Chapter 475: Allure Marriage and Love, Inseparable in This Life 53: I'm sorry, I died in my memory

("Are you really his friend?") ”）

After a long time, she muttered softly, her clear voice mixed with a little disbelief and harshness, and before Lu Xiangbei could explain, her voice rose again: "How can you do this to him? How can you watch him slowly destroy himself? ”

After the voice reached its worst, he couldn't help but raise it, and the excitement in his heart couldn't be concealed.

For so many years, her emotions have already precipitated in time, even if her heart is painful and desperate, she is used to being light and light on the surface, not sad or happy, can make her so out of control, it is conceivable that her feelings for Jin Cunxu are far deeper than what the world sees!

Lu Xiangbei raised his eyes to look at her, and there was helplessness and gloom in his eyes, "What Your Excellency decides, there is only one person in this world who can change, and that is Mrs. You!" ”

"Now everything is developing in a good direction, and if Madame brings up the old matter again at this moment, it will not be good for Your Excellency."

"If I were to bring it up again, I wouldn't see you today!" The voice is sharp, solemn, and quite in the style of Long Pei.

Lu Xiangbei was silent, speechless.

"Is it related to the scar on his back?" Long Ziqi opened his mouth uncertainly.

There are many scars on Jin Cunxu's back, some of which are very shallow, and in the dim light, you can't notice them if you don't look carefully, but there are three scars that are very deep, and it's difficult not to pay attention.

The first time she went on a blind date with him, she was too shy and didn't dare to look at him carefully, and the second time she touched those scars, she also saw them, her heart hurt, she never asked him, where did those scars come from, she didn't mention it, not that she didn't care, she didn't want to know Lu Dao, but she didn't want to evoke his bad memories!

Everyone has an unknown secret, whether it is warm or cold, if it is warm, it is enough, if it is cold, what can she do for him?

In the past, it was two words that made people powerless.

"Your Excellency's past, unless he wants to talk about it, others will not speak!" He knows the truth, but he can't say it!

If you want your lady to know the way, the lady will not know the way so far.

"What about the scars on the arms?" He didn't want to say it, and Long Ziqi didn't want to force him.

There is a scar on Jin Cunxu's right arm, which seems to have been caused in the last few months, because he is wearing a long-sleeved shirt, so it is difficult to find.

Lu Xiangbei hesitated for a moment, and said softly: "It's because of Kou Jingning's slap on you!" Your Excellency takes you too seriously, more important than yourself, and if you are injured at all, he will be more uncomfortable than if you are injured. If you are here, he can still suppress himself, and once you leave, he can't control ......"

The scar on the arm was not caused by man, it should be said to be caused by an accident, and the person who caused the accident was none other than Jin Cunxu himself.

The sunlight outside the window slipped little by little in the west, the bustling city was shrouded in night, and the neon street scene was sad and cold in her eyes. The tea in front of her was completely cooled, and her heart fell to the bottom of the deepest and coldest lake.

There is a damp surge in the bottom of his eyes, because he is in front of Lu Xiangbei, so he is unwilling to show his weak side.

She didn't know how much damage and unbearable Jin Cunxu had suffered in the past, which made him so desperate and give up, living like a walking dead for many years. The only certainty is that someone must have hurt him, and if it weren't for the terrible grief, he would never give up hope of living!

Thinking that he had once hugged her, he choked up and whispered: Those people, how can they do this to her! How can it!

Every word drains blood, and every sentence is tearful.

Now she also wants to hug Jin Cunxu and ask, how can those people hurt him like this and almost ruin his life.

She can't do that!

Because he can be so painful and good to her, how can she uncover his scars again, embarrass him, and let his pain be magnified again!

The dividing line of the young master's request for recommendation votes*******************

When Long Ziqi returned home, the lights were warmly on, and Jin Cunxu had already returned and was preparing dinner in the kitchen.

Changing shoes at the entrance, I saw his long figure standing there in the wind, with black sleeves pulled up to his elbows, the whole person was handsome and elegant, good-looking and sexy.

The tip of his nose was inexplicably sore, and his eyes were dry and painful.

