fifty-eight

Zhu Yushen listened to her calmly. But the last few words made him unacceptable. If Hu Weijia's previous words are a bit explicit, they are honest enough. People always tend to be happy and avoid suffering. Senior brother spent a lot of money on her, which made Zhu Yu look away. He definitely can't afford it, so he's willing to bow down. But then she talked nonsense and complimented her, so she was really beaten up.

Zhu Yu glared at her deeply, then sighed and said sadly, "Do you all think that I must need someone else to save me?" ”

Zhu Yushen, who was hit and insulted by this, was almost physically and mentally crushed. For a long time, he was reluctant to get involved in anything related to marriage and love. The world is complicated, and he feels that a person who is despised like himself is as difficult as the sky if he wants to find a good girlfriend.

finally survived to graduate from secondary school, Zhu Yushen was assigned to teach in primary school, and he could earn money with his salary. Although there is not much money and you have to weigh the flowers, it is much better than always worrying about not being able to survive and being insulted because you are poor.

While working as a teacher in primary school, Zhu Yushen saw an essay called "Suffering Genius" in a magazine. Examples are given of Van Gogh, Fyodor Dostoevsky, and a Japanese politician. These geniuses in different fields have suffered greatly in the process of growing up.

The great painter Van Gogh showed his talent at a young age, but he was not recognized by the world, and he was poor all his life. He fell in love with a widow and was rejected and committed suicide.

Dostoevsky, known as the great interrogator of the human soul, spent most of his life in prison.

And the future Minister of Posts of Japan, when he was young, was forced to wash the toilet in the hotel because of poverty. At first, the overseer scolded him for not cleaning the toilet, which made him confused. Later, a master scooped up a scoop of water in a toilet bowl that he had washed himself in front of him and drank it. The master told him that everyone thought that the new toilet was clean and that the water in it was drinkable. Then you have to clean the toilet, and only when you can drink the water in it can you prove that you have washed it and washed it like a new toilet.

Later, the boy survived with strong perseverance, in which he drank the water from the toilet many times, tempered himself, and finally became a wind-defying figure. The article concludes with a comment: God favors him and lets him wash the toilet, God favors genius and makes him suffer great suffering in the world!

Zhu Yushen saw this and closed the door of the dormitory. He thinks that he has experienced so much suffering since he was a child. Is that also God's favoritism? After reading the article, he burst into tears. Every time he thought about it in the days that followed, tears welled up in his eyes. He hid in a place where no one was around, and became one with the scene of that day.

It was almost noon after chewing on the suffering. Because the people who live in the single dormitory have returned to their hometowns for the Chinese New Year and have not returned to school, there is no anger here. Unlike usual, everyone is busy with lunch. Zhu Yushen walked outside and stood by the house. Caught off guard, the sound of several large firecrackers startled him.

When he looked around, it turned out to be a guest at the home of the vice principal who lived on the first floor of the faculty building. The host house sets off firecrackers to welcome them. Those men, young and old, all wore suits and leather shoes, and they were so foreign; The ladies were dressed in colorful and fluffy clothes, and their faces showed a look of joy and pride.

At noon, when Zhu Yushen went to the town to buy Chinese food, he glanced at the scenery in his yard when he passed by his door. The happy scene made him very excited. Zhu Yushen thought to himself that he had nothing to do. I was unhappy again during the New Year at my aunt's house, and I was really desperate. It seems that he can only be left alone.

When Zhu Yushen rode to the town, he remembered his mother. I wondered, is my mother's family now eating at each other's doors like other families? It's a bit cruel to think about it, and for so many years, I have ignored my mother. After that umbrella delivery encounter, he later went to secondary school and technical secondary school, and after graduating, he saw his mother on the street and in other places several times.

But at this time, he instinctively hid in the distance. He was sure that his mother had seen him a few times, but neither mother nor son had said a word. Sometimes when he is wronged, he really wants to have a loved one around him to talk to. His heart hurts every time he sees his mother disappointed or even shed tears of sadness because he was hiding from her. He asked himself repeatedly: Why do they always torture each other like this?

In the morning, Zhu Yushen tore all the scars in the dormitory. He summed up that his ill-fated fate should belong to creation and manipulation, and he could not blame his mother or blame it all. The desertion of the school contrasts sharply with the heat of those who are reunited. Zhu Yushen suddenly had an idea that he had never thought of before: to go see his mother.

He was moved by this, so he randomly ordered a bowl of noodles at the noodle shop, and hurried to buy gifts after eating. After buying his things, he rode straight along the river ridge to Zhang Village at the junction of the two towns.

More than an hour later, he arrived at the village. At the entrance of the village, Zhu Yushen saw a woman in a white shirt and short hair hoeing in a vegetable patch. Because it has not yet passed the fifth day of the new year, the average farmer does not work in the field according to custom. This woman is special enough.

