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Hearing this, Zhu Yushen's brain buzzed. The scene of the nightmare about Zhai Suyun that day suddenly became clear in his mind. He couldn't help but break out in a cold sweat. After calming down, he said, "Su Yun, what are you going to do?" You're still so young, and you have plenty of opportunities in the future! You can't just fall down just because you've been hit a few times! ”

Zhai Suyun smiled bitterly. By this time, it had cleared after the rain, and the sky was already shining with sunshine. The sun shines on the lake, and the sparkling waves glow golden.

Often after the rain and the sky is clear, people's mood will suddenly brighten. At this moment, Zhu Yushen's mood has improved. He also walked to the windowsill, holding his hand to the window frame, looking into the distance. He felt that Zhai Suyun's breathing was very heavy. Coming here today, he finally understood why so many tragedies had happened.

After sorting out these, the mood is also relieved. Strange to say, when he listened to Jin Jun and Wang Danbao and others complaining in the past, he was always very depressed. Especially when he was with Wang Danbao, he once felt fear in his heart. Now, however, he doesn't feel that way.

Looking out the window at the scene after the rain in Jiangnan, they were like two drunk people, and their minds became demented.

Zhu Yushen felt that perhaps as Zhu Ying complained, reality was full of poor people and people with pockets. And, at times, it gets worse. But there is no use complaining. What Zhai Suyun said today made Zhu Yushen firmly believe that his situation was already unbearable, and it seemed that his future was at the end of the road. It was far greater than what he himself had suffered years earlier.

However, all this can only be endured and tasted slowly. On where the future holds. It doesn't seem to matter.

At this time, Zhai Suyun pointed to the distance and said to Zhu Yushen: "Teacher, look at the distance, it is a pool of clear water from the inner lake of the Yangtze River. Our city is built around it, with the main city around it and the new city on this side. At the mouth to the north, it is connected to the Yangtze River.

However, the flowing water of the Yangtze River is vast and turbulent, and there are many undercurrents and whirlpools hidden under the rolling eastward water. But this huge pool of water is calm. Today, the water of the Yangtze River is muddy, but this pool of water is so clear and gentle.

Before. Whenever I sit by the water, play the flute or meditate. I always felt that it was unfathomable. In a trance, I seemed to be able to see a lot of geisman in the water, sometimes with resentful faces, and sometimes with huge weeping eyes.

It is often said that the sea is vast and profound. It can hold everything in the world. However, there is a limit to the number of people who live by the sea. We live on the edge of this inner lake. The people near my home in the north live on the tributaries of the Yangtze River, which belong to the Yangtze River basin.

It seems to me that what has passed away and what will pass away will be embraced by this gentle water. It first stays in the water for a period of time, and finally joins the Yangtze River, and then rushes to the sea.

People in reality tend to only fear concrete people, but not those things that cannot be seen. But those things do exist, such as electricity, magnetic fields, love, and maybe the afterlife.

In other words, people tend to like and care about concrete, visible light matter, but do not care about and do not care about invisible dark matter. However, science has proven that there are as many dark matter as light matter, and together with energy, they make up the existing existence.

Of all the people I've spoken to, I think women are more realistic and more fearless. The development of the times is really frustrating. Take the young women who had intimate contact with me, except for Liang Ying, whose philosophy of life is really suffocating.

Because they have no reverence, they do everything their own way, and they don't feel responsible for anyone. Wu Feng and Liang Xianlu are even more cynically playing with many men, they only recognize sensory stimulation, and they don't care about love and protection.

I think that if they could gaze at the deep, unpredictable waters of the lake a few more times, they might have a sense of fear and a very serious attitude towards the world.

As for Cousin Jean, I think more about the fact that due to her snobbish indulgence and evasion, it directly led to the disaster of the two young individuals.

Cousin Qin was married twice and had two sons. But she ran away and abandoned them.

That day, after she took a sum of money from me, she said that she would hide in a very secluded place and start her life again. However, she didn't realize how many people she had suffered and harmed because of her own way!