"I'm back." Jin Cunxu washed his hands, wiped them clean and walked in front of her, and gave her a light kiss, "What are you doing when you go out?" ”

Long Ziqi gathered his eyes and looked at him: "I drank tea with my friends for a while." ”

It's not a lie, Lu Xiangbei is also her friend.

Jin Cunxu didn't ask any more questions, his fingers combed her long hair, and Wen Cunxu said, "Remember to bring your mobile phone next time you go out." ”

Before going out, she sent the address to Lu Xiangbei, and when she changed her shoes, she put her mobile phone on the shoe cabinet and forgot to bring it.

"I remember." She pursed her lips and smiled faintly, and looked at the kitchen with a glint in her eyes: "Do you need my help?" ”

"Yes." Jin Cunxu took her hand and walked to the bar and asked her to sit down on a chair, "You are responsible for sitting here and looking at me." ”

Long Ziqi's eyes flickered for a moment, he didn't speak, nodded with a smile, and watched him walk into the semi-open kitchen and continue to prepare dinner.

Jin Cunxu liked the way she looked at her, soft and focused, as if she was alone in her clear and dust-free pupils.

He didn't treat her as a canary in a cage, kept her, gave her enough free space, didn't send anyone to watch her every move, but it didn't mean that she did anything, he wouldn't know what to do.

For the sake of her safety, he will not let her go out alone every time, but he will avoid her being bored, and he never wants people to disturb her peaceful life.

The café saw that the road was heading north, and I heard that her look was very bad, and even had a faint anger.

What the reason is, he can guess one or two, and his heart suddenly tightens with pain.

She didn't ask, because she didn't want to evoke his unbearable past, so she cautiously went to inquire from the side, and wanted to know a lot about it, her tactfulness and caution really made him feel distressed.

After dinner and bathing, she lay in his arms, her fingers fell on his heart, and her fingertips felt that his heart was really beating, and the uneasiness in her heart weakened slightly.

In the darkness, he held her hand, and his voice sounded hoarse and abruptly: "In a few days, you will accompany me to meet a friend." ”

Long Ziqi was stunned, she had never heard him mention it, and she didn't know what other friends he had, and reacted for a moment, "Okay." ”

"Sleep." He took her in his arms and kissed her forehead with a gentle twist.

Compared with the love between men and women, Jin Cunxu also likes to hug her, grinding his ears and temples, without any desire, but it is the most frank and sincere way to express his feelings.

I once saw such a sentence in a book: I hope you really like me, so hug me.

Because I really like it, I hug each other without leaving any strength, tightly, as if I want to hug each other until I am old.

The young master asked for the dividing line of the recommendation ticket******************

Spring in country A comes early, at the beginning of March, everything recovers, willows seep out young shoots, the damp soil emerges bright green, and the wind is full of flowers and plants.

On the morning of March 4, the Jin family, including the new member Long Ziqi, gathered in one place.

I didn't go together, but I met at the destination.

Although the sun was shining, the cemetery was damp and gloomy, and the wailing of crows on the dead branches seemed to remind people that death was everywhere.

Desolate and desolate, the air was slightly cool, Long Ziqi and Jin Cunxu stood in front of the tombstone, looking at the photos posted on the marble tablet, a girl was about 5 or 6 years old, with a bright smile, innocent and beautiful, not stained with the slightest dust in this world, a pair of black eyes were bright and dazzling.

The three words "Kou Jingwan" are engraved under the photo, the date of birth and the date of death.

Fu Xiange was dressed in solemn black, wearing sunglasses, holding a bouquet of lilies, and the white petals were still stained with water droplets, reflecting the sunlight and flashing with broken light.

Leaned over and placed the bouquet in front of the tombstone, and said in a soft voice: "Jingwan, we have come to see you." ”

Long Ziqi could vaguely guess who this girl was, but she didn't know what she had to do with the Jin family, and she didn't think before coming to the cemetery that Jin Cunxu would bring herself to worship her friends, and she didn't even bring a bouquet of flowers.

Jin Xishuo's eyes motioned for Jin Cunxu to leave with him for a while, leaving the space for the two women.

Although Jin Cunxu was reluctant, he still let go of Long Ziqi's hand and whispered, "Wait for me here." ”

Long Ziqi nodded, watching his long figure and Jin Xishuo walk into the distance.

