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There was silence in the room, Lin Zhaoyan stood by the door, and through the light gauze curtain, he could feel the hazy light shadow outside, and a thin light penetrated in.

In the dimness, her voice seemed extremely bleak and lonely.

Lin Zhaoyan's heart twitched for a moment, but he didn't know if it was himself or her.

"You, you mean, you're born again?" After a long time, Lin Zhaoyan found a trace of his voice.

She sighed and didn't answer, counting as acquiescence.

"So, why don't you live well? For what...... "Let her occupy her body?"

If it is her, do it all over again, and she must live a beautiful life, since she knows what will happen in the future, it is equivalent to holding a trump card in her hand, avoiding trouble, destroying enemies, protecting her loved ones, and living well.

"What's the use of starting over? Will you be able to live well all over again? I'm still me, I'm still so weak and incompetent, I can't fight for anything, I can't hide from anything, that's why the last life ended up with such a miserable and sad ending, and if I do it again, it's just a repetition of the same mistakes. She smiled bitterly, with obvious self-deprecation and loneliness in her voice.

Lin Zhaoyan choked in his throat, and he didn't know how to comfort him.

After all, she is not her, even if she has had several dreams about her past life, and she has felt the pain she has suffered, but after all, she can't actually understand and empathize.

"So, when I woke up from a serious illness and found that there was one more person in my body, I didn't hesitate or struggle, and I was even glad. Thank God for His mercy. I knew that I was too weak after all, and I was not capable of changing my fate. So I let you take over my body, and I put my hope in you. I hope you can change my future, help me be filial to my parents, love my sisters, and live well. She said, smiling, and said with sincere gratitude: "It turns out that you are indeed better than me, and although there are many times you are affected by my emotions, you are much stronger than me." You also have a better relationship with your mother than I had with my mother in my previous life. In my previous life, before I died, I never saw my mother smile at me...... And Ruoyan, Ruoyan is a very good girl, I am very sorry for her, she treated me badly in her previous life, I thought she was bad, and I ignored her. Treat her as an enemy, until, until she's dead, I don't know. She is so important to me, she is my own sister......"

Lin Zhaoyan's heart twitched, and he said in a panic: "You said that if you say that you will die?" ”

How could it be. How could Ruoyan die, could it be Lu Yanzhi?

"It's not him." Lin Zhaoyan denied what she thought. Relieved: "Don't worry, Ruoyan won't die." She has avoided the disasters that belong to her, and in this life, she will definitely be able to live well, just like her temperament, living a sunny and unrestrained life. ”

Lin Zhaoyan breathed a sigh of relief, "That's good, that's good." ”

"Lin Zhaoyan" chuckled, "Now that I have separated from you, you still care so much about Ruoyan, it can be seen that you really love her." ”

"What do you mean?" Lin Zhaoyan's eyebrows jumped.

Lin Zhaoyan smiled lightly again, with a mischievous cunning in his words, "Didn't I tell you, we were integrated before, and your emotions will inevitably be affected by me." Therefore, your indifference to my mother, my admiration for my father, and my tolerance for Ruoyan are actually my feelings for them. ”

Lin Zhaoyan's eyes widened in astonishment, and for a moment, he suddenly remembered something, and said sharply: "Could it be that my inexplicable rejection of Lu Yanzhi, my fear of Zhou Tingchen, and even my feelings for Xiao Qi are all because of you?!" ”

She couldn't describe how she felt at this moment, as if all her beliefs had been shattered in an instant, and all the things she had already believed to be true had suddenly been overturned.

She's not her, and even her feelings don't belong to her!

She's just a tool to be used to change her fate, she's being manipulated like a puppet!

All, when she was shaken by the second prince, everything was out of control, and the real Lin Zhaoyan stood up to stop her, right!

These words don't need to be spoken, Lin Zhaoyan knows that she will definitely be able to hear them.

Sure enough, I heard her explain in a hurry, "It's not like this, it's not what you think." I admit that although I do often lose control of my emotions and affect you and disturb you, I will not come out most of the time, all your feelings and feelings come from yourself, you are not my puppet! ”

Lin Zhaoyan couldn't listen to her so-called explanation, what does it mean that she often can't control her emotions and affect her?

It's not that she's being led by her by the nose like a fool!

No wonder, no wonder she always has some inexplicable emotions, no wonder she often wants to be ruthless but her feelings are uncontrollable!

Lin Zhaoyan was already furious in her heart, but she knew that it would be useless for Lu Dao to be angry again, everything had already happened, could it be reversed?

