51. Chapter 51
The goddess said that Xiaohai would come back before the 19th, today is the 17th, the 5th day Xiaohai left home, and there has been no news, the little hope I just started to rise up was exhausted by reality, Xiaoyi is looking forward to it and apprehensive in her heart, no matter how I persuade her to come out to work, or wait for the 19th to say.
It seems that Xiao Yi still has great hopes for the words of the goddess.
Many things are often the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment, looking at Xiao Yi's addicted appearance, let me sympathize and pity, alas! This poor woman, an infatuated woman, watched the man live happily with the wild woman outside, she was not desperate and hateful, but looked forward to the man coming back as soon as possible.
I don't know if this is a good thing, or the sorrow of being a woman, but thinking about being a woman, I still have to thank this modern civilized society and this system - I watched the TV channel last night, and the male protagonist in the play "Women Are as Beautiful as Flowers" has a good wife, and he actually hired a beautiful girl, hired a sedan chair, and went back to the house, even if there is a wife and daughter at home, the parents are not frowning and re-organizing the wedding chapel to get married......
- If it was put in the past, Xiao Hai's matter was not a problem at all, as long as he liked and was willing to go home with him, even if it was his woman, what if Xiao Yi could no longer be angry, what if the family was angry, as long as he could earn enough to eat, and he would raise his wife and children by himself, why should we these salty hearts.
But now is not the past after all, not to mention that the law does not allow it, which woman can willingly share a man and love with another woman, don't say that Xiaoyi is on my head, I can't ......
It's really infuriating and mad me right now.
I really can't understand what makes Xiaohai so resolute and ruthless, he can give up his family and his nurturing feelings for more than 30 years; How much courage and determination does it take to give up a wife who has been married for more than ten years, to give up the delicate children at home, and to take this step with such an unbearable woman...... Yes, love is great, but isn't family affection and responsibility important! Take 10,000 steps back, you are indeed sincere with that woman, she will not marry you, you will not marry her, but you will not make such a despicable act: abandon your family and children and elope with another woman...... Is this a man, a man with a sense of responsibility to do something, you really can't get along with your wife, you really have a deep love for that woman, you can stand up and say to your family, for your freedom, your own happiness, file for divorce, run away from home quietly, and don't even contact your family once after leaving, which makes me really can't figure it out......
In the days since Xiaohai left, I really lived like a year, and I was in pain every day, worrying about my parents at home and fearing my two young nephews - Xiaohai will never look back, what can the child do; On the other hand, he was worried about whether something happened to Xiaohai outside.
I couldn't sleep all night, tossing and turning in bed, staring at it for a while, it was a nightmare, and then it was home; For a while, Xiaohai had an accident outside...... It was a feeling like the end of the world.
Every night after work. I will call my father's mobile phone as usual, saying that it is chatting, in fact, I want to comfort my father, who is more than half a hundred years old after this series of blows, obviously much older, and my mother's body is even weaker, and her voice is full of helplessness that makes people sound sour......
"If Xiaohai is really determined to be with that woman...... It's really three and five years later, leading Pan Xiaoyan and holding the child into the door, how can you ......" I asked my father tentatively, I have been thinking about this matter for the past few days.
- Everyone has the right to pursue themselves, if I were to meet a man I like and look at the husband in front of me who is not in the eyes of the law, what choice will I make.
Now Xiaohai has clearly told us his answer, is it to accept? Or what? I have also been struggling in my heart: accepting his choice means that the current family will never return to the past; If you don't accept him, you'll face the current dilemma, a matter that only a father can decide......
"Alas!" The father let out a long sigh, there was sadness and more helplessness in it!
"Alas! Your mother has been nagging me for the past few days, saying that I just blindly take care of my daughter-in-law, but I have lost my son - what is the use of having an eye socket without eyeballs"
"Your mother said, no matter how thin it is, no matter how bad it is, with Xiaohai in front of you, it's still a home...... Now it's good to get rid of my son for the sake of my daughter-in-law - your mother scolds me for being a bastard! ”
"Alas! It's really like I don't know a single big word, but I can always grasp the crux of the problem, I've been thinking about it these days, Xiaohai is what we watched grow up, how can he not be like that kind of ungrateful person, how could he do such a thing...... Or is she right, we have always taken care of Xiao Yi's feelings and forced Xiao Hai away......"
Mother's words enlightened us, and she did.
We have always considered Xiao Yi's feelings, and completely ignored Xiao Hai, resulting in a deep estrangement between him and us: how could he, who is shallow in education and simple-minded, understand our good intentions.
In the last Pan Xiaoyan incident, we repeatedly warned him: If he really chose Pan Xiaoyan, this family will break with him, and his father even proposed that "I would rather let Xiao Yi guard at home than accept that woman", and even I even said "If you really want Pan Xiaoyan, then we will let Xiao Yi sit on the ground at home to recruit a husband, and let you fight with chickens and eggs - the family belongs to someone else, and the wife and children have become someone else's......
In fact, our original intention was to scare him and put pressure on him, lest he go downhill and break up the family, where did he think of a tendon but thought of something else: maybe he felt that he was not biological, and our family was squeezing him out, and he was not close - he would rather have a daughter-in-law than a son, what a great pain for him, he felt that this family was abandoned first, ruthless and unjust; Here he could not find support, no sympathy, no understanding, and the distant woman tempted him like honey, and in the midst of hardship and helplessness, he finally made the decision he thought was right, and he imagined him and the woman he loved going away to live the beautiful days he longed for every day.
His negative anger is more of a gambling element, like a naughty child who is in a rebellious period: the more adults don't allow him to do, the more he has to try.
He took Pan Xiaoyan away and flew away, and he wandered the world, maybe he would not have the comfort of being at home in the future, but after all, it was the kind of life he wanted, without all the constraints at home: his father's scolding, his mother's nagging, the fingering of his three sisters, and the self-righteousness of his strong wife...... The main thing is that he is finally with the woman he loves, this woman, although not beautiful, is extremely gentle, and in front of her he finally finds the feeling of a man standing up to the sky.
He enjoyed the feeling, which is what any man would want.
Where could he have thought that his freedom and happiness were built on the pain of his family.