Chapter 190: The Deal Doesn't Work Out
Gao Yuanshang smiled coldly at the back, he really wanted to know if Song Anle's purpose in designing to prevent her from entering the palace or to prevent them from being together was just because of her personal selfishness.
Song Anle faced an intoxicating night scene, but she no longer had the mood to appreciate it, facing the cold wind, she couldn't feel the cold, but the heavy thoughts in her heart suppressed her all the time.
Sensing that Gao Yuanshang was also approaching, she took a deep breath of cold breath, I don't know if it was because of the cold breath, or because her tone was already cold, she said coldly: "How about we make a deal?" ”
Gao Yuanshang also looked at the flickering river, although his vision was very limited, he was in a very happy mood, but he still said coldly: "It depends on whether I am interested in your transaction." ”
Song Anle didn't take up time to think, she turned to look at him, and said with a serious face: "I can stay in the palace instead of Qing'er, and secondly, I want you to cut off your thoughts about Qing'er forever, as if she never appeared." ”
Gao Yuanshang's heart suddenly rose with a sense of annoyance, and he said expressionlessly: "Why do you think you can replace Qing'er, I remember that I reminded you that you can't replace Qing'er's position in my heart." ”
Song Anle was stung in a certain corner of her heart, so she frowned slightly, and didn't even give Gao Yuanshang a chance to grab it, she said calmly: "From the moment I decided to enter the palace, I didn't plan to leave here again, but love is different, she is simple by nature and loves a carefree life, so she needs a partner who can give her freedom, and you are not suitable." ”
"But I can give her a place above 10,000 people, and I believe that anyone will choose everything I can give." Gao Yuanshang didn't think about it at all, because freedom never belonged to a vision in his consciousness, and he never thought about anything that was out of reach, so he thought that a status that no one could match was far more exciting than freedom.
"You're wrong." Song Anle was very indifferent, but said sharply: "If Qing'er is really willing to be a person above 10,000 people, then she will not be alienated from you after learning your identity, or even be like ashes;
So the essence of her heart is still longing for freedom and sincerity, and you not only left a shadow of deception on her simple heart, but even tied her to the edge of love and pain with your special identity, you shouldn't be selfish to bind her when she finally withdrew, that is not love, but the selfish possessiveness in your heart. ”
Gao Yuanshang has never thought about love too complicated and trivial, he only knows that his feelings for his lover are a feeling that he has never had before, every time he is with her, he can easily release the dullness and depression in his heart, looking at her innocent and simple smile, he can't help but show his smile.
As long as it is something that the lover wants, he can try his best to send it to her, no matter how difficult it is, he can also deeply feel the girlish feelings of the lover, and sometimes he questions his feelings, whether he loves the lover a little more, or the lover is more dependent on him or loves him a little more.
"You can provoke my relationship with my lover for any reason, but I won't do what you want." Gao Yuanshang also admitted that sometimes his thoughts about his lover are not entirely because he likes his lover or needs him, but he has an inexplicable consciousness in his heart, and he always keeps instigating him to compete with Song Anle.
Song Anle said with some annoyance and with some solemnity: "Even if the lover is already dead to you, you still refuse to let her go?" ”
Gao Yuanshang was close to Song Anle's eyes, and still said with an indifferent face: "Why should I listen to your one-sided words, why do you make me believe you?" ”
Song Anle was completely defeated by his lonely arrogance, so she said with a little self-pity: "I said, as long as you are willing to let go of your love, I am willing to spend my life filling the regrets between you." ”
Song Anle can say these words, it can be said that she has no place to be ashamed, she did not hesitate her self-esteem and the happiness of her life to stop the chaos between Gao Yuanshang and Bai Huaqing, but unfortunately she could only bear this unknown secret alone.
Gao Yuanshang looked at her directly, from her cold and arrogant momentum, gradually turned into inferiority and self-pity, this process is a very difficult thing for ordinary people to do, but she only did it before and after, and she did it so realistically, it almost made him tempted by it.
"You're finally willing to admit it;" Gao Yuanshang looked at her directly and said: "Qing'er is not dead to me, but you prevented her from entering the palace, so you want me to give up her at all costs, I tell you, it is impossible." ”
Song Anle tensed the senses and nerves in her body and mind, she was like an ugly witch after the truth was exposed at this time, although she let go of her proud dignity, even if she did not hesitate to put down everything to pray, she was still shrouded in ugliness, so she had to tense her body and mind, she was afraid that she would not be able to bear it for a while.