Fu Xiange stood in front of the tombstone with a straight posture, looked at the smile on the tombstone, slowly took off his sunglasses, and sighed heavily.

Long Ziqi walked up to her and didn't speak, thinking that Jin Cunxu should want Fu Xiange to tell him the story of the owner of the tombstone.

The long silence made people a little anxious, but Long Ziqi had always been patient, calm and without any anxiety, and his expression was as calm as ever.

"Jingwan died because of Cunxu."

After a long time, Fu Xiange's low voice made waves in Long Ziqi's calm eyes, for some reason his hands and feet were cold, and his eyes looked at the innocent girl on the tombstone in disbelief, and his heart turned a thousand times.

It should have been many years ago, the distant and old ones seemed to be in the previous life, if it weren't for Jin Cunxu wanting Long Ziqi to know the Tao, I am afraid that Fu Xiange would never want to remember it in this life!

For Fu Xiange, the thing she regretted the most was when she was 16 years old when she fell in love with a man named Jin Xishuo.

A love that only took a glance cost her a lot, ruined the hands she was most proud of in her life, and made her fall from heaven to hell.

And now, Fu Xiange's biggest regret is that many years ago, she abandoned her son and Cunxu.

Everyone has their own unspeakable pain, which no one has experienced more deeply than Long Ziqi, but she didn't know that Jin Cunxu's unspeakable pain was so obscure and tragic compared to hers.

At least she still has the protection and love of her family, and what does Jin Cunxu have in the past?

There is endless despair and coldness.

Fu Xiange's voice was very light, light without a trace of emotion, it fell in Long Ziqi's ears, but it was extremely heavy, there was always a voice begging in his heart not to continue, but there was no way, like a shell that had lost himself, standing quietly in front of the tombstone listening to Fu Xiange's past, about Jin Cunxu's past.

The relationship between Fu Xiange and Jin Xishuo was brushed aside, and he didn't say much, most of them were talking about Jin Cunxu, and Long Ziqi, who listened to it, had a broken liver and intestines, and came back to his senses, but found that he had already burst into tears.

She has cried very few times over the years, and there are even fewer uncontrollable sobs like this, and today she can't help it, because she can't imagine how Jin Cunxu gritted her teeth in those years, how she endured humiliation and struggled to survive, and how she endured the pain to be so good to herself.

When Jin Xishuo and Jin Cunxu came back, Long Ziqi looked indifferent, her eyes were red, and her eyes were complicated and vague when she looked at him, and before he could get closer, she had already gone to hold his hand!

Jin Cunxu held her hand, and found that her hand was very cold, and his cold sword eyebrows frowned, "I'll send you back." ”

Long Ziqi nodded, said goodbye to Jin Xishuo and Fu Xiange, and the two of them were entangled in the Ten Fingers and walked to the exit of the cemetery together.

Fu Xiange stood in the wind, watching their figures float in the sun with a faint halo, and his heart swelled with sadness, "He hasn't forgiven us for so many years. ”

His voice was choked, and there was a mist at the bottom of his eyes.

Jin Xishuo stretched out his arm and took her into his arms, his voice low, "It's because we're sorry for him-"

……

The carriage was silent, the shallow breath was tightly entangled, the partition was raised, and she could hold him unscrupulously, snuggle in his arms, not worrying about whether it would crumple his clothes, whether it would not fit in.

When she got out of the car, she was still leaning on his long and strong body, touching his warm chest, and she didn't know how fortunate she was in her heart, this chest had not cooled down after the years of wind and frost, and it was still as warm as before.

As soon as the door was closed, Long Ziqi turned around and hugged him, holding his sturdy waist tightly with both hands, leaving no gaps.

Buried in his arms, his voice was low, "You should have let me know earlier......"

Jin Cunxu's body stiffened obviously, feeling the dampness and heat in his chest, his emotions were complicated, he gently cupped her cheeks, lowered his head and gently sucked the tears on his skin, and the saltiness spread in his chest.

"Don't cry, I'm alive." The voice was hoarse and had a thick nasal voice, knowing that she was hurting for herself, but he was reluctant.

