Tang Yanxin also tried her best to avoid her beautiful eyes from contact with me. She seemed to have noticed my wandering and dazedness. We pretended to tidy up our bedrooms and retreated into our own houses. Time has passed imperceptibly. It seems that it is too late to take a nap in the newly rented room at noon.

I spent some time discussing the share house, and some time looking at each other in my thoughts. In this way, the time to go to work in the afternoon is gradually approaching. My stomach started rumbling, constantly reminding me that I hadn't eaten for more than seven hours since breakfast very early in the morning, and that I was hungry!

I took out my phone and looked at it, it was almost two o'clock. If you go out to a street restaurant and have a casual meal, you will have to take the bus back to your unit. If you don't hurry, you will be late for work in the afternoon. I can't afford to be late! It's not that the work in the unit has to be done on time, but the punch card machine records that I am late, and my salary has to be deducted. I can't afford to be deducted, after all, it's more than 3,000 a month.

In this medium-sized city, a monthly salary of more than 3,000 is actually no better than a beggar begging on the street. I stopped what I was doing and walked out of the bedroom. As soon as I got to the living room, I stopped unconsciously. A question came to my heart, do you want to call Tang Yanxin to go to dinner together? After all, she's a tenant in the same room!

Just as she was hesitating, Tang Yanxin also walked out of her room. As soon as we looked up, we looked at each other. Naturally, we all politely put on a fake smile and said, "All the luggage is settled?" ”

Actually, I want to ask, it's almost two o'clock, are you hungry? Why don't we go out for lunch? However, I don't know how the words came out of my mouth, but they turned into such a false greeting? You have to think about how to answer that false statement! "I want to go out for a while, and I won't be back in the afternoon."

I replied insincerely, with a smile on my face that was no better than crying. Pretending to have something important to do, I walked out of the house. Hey, what's wrong with me? I obviously wanted to invite her to lunch, so as to make a good start to my relationship with her, but I did such a different thing, I really don't know what's wrong!

Stand next to the alley and let the sun shine above my head. I squinted my eyes and didn't immediately leave the area around the door of the rental house. I don't know what I want to do. Is it looking forward to Tang Yanxin coming out inadvertently at this time? Then I accosted me and said that it was not early, and it was noon, and I should be very hungry. Why don't you go around and find something to eat?

I think that people are iron, and rice is steel. No matter what, you have to eat enough to tidy up your room, right? However, the Tang Yanxin I was looking forward to did not appear. She seems to have a lot of work to do. I hung my clothes in the closet, but found that the closet had been useless for a long time, so I put down my clothes and went to the kitchen to fetch water and scrub them.

I finally put away my clothes, but I found that the bed smelled of sweat! Anyway, she had endless reasons to stay in the house. And I stood in the sun and didn't just leave. I once walked to the alley alone. But the ghost pushed him back to the door of the rented house.

On several occasions, I wanted to go straight into the house and ask her if she hadn't done it yet. Don't do it, what should I do if I'm hungry? Let's go out for lunch first. I'll ask you. I don't know how many times I repeated these words in my mind, but I just didn't have the courage to go into the house and say them.

Before I came out, I remember that I seemed to have said that I had left beforehand. Why did I go back to the house? Some can't be explained! But if she comes out of the house at this time, I can say Lu Sheng, I can't find a big row, why don't you look for it together? In this way, it both covers up my lies and becomes natural.

But this qiē did not appear. I frowned and squinted my eyes, letting the direct sun sin me enough, and I went back and forth in the alley several times, but I still couldn't find a chance to meet Tang Yanxin by chance. Seeing that the time passed minute by minute, and the time for work was imminent, I couldn't hold on anymore, so I had to walk to the alley.

I left the rental house in a daze and went to the restaurant down the street to ask for a quick meal. After dealing with my stomach indiscriminately, I went back to the company. This lunch is really tasteless, and I don't know what I'm thinking! After a while, I regretted that I didn't generously invite Tang Yanxin to eat together; For a while, I was afraid that Tang Yanxin would also come to this restaurant. So a man is like a thief, and he has no intention of eating.

When I returned to the website, I turned on the computer to read the correspondent's manuscript, but I couldn't read it. Fortunately, the recent manuscripts are all from veteran correspondents, and their manuscripts are generally of high quality. At the very least, they still know the basic format of a press release. So if you can't see it, you don't want to force yourself, and you can just send the manuscript directly to the column.

