181. Chapter 181
"The Nanlin royal family has always been romantic, and after Duanmu Qian saw the portrait of Nangong Meng, he really wanted your father to send Nangong Meng to make peace." Chao Yu smiled bitterly when he said this, and seemed to despise his original behavior.
"Because of your so-called revenge, you caused me to part with Dream so much and endure the pain of lovesickness." Yu Wending not only clenched his hand into a fist when he heard this, but he had always wondered that Nangong Meng had just passed the capital back then, and had never left the capital of Yueli, and he was not famous in the Lankun Continent, how could he be asked to go by Duanmu Qian Zhiming, it turned out that Chaoyu "made a lot of contributions".
"Master, have you ever been happy that you have tormented me?" Yu Wending stabilized his mood and looked at Chao Yu.
"No, I didn't." Chao Yu sighed and looked at Yu Wending calmly, "When I saw that you were in pain because of the loss of Nangong Meng, I realized that I didn't have the pleasure of revenge at all. I even regret that I raised you single-handedly, why did I push you into this abyss of pain, why did I let you fall into the same quagmire as I did at the beginning. ”
"So, in the entanglement, you told me that Shizun is not only proficient in the art of war, but also proficient in Qimen Dunjia. Even if you know that I will definitely go to the Dark Night Valley to ask for a master to teach me, even if you know that I will go to the Dark Night Valley, you will definitely know your identity, and you will suspect that you are Jin Yao's spy. Yu Wending's face was distressed, "Master, why are you doing this?" You have nurturing grace and teaching for me, but you just stabbed me in the heart with your own hands, and wanted me to know that the person I respected and loved over the years turned out to be the enemy of Yueli, do you know how painful my heart is! ”
"Ding'er, I know the way." Chao Yu lowered his eyelids, "It's just that I can't control myself." As much as I love your mother, I hate you and your father as much as I love you. ”
"Master, you keep saying that you hate me, do you really hate me?" Yu Wending looked at Chao Yu, and his heart ached faintly. "If you hate me, why did you promise my father to keep me in the Dark Valley? If you hate me, why do you teach me everything you have learned in your life without reservation? If you hate me, why don't you ever talk about my life experience in front of outsiders, and even the carefree around you don't know that I am the prince of Yueli? Master, is this hatred? Did you spend ten years raising me just to torture me to death? ”
"I ......" Chao Yu didn't know how to answer for a while.
"If you're really for Jin Yao, why didn't you attack me early? Why didn't people get rid of me on the way to Nanlin and my relatives before I sent my dreams? Why did you suggest that I go to the Dark Night Valley to learn the art of war and the art of Qimen? You know that once I learn from Shizun, there will be no opponents in this Lankun Continent, and when the time comes, I can not only destroy Nanlin, but also Jin Yao. Yu Wending said to himself.
"I do hate you, but I hate myself even more!" Chao Yu suddenly interrupted Yu Wending, he raised his head, as if he had made a lot of determination, "Do you know why your mother had a difficult birth back then?" ”
"Why?" Yu Wending's heart jumped, could this also be hidden?
"That day, Bingruo knelt on the ground and begged me, I didn't say anything, she was very desperate, and when she got to the end, she told me that she would definitely get out of Jin Yao's control for the sake of the child in her womb, and even if she died, she would protect the innocence of her child. My mind was blank and I didn't have time to savor what she meant. After she passed away, I went to the palace to mourn, and secretly examined her body, only to find that she had taken some kind of medicine before, which slowly depleted her qi and blood, so that she died of blood during childbirth. I hate you because she doesn't care about herself so much for you, and she would rather die than protect your innocence. I hated myself because I didn't believe her so much that day, and would rather choose a dead end than believe that I would let her go and give her freedom. I hate myself even more for not understanding her hints that day, and not stopping her in time, which caused the tragedy that followed. ”
"Queen Mother!" When Yu Wending heard this, he couldn't hold back anymore, tears flowed, it turned out that the queen mother had made such a big sacrifice for herself.
"I'm really struggling with you. You are Bingruo's child who saved her life, I have repeatedly wanted to do it, but I am afraid that her spirit in the sky will hate me even more, and she will not forgive me if we meet under Jiuquan in the future. But if I were to act like nothing had happened, I couldn't do it. So when you participated in the life and death knockout tournament for the first time, I deliberately arranged for you to draw Ye Ku, and I wanted to borrow a knife to kill someone, but I didn't expect you to kill him and walk out of the dense forest. I suggested that you go to the Dark Night Valley, because I thought you wouldn't be able to break through the traps outside the valley, and you might die in that peach blossom forest wrapped in poisonous mist......"
"Say no more!" Yu Wending's clenched knuckles turned white, "How can you be so cruel!" ”
"I am indeed a cruel man, let me atone for you and your mother!" After Chao Yu finished saying this, he suddenly spat blood from his mouth and slowly fell on the table.
"Master, Chaoyu, what's wrong with you!" Yu Wending's heart was stagnant, he couldn't care about so much, and rushed forward to hold Chao Yu in his arms.
"Ding'er, do you know that I love your mother, and my love has never lost half of your father's love. From beginning to end, I had only your mother in my heart, even though she never really belonged to me. However, looking back on all these years, including what I have done to you, I find that there is so much love and hatred between me and your queen mother that I have drifted apart. I'm tired, I'm really tired, and only by dying can I be truly liberated. Chaoyu's words were full of affection.
"No, Master, I don't want you to die! Did you hear it, Chao Yu, Sikong Chao Yu, you are not allowed to die! Yu Wending yelled with red eyes. Chasing Cloud and Blue Lotus rushed in when they heard the sound, looking at this scene dumbfounded.
"Get the antidote!" Yu Wending has already messed up, and has long forgotten that he has an antidote pill on his body.
"It's useless, this poison has no cure at this time! When your mother was infected with the plague and was dying, I planted a love Gu in her and myself. Once I lose her and befriend other women, this love Gu will kill me. But if she loses me, this Gu will not harm her at all. I wanted to tell her the secret when I married her, and let her know how important she was to me, but I never waited for that day. Chao Yu said and vomited another mouthful of blood.
"But, Master, you have never been close to a woman, how can you be poisoned?" Yu Wending watched Chao Yu vomit blood in a big gulp, how could there be hatred in his heart, only unspeakable heartache.