188. 188.Extra: Who has loved without regrets (4)
Sheng Yangge stood at the door, fixed for two seconds, neither speaking nor moving.
With her hands still on the doorknob, she looked back at the blue.
The blue gaze swept slightly across Sheng Yangge, she stroked her stomach and ripped off her clothes, then raised her eyes and said lightly, "Is there something?" ”
Sheng Yangge suddenly came back to his senses, pulled out a small body from behind, and Song Yue appeared at the door with a slightly stern face, and he was stunned for a moment, and then smiled.
She saw Song Yue with his hands behind her back, and remembered that he had said that he had a gift for her.
"Come on." Azure raised a smile and beckoned to Song Yue.
Song Yue immediately had a smile on his face and trotted to the blue bedside.
Gu Xing glanced in the direction of Azure and found that Sheng Yangge was still standing beside her, neither going over nor going out.
"I'll go back to the room first, Azure is a little tired today, let's see if you want to talk to her." Gu Xing said calmly with a smile. After saying that, he went to the master bedroom on the other side.
Back in the room, Gu Xing closed the door, Tang Xiaohui finished washing, took the computer from the study, and was sitting on the bed with his fingers on the screen.
Gu Xing was wearing loose lounge clothes, clothes that originally fit well, but now they look particularly wide on her.
She went to Tang Xiaohui's side on the bed and sat cross-legged.
"What's wrong?" Tang Xiaohui's eyes moved away from the screen, and he reached out to touch her face, which was not yet plump. Gu Xing's body was recovering, the gray and black on his face disappeared, but there was still some sallowness left, and the flesh on his face had not yet grown back, and his already delicate and small face was now only the size of a palm.
Tang Xiaohui's hand returned to the screen, his eyes moved, and he tried his best to finish these things as soon as possible.
Gu thought about it, raised his eyebrows, leaned directly on Tang Xiaohui's stomach, half-squinted his eyes, and muttered in a lazy voice: "I always feel a little uneasy recently, every time I see Sheng Yangge and Azure appear in my sight at the same time......"
When Tang Xiaohui heard this, he frowned, turned off the computer and put it aside, he touched the black hair that Gu was in the mood to pull up at will, "You think too much, the two of them...... It's a foregone conclusion now, and what happens to them is their own business, and it's useless for you to worry about it. ”
"No," Gu thought about it and didn't know how to describe it, how to say it, "It's just pure uneasiness, of course, Rick and Azure are what I agree with at the moment, but Sheng Yangge doesn't seem to be dead yet." ”
Tang Xiaohui sighed and scooped her into the quilt, "How can it be so easy to die, are you sure that Weilan has completely died?" ”
"Annoying." Gu said sullenly.
Why did she look at the two of them and be so confused?
"What's annoying? Don't think about it, let's go out for a walk tomorrow, you women, it's not bad to walk together, lest you keep thinking about it. Tang Xiaohui used the remote control to turn off the center of the room, and in the end, only the wall lamp was left to slowly dim the light.
Gu Xing turned his head and glanced at him, "Do you think I'm annoyed now, I nag or I'm nervous?" ”
Tang Xiaohui's face turned pale, "Wife, I really didn't mean that, I was wrong, go to sleep." ”
Gu expressed disgust, are you apologizing?
On the Azure side, Song Yue stood by the bed and took out the gift he wanted to give to the Azure.
It comes in a rectangular gift box.
"Is this it?" As a result, the corners of his mouth raised a warm arc to look at him.
Song Yue nodded heavily, looking at the blue with anticipation in his eyes.
Azure took the thing out of the box, and when she saw that she didn't know what it was, she finally turned it over and saw that it was a statue, carved five or six points similar to her.
"Did you engrave it?"
"Well, when Gu Cheng and I lived on Navi Island, there was a depression on the small hill there, and the soil in it was milky white and very beautiful, and then we asked people to bring us some mud villas, and there were props in them, so we pinched the clay figures, and I pinched you, and the face was carved later." Song Yue looked at the clay figurine she had created, she was a little proud, and she did the truth with Aunt Lan, and she seemed to like it.
Weilan pinched Song Yue's delicate-looking face, "Little guy, you have a good talent." ”
For such a young child, it is very powerful to be able to carve his face so likely.
"Do you still like it?" Song Yue's tone was cautious, with anticipation in his eyes.
"I like it, thank you Yue'er."
"If you like it."
Wei Lan smiled, her eyes inadvertently swept in the direction of the door, Sheng Yangge seemed to be frozen in place, she never moved, even if she was far away from him, she could feel his gaze falling on her.
I talked to Song Yue for a while, mostly asking him about his current life.
Song Yue told her, all about the school family, and when she was with Sheng Yangge, she didn't mention Shen Yu at all, probably because the relationship was not very close.
