I fell back into another kind of pain: on the one hand, I am not ashamed of Xiaohai's emotional derailment, abandoning my family and abandoning my children; On the other hand, I blame myself for being stubborn and forcing him to leave the country.

My mother's words made me suddenly wake up, and I seemed to understand the reason for Xiaohai's desperate escape: the problem of his background has always bothered him, he did not dare to seek the truth from his family, and he has been sullen and closed his heart for so many years.

And because we have too many trivial matters in the family, we have been neglecting to enlighten him, and we have completely ignored his emotional needs, causing him to become more and more silent and out of place with everyone...... Pan Xiaoyan's appearance is like a ray of sunshine that illuminates his dull life, he can speak freely in front of her without restraint, talk openly and talk about the world, and he doesn't always have to look forward and backward for fear of saying the wrong word.

Xiaohai's escape incident is by no means a whim, he has always isolated himself from this home: never participate in our chats together, when he comes home, he either watches TV silently on the sofa, or sleeps with his head covered, everything that happens at home seems to have nothing to do with him, of course, he can't arouse any interest in him, he stands aside coldly and can't integrate into the whole family, and of course he can't enjoy all the joys, sorrows and sorrows between relatives.

He always had a strange feeling in his heart about this home where he had lived since he was a child, he had been trying to struggle, struggling to leave, but he had never been able to make this decisive decision.

Pan Xiaoyan is just a fuse, the reason and expectation for him to leave, he thinks that if he leaves here, he can get rid of the sea of suffering, and get rid of all right and wrong......

I have been trying to find the real reason why Xiaohai ran away from home, but when I found the root cause, another great pain surrounded me tightly.

I suddenly felt that we forced Xiaohai away, and we used the time we had been trying to force him with morality and feelings, forcing him to follow our thoughts and feelings, but this was not what he wanted, and he couldn't turn things around at home, so he could only run away in a negative mood.

His departure is both a declaration of war and a rebellion against us, and he wants to live the life he wants.

Perhaps, as the niece Ting said, it is to pursue great love.

But this kind of love is shameful by the world.

Thinking of this, I fell into a contradiction: are we acquiescing to Xiaohai's behavior now? still insisted, as indifferent as we said verbally - I would rather choose Xiao Yi than forgive Xiao Hai.

Acquiescing to Xiaohai means accepting Pan Xiaoyan and accepting that filthy woman, when I think that woman is going to live in our home instead of Xiaoyi, I have an indescribable sadness in my heart, I really can't accept this reality, for the sake of the two children, for Xiaohai, let me accept her against my will, don't talk about me, even my parents will not be able to accept it for a while.

That's just like what we have been telling Xiao Hai - as long as he chooses Pan Xiaoyan, it is equivalent to being the enemy of the whole family, we let Xiao Yi stay at home to take care of the two children, it is really a year and a half for her to meet the man she likes and form a new family, and this is tantamount to cutting off all the back roads of Xiao Hai.

In the end, my father and I were caught up in a painful choice.

"Maybe it's really like what my mother said, it was we who forced Xiaohai away with what we said, if he and Pan Xiaoyan really love each other, let's fulfill them!" I persuaded my father on the phone, and I was also testing my father's mind.

"Alas, he's just a tendon, and when we say that, it's not for his good - don't you want him to divorce and reunite this family!" There seemed to be a loosening in my father's voice.

"If you don't say that he is simple-minded, he can't remember a hundred good things about him, just remember that you treated him once, and I am most worried about the ...... of the two children."

If there are no two children in the middle, Xiaohai will not be so nervous whether to go or stay, but now the situation is different, Xiaohai has lost his father's protection after leaving two children, which means that this family is no longer complete, Xiaoyi is a woman after all, it is really like we said angrily, let Xiaoyi recruit another man to form a new family - this is not realistic at all, life is not three days and two ends, it is really a strange man to the house, how can this parents accept it emotionally, and there are two children, In any case, no one can replace Xiaohai's place in the hearts of the two children.

The best way is for Xiaohai to come back, and the worst result is that he divorces Xiao Yi, marries that Pan Xiaoyan, and lets Xiao Yi divorce and walk out of this house - so that parents have sons, and children have fathers, as for which woman enters the door, it has little impact on us after all, it's a big deal, we don't contact each other, and we live our own lives.

This may be the only good solution at the moment, and of course it is also what my mother thinks.

But in this way, where will Xiao Yi be, Xiao Yi married to the Wang family for ten years, spent the best years of a woman, gave birth to two children for the Wang family, and left three scars on her stomach, she worked hard, worked hard to manage this family, but ten years later she was ruthlessly abandoned by her husband, lost her home, lost her husband, and lost two of her two children who seemed to be treasures, what does this mean for a woman.

As a woman, I sympathize with Xiao Yi, of course, I can't bear to make this assumption, but for the sake of the two children and the whole family, this seems to be a good choice.

My husband snorted and pointed at my nose, saying that I don't understand human nature, and I actually came up with this trick with all my conscience, "How can your family be like this, it's Xiaohai who is wrong now, not Xiaoyi, you actually want to sweep Xiaoyi out of the house, is there still heavenly reason!" My husband roared, and his angry look seemed to eat me.

For Xiao Yi, this idea is too vicious, but now, what can we do.