She had said it to him before, and now he had said it to her again.

Both of them are people who have been betrayed by fate, and time has left a thousand holes in their bodies, and when they don't meet each other, they can only hide in the dark and lick their bleeding wounds.

After meeting each other, they endured the pain and hugged each other, so that those wounds were full of love and affection flowers, maybe one day the flowers will wither, become the best healing medicine, so that the skin becomes more smooth and soft.

"How can they do this to you, how can they, you are their child-" She choked, not hating those who had hurt Cunxu, but unable not to anger Fu Xiange and Jin Xishuo, who had never done their duty as parents.

Gu Mingxi gave birth to her in prison back then, and was forced to hand her over to others to raise, and as soon as he was released from prison, he immediately took her to his side and took care of her personally.

And what about Fu Xiange?

Why did she give birth to Jin Cunxu and didn't want him, why did she abandon him in an orphanage, so that he had a mother and a father to rely on, and let him innocently suffer so much bullying and abuse.

"It's okay, it's really okay-" Jin Cunxu hugged her tightly, as if he was holding the only salvation in his life, "I have you ...... now"

For him, a dragon Ziqi is already better than countless people in the world.

"Cunxu, my heart hurts......" The position on the left side of the chest, as if it was cut by a blunt knife, will not die, but the pain is worse and worse every time. She thought that if it weren't for the young and kind Kou Jingwan who blocked the vase for Jin Cunxu, the person lying under the cold tombstone today would be Jin Cunxu.

"Qiqi, it's okay, don't think about it, it's all over."

Jin Cunxu lowered his head and pressed his forehead against hers, his eyes were damp, blurring his vision, "I won't leave you, don't be afraid-"

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In Jin Cunxu's limited memories when he was young, he didn't know why he was abandoned by his mother in an orphanage, and she didn't come to see him often, once in a while. A week, a month, or half a year......

She is a woman who likes to laugh very much, but every time she sees him, there is a strong pain in her eyes, and laughing is more ugly than crying.

She had never picked him up, not even dared to take his hand, and he never understood why she was so indifferent to him. If you hate him, you don't have to come to see him, and if you like him, why abandon him in this human purgatory.

He was born smarter than the other children, he spoke early, learned to walk early, and saw the faces of adults earlier than the other children.

His beautiful appearance did not bring him much benefit, on the contrary, it was the source of his exclusion.

It doesn't matter, the dean's mother loves him very much and treats him very well, he doesn't want the woman who will look good when she laughs, he thinks that having a dean's mother is enough.

It's just that since when did the dean's mother start to change, no longer hurt him, no longer hugged him, no longer smiled at him, and even began to abuse her mercilessly.

Once, twice...... Four ...... Five ......

The pain of this kind of abuse seems to never end.

From crying and asking for help at the beginning, to gradually clenching his teeth at the end, silently bearing the physical pain, closing his eyes in the dark, making himself feel that he is dead, not feeling the pain, not feeling cruelty and coldness.

The dean's mother is still the dean's mother, and she treats all the children gently and compassionately, but to him, she is no longer gentle, almost cruel.

Since when did he start to miss seeing the woman who loved to laugh, she didn't talk much, she just liked to look at him quietly, laugh quietly, and there were countless sadness and sourness in her smile.

He knew that she didn't like to be close to him very much, even indifferent, but if she could live with her, she shouldn't beat herself.

Day after day, month after month, he finally saw her, she looked thinner than ever, her thin lips chuckling, and her smile more sour.

Sitting under the big tree at the entrance of the orphanage building, she still did not speak, and watched him quietly.

He saw the dean's mother playing with the children not far away, and the children were laughing happily and happily under the sun; From time to time, the dean's mother looked sideways at them, smiling all over her face.

Such a smile was gentle and compassionate in her eyes, but it was extremely vicious in Jin Cunxu's eyes.

After a long time, she was about to leave again, but he couldn't help but whisper, "Can I live with you?" ”

She seemed to be stunned for a moment, then her thin lips fainted and smiled shallowly, looking at those innocent children, and asked, "Isn't it good to live with friends?" ”

All right?

