72_72291Hugo's words silenced everyone, although Hugo didn't say it explicitly, but they all knew that in fact, Hugo was not only talking about himself, but also about glory to death.

In the past two years, Glory to Death has achieved too much glory, they enjoy the applause and the lights, they wander in the crazy screams and frenzy, their sharpness has been gradually worn out in the pursuit of the media and the praise of the audience, so they begin to feel empty and begin to be unable to meet the status quo. Hugo's focus on the work of actors is an important reason for the gap between glory and death, which is undeniable, but what really makes glory to death begin to decadent is the emptiness of their spirit.

So Pedro couldn't suppress his curiosity and completely indulged in poison. Among the products; So Alfonso began to want to expand his territory and use more money to meet the needs of him and his family; That's why Neil and Fokine keep creating, but they can't find a direction. Hugo is no exception.

Hollywood is a tiny, tiny circle where it seems that all the flashing lights, cheers and applause can fill all the space, every day in alcohol and drugs. Character and sexuality. Drunk and dreaming in love, maybe one day you can wake up, maybe you will sink forever - like River Phoenix, like Macaulay Culkin.

The bonfire in front of him suddenly crackled and burst into a burst of sparks, and the night at the top seemed to be ignited, quickly burning into ashes, and then falling scattered to bring Hugo back to his senses. In fact, Hugo didn't intend to say these things at all, he wasn't ready to share his thoughts with the members of the band again, he coughed lightly, showed a smile, and changed the subject, "Now that we're in the Grand Canyon, I'm going to watch the sunrise tomorrow morning, it's going to be spectacular, does anyone want to sign up?" ”

Hugo's words were lightly lit above the bonfire, and then turned into a puff of smoke, dissipating into the air without causing any waves, which made the smile on the corner of Hugo's mouth slowly retract, but at this moment, Alfonso suddenly said, "Last summer, my father was drunk and drove into a car accident and crashed four cars. ”

Alfonso's jerky voice was cold in the explosion of sparks, making people involuntarily shiver. Throughout the day, Alfonso spoke only a handful of times, to be precise, since the Oscars, and he has never had a deep conversation with the band. So when he spoke without warning at this time, everyone was shocked.

"Is he okay?" Neil asked, worried.

Alfonso shrugged slightly, "There are no missing arms or legs. The tone of understatement revealed a sense of sadness, and Alfonso glanced up at Hugo, "Joe doesn't know, and the Gibbs family is not in a very good situation. Then he quickly withdrew his gaze and looked back at the campfire in front of him.

Hugo was still shocked why Joseph didn't say a word, but after listening to Alfonso's explanation, Hugo could only sigh lightly.

Joseph's younger brother, Paul, enrolled at the University of Tennessee, and Shun joined the university's football team; His youngest sister was admitted to the University of Tennessee last year, leaving his parents alone. And last summer, Joseph's brother Peter was in the army without warning to cut off the news, for three months, this incident also made the Gibbs family very tormented, and then it was later confirmed that Peter only participated in a secret mission, temporarily forbidden to communicate with the outside world, just a false alarm. But in those three months, the Gibbs family was indeed a mess, and the time Alfonso was talking about should be that time.

"In August, my mother fell her pelvis at work and had to lie in bed for two months...... It was a mess in my house during that time. Alfonso never spoke about his family, and much of what Hugo knew came from Joseph.

Alfonso, a Spaniard, had a large family of seven people - including his five siblings - and his uncles and uncles were all united. Their family was much more complicated than Joseph's family - although Joseph was half Spanish, their family had been in the United States for more than three generations, so the whole family was relatively simpler.

Although Joseph did not elaborate on the situation of Alfonso's family, in fact, Hugo and they all knew that most of the Hispanics in Texas were joined gangs, such as Joseph's brother Peter, and these gangs were all doing illegal activities, smuggling arms and drugs. product, population, etc...... Imagine how much courage Alfonso took to give up his musical dreams and flee Houston to become a car dealer in Los Angeles.

So, during that period last year, a sudden mess of things came flooding the house, and the pressure Alfonso was under can be said to be unimaginable.

