In the winter of 1974, Wu Wei was about to graduate from high school and faced a place to go, because he didn't eat red food, and his family had no way to go; If you want to farm and only have your own land to make a living, you are in an embarrassing situation, but you don't have that kind of embarrassing mood. There was not a trace of panic, and I was ready to take the most important first step in my life with excitement, reverence, and hope. The state of mind at the beginning of life is supported by hope, passion, and yearning, and gradually enters a state of high temperature.

Wu Wei's idea came from a night dream, he lay on the kang for a long time and couldn't sleep, thinking of the social misanthropy, he was born in the countryside and grew up in the countryside, and did not dislike the idea of the countryside, and especially liked to do farm work, and the scene of the modern farm tools active in the field was abundant in the New Year's painting, and suddenly imagined that he should not only see the backward appearance of the real countryside, but also see the bright prospects of the countryside in the future, and immediately excited for such an idea in his mind. He was so excited that he couldn't sleep, thinking of the group after batch of urban intellectuals coming to the countryside with pride, the peasants warmly welcoming the exciting scene, the newspapers and radio constantly reporting the deeds of the advanced figures among the intellectuals, and the school once invited those figures to give reports, and unconsciously formed a longing state of mind. Thinking that I am eating rural grain, imagining the beauty of the countryside in the future, and not being able to devote myself to the fiery life of transforming the countryside, it will become a regret in life in the future, how proud the people who have struggled in the countryside should be.

At that time, the movement of young intellectuals going to the mountains and going to the countryside had entered a low tide and was gradually cooling, and the irrepressible strong momentum of returning to the city was secretly accumulating, and many educated youths had already successfully returned to the city by using various relationships, and the educated youths in Tuweizi were also about to run out, and the rest were those who were not good enough to get out of the city for a while. At this time, Wu Wei was immersed in the upsurge of learning from Ma Enlesmao, and was inspired and motivated by the revolutionary passion in his bones, whether he wanted to get ahead or dedicate himself to the magnificent revolutionary cause, young people with such a mood went to the countryside almost became the first choice. High school graduates are not allowed to go directly to university, and it is fashionable for workers, peasants and soldiers to recommend them to go to university, or they will work part-time in cities and towns as temporary workers. Wu Wei is in a kind of marginal area, surviving in the cracks, in fact, it is quite embarrassing, his family has moved out of Tuweizi, but he is still eating the food there, he can also find some temporary workers in Riverside Town after graduation, no urban hukou can not eat red grain is a fantasy to be placed in a state-owned unit, he has not thought about it at all. He was not idle during the summer and winter vacations, finding some odd jobs, carrying sugar beet baskets at the train station, and beating straw bales in the reed field to earn some money to supplement the family. After graduating, he worked as a temporary worker in Riverside Town, and doing odd jobs almost became his only place to go.

Wu Wei is unwilling to be the only passive direction of life, he wants to take the initiative to fight, he imagines and is excited, wants to jump out of this crack, and wants to return to Tuweizi alone to change the appearance there. Alone, he found a different meaning for himself in action in the trend of the times. Although his actions were alone, unlike the lone heroes of the war years, who went deep into the enemy's den, after all, this exceeded the extraordinary actions of ordinary young people of his time, and had the elements of innovation, and had a reason to show off. As a result, he has contracted the vice of fanciing self-hype as soon as he has an idea. He has a full imagination, and the more he imagines, the more excited he becomes, and he gains very important experience in life, and he can get excited by imagining, which will expand the space for his life choices and inadvertently develop his brain. The appearance of this idea can make him excited, he can be excited by his own thoughts, and it will motivate and prompt him to actively seek ideas and ideas that can make him excited, which will prompt him to further develop his imagination space, and the brain space will be filled with indulgent imagination, and the result of this filling is a festive scene of chickens, ducks and geese in the countryside full of chickens, ducks and geese.

