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When Zhu Yushen heard these words, he shivered all over his body, and almost didn't stand firm. He hurriedly held on to the tail plate of the large truck with his hand. He has a strong sense of self-esteem, and he feels that he has no face to meet those female class committee members now, and he wants to leave. At this moment, the sports commissioner patted him on the shoulder from behind and said, "What are you doing here?" Hurry up and get in for a meeting. ”

The appearance of Zhu Yushen and the sports committee made the conversation between the head teacher come to an abrupt end. Then all five of their class committee members went into the class teacher's study.

The head teacher's mouth began to preach like a cannon. The other four listened attentively. But Zhu Yushen's face was flushed during the whole process. When he noticed that the delicate literary commissar was looking at him, he hurriedly lowered his head. Zhu Yushen finished the class committee in torment. As for what the head teacher said, he didn't listen to a word. He was thinking that the disgraceful things in his own family would be widely sung about.

Before the second semester of the second year of junior high school, Zhu Yushen strictly guarded his secrets. Because his home is far away from the town, and there are no students about the same age in Murakami, almost no one knows the story behind him.

At the beginning of the second semester of the second year of junior high school, because his father couldn't come up with the money, he said that he wouldn't let Zhu Yu study deeply. After the little aunt found out about this, she said to his father: "You don't let Xiao Shen read this situation, if he has a bad life in the future, won't he blame you then?" She happened to receive her salary, so she helped pay Zhu Yushen's tuition.

When I was about to sign up, I was told that I had to pay dozens of yuan for books. The money was sent to school by the eldest aunt. When she came to school, she happened to meet the homeroom teacher. So she went to the head teacher to talk to her heart, and shook out her nephew's mess in front of the head teacher.

Later, when the head teacher talked to Zhu Yushen alone, he said: "I know the situation at home, you can't compare with others." You don't have anything to rely on other than doing well in your studies. You have to know in your heart, don't be confused. When the head teacher said such things to him in person, Zhu Yushen felt that although the words were rough, there was some truth.

But he never expected that today's head teacher would say the same thing about himself behind his back! Probably not the first time. But this time, because there were several cute-looking female class committee members present, he was completely exposed. That's enough to put him in a state of no return.

Since that class committee meeting, Zhu Yushen felt as if his classmates were looking at him with a strange gaze. The girls often whispered something in front of him, and threw cold glances at him after speaking.

At the turn of spring and summer in the second semester of the second semester of junior high school, in that warm season, everything was growing, and the campus and outside were full of purple and red. The students are all like bees and butterflies to spend their years in laughter and laughter. But Zhu Yushen, a bright and excellent student, felt that the world was bleak, as if he was living in an ice cellar. Sad, chaotic thoughts affected him, causing the stubborn illness in the back of his head to flare up violently from time to time. At this time, he wrapped his hands and head in his shirt and put it on the table to sleep. He has been criticized, and he doesn't want people to discover his illness anymore.

Later, Zhu Yushen once saw an article "Sunshine Without Fragrance". It is said that everyone only knows how to enjoy the shine and warmth of the sun, but they do not know how to thank the sunshine. The author then gives an example of a teacher who has been teaching for three years, and when the students are about to part, the students he has taken for three years have a cold reaction to him. But they hugged and cried with a teacher who had only taught them for three months, in order to complain about their sorrows. The author of the article commented that the teacher who had taken the students for three years was like sunshine, bathing the students for three years, and they thought that he was as colorless and fragranceless as the sun; However, the brief episode of the volunteer teacher made them linger.

Zhu Yushen thinks this is not necessarily the case. The sun is warm, selfless, and scented. How can man compare with the boundless sunshine of love? The teacher must have left a lot of flaws in the hearts of the students in the past three years, so that they can't let go. As a result, they prefer teachers with whom they have been for a short period of time. Everyone is responsible for their actions, and everything should be connected by cause and effect. The class committee in the second year of junior high school can be said to have destroyed his self-esteem by the old head teacher. This made him unable to let go for a long time.

Another disaster that destroyed Zhu Yushen's self-esteem quietly happened in the third year of junior high school. Because the environment of this class is no longer suitable for Zhu Yushen's self-study after class, he often goes to other classes at noon to review his homework with several male classmates who get along well with the class. Zhou Yan, the daughter of Ms. Zhou, the head of the grade group, is in this class. She is the celebrity of this class.

