9. Chapter 9: The Nine Great Ditch Jurchen Sutra
In the rental house, we don't even know what this is for? The atmosphere seemed to be a little eerie, with an inexplicable, indescribable, breathless feeling of suffocation. I was stunned for a while, and I was so panicked trying to hide something, and I saw that I would continue to stand like this, and I would not know how to clean up the situation, and my heart panicked inexplicably.
What are you panicking about? I do not know.
At such moments, I felt my heart pound. "Bang Bang Bang" is like beating a drum. It shouldn't, really, shouldn't. The knife wound left by Yi Ting on my heart has not healed yet, and it hurts to think about it, why did I step into the path of the trap without knowing it?
This indescribable Mo Ming's panic arose in the silent and speechless look with Tang Yanxin. I don't know why. But I know that's what we usually call throbbing. A long time ago, when I met Yi Ting, I experienced this kind of throbbing. It is generally not produced lightly, but once it is produced, it means that there is a shadow that stirs the heart!
Of course, I don't think that's the case with me. It's so impossible. I have just suffered the blow of love frustration, and I have not yet taken a breath from that heartbreak, so naturally I will not inexplicably jump into the invisible and untouchable love pit. Anyway, I have to heal first. As for the throbbing sensation just now, I think I was purely self-inflicted!
Am I being amorous? Look at what an excellent girl Tang Yanxin is, even if she doesn't show it, she can make people feel that she is unattainable, and her face is pretty and wise. Even if a passerby glances casually, you can feel the aggressive aura that comes from her body, which should be what we usually call temperament, right?
What do you use to compare a girl like this with her? Therefore, it is best to stay away from her and don't hurt yourself with love. I can't afford to hurt anymore, my carrying capacity is already very weak and weak, I hope that the inexplicable feeling at this moment is just my self-inflicted sentimentality. When I understand it myself, I will be far away from love. I live a boring day of going to work during the day and washing and sleeping at night. It's not passionate, but it's flat. Isn't there a lyric that says that plain is the most true?
I thought, yes. In life, there are vigorous and vigorous, ups and downs, as well as fighting for life and death, deceitful and deceitful, you fight and fight, and in the end, it will be calm. And to realize this, and take it as the philosophy of life, and take it as the destination of life, is the belonging of all our sentient beings.
I thought about it for a long time, and when I looked up at Tang Yanxin's room, I found that Tang Yanxin had kicked on the side of the bed and was silently packing her luggage. I suddenly came to my senses, approached her with some embarrassment, handed her a key to the house, and said sorry, sorry. Tang Yanxin raised her head and glanced at me, and asked me with a smile:
"You...... What were you thinking just now? It's like, it's fascinating. Tang Yanxin said, her face turned crimson.
This subtle change in expression on Tang Yanxin's face did not escape my eyes. The kind of shy and confused eyes, the kind of shyness that blushes before speaking, makes people feel love and pity and pity. However, why did Tang Yanxin suddenly have such an expression? It's not because of my presumptuousness and rudeness!
Hey! What am I doing? What was I thinking? Actually, I didn't do anything, I was just in a daze. But I think what can I sue you? Did I say, I didn't think about anything, I just inadvertently thought about it? If I want to be honest to this point, Tang Yanxin will definitely look down on me. At the very least, when we first met, Tang Yanxin would think that I was not a good person, and I had evil thoughts about her so quickly! I have a lot to think about!
Thinking of this, I felt embarrassed, my face was full of hot flashes, and then, my whole body was hot and hot, as if it had been burned. I really didn't know what to say to her, and I couldn't make up a lie in my hurry. I'm not an expert at that on weekdays, so I can only laugh stupidly with a flushed face.
It is not difficult to imagine that my embarrassment, my shyness, and my overwhelm must make Tang Yanxin see my immaturity, and must make Tang Yanxin think that I am not enough to rely on...... Hey, hey, where do I think I'm going again? Really, how long have you only met Tang Yanxin? I've been cranky more than once.
Regarding the shortcomings that I often think about, I think that in addition to my parents' lack of good education for me, Tang Yanxin's beauty and nobility should also be regarded as an inducement. This is not a wronged her. Other girls don't see them, which makes me want to be wrong? Don't see me looking at them more?
What's more, I've just fallen out of love, I'm still full of wounds, and I'm still faintly heartache! Sometimes, I even regard Yi Ting's betrayal of me as a common problem of female water-based poplars, which makes me hate women. But in front of Tang Yanxin, why can't I hold my heart and be wild? Am I not afraid of another stab in my heart?