The brain developed from the initial thought is like taking root, and we will recount it here, and we would like to remind the reader that Wu Wei's idea of returning to his hometown is rooted in his mind, not that he himself wants to take root in the countryside, he has not thought so deeply and far, and taking root in the countryside means marrying a wife and having children in the countryside, building a house, and living and working in peace and contentment in the countryside. Would he still choose this step if he thought that taking root in the countryside would mean all this, he was now in the midst of a reckless impulse. If his childlike love had been fortunate to become a reality before, and he and Mei Yuan got married, it would be another life route, maybe he would be willing to live in the countryside for a lifetime, women are fully capable of shaping men, and men can be willing to sacrifice everything for women, especially the woman he likes can also decide and change the path of men's lives. But his childlike love did not develop deeply, or it did not have time to develop to the level of obsession, so he embarked on the road of learning first. His mind was now warming up and getting hot, and he was anxious to take that first hopeful step. It is a bit inaccurate to say that the first step is a repetitive step. Because he had given up farming a few years ago.

Wu Wei returned to his hometown, although he was like a monkey skin band with advance and retreat, but at that time in the face of that kind of difficulty, he dared to try, and precipitated the brave and positive gene into a personality endowment, and there was a rigid component in his bones.

Wu Wei was excited by the idea of returning to his hometown, so he wanted to excite others, imagining that others would also be excited, and maybe it could have a driving effect among his classmates, but there was no driving but there was a small sensation. He did not expect that people had cooled down from the hot-headed state at the beginning of the special period, that the intellectual youth had faded the color of revolutionary action when they went to the countryside, and that they were a little helpless not to eat red food, but as soon as they took the initiative to become active, they diluted their helplessness and became the famous positive and courageous action of the teacher, and naturally there would be no enthusiastic response as imagined.

Wu Wei's thoughts aroused Gui Fang's worries. Gui Fang, a very ordinary housewife, but also has some unusual features, since moving to Riverside Town, she has the opportunity to develop, and she is often a frequent visitor to the commune leader's house, and she talks with those official wives very much. On the issue of his son's choice to return to his hometown to farm, he naturally opposed it, and returned to Tuweizi to live a hard and tiring life, and he had to cook by himself. Wu Laomo still only admits work and is unwilling to ask for help. Gui Fang often said that Lao Wu does not ask for anything, and he is very stingy, rarely walks around with people, and his colleagues in the unit give him a strange nickname called Patina, like a child who buys a popsicle and is reluctant to eat it in his mouth. Knowing that his son is better than his father, Wu Wei's choice has won the support of Wu Laomo, he said that Wu Wei can do anything. Wu Wei's brothers all came out of the countryside, knowing well the hardships of the countryside and fearing that they would fall into the countryside and delay their future, and they also held an opposing attitude, but they struggled separately and were unable to take care of them for a while, so they suggested that he first do odd jobs and do temporary jobs and wait for opportunities. After he had retreated from Tuweizi in a disgraceful and embarrassing manner, a classmate named Li Fei was not good at words, and he had never talked about anything with Wu Wei alone, but he came to his house and said to him very excitedly, none of our classmates dared to go to the countryside alone like you, and we all envy you. Wu Wei said very frankly, isn't it back now, what else is brave, isn't it revealing his cowardly nature? Li Fei said very emotionally, you were able to take this step at that time, it shows that you are very courageous, very unusual, we have also thought about it, but there is no actual action, this is also very important for you in the future, dare to do things, have the spirit of daring, I admire you from the bottom of my heart, you are an extraordinary beginning. By taking this step, Wu Wei has made a very important paving for how to learn to identify the general trend of social trends, which is the basic skill of determining the direction of life in grasping the direction of the times.

