A touch of pain flashed on Mu Yang's face, and he put his hands on her shoulders to make her recognize the reality, "Girl, are you awake?" It's been six years, and if he would have come back, he would have come back a long time ago? He's dead, and even if you don't want to admit that he's not coming back, what's the use of torturing yourself like this? If he's still around, he doesn't want to see you like this! ”

"You don't know anything!"

She waved his hand away, without hesitation.

A scene suddenly came to her mind in her memory, the old man told her that day, in addition to the pile of soil, she also had a suicide note.

It is not surprising that everyone in the army has a suicide note.

It wasn't until she saw it that she knew what she meant to him.

He loves her so much, if she can't even wait six years, how can she be worthy of him? What qualifications do you have to say you love him?

He said that there is only one An Xiaoshu in this world, and she also wants to sue him, for her, there is also only one Xiling Ang in this world.

She loves him, he is the only one in this world, and no one can replace him.

"Mama!" With the sound of footsteps, Xiao Jiu quickly ran up, "Hey, Uncle Mu, you came here." ”

After speaking, seeing that the atmosphere between the two was not right, Xiao Jiu was puzzled, "Ma Ma, what's wrong with you?" ”

"Xiao Jiu, will it be okay to let Uncle Mu take care of you and Ma Ma in the future?" Mu Yang beckoned him over and said to him in a very serious tone.

"Huh?" Xiao Jiu was puzzled, blinking his eyes and looking at An Xiaoshu. He just didn't understand that Uncle Mu didn't already take good care of him and Ma Ma.

"Ma Ma, don't you like Uncle Mu?" Aware of An Xiaoshu's affection. Xiao Jiu walked over and pulled La'an's little book. For him, Uncle Mu is very good to him, but Ma Ma is the most important thing in his heart!

"Xiao Jiu, you don't understand the affairs of adults, don't talk nonsense in the future?" Taking a deep breath, An Xiaoshu had already regained his former appearance.

Her words, instead of saying to Xiao Jiu, had already rejected Mu Yang very well, and she refused very thoroughly.

"But ......"

"If you talk nonsense again, Ma Ma will be angry." An Xiaoshu said with a stern expression.

Seeing this, Xiao Jiu shook his head busily. Leaned over and hugged her. "Ma Ma, don't be angry, Xiao Jiu won't say it."

An Xiaoshu touched his head and said softly, "Good." ”

After saying that, she stood up and didn't even say hello to Mu Yang. pulled Xiao Jiu downstairs.

"Dad. I'll go out for a bit. "Walked to the living room on the first floor. Seeing An's father, she said casually.

"Where is this pointed? I'll let Uncle Liu send you. Father An obviously heard what he said just now, and looked at her worriedly.

"Nope. I want to go for a walk. ”

Dad Ann didn't say anything more, "Then you come back early." ”

"Hmm."

One big and one small left the An family like this.

Walking aimlessly on the road, one large and one small, walking or taking a bus, going around Kyoto.

During this period, Xiao Jiu has been very obedient and let An Xiaoshu pull her, except for occasionally rolling his eyes to look at her, his face full of puzzlement.

Turning around, even An Xiaoshu himself didn't know where he wanted to go. And when she reacted, she was already standing a hundred meters away from the gate of the military region.

She didn't know why she came, but she just came inexplicably.

She hadn't been here for almost seven years, and she didn't know the guards at the gate anymore, nor did she know her.

She just stood there blankly, looking inside the military area, her thoughts flying.

Suddenly, a giant golden SUV drove out at the gate, making her heart jump as it passed in front of her!

"Xilingang!" She suddenly shouted and rushed to the front of the car.

"Shhh

The car window was slowly rolled down, but seeing the people inside made her feel cold.

That person obviously can't be Silingang!

She thought it was ridiculous what she had just thought. How could it be him? If he's still around, how can he not come back to find himself?

Looking at the frowning man in the car blankly, An Xiaoshu suddenly remembered something. She seemed to remember the man, even though she had only met him once.

Because that's a man who makes it hard to forget even if you've only seen one thing, a man who is on par with Xiling Ang in terms of momentum. He was the head of the special base of the Southwest Military Region, Yan Zhan, whom she had met when she was sent to the Southwest Region for disaster relief.

No wonder she had just mistaken him!

The man's eyes were sharp as he looked at her, obviously a little caught off guard by her sudden rush out.

"Something?" Like his expression, the man's voice was unusually stern. When I hear it, I am the kind of lord who does not smile.

"Mama!" Xiao Jiu, who was not lightly frightened just now, ran over and pulled An Xiaoshu's sleeve, "Ma Ma, what's wrong with you?" ”

An Xiaoshu came back to his senses, hurriedly said 'I'm sorry', and pulled Xiao Jiu to the side.

