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Zhou Yan said: "I have been wearing this collar for more than ten years, but now I feel very in the way when I wear it, and it is very inconvenient to wash my neck when taking a bath." ”

Her little girlfriend said, "Then you can give it away." However, it has been with you for more than ten years and has absorbed the essence of your body. It seems that if you want to give it away, you will only give it to the person you like. The little girlfriend deliberately amplified the volume when she said this, and looked at Zhu Yushen. Then Zhou Yan also looked at Zhu Yushen's face affectionately, and two blushes appeared on her cheeks.

Zhu Yushen was uncomfortable by the two of them, and he didn't know what to do.

But the words and actions of the two of them had already been understood by the one in Zhu Yushen's class who was sitting at the same level as them, and the female class committee member surnamed Zhao understood it like watching a fire. Classmate Zhao glanced at Zhu Yushen first, and then pulled Zhou Yan's little girlfriend to his side, and spoke in her ear for a long time.

After hearing this, the little girlfriend stared at Zhu Yushen in surprise. Then she put her mouth to Zhou Yan's ear and spoke in a slow voice. They haven't looked back since. However, Zhao Banwei looked at Zhu Yushen with a smile for a while.

Zhu Yushen thought of that class committee, and he realized what this female class committee member had said to Zhou Yan. At the end of the conference, Zhu Yushen saw Zhou Yan running back to the faculty dormitory building, as if he had been greatly wronged.

At noon after that, when Zhu Yushen went to study in the neighboring class again, Zhou Yan and her little girlfriend avoided him from a distance like a plague god. There was also a light look in their eyes. Zhu Yushen saw this attitude of being respectful and conceiving. But he never thought about Zhou Yan's confused thoughts, so he didn't care about their attitudes.

But the day after that, Zhu Yushen walked closely behind Zhou Yan in the corridor. The naughty boy in this class made a bad push for Zhu Yushen. He stumbled, fell forward, and touched Zhou Yan's ass with his right hand. The soft feeling went straight to his nerves. But his instinctive reaction to this good feeling was fear.

This kind of prank by others, resulting in the physical collision of the murdered man and woman is not uncommon. Usually an apology to the girl is over. Zhu Yushen didn't expect that the delicate Zhou Yan turned around and saw that it was him who hit her, and immediately her apricot eyes widened, and she scolded him in a low voice.

Zhu Yushen hurriedly apologized to her and clarified that it was the brother on the side who pushed her. Zhou Yan walked up to the boy and scolded him fiercely. From this incident, Zhu Yushen could clearly feel that Zhou Yan had developed from avoiding himself to hating himself. He wondered, is being so annoying to be poor?

This disaster, which was imposed on Zhu Yushen because of his bad background, befell him calmly. And it's not over yet. He could only bear it passively. Nor can't, at least not for the time being, make some changes through their own efforts.

After that, a similar situation happened. The little girl next door to Zhu Yushen's grandmother's house transferred to junior high school. Zhu Yushen met her when he was picking up food in the cafeteria. Because the two of them played games together when they were children, he recognized her even though he hadn't been to his grandmother's house for several years. The girl also recognized Zhu Yushen.

Later, when Zhu Yushen came back with a good meal, he could often find the girl walking near him, whispering something to the people around her. Then the men all looked at him with a pitiful gaze. Over time, the kind of eyes of everyone burned him and he had nowhere to escape on campus.

Zhu Yushen also thinks that they are all ignorant people, but it has caused him to be embattled. As for bad luck, if you still want to survive, you can only face it calmly.

Zhu Yushen knew that Zhou Yan and her little girlfriend didn't have a big mouth to publicize his private affairs to others. Because he went to the neighborhood, he went in the same way, but there was no change in the attitude and speech of the people towards him. At this point, he is still more grateful to them. Sometimes he can even think about Zhou Yan. This feeling continued until that encounter in the rainy season of the next semester. Since that encounter with Zhou Yan, Zhu Yushen has been completely vigilant.

It was the same rainy day as when Zhu Yushen met his mother. He still doesn't have an umbrella. When leaving the school, Zhu Yushen thought that if he could meet his mother this time, if she still did the same as last time, then he would definitely satisfy his mother's kindness and comfort her. But he didn't get to see his mother. After all, like last time, I didn't bring an umbrella, and my younger brother didn't bring an umbrella, and the chance of a sudden heavy rain was relatively small.

It had been a while since school, and Zhu Yushen saw that the classmates took out their umbrellas one by one and walked out, or were picked up by their relatives who brought umbrellas. After the students on duty were busy, he was the only one left in the teaching building of Youda. The rain was relatively heavy, and none of the people on the same road wanted to hold an umbrella with him. He was also embarrassed to ask others to do so. Because his grades were too good and he didn't like to talk, he was gradually pushed to the edge of isolation by his classmates in the class. In class, he often just sat in the back row and listened silently. So he can't go back without an umbrella, so naturally no one pays attention to him.