As she approached, the woman noticed someone walking around and raised her head. The four eyes looked at each other, and both sides were stunned. Zhu Yushen recognized her as his mother. Although there are many wrinkles on his face, his appearance has not changed. The mother also recognized her son. She was amazed that after a few years of not seeing her, her son had become the tall and mature boy in front of him, and he had appeared here.

Zhu Yushen called her mother excitedly, and her mother happily agreed. Then she dropped her hoe and ran to Zhu Yushen, held his hand and asked, "Xiao Shen, are you here to see your mother?" Zhu Yushen nodded.

The mother said, "Go, go home." There is no one at home now, and your brother and his father went to a relative's house for dinner. ”

The two walked to a three-room tiled house, and the mother opened the door. Zhu Yushen felt that the tile house was not much better than his old house, and in the surrounding villages with straight buildings, it seemed to be unimpressive. After entering the house, his mother gave Zhu Yushen a seat and poured him a glass of water. Zhu Yushen put the gift on the ground and asked his mother why she was working in the field now?

Who knew that a sentence touched the mother's sore spot. With tears in her eyes, my mother said, "I can't do it." Your brother is now in secondary school, and it costs a lot of money. His father used to drive a tricycle to deliver deliveries. Two years ago, he collided with someone's car once, and he was slightly injured, so he quit. I don't do anything at home, and I get together to drink with some friends who drink and drink. He still has old parents to provide for, and the burden falls on us. I've got to finish the work in the fields and then go to the factory in the town over there to find some work. How can I do it if I don't endure hardship? ”

The mother paused, then said, "Well, don't talk about that. Xiao Shen, are you now a teacher at Huangzhen Middle School? You're not married, are you? She saw Zhu Yushen nodding, and then asked, "Are you going to find a female teacher in the future?" ”

Zhu Yushen didn't answer his mother's words, he felt that his mother looked down on his son. How difficult is it to find a female teacher? Those who are far away are like Hu Weijia, and those who are close are like physical education teacher Gu Mingxiu. Almost all of them are cynical, wealth-seeking girls. Girls in this field, he doesn't dare to set foot in anymore.

Zhu Yushen looked around the room and saw that the furnishings inside were old, and they were still at the level of the nineties of the last century. His heart was a little sour. His mother also noticed his expression.

After a while, Zhu Yushen said to his mother with a smile: "I just bought a house on Huangzhen Street a year ago. When the decoration is finished, I will pick you up and play. ”

After hearing this, his mother approached Zhu Yushen and said, "My son is really promising, and he has become a master by himself." Mom has been the same for so many years, and she doesn't know when she is a head when she has a hard life. As she spoke, she stroked Zhu Yushen's left cheek with her right hand, and tears kept flowing out.

"I really did it myself," she said. I knew that my son's school grades were so good, and then he was so promising, why did I have to leave home? Although I can't live with your father, as long as I guard my son, I can live for the rest of my life. It's time to be free. It's good now, your brother's academic performance is not good, and there will be no good way out in the future. It's not like life at home. I really don't know how to live in the future? Why is my life so bad......"

As he spoke, the door was kicked open. An old man with a mouth full of alcohol rushed in. He yelled at Zhu Yushen: "Who are you?" ”

Zhu Yu thought deeply, this person should be Lai Wu, the man behind his mother. He said calmly, "I came to visit my mother. At the same time, Zhu Yushen saw that his half-brother who was full of fluff also looked at him with disdain. Zhu Yushen felt that it was inconvenient to stay any longer, so he said to his mother: "I'm leaving, you can go to my place to play in the future." ”

Before he stepped out of the door, Lai Wu shouted loudly: "Teacher Zhu is now the princess who eats the imperial mother." Your mother is poor and stupid, don't you give some money to your mother? Zhu Yushen didn't reply, so he strode out.

After turning around the room, he found his mother following him. He said distressedly: "Mom, it seems that your life is really difficult. If not, go back to me, and have a house in the house and in the town. ”

With tears in her eyes, the mother said, "What should I do? When I left your father and son, my reputation stinked. I don't know how many times I've been scolded in front of and behind my back, and I don't know what it's like to be scolded. If I can't live here and have to leave, then I won't have the face to see people in my hometown. Besides, you and your brother are both flesh that fell from me, and I don't want to leave him. Although your brother is not angry, if I leave him, he will not be able to live. I don't know what to do in the future, so I can only suffer here. If you care about your mother, you will see me often in the future, and I will be satisfied. ”

After his mother finished speaking, Zhu Yushen left behind. She waved her hand to Zhu Yushen and stood still. Zhu Yushen walked out of the village entrance and got on a bicycle. When he was about to turn the corner, he looked back and saw his mother still standing there watching his back.

Zhu Yu thought deeply that he might not come again here. The suffering between mother and child needs to be borne by each person alone, and this may be the arrangement of fate. Zhu Yushen pedaled the car slowly, and saw that there were many people walking relatives on the side of the road, and they were all still immersed in the joy of the New Year.