Zhou Yan, who looks ordinary, has actually already fallen in love. Because she has a good academic performance, and her ten fingers as white and tender as green onion roots can write well, the more boys have a crush on her the more she goes. She understands this. Naughty boys will occasionally touch her body or hair or something to show affection; The people of Honest Muna would look at her for a long time, and they would stare at her face motionlessly, and some would secretly stuff love letters into her drawers.

In fact, Zhou Yan has long been disgusted with these boring boys. Looking at the straightforward and lame so-called love letter, she couldn't cry or laugh. She thought, no matter how much you love this girl, your skills are no more than that. Because of her own good conditions, and the family background of her parents who are both middle school teachers, the Prince Charming in her mind must be an elite.

But the boys with good grades in their class can't be put in the whole grade, unlike Zhu Yushen in the neighboring class, who is the sharp edge of the whole grade. The key is that the boy with the best grades in their class is not handsome, unlike Zhu Yushen, who has a better face and temperament.

So Zhou Yan is basically empty-eyed in this class. When she looked at the love letters that were forced to her and could not be regarded as love letters, she thought of Zhu Yushen, a young man who was the first in Chinese in the competition, with beautiful compositions and resentment. She thought that if Zhu Yushen wrote a love letter to a girl, it would be a wonderful article or a beautiful poem.

How did Zhou Yan know that although Zhu Yushen at this time had the skills to choose words and sentences, write beautiful love letters or love poems, he was not in this mood, and he had almost no object to send. From the early days, he felt that the people around him had basically abandoned him. He has no right to enjoy pleasure, let alone the right to like whom, and the right to be liked. Heaven left him only one right to learn. When he immersed himself in his studies in class and achieved good grades, he once thought to himself: it is so good to go to school, everyone can sit together fairly and compete fairly. Unlike everyone's background, background, and subsequent departures, everyone's social resources are very different.

Since Zhu Yushen came to the neighboring class to review his homework, Zhou Yan's heart gradually became restless. Because of the good conditions at home, the nutrition can keep up with since childhood, and there is no need to help with some farm work like other rural children, so by the third grade of junior high school, Zhou Yan has become a white, tender and dignified girl. The physiological changes made her have a better impression of handsome boys, and she had the desire to take the initiative to associate with them. At this time, Zhu Yushen, a serious, temperamental, and excellent boy in the neighboring class, buried himself in studying at noon every day. Seeing his meticulous appearance, she was very appreciative in her heart.

Finally one day, Zhou Yan encountered some questions when reading ancient texts, and she couldn't figure it out. She raised her head, and suddenly remembered that the Chinese teacher had said more than once that the ancient Chinese part was Zhu Yushen's strength. She didn't think about it so much, so she picked up the book and walked to Zhu Yushen, who was writing in the back row, and asked him for advice.

Zhu Yushen calmly and patiently answered these questions for her. After hearing this, Zhou Yan's eyes lit up. thought to himself, Zhu Yushen's wisdom really deserved his reputation. After getting close to Zhu Yushen, she found that he had a depressed face, and there seemed to be a trace of pain between his eyebrows. His clothes are very old, and the style is relatively old. It's not like many other boys at all, and it's very glamorous in dressing and dressing. But it is undeniable that she likes Zhu Yushen more in her heart at this time. Then, whenever he came to their class, she would find time to look at him.

Although Zhu Yushen is a poor student, his talent is very good. And because of the high emotional intelligence, it brings an extremely sensitive mind. Of course he could understand Zhou Yan's abnormal behavior. Since several teachers discussed that Zhou Yan was a genius, Zhu Yushen also tacitly accepted that she was a very outstanding person. Because she has a good background, she is smart, and her grades are outstanding. Such a girl can indeed become the target of a boy's crush. But Zhu Yushen believes that even if they are in love, with many conditions, all he can do is have a crush.

After a period of restlessness and calm, it was time for the regular school meeting. All the teachers and students sat on the bench in front of the playground and listened to the leader's speech. Zhu Yushen sat at the back of the row. Because he likes tranquility, he doesn't want to mess with the boys in front of him to chat and play offstage. Because of her tall stature, Zhou Yan also sat at the back of their class.

When the leader's speech went on for a while, everyone was a little impatient. When Zhou Yan came, she found Zhu Yushen sitting quietly on the left side behind her. When she was bored, she took off the silver collar around her neck and played with it in her hand. Her tablemate and little girlfriend sitting next to her looked at her neck and praised her for how white her skin was!