He returned to the classroom, where he did his homework while waiting for the rain to light up before leaving. After some time, the electricity went out and he had to go.

In order to cut corners, he took the path behind the school to the town and then went home. When he walked to the side of the small bridge, he found a girl holding a flower umbrella and carrying a plastic bag walking towards him. Zhu Yu wiped the water on his eyes deeply, and looked at it, it was Zhou Yan. She's supposed to go to town to buy something and come back.

At this time, Zhu Yushen was delusional in his heart: It would be great if Zhou Yan asked herself to walk back to her house at school with her umbrella first, and then lent him the umbrella to carry it home. Zhu Yushen was thinking that Zhou Yan had already approached. She only glanced at him, didn't say anything, just kicked her rubber shoes and walked towards the school with her waist twisting.

At this moment, Zhu Yushen was eager to borrow an umbrella. He thought, if he opened his mouth to force Zhou Yan, would she fulfill his request? He couldn't help but gasp as he remembered the past between them. He could only stand in the wind and rain chewing on the pain. With his thin body, he silently endured the pain, and then walked forward with difficulty.

A few months later, Zhu Yushen came to the city's normal school. He chose to study in a normal school because it was closer to home and the cost of a normal school for high-scoring students was lower. In addition, because the threshold for entering the school is high, the distribution situation is still relatively optimistic.

If it weren't for the fact that his family's land close to the food factory was requisitioned by the factory that expanded the scale of production when he graduated, and he lost some money, he would really have fallen into the situation that the head teacher said he couldn't afford to study at a secondary school. This may also be God's mercy on him. My aunt saved the money and distributed it equally each semester of the secondary school, and took out some money for him as tuition and miscellaneous expenses and living expenses at the beginning of each semester.

In fact, where is the money enough for him to spend on school? Although he is not compared to ordinary classmates, he always has to eat. The amount of food in the canteen and the surrounding small restaurants is unbearable for Zhu Yushen.

It was only at this time that Zhu Yushen felt that although he had encountered an unhappy childhood and elementary school years, self-esteem that was blown up, and a very poor junior high school era, these were nothing compared to the extremely difficult secondary school era. Only at this time, he really had to find a way to save himself, otherwise he would have to drop out of school. Then all the previous efforts will be in vain, and you will basically not be able to change the future.

After repeated applications, Zhu Yushen finally got a place for hard work. The specific work is to report to the flower house every afternoon after school and on the morning of weekends, and plant grass and trees under the arrangement of the flower house master. Because the normal school was only moved to the suburbs last year, it is in ruins, and there is not enough manpower.

This kind of work, each shift will take turns for a week to do some public welfare work. But it was only for a week, and there were no classes that week, so I was dedicated to it. There are a lot of people, dry and stop, nothing tired. As soon as it arrives, pat your ass and leave.

The masters of the flower house are much more demanding on the work-study people, and they treat them as labor. In addition, it was after school and rest time to complete these physical tasks, which made Zhu Yushen very tired every day. At the end of each month, he can get some pay, so that he can barely make ends meet. He struggled to get through his life.

Zhu Yushen also gradually adapted to this kind of life. Working in the flower room, his arms and legs became dark and shiny.

Although there are many girls in the school, everyone will have a stable job as a teacher in the future, and there are many pairs of men and women. But as a poor student, Zhu Yu deeply understood his own weight. He had already understood that apart from having equal learning rights with them, he should not be delusional about other things. There was no one around who wanted to save someone as poor as him. Even if it is similar to the kind of rescue that I met Zhou Yan on a rainy day in middle school and lent him an umbrella, it is impossible. What about the rest? But there was still very little money at his disposal, and sometimes he had to eat very poorly.

At noon on a weekend, Zhu Yushen returned to the dormitory after work, ready to wash his face with a towel and go to the cafeteria for lunch. When I entered the door, I saw that there were seven or eight plates on the table, which were full of leftovers from my roommates, and there was a box of lunches on the side that had not moved. The roommates only ate half of those dishes. In particular, there is still more than half of the braised chicken nuggets left uneaten. These are all they brought back from the cafeteria stir-fry room. Because it was already more than twelve o'clock, there might not be anything to eat in the cafeteria, and Zhu Yushen was already hungry.

He closed the door and lowered the curtains. He thought back for a while, and it seemed that he had heard his roommates discuss that he had eaten at noon today and went to watch a football match at Normal University. So he ate boldly and like a storm. After a while, a lot of leftovers were eaten.

Zhu Yushen was eating on the head when he heard someone knocking on the door outside. He subconsciously wiped his mouth with his hand, covered the box of lunches he had eaten, and then went to open the door.