How would she know that he had never had friends here, and how could she know that the children in the orphanage had long lost their innocence and simplicity in order to win the love of adults.

How could she know that the dean's mother was no longer the gentle and kind woman, but a complete madman, a violent maniac.

How could she know how much pain was growing in every inch of his skin under his clothes, but the pain was nothing more than the pain of being discarded.

He looked up at her, as if he was smiling at her for the first time, "It's good—"

As he spoke, he pulled his sleeves down without a trace to cover the bruises that he wanted to expose to the sun.

She was gone, taking his hope with the last rays of light, and no matter what she did to make amends, she could not enter the depths of his heart.

That night, he curled up on *, his body trembling instinctively, because he knew that after everyone had fallen asleep, the dean's mother would come and carry him to her room.

He didn't know how many beatings he had suffered, and every part of his body was hurting, but he couldn't tell where it hurt. The thin body lay lifeless on the ground, his eyes stared blankly at the dark sky, and his soul seemed to be completely dead from his body.

For some reason, he suddenly wanted to laugh, his pale and bloodless lips rose slightly, and a few wisps of disdain for fate sneered

The dean's mother beat him and scolded all kinds of ugly words. Species, wild. Planting, practicing people, many, many, so much that I can't remember.

After beating him, he couldn't stop crying while holding him full of scars, and those tears flooded the wound and hurt into his bones.

He didn't understand why she was crying so desperately because the person who was beaten was herself!

Later, a family surnamed Kou came into his life, and every Sunday they would bring their daughter Kou Jingwan to visit the children in the orphanage. He knew that Kou Jingwan had been watching him, but he had never spoken to her.

Until one time, Kou Qikuan and his wife came to the orphanage with their daughter, Chen Roujia, who was pregnant, suddenly had a stomachache, Kou Qikuan was anxious to send Chen Roujia to the hospital, and it was inconvenient to take Kou Jingning with him, so he entrusted her to the director to take care of her for one night.

Although Kou Jingwan is young, she is very sensible, not to mention that she really wants to be close to Jin Cunxu, so she agreed to stay and wait for her parents to pick her up the next day.

But she wasn't that lucky, waiting for Kou Qikuan and Chen Roujia to take her home.

Because she slept with all the children that night, when the dean came to hug Jin Cunxu in the middle of the night, she hadn't fallen asleep yet, and secretly followed.

Through the crack in the door, she saw that the gentle and compassionate dean was beating Jin Cunxu fiercely, which was heavier than the usual mother who got angry and beat herself.

She ran in angrily and did not allow the dean to beat Jin Cunxu again.

The dean's eyes were already scarlet, like an irrational beast, frantically abusing Jin Cunxu, and he casually picked up the vase on the table and wanted to smash it on Jin Cunxu's body.

Kou Jingwan was only thinking about how painful it would be for that thing to be smashed on her body, she didn't want to make Jin Cunxu hurt anymore, so she ran over and hugged Jin Cunxu without hesitation.

The vase smashed into the back of Kou Jingwan's neck, and the flying shards cut through her major arteries, and the blood flooded like a river that burst its banks, staining Jin Cunxu's pale and colorless face red.

I may not understand what death is, but the fear of blood is desperate and mad.

The dean didn't expect things to develop to this point, and stood in place in a daze, looking at Kou Jingwan who fell to the ground and was bleeding, and his soul was not possessed by fright.

Jin Cunxu didn't know where the strength came from, pushed away Kou Jingwan, whose body had gradually cooled, grabbed the fragments on the ground, and used all his strength to insert the fragments into the dean's body.

The blood of sin blossomed into bewitching flowers in the abbot's belly, and drops of blood dripped on the ground, reflecting the light, so that all sins were swept away by death.

The next day, the people from the orphanage came to the director and saw such a tragic picture.

A girl collapsed in a pool of dry blood, her eyes wide open and her expression grim, while the dean fell to the ground, stiff and covered in blood.

The only boy alive curled up in the corner covered in blood, his eyes glazed and his expression numb, like a soulless walking corpse!

This incident once caused a sensation in Jin Cheng, and some people even took pictures of the scene at that time and published it in the newspaper, and the headline of the newspaper was: Is the killing of a benefactor by a child a social sorrow or the irony of human nature?