Lin Zhaoyan clenched his fists and took deep breaths repeatedly to calm himself down.

"I only ask you, I will fall in love with Xiao Qi, is it influenced by you?"

"I ......," she hesitated to answer.

Lin Zhaoyan closed her eyes, Rao had already guessed the answer, and when the reality was presented in front of her with an irretrievable momentum, she still had no way to accept it.

It turns out that even this relationship is fake.

"It's not fake! It's not fake, Aqi is very good, he is a very good person, you will be very happy with him, you must be with him, be with him for me! ”

Listening to her flustered words, Lin Zhaoyan sneered, "Why are you? You yourself don't have the ability to grow old with him, why do you impose your obsession and your feelings on me? Why do you want me to live for you! ”

"But you love him too, don't you? Even without me, you still love him, don't you! Now think about it carefully, feel it carefully, do you still love him? Without my influence, you really have no feelings for him at all! "Lin Zhaoyan said in a panic, eager to prove something.

Lin Zhaoyan's heart throbbed uncontrollably, as if someone had stabbed her heart with a sharp knife, constantly stirring.

"All I know is the way...... I'm going to like him, it's influenced by you. She said word by word, with difficulty, "If it weren't for you, I wouldn't let myself like him, reason doesn't allow it, reality doesn't allow it, I won't do it knowing that I can't do it, that's how I feel." ”

Perhaps it was too much pain, and she clutched her chest and gasped for air, trying to ignore the pain that was pouring out of her heart.

The world has been turned upside down, she has never thought that such deep feelings are all illusions, not her, but the obsession of others.

"Lin Zhaoyan" suddenly became excited, and said sharply: "How can you be like this, is it because of me, do you want to wipe out all your feelings and past with him?!" Think about it, when you first met, when he cooked for you, he smiled at you, he helped you buy rose cakes, he taught you martial arts, and he thought about everything for you! It's not me, it's you! Or do you really like the second prince, and you want to fake it with him?! ”

"I don't know if the fake show is really done, I only know the way, he is the only person in the previous life who has nothing to do with you, and he is the one who really feels my own feelings!" Lin Zhaoyan also retorted excitedly.

She was speechless.

Lin Zhaoyan closed his eyes and tried to calm himself down.

"You suddenly appeared just to stop me from liking the second prince? Snort, you can rest assured, whether it is Xiao Qi or the second prince, my current situation does not allow me to grow up with my children. Lin Zhaoyan had no intention of arguing with her about feelings anymore, she had more important things to ask her, "Can you tell me about the things of the previous life, the specific things, yours, other people's, and everyone's ending." You have to know the way, I know a little about the future, although I am trying to change my fate, but it is difficult to guarantee that there will be no accidents, since you have experienced it, then tell me all, I can avoid the trouble, for you! Stay alive. ”

She deliberately accentuated the word "for you", with a strong self-deprecation and sarcasm.

In fact, she occupies someone else's body, and she is not qualified to say anything, she should be filial to her parents and sisters, but when it comes to love, she really can't let herself be a puppet.

Lin Zhaoyan's mood also dropped instantly, and he didn't make a sound for a long time.

Lin Zhaoyan was not in a hurry, and waited patiently while doing psychological construction for himself.

It was about a century before "Lin Zhaoyan" spoke again, and this time, he was much calmer and more rational.

"How many times have you dreamed? Dream that you are married in a wedding dress, dream that you are burned by fire, dream that you fall in a pool of blood and die miserably? ”

Lin Zhaoyan bowed, "How many times have you experienced it?" ”

"yes, I've been there." She smiled, her voice sounding light and light, but Lin Zhaoyan could imagine the pain in her heart.

She suddenly sympathized with her, she had lived so miserably in her previous life, and it was easy to do it all over again, but she was taken over by her, an outsider, and it became more and more uncontrollable, forcing her to show up to save the situation.

"You don't have to sympathize with me, these are my own doings, I don't know people clearly, I'm weak and incompetent, I deserve to end up like that, I've never been unwilling, I'm reborn, not for revenge, probably, I love him too much, I want to renew that short relationship with him......"

The night is getting deeper, the light is glinting, and the moonlight is getting thicker.

Her voice is soft and tactful, like a soft spring breeze in the south of the Yangtze River, and like a pipa commentary, telling the past full of love and hatred, joy, anger and sorrow.

☆★☆★☆ ★ (To be continued......)