Perhaps, when she was still budding, from the beginning of her pursuit of wealth and power to pursue that thin monkey, she was destined to take many detours in the future. After all, she is very different from the thin monkey, and she is so proactive! It is conceivable that the thin monkey will definitely not treat her well in the future.

However, she ruined her reputation because of it. It is said that her first husband has always been obsessed with her early love and self-surrender. coupled with other contradictions, her husband came out until he was imprisoned.

In this way, a vicious circle began, and her second married life still did not hold. It doesn't matter if she leaves, what will happen to the two children in the future? They had lost her mother, and almost their fathers, and were left to live with their grandparents.

And, according to Cousin Jean herself, the child's grandparents could not keep them either. Grandparents are trying to give their children away, or whatever. I think that as the mother of these two boys, Cousin Jean is really ruthless!

Maybe this character of hers was formed when she was a girl in middle school. She really has no fear, no scruples, everything just goes according to her own feelings. The child was left behind after she indulged in it with her two husbands. The two children, of course, cannot choose their own destiny on their own. Now, they are still very young, but disaster has befallen them.

I remember that we used to read an article before, which was about an exotic story, and it was also about children, but it was full of warmth.

The story goes that a poor widow named Simon by the sea fell ill and had no money for treatment. And there was no one to help her. But her two children are still very young. On the night Simon left, there was a lot of wind and waves at sea, and there were thunderstorms.

That night, Simon, who was struggling to support herself because she couldn't leave the child, finally didn't survive, she died! Then came the cries of her two children, which can be said to be tragic. Soon, however, the most tragic sound in the world was drowned out by the sound of wind and rain and the sound of the waves.

But then, things took a turn for the better. Simon's neighbor, Sanna, a kind-hearted woman who was anxiously waiting for her husband to return and who already had several children. In the second half of the night, I went to visit the widow. The widow's death was discovered.

After thinking about it, Sanna decisively took the two crying children home and put them on her own children's bed and let them sleep together. She is ready to raise the orphans of these two outsiders from now on.

For this. She couldn't sleep at all. Because she is undoubtedly adding to her family's poor life. She was afraid of her husband's scolding. Or even beatings. But she made up her mind to support the two orphans and never give up.

Afterwards. Her husband is back. Sanna first told her husband only about the death of her neighbor Simon in the night, and said that the two orphans did not know what to do.

After a moment's consideration, her husband decisively told her to go to the neighbor's house and bring the child to his house. The husband said that no matter how difficult it will be in the future, he will raise the two children together, and as long as their family has food, they will never starve the two children.

When her husband saw that Sanna was standing still, he thought she was refusing, so he urged her to go and bring the child quickly. Then Sanna opened the curtain of her bed and told her husband to look into the bed, where the two children were already sleeping with their own children.

A good exotic story. At that time, after reading this story, my tears flowed out of my eyes, and I was so moved.

But combined with what happened to Cousin Qin, I don't believe that it really happened in our social reality. The reason why I think this is because I have learned about another real person that happened in a foreign land.

That happened on the African continent, where hunger was spreading. A photographer from a developed Western country used his camera to capture a classic moment, which later won an international award. Now, every time I look at this photo posted online, my heart sinks, and then I feel endless pain.

The photograph shows an African baby dying of hunger, his head bowed in the middle of the wasteland. The big head and thin body shrunk together, and it seemed to be still shivering.

Behind him, however, stood a prairie vulture. The vulture waited patiently for the baby to die before starting its meal.

At that time, the photographer saw this thrilling scene and pressed his shutter in time. Thus, the moment was frozen forever. This was able to make this picture visible to people from many countries, and thus to understand the tragic events that took place on that impoverished continent.

It is said that after pressing the shutter, the photographer rushed forward to drive the vulture away, and then took the baby to the United Nations shelter there.

After the photo won the award, the photographer was criticized from all sides. He was asked why he didn't choose to drive away the human vulture waiting to eat in the first place. Isn't life as important as a photo that can win an award? Eventually, the photographer couldn't bear the pressure and he committed suicide.