I was operating the computer in a daze, and suddenly, there was a noise in the editor-in-chief's office, and it didn't take long for the editor-in-chief of our department to come out of the editor-in-chief's office with a blue face and white lips. He also cursed along the way. Saying anything is simply a sin to be added, and there is no excuse for it! If you want to fry Lao Tzu squid, fry Lao Tzu squid, why bother to prevaricate me with so many unreasonable reasons! You don't have to die a good horse!

Looking at the editor-in-chief's blue face and white lips, and his nose twisted and his face crooked, at first, I was really relieved. On weekdays, I wasn't scolded by him. This kid is a little incoherent when he is proud, and he really treats himself as a character! Calling me back and forth, scolding me for being so ugly, I don't dare to repeat it to everyone until now.

So when I heard that he was fired, can I not be happy? His fury, however, was soon replaced by a frown, and I think he must have been troubled by his dismissal. Or does he have a family to bear? Or is he already financially strained? Or does he have family lying in the hospital? In short, life is hard enough for him to worry?

I don't know what the hell is going on. But the kid in chief of the department scolded Mr. Ma and vented his original desk, which looked quite vicious. Immediately afterward, his fury was replaced by sorrow. This is a clear manifestation of life's embarrassment! It's a painful moment of shortness of breath for men.

I don't know why, I don't know what others think, but for me, at this moment, I suddenly sympathize with his expulsion. I think that everyone has shortcomings and shortcomings, and it is not a gentleman's job to put other people's shortcomings and shortcomings on the line!

I don't know if I'm out of love, and he's unemployed. Anyway, I think he deserves sympathy and retention. At this moment, I feel that he can be forgiven for his usual arrogance and abuse against me. Because, the two of us have the same disease, I know how helpless and sad a man is when he is short of breath!

I sympathize with him.

I stared at his pitiful, hunched back, full of sympathy and bitterness, and suddenly found that I was so diverse! Suddenly I found that I was so kind-hearted and compassionate!

In my memory, I remember reading some Zen-rich dialogues, saying that the confused layman felt confused and puzzled by all kinds of troubles and worries in life, so he went to ask the living Buddha. Among them, there is a conversation that is closer to this situation.

The confused layman asks: Is it necessary to recover something that has been lost in life?

The Living Buddha closed his eyes and replied: What you have lost has never really belonged to you, so you don't have to regret it, let alone recover it.

I think these two lines of dialogue were so incisive and penetrating for my former editor-in-chief, and for the embarrassing fact that I lost Yi Ting. In fact, the life we are facing has too much confusion and too much incomprehension, and once we explain it thoroughly, it is really like that!

For example, when we are in adversity, should we seek satisfaction or fight back?

The Living Buddha's answer is simple and wise: let go.

So, how can we relax if we feel too tired in life?

The answer of the living Buddha is: a small part of life is due to survival, and a small half is due to desire and comparison.

What do we do about yesterday and today?

The Living Buddha replied: Don't let too much yesterday occupy your today.

The Living Buddha's answer to the complaints of some people is that many people think they are thinking about how to save the world when they reorganize their prejudices.

So, how do you balance happiness and sadness? Living Buddhism says: A person has only one heart, but two atrium. One lives with happiness and the other with sadness, don't laugh too loudly, otherwise you will wake up the sadness next to you.

Hey, that's so subtle! So much so that I, who often only remember the classic aphorisms of how to ditch women, actually remembered these philosophical dialogues when my editor-in-chief was driven away.

Of course, I haven't forgotten that the living Buddha's incisive dialogue about love is so deeply rooted in my heart, which is simply the essence of love and broken love!

For example, some people say that love will be diluted because of time, what do you think of the living Buddha?

The Living Buddha replied: Love makes people forget time, and time also makes people forget love.

So, what do you think about "love and happiness"? ”

The Living Buddha replied: Many people love the wrong person because of the so-called happiness, but more people are happy all their lives because they love the right person.

If, and not if, the truth is: two people who love each other can't be together, what if?

The Living Buddha replied: If you can't be together, you can't be together, in fact, your life is not that long.

Oh, my God! What an enlightening proverb!

I know that it is not so easy to let go of these words that are so thorough to actually do it. However, at least it can make people sober up and no longer be too entangled in the reality of life.

Especially the last sentence, how much pain does that have to carry!

In fact, life is not easy. Whether it's emotionally or existentially, it's not easy.