"And my brother, he's ......," Alfonso waved his hand, as if trying to put the past aside, "but anyway, I needed money during that time, so I got back into business, and I bought a house in San Diego because I needed to bring my younger siblings over, and they had to leave Houston." I wanted my mother to pass too, but she didn't want to ......."

Alfonso's words were fragmented, very fragmented, and there was not even much useful information, but his difficulties could be felt. "But these are just excuses, the real reason is because I'm jealous, I'm jealous of Hugo's success, I want to get more attention, I don't want to be just the keyboardist and guitarist of the band, but I forget about it...... How difficult it is. ”

Alfonso's words stopped, and he didn't know how to organize his words. After Oscar's night, there were countless thoughts tumbling in his mind, Hugo's words, Henry's words, Pedro's words...... He thought about it a lot, and all the past came to his mind bit by bit, which cooled down the head that had become overheated with jealousy.

However, the more he understood the cause and effect of the incident, the more guilty and ashamed Alfonso became, and the more he could not speak, and he even felt that it was a luxury to ask for forgiveness from his teammates. He didn't know how to express his thoughts, and he didn't know what the future of the band would hold, but the truth is, he was confused.

"Dude, I'm sorry." Alfonso, who is usually eloquent, was already out of words at this time, so he could only look at his teammates and whisper, this simple sentence of sorry hides countless heavy and complicated emotions. This time, Alfonso did not dodge again, but looked intently at his teammates, and finally met Hugo's gaze, calmly facing Hugo's gaze.

After a long time, Alfonso turned his head away, looked at Pedro, and said in a dumb voice, "I'm really sorry." "Maybe he was too selfish to never find Pedro's anomalies - or maybe he had already discovered Pedro's anomalies, but he was so focused on enjoying the spotlight and jealous of Hugo that he was reluctant to explore them.

Looking at Pedro's clear eyes, Alfonso lowered his head in shame, the confusion and bitterness of the tip of his tongue almost drowning him.

Pedro tugged at the corners of his mouth slightly, "Alfonso, you didn't feel sorry for me, Hugo, Neil, Fokin, you didn't feel sorry for me either, from beginning to end, every choice was made by me......"

"Pepe!" Neil interrupted Pedro, who had just quit today. He wasn't sure if Pedro was mentally strong enough and healthy enough to get such a tricky question as formal.

Pedro shook his head, "I know, Hugo said that day, these are my choices, I have my freedom, my rights, that's the truth." But Hugo, we're friends, aren't we? Pedro looked straight at Hugo, his eyes a pale red against the background of the campfire, with a layer of mist tumbling inside.

Pedro uses the word "friend" instead of "teammate". This made Hugo's heart ache, all the suppressed emotions rolled up, he wanted to open his mouth to say "yes", but the words came to his mouth but couldn't say anything, Hugo wolf bèi avoided his gaze.

He can't help it, he can't help it after all, maybe he's just a coward, and after trust has been betrayed again and again, he begins to fear and retreat.

Hugo's gentle dodge made Pedro's mouth full of bitterness, and he knew that the trust between him and Hugo had finally broken down. In the past, Hugo was trying to persuade him to stay away from drugs. When he tasted it, he just felt irritable, why did Hugo teach him, and what qualifications did Hugo have to control him; But now, he really knows that that's called caring, that's called caring, and that's called trust.

"I knew I made a stupid choice, and I knew that I was starting to get lost in the spotlight and screams, and for a long time, I would even wake up in the garbage heap and have no memory of what happened last night." Pedro inserted his hands into his hair, clutching at his own hair in pain, "So I need you, I need friends to stand by my side, to tell me where I'm going, to tell me the motivation to persevere." Hugo, do you remember? ”

Pedro's voice was like a wounded beast, whimpering low between his knees, "'Born Helena Jeanne, with a tired soul, she traveled west to California and became a magazine cover girl. But once you change your name, the soul fragment fades away, and now she can barely recognize herself. It's Hollywood, not America (Hollywood's. not。 america)".

Then Pedro suddenly looked up, through the raging flames, and looked at Hugo who was fading in the night, "At first I couldn't really understand the meaning of the lyrics, but now, I can't recognize myself." ”。