It's really a hard choice. I can guess that the photographer chose to press the shutter first to record this thrilling and tense moment, in order to tell the world how unfortunate the baby is in that poor and backward place!

He should have thought that after the photo was made public, it would inevitably make waves and gain attention from many sides, so as to attract the attention of the cure. That moment was so classic and fleeting. I think this choice of photography is the right one.

Because, compared with the kind of chivalrous way to save an individual, it is obviously more urgent and necessary to try to save more people from a big picture.

In the case of the miserable baby, it was also a coincidence that he met the photographer. Moreover, this miserable situation in the land over there is by no means unique, and has been present for a long time.

The photographer recorded this classic moment, because it was tragic and urgent enough, so that it could attract enough attention from people living in a privileged environment and relevant institutions. However, the photographer himself paid with his life.

This living and exotic example speaks more illustratively than that seaside literary story. Because of the different experiences from ordinary people, he is more inclined to believe in the real stories that happened around him. Those things are not embellished, and sometimes some shameless acts and faces are exposed.

But after all, that is reality, and there is no need to embellish or beautify. Otherwise, it will mislead some people's eyes and feelings.

However, the baby who was targeted by the vulture, the child in the literary story, and the two almost fatherless children left behind by Cousin Jean could not decide whether or not they came into this world. All they can do is obey the outside world and fate. Children are the result of their parents' love, or they can be said to be the result of their parents' indulgence.

Those suffocating examples in reality make people can't help but ask: where are the parents of those children with tragic fate? How can they be embarrassed to see their flesh and blood suffering, even when they are young, to suffer the catastrophe of destruction? They are like this, they are not creating people, they are creating sorrow and calamity.

Back to Cousin Qin, although she is also an unfortunate person, her love and marriage have been frustrated several times, and she is not able to reach it quickly. But that doesn't justify her abandoning her flesh and blood.

That day, she took a sum of money from me, saying that she was going to run far. She was free, but the affair was far from over. Because, the two sons born to her and her two irresponsible husbands are now in a very bad situation, and the children's future will have endless hardships.

Sometimes I think about it, everything and people in the world are changing very quickly. A few years ago, Cousin Jean in Girls' Generation was like a pure angel. However, after being constantly soaked in the big dye vat of society, she became a pitiful and hateful person.

It was precisely because she gave me another fatal blow after I suffered a setback, and completely shattered all my hopes. And I realized the other side of the story, which is that I still have a lot of debts to pay in the future. Nor are those debts made up entirely of money or kind. But over time, creditors will magnify it and demand that it be repaid in money or in kind.

If you compare me with that destitute painter, my situation is even worse, because I have a huge responsibility to bear. The painter's widow's cousin only teased him and did not ask him financially.

However, Cousin Jean was not so polite to me. She had said before that she hadn't looked up to me for a day since she had matured mentally. But in her view, the matter of being favored to repay debts cannot be ambiguous. I can imagine that Cousin Jean will most likely come to me in the future. Perhaps from her point of view, this is also a matter of course.

But from my point of view, it's not about endless disasters. When will this be a head? In the past, when I saw that story of the painter and many other tragic stories, my heart would be extremely sympathetic to the person concerned.

Now it seems, I was so naïve. Because my own situation is worse and more troublesome than others, what right do I have to sympathize with others? I myself should be like the babies who shouldn't have come to this world as mentioned earlier, I have been suffering disasters in a daze, and there is no tomorrow ......" Speaking of this, Zhai Suyun pursed his lips, and he swallowed the words that followed.

At this time, Zhu Yushen felt tired again. As before, he felt a terrible pain in the back of his head at the same time. So he lay down on Zhai Suyun's bed again, put the quilt and pillow under his head, and closed his eyes for a while.

He could comprehend the meaning of Zhai Suyun's last words, and he could also guess what Zhai Suyun was going to tell him to be liberated. Thinking of this, he felt that both of them were so helpless, decadent, and even a little intimidating.

Actually, Zhu Yushen really wanted to leave here at this moment, because he didn't want to get too involved in Zhai Suyun's affairs. But that doesn't seem reasonable. (To be continued......)