123. Grievances and hatreds that cannot be let go
Out of the inn gate, Mu Fei and the guards were waiting for them outside. Not far from them, in addition to the horses and black tigers from before, there was also a luxury carriage.
Mu Lingxuan walked to the carriage, turned back to Yun Ying who walked out behind him and said, "You get in the car." ”
"You...... Don't get in a car? Yun Ying hesitated for a moment and asked softly.
She still hoped that he could accompany her in the car. After all, the way back to the capital is still so far, and she always feels that only someone around her will feel safe.
Mu Lingxuan looked at Yun Ying, her big misty eyes were full of hope and expectation, and his heart couldn't help but ripple with bitterness.
At first, he was really ready to let Mu Fei and them take his horse back, and he accompanied Yun Ying to ride in the car.
After last night, in addition to the bottomless love for Yun Ying, he has a sense of responsibility from the bottom of his heart.
What he thinks about is to be doubly good to her in the future, and take care of her for the rest of her life.
Yun Ying is timid, so he doesn't ride a horse and accompanies her in the car. Yun Ying's body was weak and she had just had a miscarriage, so he hugged her and let her lean on his body, trying to make her as comfortable as possible during the time when she was in a hurry.
But all of this is under the premise that he thinks that Yun Ying is willing to be by his side from now on and is willing to be his wife for the rest of his life.
Now, Yun Ying has unmistakably told her that she still can't do without Cheng Ziluo, she still wants to stay by Cheng Ziluo's side, and she still chooses to be Cheng Ziluo's wife......
How could he still do that? Hold her? Let her sit on her lap? How can these things that I started thinking about so sweet feel so ironic and prickly when I think about them now?
"I ride a horse." Mu Lingxuan replied simply, trying to ignore the disappointment that flashed in Yun Ying's eyes, and turned around to walk to his horse.
"Xuan!" Yun Ying called him suddenly.
Mu Lingxuan turned his head and looked at her with inquiring eyes.
"You really ...... Leave me alone? Yun Ying's voice trembled slightly, and tears were pouring in her eyes.
Mu Lingxuan couldn't help but rub the corners of his forehead with his hand, is it because he has not rested enough these days? Why do you suddenly feel so tired in your head and tired......
This woman, this woman...... What does he say about her? She didn't have the courage to stay with her for the rest of her life, and she wanted to take care of her as always, even without considering the feelings of everyone around her.
How can there be such an absurd woman in the world? After being so intimate with herself last night, she told herself today that she couldn't do without another man.
How can there be such an unsatisfied woman in the world? She broke all her desire for happiness with her own hands, but she still demanded that she should protect her best.
Mu Lingxuan smiled bitterly, walked over and stood in front of Yun Ying, looked down at her delicate and charming cheeks like roses, and said in a low voice that only the two of them could hear: "You figure it out, now, it's not that I don't care about you." Rather, you didn't want me. ”
After that, Mu Lingxuan didn't look at Yun Ying again, turned around and strode towards his horse.
He heard that Yun Sakura didn't make any sound behind him, and he knew that she must be crying, and tears may have fallen all over her face.
He hardened his heart and walked forward, not allowing himself to turn back.
I'm afraid that when I turn around and see her pear blossom with rain, I can't help but stretch out my arms and hug her into my arms, and fall into the magic barrier that I can't get rid of her again......
When they returned to the capital, it was nearly dusk.
Mu Lingxuan only brought Mu Fei over to the General's Mansion, and the rest of the guards let them go back first.
When he sat upright on the horse, looking at the vermilion lacquer-colored gate of the General's Mansion and the three vigorous and powerful characters, his heart was like a torrent splashing, and the waves were turbulent.
The joys and sorrows of the past, grievances and hatreds, scene by scene rolled back in his mind.
This place, he didn't like it in the first place. And now, he saw it as if his heart had been torn open with a bloody gap, and it hurt all the time.
He can't forget that three years ago, Cheng Ziluo forcibly took possession of the petite and weak Yun Ying here, causing him to completely lose the love of his life and fall into boundless pain ever since.
Even if he is now to Yun Ying, he has already thought about letting go completely. Today, they have completely broken up, and it is impossible to return to the tenderness and sweetness of the past. He can't forget the deep shame that Cheng Ziluo brought to him by doing that, as well as the indelible pain.
Yun Ying got out of the carriage and saw that Mu Lingxuan was still sitting on the horse, and didn't seem to have any intention of getting off the horse, so she walked over and asked, "Aren't you going in?" ”
Mu Lingxuan looked down at Yun Ying, and sure enough, he saw that her eyes were red and there were residual tears on her face.
Although his heart was still slightly tingling, the expression on his face was extremely cold: "This king won't go in, if you go back and see Cheng Tiantian here, let her come out." ”
This is the first time he has proclaimed himself the king in front of Yun Ying.
How could Yun Sakura, who is as careful as a needle, not notice? couldn't help but feel sour, and looked up at the handsome and heroic man who was dressed in the setting sun like a fairy, and wanted to say something, but Mu Lingxuan specifically avoided her gaze and set his eyes on the far-reaching front.
