculous enough that I can't get out of this humble life no matter what. I'm still praying, praying that this qiē is my nightmare alone. I still firmly believe that a miracle will happen when I wake up from a nightmare.

But I forgot, I'm not an angel, I'm a devil. I can't humbly pray for fate, because it can't give me anything. I can't believe their tears, and I can't believe that they shed tears for me.

I took the medicine out of my bag and swallowed it. Leave the money on the table and leave. I'm afraid if I stay any longer, I'll smash the cup. I'm afraid I'll have fantasies here, and I'll have to leave.

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I came to the gift shop, and I thought I was going to pick a gift for my grandmother, which should be basic common sense.

"Miss, do you need any help?" The shopping guide came over quickly.

"I want a gift for the elderly." I look at the guide buyer.

"How old is it?"

I stopped, grandma, she must be almost eighty this year. "It's almost eighty, it's my grandmother."

"That's right, then that's it." The shopping guide took out a silk scarf for me.

I took it and looked at the silk scarf, it was a very good style.

"This one is perfect for the elderly." She gave me a careful introduction.

"Miss, you must have a good relationship with your grandmother." The shopper's words made me stop.

Good? What is good?

When I was young, I used to envy the children who were pampered and loved by my grandmother, and yes, I was envious. I think in their tears grandma is happiness and is synonymous with home.

It was so inappropriate to be able to use it on me, I was unhappy, unhappy, and even lived in darkness all the time.

"Miss, miss." The shopping guide saw that I was distracted, and I didn't know how many times I had screamed.

"Help me wrap this up." I smiled at the shopping guide, already retracting his thoughts.

As soon as I swiped the card, I took it and thought about it again.

It's as if this silk scarf has magical powers, it can be exchanged for the relationship between us, it can go back to the past, back to the age of twelve, at least until then I was happy, there will be no unfortunate words.

Sure enough, I can't be a complete devil, and I can't be a complete angel. After all, I wandered between each other, but I forgot that I was the only one who would drown in the end by stepping on the two boats of good and evil.

But I'm so stupid, I'm still praying.

I looked up at the sky, and it was still so beautiful. It's like it hasn't changed in more than a decade, just like it used to be.

If a qiē can be far away, then leave memories to deceive whom