"You just want to be noticed too much, you just want to be loved too much. You want to be in contact with people too much, but you are afraid of being hurt again, so you are like a hedgehog and erect thorns on your body in front of the people around you, not to hurt anyone, but to protect yourself. ”

"Ahh Her hand tightly hugged the back of the purple clothes, for the first time in her life, she had the feeling of being understood and cared for.

"Ziyi, I'm not that good, I'm not as good as you say. I'm selfish, I selfishly want to keep Kaoru Duanmu by my side, and I feel like he can understand my difference. I thought about hurting you, hurting everyone, and even thinking that as long as I was doing well, everyone else didn't care. She has never cried so loudly, as if she wants to vent all the grievances and cries she has endured for more than ten years.

Ziyi didn't speak again.

She's really resentful, really weird.

Just as she still resents Naza.

These two women, one made her lose the Bi'er she cared about the most, and the other almost made her lose the lover she cared about the most. That fear, even now, appears in dreams from time to time.

This shadow may hang her for the rest of her life.

But—

She couldn't help but forgive.

At the beginning, when she was disfigured by the fire and lost her voice, she once thought that she must let Nazha change her a thousand times over, she would skin her, shave her bones, bleed, and cramp.

But now, she didn't seem to want to embarrass anyone anymore.

In this world, maybe everything is predestined.

As the saying goes, when will the injustice be retribution?! Hatred always has to be put down first by a certain person. For himself, but also for his children and grandchildren.

Ziyi doesn't want her children to live in hatred in the future.

Everyone's life and death, and the pain that everyone has to experience, may be arranged by God.

Blame can only be blamed on the ill-fated fate.

The group left the desert the next day, and they took the wrong with them.

Although Yintong and the others disagreed very much, and even Sisi was hostile to Youfei, Ziyi still stubbornly brought this woman up.

In the carriage, Yu Fei looked at Sisi a little crampedly, and the little man stared at her with such resentment.

"Ziyi, why did you bring this bad woman back? She wants to rob Sisi's father, what if her father is fascinated by her and accepts her as a concubine? Sisi tilted her head, still trying to convince Ziyi to kick out the woman she hated in the car.

"If your father dares to accept a concubine again, Ziyi will take Sisi away and fly high, okay?" Ziyi chuckled and winked at Sisi, her words made Duanmu Xun on the side frown, and couldn't help but pull Ziyi's little hand tighter.

Ziyi looked at Duanmu Kaoru sideways and threw a meaningful smile at Duanmu Kaoru.

"But Ziyi, you see, Sisi's skin is not good!" Si Si stretched out her little hand and touched her little face, her little face was red and wrinkled, and it didn't look like a child's face at all.

"And, Ziyi, Sisi almost died in the desert." Sisi pursed her lips aggrievedly, and tears were about to fall, Ziyi hurriedly hugged Sisi in her arms: "Good, Sisi, the little face will get better, Ziyi promises you." Moreover, Sisi will not die in the desert, because your father is watching you all the time. ”

"Really?" Sisi skimmed her little head and secretly glanced at Kaoru Duanmu. "Didn't my father want to throw Sisi away?"

In fact, even now, Sisi feels that the original Duanmu Kaoru may really want to throw her away. After all, she is not an ordinary child.

She had demonic blood in her veins.

She may hurt Ziyi, hurt Ziyi's children, and hurt many, many people around her.

She even sometimes thinks that maybe Duanmu Kaoru should throw her away, which is better for everyone. When she finally couldn't bear to lie in the desert, she thought, maybe she shouldn't struggle anymore, maybe she should die like this.

If you die, there will be a lot of people who will be happy.

It must be like this.

"Father will never lose Sisi." Duanmu Kaoru looked at Sisi's widening eyes and the expectation in those eyes, gently hooked the corners of his lips, stretched out his big hand and pinched Sisi's face: "It turns out that you don't trust your father so much." ”

He Fei looked at the scene in front of him, and a warm current rose in his heart.

Such simple happiness - it's wonderful.

Since there was no pressure, the carriage walked for more than a month before returning to the palace. When Duanmu Kaoru came back with everyone, Duanmu Kaoru, a dignified man, actually cried.

Because of this incident, he was ridiculed by Ziyi for a long time.

And the day after returning to the palace, Ziyi took Youfei to see Nazha.

Outside the gate of Ziyao Palace, Ziyi stopped, turned around, and looked at Youfei: "Youfei, you sue me, do you still hate her now?" ”

In fact, many times, as long as you can let go of the hatred in your heart, happiness is really within reach.

is like Zhuo Yihang and Lian Nishang she saw at the beginning, and it looks like Romeo and Juliet.

What kind of family hatred, sectarian hatred, what grievances in the rivers and lakes-

People are like this for a lifetime, if they can't even care about the people they care about, and they can't even love the people they love, what is the meaning?

Life is so short, why should you throw away your happiness for some unwarranted hatred.

Everyone should live for themselves.

"I blamed her-" He Fei looked at Ziyi, his eyes were calm: "I was, so hateful, she betrayed me, she took advantage of me." She was the only sister I ever trusted, but she pushed me to the edge. ”

"And now?"

"Now—I don't blame her." He Fei chuckled and replied, "Everyone has made mistakes, regardless of whether she deserves to be forgiven or not, but I know that I care about her." If I keep hating, we won't be happy. Therefore, I would rather throw away the hatred in my heart and live well with her. After all, now, she is my only relative! Moreover, if it weren't for her, maybe back then, I would have been burned to death by the scorching sun. ”

Ziyi nodded lightly at Youfei, turned around, and walked into Ziyao Hall with Youfei.

At this time, Nazha was lying on the bed like a puppet, her eyes straight and her pupils dilated. These days, she keeps reminiscing about the past.