No one cares what the truth is, in order to be topical, in order to increase the sales of the newspaper, they pushed an innocent and humiliated child to the forefront of the storm, suffering from the insults and criticism of everyone!

The real sadness is not this society, or those helpless children with blood on their hands, but those funny clowns!

There used to be a movie "So Won" in South Korea that was based on a real case. The protagonist of the movie is a five-year-old girl named Su Yuan, who was abducted one day on the way to school, sexually assaulted, repeatedly traumatized and torn, and partially necrotic of the large and small intestines.

However, Su Yuan, who suffered such a nightmare, was not tolerated and treated gently by the society, and the media flocked into the hospital, taking pictures, interviewing, forcing Su Yuan's father to hide in the corner of the hospital with her, Su Yuan looked at her father, tears rolled down from the corners of her eyes, and asked a word that the listener was crying.

She said, "Dad, am I doing something wrong?" ”

Dear child, there is nothing wrong with you, just as there is nothing wrong with kindness, there is nothing wrong with innocence, there is nothing wrong with beauty, and there is nothing wrong with Jin Cunxu, whose hands were forced to be stained with blood.

It is the people who did not give him protection, the people who continue to inflict harm on the victims, the people who strengthen the consequences of all the evil on the children!

Kou Jingwan was not killed by him, but he died because of him!

He lived, but life was worse than death.

He had not spoken a word until he was ten years old, and there was not a single expression on his pale, almost sickly face.

Fu Xiange and Jin Xishuo invited the best doctors, psychologists, and psychiatrists for him, but to no avail. He lives lonely and desperately in his own world, accompanied by the despair and loneliness in his heart, and the scars on his body are gradually healing, but his heart has long been rotten.

When he was eleven years old, the servant broke the vase and went downstairs to get tools to clean up the debris, and he walked over the debris numbly with his bare feet, without feeling pain, and the bloody footprints under his feet were shocking.

Fu Xiange knelt beside him, crying silently for the umpteenth time, repenting, tears fell on his hands one by one, he looked numb and indifferent.

Late at night, Fu Xiange was forcibly carried back to the room by Jin Xishuo to rest.

Jin Xishuo sat in Jin Cunxu's room, stared at him for a long time, and whispered: "If being alive really makes you so miserable, I am willing to let you be free." ”

Jin Cunxu looked at him with calm eyes, there seemed to be a touch of fluctuation, and Jin Xishuo said again: "Do you know what you call Cunxu?" ”

"There is light, warmth, she hopes that no matter what happens in your life, you will have light and warmth in your heart!"

Many years later, Jin Cunxu finally realized why she never reached out to hug herself.

Because her hands were crippled.

There is no way to even pick up the most basic utensils for eating, how can you pick him up.

What can you do?

Time can't go back, nothing can be done again, the disasters he has experienced, the nightmares he has had, have entered the bones, through the marrow, follow him until he stops breathing, and then disappear with the flood of time.

Since then, he seems to be normal and has lived a good life, but he has never really been better. He has never hugged Jin Xishuo and Fu Xiange, never been close to anyone of the opposite sex, and even whenever he comes into contact with some news of child abuse, he will not be able to control his thoughts and behaviors, and often do some extreme behaviors when he is alone.

He is becoming more and more like Fu Xiange, his lips are smiling all the time, but the bottom of his eyes is unfathomable, no matter the city or strategy, he is the same as Jin Xishuo. He began to have his own strength, avoiding Jin Xishuo's people from prying eyes on his inner world.

The years when he left Jin Cheng and studied in the UK were the loneliest and most torturous years for him, struggling between life and death, and whenever his emotions were out of control and he couldn't control himself, he could only rely on medicine.

The medicine he took had serious side effects, and the longer he took it, the more harmful it became, and it might cause him to die of heart failure before he was 30 years old.

Lu Xiangbei knows Lu Dao, Jin Xishuo knows Lu Dao, and Fu Xiange also knows Lu Dao, but no one can stop him.

Taking medicine can make him calm down slowly, if he doesn't take it, he may be able to kill himself in the next second, in order to let him live one more day, everyone pretends not to know the way, and chooses to deal with it with the attitude of whitewashing.