In the car, the man who was originally frowning tightly flashed a trace of surprise in his eyes when he saw Xiao Jiu. But only fleetingly.

Without saying anything, the man closed the window glass and drove off into the distance.

Until the car went away, An Xiaoshu lowered his head and saw Xiao Baozi's concerned gaze, and patted him comfortingly, "Ma Ma is fine." ”

Xiao Jiu wrinkled his nose, "Ma Ma, do you miss your father?" Ma Ma, don't be angry with Xiao Jiu, Xiao Jiu will never talk nonsense in the future. ”

"No, Ma Ma is not angry, Xiao Jiu is very well-behaved." An Xiaoshu rubbed his head with satisfaction.

"Then Ma Ma smiled."

An Xiaoshu glanced at him deeply, and suddenly asked, "Xiao Jiu, shall we go to see Dad?" ”

"Huh?" Xiao Jiu blinked and didn't understand.

This is the first time An Xiaoshu has come here in six years, the Martyrs' Cemetery.

Although the old man told her the address, to this day she does not want to believe the fact that Xilingang is gone.

She didn't know how she had survived six hellish years, but it had indeed passed! Many times during this period, she thought she was going to die in despair, but she still came over.

Looking at the familiar facial features on the tombstone, which could not be more familiar. There was a touch of warmth flowing in her heart.

In the photo, his appearance is cold, and his face is forever expressionless, but it makes her feel unusually relieved.

Squatting down, she stroked him over and over again in the photo, imagining the picture of once touching him like this.

Xiao Jiu stood aside, looked at the tombstone and then looked at An Xiaoshu, and suddenly approached the tombstone like her, and said, "Dad, Xiao Jiu has come to see you." Xiao Jiu misses you very much. Ma Ma misses you too ......"

"Dad. Where have you been, why don't you come back to see Xiao Jiu? You don't know, all the classmates in the class have fathers, but I don't. ”

The child's unintentional words. It made An Xiaoshu's heart ache. pulled Xiao Jiu and hugged him in his arms.

Xiao Jiu is sensible. But after all, she is still just a child, and it is natural for a child to yearn for father's love, just like when she was a child. Although he said that he didn't care, he still envied the children who had mothers.

Xiao Jiu is now the same as he was at the beginning.

"Xiao Jiu, I'm sorry." Hugging him tightly, An Xiaoshu really didn't know how to answer except for saying this.

She can double her love for her son, but she can't let Xiao Jiu call someone else's father, let alone forget that he is with another man!

"Xiao Jiu, don't blame Dad, Dad doesn't want to be like this, that's Dad's job, Dad is our pride!"

"Mama, is Dad dead?" Xiao Jiu asked suddenly.

An Xiaoshu looked up at him in surprise. Since he was a child, no matter who he was, he rarely mentioned Xiling Ang in front of Xiao Jiu, and even if An Xiaoshu said that he only told his father that he had gone to a far away place and would not come back for a long time.

"Why do you ask?" Steady and steady, An Xiaoshu asked.

"The classmates said that Dad didn't go far away at all, but that he was dead and would never come back."

An Xiaoshu was speechless, stunned for a long time without responding.

"Ma Ma, you sue Xiao Jiu, is Dad really dead?"

"Son......" An Xiaoshu suddenly felt that his nose was a little blocked, and he almost shed tears in front of him, looked up at the sky, and only then did he take back his out-of-control love a little.

Just when she didn't know how to answer, the cell phone in her pocket rang.

Looking at the number on it, it was Xiao Jia calling.

After pressing the answer button, An Xiaoshu fed it, and Xiao Jia's sobbing voice came from the other end, "Sister-in-law...... Oh no...... Alexandria it ......"

Her intermittent words made An Xiaoshu feel a little inexplicably panicked in her heart, "What's the matter, say it slowly." ”

"Alexander didn't eat much this morning, I thought he just didn't want to eat, but he didn't eat at noon, he ...... just now"

Listening to Xiao Jia's choked voice, An Xiaoshu's heart seemed to be suspended, and it hurt when he moved.

Although Xiao Jia didn't say it clearly, An Xiaoshu still roughly guessed it.

After hanging up the phone, she pulled Xiao Jiu and left in a hurry. After walking a few meters, he suddenly turned his head to look at the photo on the tombstone.

"Mama, what's wrong with Alexander?"

Xiao Jiu's immature voice pulled back An Xiaoshu's thoughts, and silently said in his heart, 'I'll see you next time' and led Xiao Jiu away.

When the two arrived at the pet clinic, Xiao Jia had already calmed down, and Alexander had already received an injection and was resting.