A man who has just been injured, the love in his heart should not be ignited immediately, because Yi Ting's figure is difficult to disappear in my mind in a short time. Since I am still immersed in the sorrow of the past and have not been able to come out, and I can't spare enough heart to start a new journey of love, then I should not harm others and myself.
Therefore, for the cranky thoughts in my heart, I should suppress it, let time slowly heal my wounds, let the cold keep my distance from Tang Yanxin, and keep life in a state without waves. Especially, let my Sotsu slowly scar in the washing of the years.
Since I understand this truth, I should keep a certain distance from Tang Yanxin. So I have enough room to heal myself. I silently lowered my head and looked at my bags. In fact, it is also very simple, a slightly larger rucksack, which contains some daily changes of clothes, pants, towels and other things. I didn't even have a futon to cover at night.
Fortunately, I only received three months' salary yesterday. Although I bought a pair of pearl earrings as a show of love, it didn't cost much. I still have thousands of oceans. After work in the afternoon, I can go buy a pillow and futon so that I don't get cold again tonight. There are also daily necessities such as cups, toothpaste, and toothbrushes that should be replenished.
From now on, I have to live a single life again, and I have to take care of myself every time. There's no way around it. I can't go back to Yi Ting's side. In that case, I won't be able to stand it. I would rather live a single life than return to Yi Ting's side with grievances, which is the basic principle of my life.
Slow, slow!
Am I really going to live a single life? There is a Tang Yanxin alive in front of me, will she become my alternative?
It is said that when a man meets a woman, if he can calm down and make a quick judgment about the situation in front of him, and analyze whether the woman is beautiful or not, if not, he will simply ignore it; If she is a beauty, but she seems to be relatively indifferent, even if her private life is chaotic, there are too many friends of the opposite sex, and there is a suspicion of promiscuity, she will also ignore it!
Of course, maybe the other party has a cheerful personality, although she has a lot of friends, but she is still a serious girl, so the person who has the idea of approaching her is more to solve the need! If she is a beautiful woman or a virtuous person, it often becomes the object of men trying to soak her in their hands!
At the beginning, there were people who had such rational thoughts, and most of them were moved.
So, for Tang Yanxin, my feeling should be regarded as the last one. In this way, it means that I am excited! It's just that we met for the first time, and I'm in the stage of falling out of love, am I really moved?
Impossible, impossible. I refused to admit that I was really touched by Tang Yanxin deep down in my heart.
In fact, beautiful women are easy to touch the hearts of men, all because of the love of beauty, everyone has it.
But that doesn't mean you'll be able to get there. Because beautiful women are arrogant animals, light yì can't reach your hands. For this reason, someone has also studied this problem and summarized it as: The nine essential elements of pickling girls are: bold, careful, thick-skinned, decisive, witty and eloquent, insightful, humorous, generous, and sincere.
Moreover, we must also pay attention to the eight taboos of women, that is: untidy clothing and unkempt edges; Too honest; The cold field does not know how to save the field and round the field; Rushing and rushing; Competitive; obedience; Close-fitting and clingy; Easy to get excited, too emotional.
However, there is no fixed program for the method of picking up girls, and it has to be analyzed on a case-by-case basis, for a cold and glamorous woman, it is necessary to double conquer and burn physically and mentally, so that she gets carried away; For a woman who is dismissive of you, you must deal a heavy blow to her, make her realize your true value, let her realize that you are strong in some way; For a woman who is born with a charming backbone, you must make her unable to extricate herself, lose her mind, and when she sees you, she will flatter and flatter, and be willing to surrender; For other people's women, you should give her meticulous care until the red apricot crosses the wall!
If the other person still says to you, she is drunk! Or maybe I drank too much! Or maybe I'm tired! I'm so dizzy! I couldn't sleep all night! I don't want to go home! This all means that the opportunity for men has come......
Ouch! Where did my whims go? Is Tang Yanxin that kind of person? Did she hint at anything to me?
No, right? So why am I thinking about all this nonsense? I really owe Tang Yanxin for her trust in me!
It's not that you don't envision the future with dirty ideas until a qiē has even begun. That way, things will go in a bad way. We should envision the future with good intentions, so that as long as the good vision is still there, we will always correct the path we are taking and achieve good goals. Therefore, choosing beauty is what we need.