In the eyes of others, farm work is long and intense, bitter and tiring, poor food, wind and rain, and unwilling to do it, which is a last resort, where there will be people who are willing to do farm work. Wu Wei is addicted to doing farm work, interested, and full of energy. In this he did follow his father. He can have an artistic pleasure when doing farm work, hoe polishing, shoveling and weeding, there is a sense of pleasure of clearing the way for the growth of crops and "cutting grass and roots", waving a samarium knife to beat the grass under the scorching sun, waving it open, beating thoroughly, hearing the sound of brushing and brushing in his ears, especially in the spring when he encounters the Qingtang that has burned the barren and has no old weeds, there is a kind of pleasure of sweating like rain and sweeping thousands of troops. Wu Wei was fortunate to complete his labor enlightenment, although the farm work is so heavy, boring and arduous to rely on physical strength, but he can feel the pleasure, so that his brain sensibility has been initially developed, this mode of sensory development, inhibiting his sceptibility to other activities, as if a special drive is installed in his brain, driving him to concentrate on the way of labor, so that he can always quickly attract attention and attention in the process of labor, stand out and stand out. The implementation of the labor method of big gangs, everyone shovels the ground and grasses together, which is naturally a kind of competition, especially when men and women are paired together, there are many meat stories that are difficult to hear elsewhere, for example, the story of the educated youth brought back the paste from the city, the paste actually has that kind of brushing method, in the office, men and women sit at the opposite table, and beautiful women are often secretly out of the water, hearing such stories is also the earliest sexual enlightenment for Wu Wei. Men and women laugh and play together, sometimes the poor man provokes the wild woman, the woman will shout at a few companions to rush up and grab the man and strip him naked to make him ugly, or hold down and let the woman with milk milk into her mouth to make her face full of mouth, and this kind of show that appears from time to time also seems to dilute and dissipate the bitterness and tiredness.

There was a veterinarian in the commune, who did not agree to his daughter's marriage and had a fierce quarrel, and even raped his daughter in a wild way, and was sent to Tuweizi to monitor and reform. The crop field is next to the highway, in the Mid-Autumn Festival, the bud rice flower spits out the ear, induces the past visitors to see that there is no one in the field and gets off the car to break a few ears of green bud rice stick to go back to enjoy it. Determined to defend the fruits of their labor, the Tun people organized young and strong laborers to ambush in the green gauze tent, and as soon as the passing tourists stopped and entered the field, they attacked from various hidden places, and naturally captured and punished. When they returned home, they were elated, talking about how they had captured the captives with their wits, and the veterinarian had a strange trick, saying that he had caught a woman, and excitedly and stammered, saying, "I, I, I, too, no, no, not scolding you, ah, ah, just let me, I push, push, push, and then he took the pre-prepared shaving clipper and pushed it in the middle of the woman's thick hair, which caused a big laugh, and praised this trick."

No matter how hard he worked or how tired his life was, Wu Wei insisted on reading Das Kapital. Wu Wei naively applied the popular theory of the main contradiction and the secondary contradiction, believing that his main contradiction was the contradiction between his good desire to move forward and his lack of knowledge, and the way to solve the contradiction was to learn with the vigor of praising his father and chasing the sun. What to learn? Study Marxism-Leninism, Politics, Economy, Culture, Society, History, Humanities, Psychology, Astronomy, Geography, Science and Technology. Later, he asked someone to borrow a book from the library about the atomic bomb, and they joked that he wanted to train students to produce nuclear capabilities and produce a nuclear explosion effect like the atomic bomb. He said that thinking more about celestial bodies of great size can increase the weight of thinking; Thinking more about the speed of light also helps to think quickly, relying on the mountains to eat the mountains, relying on the water to eat the fish, and eat whatever you want. It is better to have a good father and mother than to study well, and it is better to have a good face than to study well, and you will slowly have a competitive advantage by studying well, so that you can find a job and find a partner, which is the afterword when the concept of learning is mature.