If it weren't for meeting Long Ziqi in the United States, if it weren't for falling in love with her inextricably, Jin Cunxu might have continued to eat and rely on medicine, but everything has become an established fact, and he seems to have found a reason to live.

Alive, he can love her, and when he is dead, there is nothing.

In order to continue to love her, he began to slowly reduce the dosage of medicine, his emotions were out of control, and his behavior was uncontrollable, so he would miss her, try to calm his heart, and struggle to die all his life, just to make himself normal, at least like a normal man, to love a woman.

No one has ever known Lu Dao, he once almost couldn't even be a man, he has never had lust/thoughts about any woman for so many years, if he didn't meet Long Ziqi, what is the difference between him and sexual/incompetent?

The young master asks for the dividing line of the recommendation ticket*****************

Jin Cunxu's chest was burned by hot tears, his heart was anxious, her tears made him feel helpless, so he had to bow his head and kiss her tears, kiss her lips, "Don't cry-"

I never knew that Lu Dao was as indifferent as Long Ziqi, and she couldn't resist crying, and she couldn't wait to give her the whole world and give her her life, as long as she stopped sobbing.

Her eyes were red and swollen, and she didn't know that she would cry like this one day, her tears couldn't be stopped, and her voice was hoarse and trembling: "Shall we go to the hospital?" ”

His body really worries her, and she can't rest assured!

Jin Cunxu hesitated for a few seconds, really didn't want her to worry and sob, and nodded: "Okay." ”

In fact, he had already checked his body with a doctor in advance and confirmed that the drug had a certain effect on his body, but if he stopped the drug now and cooperated with the treatment, it would not have an impact on the future.

But if he said directly, he was afraid that she wouldn't believe it, and now everything could only follow her, in order to make her feel at ease, even if it was a superfluous thing, he would be willing to do it!

……

Long Ziqi saw the doctor's report, confirmed that the drug did not continue to cause more damage to his body, and carefully asked the doctor what he needed to taboo in his daily life.

Jin Cunxu sat aside, looking at her nervous side face with gentle eyes, her heart was warm, and her palm had been wrapping her softness. I was very glad in my heart that he chose to give birth and choose to continue to love her......

Otherwise, how can there be happiness now!

Long Ziqi took the doctor's words to heart, and when he returned home, he took out all the incense in the bedroom and put it on the balcony, and went to buy a lot of books on the ingredients of medicines, as well as recipes.

Jin Cunxu has been taking medicine for many years, it is a three-point poison, the drug has already penetrated his body functions, and he already has a drug-resistant body, so it is not recommended that he continue to take medicine for treatment, but to change to dietary therapy, from his living environment, food and psychological state to improve the problem.

But it's a fairly slow process, and it doesn't happen overnight, it can take five, ten, or twenty years......

Long Ziqi doesn't care how much time it takes, she has a lifetime to do these things, but only if he lives well!

Jin Cunxu saw everything she did, did not dissuade, and cooperated with everything she did, what she was worried about, what she was afraid of, he understood that she had to do something to ensure that he was safe and sound!

During the day, everything was as usual, and she never mentioned the past again, but every night she would involuntarily hug him tightly, and after falling asleep, her fingers would also hold his pajamas tightly, not daring to relax the slightest, as if as soon as she let go, he would be gone.

It's night.

The LCD TV was broadcasting the evening news, and Jin Cunxu rarely had no job to watch the news with her.

The TV was playing the news about the sexual/assault of young children, Jin Cunxu's cold brows frowned slightly, and he was about to turn off the TV with the remote control, but Long Ziqi held his hand in an instant, his eyes were clear, and his pupils looked at him quietly, "It's okay-"

Jin Cunxu looked at her for a few seconds, but turned off the TV, and the living room suddenly quieted down, and heard each other's heartbeats, high and low.

"I'm sleepy, let's sleep."

He got up and stretched out his hand to pull Long Ziqi to stand up, she put her hand in his palm, but she didn't stand up, looked up at him, and her voice was calm: "Some things may be a little selfish to say, but I still want to tell you!" ”

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