(59) Neidan
With infinite gloom on his face, he said slowly: "After knowing that my lady dislikes me, I will no longer bother her, but the two of them are under the same roof, and I can't look up and see her, how can I bear not to look at her?" I thought about it, so I simply hid out, and during that time, I often mixed in the gambling house and wine shop, borrowing wine to kill my sorrows, very bastard.
The neighbors all said that I didn't know what to do, and that I had left my wife at home and had bad habits, but my wife was actually very happy, and occasionally when I came home, I would greet each other with a smile and make some of my favorite food and drinks.
The more she was like this, the more chilling my heart became. She really hated me so much, we had been married for ten years, but we had no children, and the neighbors had laughed at me, but in fact we had never even had a cave house.
On that day, I drank more, and when I returned home, my mother was already in the Buddha Hall, and I wanted to see her while I was drinking, and begged her to change her mind, put aside her cultivation for the time being, and be happy with me. ”
Ah Mo's face turned red when he heard this, and he was secretly amused, he only said that he was scared to death by the real body of the white snake, thinking that he was as timid as a mouse, but he didn't expect it, but he was still a coward.
When Xu Xian said this, he was not afraid of ugliness, and continued: "On weekdays, the lady always made an enchantment on the periphery of this Buddhist hall and didn't let me get close for half a minute, but somehow she was negligent that day, I was glad that God helped me, so I broke in."
I just saw the lady sitting cross-legged on the futon, swallowing a small white bead with golden light!"
Jing Hua coughed twice in a suppressed manner, frowned, and said, "You broke in at the critical time of the White Snake's practice, just afraid that she would annoy you." ”
Xu Xian said: "She didn't annoy me, she just wanted to kick me out immediately." At that time, I was drunk and angry, so I shouted at her, saying, 'You are my lady, but you don't know how to serve the minister, and every day in this Buddha hall pounds this Laoshizi's golden pill, I will destroy this broken bead today, so that you will not be able to soar, and you and my wife will be a husband and wife peacefully!'"
Three hundred years have passed since this pair of whites, and Xu Xian still repeats it word for word, sad and angry as it was back then.
Jinghua was affected by his sad words, only to feel that the blood in his chest was surging more fiercely.
This mortal struggle is helpless, frustrated and painful, desperate and unwilling...... It seems to have been devoured on me one by one!
The ups and downs of emotions caused the spiritual power of Huoxing to surge everywhere in the body, and the dragon tendons and dragon veins were constantly torn and burned, almost broken.
He secretly swallowed a few mouthfuls of salty meat that surged to his throat, forcing himself to harden his heart and stop thinking about the grievances between Xu Xian and the White Snake.
And Ah Mo, who was beside him, was already so excited that he couldn't help himself at this time, and said loudly to Xu Xian: "You really ruined her Neidan? That's the result of thousands of years of practice!"
Xu Xian smiled bitterly, "How could I destroy her Neidan? Even if I ruined myself, I would never be able to do such a thing." ”
He touched the hideous scar on his neck and said slowly: "But that day, I was really anxious. I think instead of living like this every day, it is better for everyone to be a hundred.
I took her sword, rested it on my neck, and said, Okay, we have been husband and wife for ten years, if the lady insists on going her own way, then she will die in front of you today, and this evil relationship will be healed. ”
Jinghua looked at the wound on his neck and said, "So, you didn't take her Neidan, she ......" He turned his head and coughed violently for a while, before continuing: "She...... She didn't kill you either, you ...... Ahem, it was self-inflicted. ”
Ah Mo glanced at him, and his face made her a little worried. He is used to holding hard, but now he coughs so often that he can't hold it down even if he tries his best. I have to quickly finish the matter here, tie him up and hand him back to Sister Yuan.
"I am despicable and shameless, and I want to force her with my own life, after all, I am her savior, and I bet that even if she has no good feelings for me, she will not really bear to see me die.
And I didn't do this to completely threaten her, I really felt that if she did this to me again, there would be nothing too much to live this day, and it would be better to die clean.
I have rejoiced in her with all my heart, and she has also married me as a lady, and everyone else says that we are a match made in heaven, and we are happy, but no one knows that my heart is more bitter than Huang Lian......"
When Xu Xian said this, he couldn't go on with sadness.
As a result, Jinghua and Ah Mo have already understood-
The white snake was unmoved, and seeing Xu Xian commit suicide, he didn't make any concessions. And then that's basically what they're seeing now.
Same beginning, different story, same tragic ending.
Jinghua seemed to have controlled his thoughts, and his face returned to a cold and indifferent look. But Ah Mosu attaches great importance to affection, and at this time he also accompanied Xu Xian and sighed.
Jinghua patted her and said quietly: "Xu Gongzi should not be too sad, since ancient times, most of the love of demons has been sad and joyful, which shows its hardship." You have always been in love with Mrs. Zun, but you did not have a good death, maybe your fate with her was not enough in that life. ”
Snakes are actually quite spiritual in the fairy world, but they have always been cold and ruthless. If the white snake Suzhen really abandons the seven emotions and six desires, and wants to cultivate and ascend, it is actually understandable.
It's just that Xu Xian shouldn't provoke her, and when she loves her, she is obsessed with reciprocation, and her tenderness becomes a resentment. But on the other hand, he is a mortal after all, and he is greedy for the warmth of the red dust, so what's wrong?