Wu Wei gave up school to work as a farmer when he was 16 years old, and cooked for the team that pulled his feet in Tunli and the team that went to the city to pick up dung. Cut shredded potatoes are thin and even, all in a large pot, winning the reputation of a chef's seedlings. At that time, the work was self-reported and discussed, who did what everyone knows, but it is not easy to report to the public, people are fair, but their own interests and everyone's interests are mixed together, they say their own but also to others to express their position, it is not good to open your mouth, how to think that is your own private matter, but let you open your own mouth, that mouth can be difficult to open, for fear of provoking who hurts whom, generally overreporting yourself and others do not underestimate, so that everyone has a better face, but the benefits are limited, can not be satisfied, always have to divide one, two, three out, Everyone is embarrassed to say it first, and even if there is something to say, it is not easy to follow up on the statement, and it often forms a cold deadlock. So, the leader proposed, give everyone the order, who is the turn to report themselves, don't wait, don't look around, don't say it, you have to say it. In this way, I often make a mistake somewhere, I am good at opening my mouth, but others are difficult to open, and there are quarrels and quarrels from time to time. Wu Wei encountered such a scene for the first time, and secretly figured out that he was small and small, and the leaders who sent the work often took care of himself and the women to do some light work together, which was regarded as a small half-pull, although he did not pull behind when he worked with the adults, but he still had to be wiser, and when he reported the time, he had no desire to compare, and he happily reported himself to be busy in the third and fourth in the off-season, which attracted praise and heated discussions, saying that the report was much lower, had brains, and was very recognizable, and the leader casually boasted that this little guy could be the head of the township in the future, and naturally passed very smoothly. It was also the first time that he had expressed his position on his own interests in public, not to mention the high and low, and winning a smooth start may mean that he can put himself in the right position in matters involving his own interests in the future. You say, "What is the meaning of the word boasting?" It is a combination of the words big and loss, which means that someone will praise you when you suffer a big loss.

Wu Wei wanted to go back to the countryside, so he naturally chose to return to the soil and weizi. Hongzhi, a native of Tunzi, a demobilized soldier, an authentic Northeast man, a person from the People's Liberation Army University, has ideals and thoughts, and wants to do something after he comes back, and was married by Wu Wei's childlike Mei Yuan. Hongzhi saw the letter that Wu Wei carried, so he enthusiastically wrote a reply, the letter is nothing more than moving, encouraging welcome and enthusiastic to prepare for acceptance, and said that the pony in the village has not yet been objected, he lives alone in a house, he has greeted the pony and introduced Wu Wei's situation, the pony is also very welcome to Wu Wei, and he can live with him after coming, and the things to eat in life are ready-made, and the pony is out all the year round. Wu Wei was very happy to see that Hongzhi had fully considered himself, and his heart had already flown away. On the day of registration, Hongzhi was eager to pick up the wind and wash the dust for him, and Wu Wei's career started hotly.

Although Wu Wei returned to the countryside, it was difficult to establish his identity, and he did not want to become a farmer in his bones. Psychology, feelings, and relationships are not integrated, and naturally there are no deep feelings. For him, agricultural labor is a purely individual activity, he only believes in living and loving life, and the personal physical strength and skills that farm work relies on are highly individualized labor, and personal value can also be directly reflected, and everything else is irrelevant, dispensable, and naturally lacks group consciousness. At this time, only the educated youths in Tuweizi were left with rich backgrounds, and they could not return to the city, so they had to form families in the countryside, and some of them had some ideas, but they also lost the active vitality and atmosphere of the educated youth group. Wu Wei wanted to talk about problems in such an environment, but it was difficult to find a partner, and gradually became very withdrawn, this kind of isolated personal consciousness gradually developed to the point that it was incompatible with interpersonal relationships, actively avoided not participating, and was unwilling to take on the responsibilities brought by identity, which was regarded as a burden, which deepened the original isolation tendency, and his personality was withdrawn and unsociable, which also produced inner contradictions and the bitterness of being isolated. Although Hongzhi asked him to eat at home from time to time, Xu Dong also said that he should eat at home and not start a fire alone. Xu Dong, because his father was transferred here as a secretary, naturally returned to his hometown to work as a farmer. Some old relatives often bring him some food to eat. But none of this can dispel his loneliness, and the more he does this, the more he wants to comfort himself with learning and thinking.

Wu Wei's enthusiasm for learning and thinking inhibited or even imprisoned other interests, especially after becoming a conscious choice, and reduced and compressed other activities. He realized from his own personal experience that the three major differences were deeper and more deep-rooted than class differences, and that he had to overcome them through his own hard work. Across the three major differences, the more he lacks qualifications, the more eager he is to learn and think. In the process of trying to cross the three major differences, some of them were blocked by one difference after another, and some of them achieved a successful leap but fell back, causing a tragedy in their lives. Just when Wu Wei's mind began to cool down, Song Rou came to visit him.