An Xiaoshu asked Xiaojia about the situation, it seemed that it was caused by Alexander's accidental ingestion of food, and the golden retriever's stomach was already relatively fragile, so you can imagine how strict it is.

On the other hand, Alexander is already an old dog in terms of age, and his physique is naturally not as good as that of ordinary dogs. Even the doctor vaguely said that it may not be able to save the life, what they can do has been done, and the rest is only to see the will of God.

Providence? An Xiaoshu really doesn't like this word, but now there is no other way but this.

Alexander, who had been injected, looked weak, and kept whining like crying, and An Xiaoshu felt desolate in his heart for a while.

Alexander is nominally just a dog, but to her he is like a relative!

She was related to Xiling Ang except Xiao Jiu, only Alexander, and she didn't dare to imagine what she would do if something happened to it.

"Mama, will Alexander die?" Out of the hospital, Xiao Jiu asked nervously.

Xiao Jia's expression was complicated, and she was also waiting for An Xiaoshu's answer like Xiao Jiu, as if as long as An Xiaoshu said a word of comfort, the two of them would be relieved.

"It's okay, Alexander is just sick, and he'll be fine with the injection." An Xiaoshu raised the corners of his mouth and smiled softly.

"Great." Xiao Jiu exhaled and kept patting his little chest, "I thought Alexander would go far away like his father." ”

A six-year-old child, although he knows the word death, does not understand the real meaning of it.

Xiao Jia looked worried, for fear that Xiao Jiu would say something that would make An Xiaoshu sad again, so she hurriedly beckoned to him, "Xiao Jiu, come to my aunt, don't bother Ma Ma." ”

Xiao Jiu probably also saw that An Xiaoshu was forcing a smile, and ran to Xilingjia's side with a sigh.

sent Xiao Jiu back to Xiling's house at night, and An Xiaoshu went out alone.

She hadn't been back to the East Palace for a few days, and she suddenly wanted to go back and have a look.

Although it is uninhabited now, someone comes to clean it at a regular time, so it still looks spotless.

Straight upstairs and open the door to the master bedroom, where everything inside is the same as it was six years ago. Lying down on the large double bed, she stared at the ceiling and froze.

After a long while, she muttered to herself, "Xilingang, where are you?" You said you would always protect me, you liar, I don't want to trust you anymore! ”

Saying this, she hurriedly left the East Palace.

Half an hour later she arrived at another destination, Nishinomiya.

This time, though, instead of going to the master bedroom, she headed for another place.

Gently pushing open the door of the study, the heart-shaped pattern on the wall with photos of the two of them came into view, and most of them were her pictures.

On the other wall next door, although it is also a large heart-shaped pattern, it is pasted with a picture of him.

In the photo, he is sitting or standing, some are working hard, and some have a straight face as if to warn her. But one thing is the same, that is, he will always have that kind of expression with a straight face and no smile.

Lying down on the couch, her eyes were fixed on the photos, letting the tears slide down the corners of her eyes and melt on the couch one by one.

She held the mobile phone in her hand that had not been replaced, and the picture stayed on a recording, and in the voice coming from it, his voice was clear and real, as if he was standing in front of him!

Many times she thought he should be by her side, but every time she opened her eyes, there was nothing in front of her.

She misses him so much! It's really exciting! In the past six years, she has fantasized countless times about his return, but none of them have come true.

Some just dreamed back at midnight, and she held his relics and sobbed quietly, imagining the picture of him holding herself.

She felt so tired, never so tired!

For so many years, no one knew the bitterness in her heart, and the despair behind every forced smile at others.

There have been countless times when she has even had suicidal thoughts, but when she thinks of Xiao Jiu, she can't be ruthless. Xiao Jiu no longer has a father, how can she let him no longer have a mother?

Curl yourself up as much as you can. She closed her eyes and tried to recall the image of the two of them together. Those memories are beautiful for her, and at the same time desperate, because memories are always memories, and they can never become reality.

Not knowing when she fell asleep, she wanted to go on like this, preferably never waking up.

But she was still woken up, and when she woke up, the sky outside the window had already lit up.

It took a lot of effort for her to pick up the non-stop phone and feed it.

On the other end, Xiao Jia's eager and excited voice came.

She said that Alexander had woken up and had begun to regain his spirits!

The moment he hung up the phone, An Xiaoshu suddenly cried and laughed. My mind was full of what Xiao Jia said on the other end of the phone, Alexander is okay.

It's good!

After going to the bathroom and washing her face, she hurried to the hospital.

Unlike Alexander, who was lying there motionless yesterday, today it has recovered its spirits, and as soon as it saw An Xiaoshu, it greeted him affectionately, wagging its tail excitedly.

An Xiaoshu touched its head soothingly, and his eyes were slightly red. (To be continued......)