"You are just a realistic vulgar person, you are greedy for glory and wealth, and you are eager to have honor above ten thousand people, so you do not hesitate to prevent your lover from entering the palace, and even think that you can use her name to influence me to be attracted to you, and then you can have the power to cover the sky with one hand."
Gao Yuanshang paused for a moment, and he sneered again: "I might as well tell you again, this is even more impossible." ”
Song Anle never expected that in Gao Yuanshang's heart, everything she did was just a means for her to be greedy for vanity, so what else could she do, did she have to explain, she was because of the indecent relationship between them, did she have to explain, because of the grievances and grievances of the previous generation, or the shock she had for him.
Gao Yuanshang was speechless, for him, she was like a shameless heart to face after he saw through his ugly face, so he snorted angrily, and then brushed his sleeves and left.
Song Anle finally sat stiffly on the ground at the moment he turned around, along the edge of the boat, at this moment she was a shell that had been drained of her soul, without dignity, body and mind, no thoughts, depression and depression, pushing her to the extreme.
Gao Yuanshang signaled her movement, but he didn't intend to pay attention to it, but he paused in the frightened words of the palace people.
"Little master, are you alright?" A palace man in charge of the boat, after seeing Song Anle fall, went up to support her.
Because of Song Anle's dress, it was inevitable that he would be mistaken for the master, but Song Anle just shook his head lightly and said, "Thank you, I'm fine." ”
To say that she is all because of physical and mental exhaustion, it is not quite, the cold coldness, always sweeping the sharp blade in her body, as if in her empty body, looking for an opportunity.
Song Anle got up with the support of the boatman palace people, and she pulled the palace people and said, "Uncle, can you find a boat to help me send it to the other side?" ”
"This" The palace people looked at Gao Yuanshang who was stopping not far away with some embarrassment, and Song Anle saw that Gao Yuanshang did not leave, and the intention of the palace people was obviously asking for Gao Yuanshang's permission.
Therefore, Song Anle couldn't know that others were embarrassed, but she still insisted on asking, so she said again: "Then you can help me to convey it to the second prince, and say that An Le is waiting here." ”
"This minion can give it a try, little master, please wait." The palace man gestured.
Song Anle said very gratefully: "Thank you." ”
After the palace people retreated, Gao Yuanshang suddenly said, "Stop." ”
The palace man's actions were more sensitive than being timed, Gao Yuanshang turned around and walked back, and waved the palace man back, originally he didn't want to ask Song Anle about it anymore, but when he heard Gao Yuanyi's name, he couldn't help himself and wanted to stop them from communicating.
Whether Song Anle has low self-esteem or self-pity, she no longer wants to face Gao Yuanshang, so she hides her pain, avoids Gao Yuanshang's sight, and leaves from the side.
Gao Yuanshang suddenly spoke: "Yuan Yi has already disembarked, if you want to stay here, you can wait here." ”
Song Anle had to stop again, and her brows were followed by a deep wrinkle of tired melancholy, she didn't know if Gao Yuanyi was really not on the boat, but if it was true, she had to think of another way, otherwise she would have to get off the boat with the people on the boat, and she would definitely be discovered at that time.
"Can you send me back?" Song Anle said in a low and helpless voice: "I owe you a favor again." ”
Gao Yuanshang approached her and said meaninglessly: "You haven't forgotten what you owe me. ”
Song Anle said childishly: "Don't worry, even if I forget myself, I won't forget to repay your kindness." ”
"Good, remember, this is the fourth time." When Gao Yuanshang's words fell, he pulled Song Anle and strode away, but Song Anle hadn't reacted yet, so she let out a soft 'hey', and she couldn't break free of Gao Yuanshang's hand at all.
Song Anle was familiar with the road conditions, and guessed that Gao Yuanshang should be planning to send her away, so she let him pull it, but his actions did not carry any emotion, so he seemed a little heavy, but Gao Yuanyi's actions were extremely gentle and careful.
There are a few very small boats floating in the river here, which is the place where Gao Yuanyi brought her up, probably to facilitate the masters to leave at any time.
Gao Yuanshang jumped into the boat in the river first, and then turned to pick her up, without the slightest barrier, like a very ordinary friend, so that Song Anle couldn't brew out of the battle just now.
"How?" Gao Yuanshang said coldly: "Do you want me to carry you up?" ”
In addition to Gao Yuanshang's relatively peaceful actions, his tone was still as cold as ice, and Song Anle was also used to him like this, so she also stretched out her hand in his palm senselessly, and with his support, she also returned to the boat steadily.