After a while, it was already past eleven o'clock, and Sheng Yangge's urging voice sounded at the door.
"Song Yue, go back to sleep, Aunt Azure is also tired."
"Okay, good night Aunt Azure." Song Yue turned around and went out with some reluctance.
The small figure disappeared at the door, but Sheng Yangge did not close the door and leave.
Azure raised her eyebrows and cast a questioning look.
Sheng Yangge closed the door with his backhand, and walked slowly in front of the blue one, and his hand didn't seem to know where to put it. Although his face was calm, he didn't know what he was worried about.
"Aren't you going to sleep?" Weilan watched him walk in, her instinct was actually to reject the two of them getting along.
"Say a few words." Sheng Yang Singer put it on his lap and sat down on the edge of the bed.
He was wearing Tang Xiaohui's clothes, gray woolen sweater and loose house pants, and he was dressed more well-fitting compared to the two figures.
Azure frowned as she watched her own legs touch him.
Instinctively, I want to stretch my legs out a little.
She rejected this kind of relationship, and thought a little funny in her heart, what kind of relationship they have now, they are family people with each other, and it doesn't seem good to get along like this.
But she didn't speak, and her legs didn't pull away.
"What to say? I don't think we have anything to say. Azure said.
"Say whatever you want." Sheng Yangge said.
Azure didn't speak, her eyes circled around his face, and she found that he showed no signs of drunkenness.
He drank a lot of wine during the meal, and he was indeed drunk, but now he was very sober, and he could see it at a glance.
If he was drunk during the meal, she could understand the food for her, but when she was sober, she still wanted to say something, and Weilan said that she didn't understand.
"Sheng Yang Song."
"Huh?"
"There's nothing to say, we can say that we can ask, how are you, how are you doing, etc., and the answer is good, well, oh. Do you find it meaningful? ”
In fact, Azure was tired of saying these words, she felt that it was too hurtful to her feelings, too easy to evoke the pictures she used to have with him-for-tat, she wanted to state certain facts, and she didn't want to complicate the current simple and clear relationship.
So, her tone is as friendly as possible.
Obviously, if you say this in such a way, no matter how lightly you say it, it is a sharp blade.
Sheng Yangge pursed her lips, looking at her eyes that were pitch black, and something was tumbling inside, and then there was silence, and finally there was only silent silence.
"Not good." For a long time, he said.
"What?" He was silent for so long that she didn't know what he was answering.
"I can't say it. Your answer is good, my answer is not good. ”
The blue mouth was slightly open, and she didn't speak for a long time.
"What's wrong with you, isn't it your own choice?" Say what is good or not, since it is their own choice, they are not qualified to say bad.
The path you have chosen, no matter how hard you stand, you have to say that it is better to go on.
Azure lay calmly on the bed, without harsh mockery, but the words she said were more hurtful than her deliberate mockery.
Sheng Yangge smiled self-deprecatingly, it was so good, the blue words echoed in my mind one by one, didn't you choose it yourself?
Five years ago, no, it's time to say six years ago.
Six years ago, it was he who gave up on her for the position he had seen for more than 20 years.
Later, he also didn't redeem him for the sake of Shengshi, everything was chosen by himself, what qualifications did he have to say badly?
Sheng Yangge didn't say a word, and the self-deprecation in his eyes was unmistakable.
Azure realized that maybe she was saying something a little heavy, but she was right, wasn't she?
"What if I say I regret it?"
Sheng Yangge locked his blue eyes, and what he saw was that when he said this, there was a flash of ridicule and disbelief in her eyes.
Although the love is very light, it may not be realized by herself.
"It's a pity that there is no regret medicine for you in the world."
The hand that Azure put under the quilt clenched into a fist at some point, and his thumb tightly pinched the quilt between his fingers.
"Regret Medicine ......" Yes, he was not sure if he would take it, because he knew how difficult it was for him to ascend to the throne as an unfavored heir in such a huge family as the Sheng family, because he knew that hatred had planted seeds in his heart since he was a child.
His mother's death, the old man's rejection and disgust, he would review it every night, so that he would not be defeated by the pain of the day.
He can't let go of ambition, he can't let go of hatred.
He covets the country and longs for no one.
It's a pity, there is such a sentence: The world is safe and perfect? Live up to it.
Time does not have such a double method.
He chooses one, and is forced to give up the other.
When he stood at the top, and then looked back, she was already wearing a white wedding dress, and she was smiling extremely happily in the arms of others.
"I don't love Shen Yu."
"But you and she are husband and wife, and you have children."
"So what, I don't love Shen Yu." You, but Erik.
"But you don't love me enough." Azure looked into his eyes, pronounced words clearly, and spoke unusually calmly.
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I'm busy.,The second watch can't be finished today.,There's a class tomorrow.,Tomorrow night, I'll have time to go home and send it together.