This is a sentence, it is difficult for a Qing official to decide family affairs, just like Xu Xian himself said, whether it is love or hate, whether it is robbery or fate, who can break it?
Jinghua quietly knocked on his two unconscious legs, and said lightly: "Since you are dead, that white snake has also returned to Emei to re-cultivate, and your marriage is over, why are you still wandering in the underworld and not entering reincarnation?"
Xu Xian said this way, in fact, he had already won a lot of sympathy in Ah Mo's heart, and at this time he said chivalrous and awe-inspiring: "Xu Gongzi, it turns out that the fairy world has a lot of misunderstandings about you. If things are as you say, then you are also an infatuated person.
It's just that you can't force the love thing, you still have to think about it yourself. If you have any unfulfilled wishes, please let me know and we can help. ”
Xu Xian's eyes showed a look of joy, "I want to cultivate immortals!
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Jinghua frowned and said, "Mortals cultivate immortals in order to pursue the true meaning of the Great Dao. You have saved the mind to find the snake, the purpose is not pure in the first place, even if you worship Emei, it will not be a positive result. ”
Xu Xian said movingly: "Your Royal Highness is kind-hearted and willing to tell the truth, and I am very grateful." Don't hide it from you, I have been wandering here for three hundred years, and in order to find someone from the fairy world to introduce me, I have spent a lot of silver taels, but I ...... Always lawless. ”
Ah Mo looked around, the house was in tatters, there was not even a decent piece of furniture, and the roof was broken in many places, and it was left unrepaired.
Xu Xian laughed at himself: "I have no relatives in the yang world except for my mother, and I don't even have anyone to burn paper after I die." This underworld is the same as the human world, and it costs two dozen silver to entrust people to do things, and I have no one to burn paper, so I have to rely on working with the owner to save some silver to honor those bad guys. ”
Ah Mo was curious: "Can Yin Cha still do such a thing?"
Xu Xian said: "The official position is low, but in fact, you can't do much after receiving money." Most of them took my money, and ate and drank. ”
Ah Mo said: "Then you still sent it correctly?"
Xu Xian sighed, "Then what else? I don't want to forget my mother, naturally I can't drink that Meng Po soup, not only can't drink it, but also reincarnate near Emei as much as possible, or better, just in a family of a master with outstanding Taoism, born with a little bit of cultivation, and when I meet my lady in the future, she will look at me differently." ”
Ah Mo said: "You have so many requirements for reincarnation, then you should go and beg Yan Jun, what's the use of asking for yin? They can't do anything!"
Xu Xian smiled bitterly and said: "Your Highness really tortured me, how could Lord Yan Jun receive me with such an identity?"
I can only open the door of Yin Cha first, hoping that one day, there will be a suitable opportunity for Yin Cha to be in front of Yan Jun and inadvertently talk about me, which will arouse Yan Jun's curiosity. If Yan Jun is curious and willing to summon me again, then I will have the opportunity to make my request in person. ”
Jinghua was silent.
This section is a level, a glimmer of hope, how difficult, how slim, Xu Xian with the power of a mortal, three hundred years, is tantamount to the fool moved mountains back then.
Sigh its difficulty, but also respect it is not discouraged!
Xu Xian was a little embarrassed, touched his neck and said: "I almost went bankrupt for this matter, and even this self-inflicted injury was sewn by myself, and the hospital charges are too high, and I can't afford it." ”
Ah Mo looked at his scars, it was indeed one foot higher and one foot lower, not much better than his female red craftsmanship, if he went to the hospital to sew it, then this doctor is really too bad.
Ah Mo spoke quickly, shook his head and said, "You can't do this." Those yin chasers are in front of Yan Jun, but they are so scared that they don't even dare to open their mouths, how can they speak for you?"
Xu Xian smiled bitterly, "Your Highness is right, I also know that they can't do it, but I have no way to go and always save one, hehe-hope, it's good to deceive yourself!"
Jinghua said lightly: "So Xu Gongzi tied us up in the middle of the night, hoping that after listening to your story, we will sympathize with you, plead with Yan Jun on your behalf, and send you back to the home of a certain Taoist in Emei to reincarnate, and renew the relationship with that snake?"
Xu Xian's pale and miserable face lit up, his eyes widened and he nodded violently, and said excitedly: "Not bad! Exactly!"
His Royal Highness is the prince of the Heavenly Clan, and the Monarch of Yan will definitely obey his words when he is in front of His Royal Highness. If Your Highness can speak for the good words of your majesty, this matter will be very promising, otherwise if I rely on my own strength, I will run for another thousand years, and I am afraid that there will be no progress!"
Jinghua was unmoved, and said coldly: "Ridiculous! You kidnapped us in the past, it can be seen that your mind is not right, why should we help you? Xu Gongzi, your experience may be worthy of sympathy, but it is also your wishful thinking, and you are to blame! No wonder your lady, let alone others!"
Ah Mo was also quite surprised, she was already full of sympathy for this infatuated Xu Xian.
He is a little persistent, but he is also persistent for love, and he also has his pitifulness. What's more, in order to be able to renew the relationship with the white snake, he begged people everywhere in the underworld, struggling for that glimmer of hope, isn't it pitiful?
She didn't understand, why did Jinghua harden her heart and refuse to help him?