From childhood, until she left the barbarians.

She kept thinking about what she would be like now if she didn't have a ghost mind.

At least, her father, who loved her, would not die, and neither would her subjects.

She can still be her princess happily, and even-she can marry that Qingming, she believes that that man will definitely be good to her for the rest of his life, and he will never betray her for the rest of his life.

That man will love her for the rest of his life.

She can have children of her own.

Her children will not die tragically.

And then there's her sisters, and they'll probably be able to live well together.

She wouldn't be as lonely as she was now.

She wanted to die.

But she was afraid of dying.

She didn't know how to go to face her father and her people under the Nine Springs! If it weren't for her willfulness, it would have been different.

"Naza, Naza—"

Outside the Ziyao Palace, there was a sudden call. Naza's eyes widened in disbelief as she struggled to sit up from the bed and fell to the ground with a "poof".

However, she felt no pain, and she scrambled to the door.

She recognized this voice, although she didn't hear it much, but even when she died, she remembered it. Yes and no! Yes and no!

Did you come to her?

Are you here to save her, or are you here to seek revenge?!

It didn't matter which one it was, now, she just wanted to see what was wrong! She just wanted to see her again and say sorry to her in person.

He Fei rushed into the Ziyao Palace, looked at Nazha who was prostrate on the ground, and tears broke the embankment. On the way, she already knew that Nazha's hands and feet were abolished, and her Nazha used to be such a proud little princess, but now, she has become like this.

"Naza-" Yo Fei helped Nazha up and hugged Nazha tightly into his arms.

How nice it was - she had wanted to hug her a long time ago, and now, she had finally hugged her.

"Is it you? Is it really you? Nazha could feel that Yu Fei's body was trembling slightly, why wasn't she?!

"Youfei, are you here to kill me?" Nazha broke free from Yofei's embrace and quietly looked into Yofei's eyes. She found that the eye on Yo Fei's forehead was gone, and even the indifferent aura on her body was gone. Today's right and wrong give her such a warm feeling.

At this moment, she was suddenly afraid, she was suddenly afraid and wanted to kill her.

Because, she is so attached to this kind of warmth.

Since leaving the barbarians, she has never felt any warmth in the palace of this ending dynasty. Every day, all day, is spent in jealousy and calculation.

Spent in grief and pain.

Days like this are really enough.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Nazha's hand couldn't move, she could only wrap her arms tightly around Youfei's body, and at the end, she pushed Youfei away again, and the whole person knelt in front of Youfei: "It's me who is sorry for you, it's me who is sorry for you." ”

"Naza-" Yu Fei rushed forward and hugged Nazha in his arms again: "Sister, I'll take you out of the palace, I'll take you out of here, okay?" ”

"What did you say!?" Nazha looked up at Dan Fei with disbelief on her face.

"I'll take you out of this place, let's go live somewhere else, forget all about the past, just the two of us, and live a good life. I can raise you, I can go out to make money, I will find the best doctor to heal your hands and feet, sister, will you go with me? This is not for us, this is not ours, and we are not here. Yofei looked at Nazha with a pleading look in his eyes.

She was afraid that Nazha would refuse, and she was afraid that her silly sister would be nostalgic for this place that did not belong to them.

"Fool - do you think this is where we can just go?" Nazha's heart is indescribably happy, but it is also indescribably bitter.

She was so happy that her sister could forgive her, and even ran to this palace to try to save her!

But she has done too many things wrong, don't say Duanmu Xun, even Ling Ziyi will definitely not let her go!

She can't get involved anymore.

"Youfei, listen to me, you hurry up, while they haven't found you yet, go quickly. Leave me alone. I'm a wreck now, and besides, I've done a lot of things wrong, and I have to pay for them myself. No, you go, you go! ”

Nazha said, pushing Youfei out hard, and she fell to the ground again.

The purple clothes outside the door quietly listened to the quarrel between the two sisters inside the door, and struggled in their hearts.

She can ignore Nazha's disfigurement of her face, but what about Bi'er? What about Bi'er's death? She thought she could let go, but when she really needed to make a decision, she found it so difficult.

Shaking his head gently, the purple clothes left step by step.

She left it to the sisters.

She tried to convince herself.

What if she killed Naza?

Bi'er won't be coming back.

And she will completely ruin the happiness of Youfei.

Now, Nanazar's hands and feet are useless - perhaps it is more uncomfortable for her to live than to die now.

Ziyi raised his head and looked at the clear blue sky, the endless blue, cleaner than anything in the world.

"Bi'er, you understand me, don't you?" Ziyi muttered, unable to get an answer, but firmly believed in the answer he believed.

On the second day, Ziyi prepared a carriage for Nazha and Youfei, and even more for them, as for Naza's hands and feet, she was not so great, she couldn't convince herself to let Lancao heal Naza.

Let her be selfish for once, she thought.

At least—that way, she'd feel like she didn't owe more to Bel.

On the same day, Duanmu Xun issued an edict, and the concubine Nazha died of a vicious disease, and Concubine Ling gave birth to a pair of children for him, and was specially named the concubine, and named the two children worry-free, Jinchuan.

Ziyi did not move back to the Ziyao Palace, but continued to stay in the Heart Cultivation Palace.

She looked at Duanmu Kaoru's countless rewards, and she couldn't tell what she felt in her heart.

After going around in circles, she has returned to her original position.

In the evening, Ziyi went to see Zhuang Xiaorao with part of the reward, and she left the reward to this woman a lot. After all, in this deep palace, if you are not favored, you need to be dotted everywhere.

No matter what, Zhuang Xiaorao's daughter is innocent.

She didn't want another girl with hatred in her heart.