Yun Ying bit her lip, a deep sense of loss welled up in her heart, she knew that she had completely lost him this time.
Holding back the tears that wanted to gush out again, Yun Ying sighed and turned around and walked towards the General's Mansion.
Yes, now that you're back, don't think about anything. This path is your own choice, so go on without hesitation.
From now on, he will love Ziluo wholeheartedly, and there will be no other man in his heart......
At this time, Cheng Tiantian and Mrs. Cheng were at home calculating that Mu Lingxuan and Yun Ying should come back today, and suddenly heard the housekeeper report that the young lady had returned, and the mother and daughter hurriedly got up together and walked outside.
Cheng Tiantian ran fast, and first met Yun Ying, who had just stepped into the mansion, she rushed forward and grabbed Yun Ying's hand, and said affectionately: "Sister Yun Ying, you are back, how are you?" Does it matter if your body wants it? ”
"Tiantian, I'm fine, thanks to the prince for saving me." Yun Ying smiled, hiding the uneasiness in her heart, and said to Cheng Tiantian: "The prince is outside, let you go out for a while." ”
"Why didn't he come in?" Cheng Tiantian is a little strange, that man, what is wrong again? Why didn't you even enter the gate of the General's Mansion when you sent Sister Yun Ying back? Instead, let yourself out for a while? It's dizzy.
He ...... Probably because I don't want to delay, I want to rush back to the palace as soon as possible. Yun Ying paused, and casually found a reason to explain to Cheng Tiantian.
At this time, Mrs. Cheng also came over, and Yun Ying saw it and shouted, "Mother." ”
"Yun Ying, it's good to be back." Mrs. Cheng looked at Yun Ying, with concern in her eyes and a hint of scrutiny: "What's the matter with your body?" Why did you have to wait so long outside? ”
"Mother, I ...... that day Suddenly she was very unwell, and the doctor said that she would rest for half a month......" Yun Ying hesitated for a moment and did not say anything about her miscarriage.
She knew that Mrs. Cheng was about to go crazy if she wanted to hold her grandson, although she didn't say it explicitly, she must have complained in her heart that she had not been pregnant and raised for three years. If she knew that she had finally conceived a child but accidentally lost it, she would definitely be devastated.
And it's so difficult for me to get pregnant once, after this accidental miscarriage, I don't know when I will be able to conceive again in the future? Or can you still get pregnant?
Let's not talk about it for now, in case I get pregnant in the future, it will be an unexpected surprise for everyone. If you can't get pregnant again, then you can only think of yourself as a woman who can never get pregnant......
"What disease should rest for so long? Wouldn't it be better to return to the capital? Yun Ying, you ...... this time Alas...... "Mrs. Cheng still carefully observed Yun Ying's face, she noticed that Yun Ying's lips were slightly red and swollen, and her eyes seemed to have just cried, this is not an accident, right? Her heart suddenly sank, and she didn't finish a word, but only turned into a deep sigh.
"Mother, I was ...... at that time I really can't go, so I'm sorry to worry you. Mrs. Cheng's inquiring gaze made Yun Ying's heart panic, and she lowered her eyes unnaturally.
When she was willing to dedicate her body to Mu Lingxuan at that time, she didn't think so much, and she didn't think so far.
But when she came back at this time, facing her mother-in-law who usually treated her like her own daughter, she knew that after letting Mu Lingxuan kiss and caress herself so much, the guilt in her heart would be so deep, and she couldn't calmly face these family members who were as close to her as family.
"Mother, Sister Yun Ying just came back, and she is quite tired, let her go and rest first, what can be said slowly in the future." Cheng Tiantian saw that Yun Ying's expression was wrong, and her mother was quite interested in getting to the bottom of it here, so she hurriedly said in a round.
"Alas, Yun Ying, you go and rest first, your health is not good, you have to recuperate well when you come back." Mrs. Cheng sighed again.
"Well, mother, I'll go back to the room first." Yun Ying nodded with relief, and said to Cheng Tiantian: "Tiantian, the prince is still waiting for you outside, you can go out and have a look." ”
Cheng Tiantian agreed and walked out of the door, only to see Mu Fei standing outside with the horse, while Mu Lingxuan was still sitting on the horse, looking far ahead, with a cold and indifferent expression.
Cheng Tiantian's first feeling when she saw him was that he was still handsome, but he was obviously thinner, and his face was tired.
Don't know why? Although she hadn't seen her for more than ten days, Cheng Tiantian always felt that Mu Lingxuan's body had something that seemed to be called vicissitudes, and she looked exhausted......
"Lord Wang, you're back, why don't you even get off the horse?" Cheng Tiantian stepped forward and said.
"I don't want to go down." Hearing Cheng Tiantian's voice, Mu Lingxuan retracted his complicated and disordered thoughts, lowered his head and looked down at her condescendingly, and spit out three words coldly in his mouth.