Chapter 243: I Want to Die
This slap was very heavy, the incident happened suddenly, Xu Xun didn't react at all, and was slapped hard, she actually had a moment of trance - and the queen have been hostile for so long, although the two are not harmonious, but each other is still a bit of a bottom line, she didn't expect the queen to hate her to this point, listening to what it means, it seems that she still specially broke in and slapped such a face.
"Niangniang, this is again-" Her face was a little numb and painful, she touched her cheek and raised her eyebrows playfully, "Niangniang, you haven't come to this point, have you?" β
The queen glanced at her coldly and said in a deep voice, "Big brother is sincere to you, it is better to feed the head dog - the dog is still well raised, you white-eyed wolf, but you will not even shed tears!" β
Whether a person is really sad or not, in fact, it can be seen at a glance, people who really cry miserably, but they can simply stand up for a few days, Xu Xun can eat and sleep, although he has lost a little weight because of his weakened appetite, but his demeanor is serene, his eyes are bright, and he doesn't look like he is crying every night, and the queen's question cannot be said to be unreasonable.
Xu Xun felt a little interesting, she thought that her story in this palace was over, but now it seems that there is still an end, she said, "Niangniang, when is it, you still care about this with me?" β
The queen has never been disgusted with her, although they have been hostile for a long time, and they have had a lot of tricks, but she has always had an appreciative and friendly attitude towards Xu Xun, but Xu Xun herself has repeatedly pushed her kindness outward, if there is anyone with a hot face and a cold ass, that person has always been the queen. But today is different, she looked at Xu Xun's expression with disappointment, anger, and jealousy, as if she was really unworthy for the emperor, "I can see through you, big brother to you, I don't need to say it, but you have never had a little sincerity to big brother." Big brother is digging into your heart like that...... Alas! If he changes his mind and falls in love with someone else, even if it is Yuan Concubine and Zhu Concubine, as long as they are sincere to him, I will feel better. But he was obsessed and only mistook you. β
She confessed to-dayβbut in the presence of a dying man, no amount of hypocrisy seemed necessary. Xu Xun didn't mean to avoid the topic, she shook her head and said, "I was not as good as you everywhere, even if the eldest brother changed his mind, it wasn't because I robbed him over, it was you who shouldn't have been, if you didn't make a mistake, how could others have a chance?" If you blame others, you might as well blame yourself. β
The queen was taken aback, she looked at Xu Xun, her eyes flashed, and she asked slowly, "Big brother...... Big brother told you? β
Although it is just this sentence, the queen's gains and losses, confusion and pain revealed at this moment are enough to show that she is tight, Xu Xun is full of emotion in her heart - she does not doubt that even if the queen attaches more importance to the queen, she is not without a trace of true affection for the emperor in her heart.
"You were too much in the competition for the back position that day," to this point, why bother to hang her appetite again? Xu Xun said happily, "You think you can hide from your eldest brother and be his master, but you don't know that he is in charge of the world, and you have to deal with a character like the cabinet ministers every day, where will you completely hide it?" β
The queen seemed to cry and laugh, her expression showed a little confusion, she opened her mouth to speak, but she didn't seem to know what to say, and after a while, it was a long sigh.
This fragility was only for a moment, she quickly regained her rock-solid appearance, and said coldly, "This is all in the past, I came today, I just want to ask you: Xu Xun, do you want to die?" β
Although Xu Xun had expected it, there was no lack of turmoil in her heart - she was not afraid of death, but she would not rush to find death, if there was a turnaround, how could she seek death? No matter how much I feel about the death of the emperor in my heart, no matter how much I am tired of life...... If she gave up her efforts here today, it would be a slap in the face to herself.
"Who wants to die if they don't die?" She said, "But I don't understand, what does my mother want from me?" You want to break in and look for me? β
Neither of them is stupid, and some of the background no longer needs to be analyzed and explained: since the emperor is gone, the palace affairs will naturally be taken over by the queen mother. After all, Xu Xun, the housekeeper, has been instantly won by Zhao Zhaorong's assist, and the queen has not been a housekeeper for many years, and her prestige and power cannot be compared with the queen mother. Now the queen mother must have the final say in the palace, and the funeral candidates are naturally decided by the queen mother, and the queen can only stuff people into it, but to say that she can easily decide who doesn't have to be martyred, that is also to look down on her. Especially Xu Xun is now in a lawsuit, to protect her, the queen must make great efforts, the relationship between the two has been cold for many years, no one can say who she likes, the queen must ask for something to save her, and this request cannot be small, at least it must be worthy of her efforts.
"What if I say, I'm thinking about my eldest brother's affection for you, and I want to keep you?" The queen's tone was sharp.
Xu Xun couldn't help but laugh and said, "Niangniang, don't joke with me, right?" β
"But it's not necessarily fake." The queen was silent for a moment before she sighed leisurely, "I said earlier, Xu Xun, although you hate me, I have always liked you...... If it were me, I wouldn't have arranged for you to be buriedβ"
Seeing that Xu Xun's expression was faint, obviously unmoved, she changed her words and finally revealed her intention, "But in normal times, if the Queen Mother wants you to be martyred, I won't try much to save you, at most I will say a good word or two for you, and forget it...... If you want me to protect you, you have to help me with all your might. β
Xu Xun was stunned and said, "Now that the eldest brother is gone, what else can I help you?" β
Thinking that the virtuous concubine of Renzong was not less than having children, she was deeply favored by her husband and mother, and had a close relationship with her mother, so why didn't she have a transcendent status in the palace? As soon as Renzong went, there was no sound at all, and compared with the unfavored concubine, the treatment was even slightly inferior, which completely illustrates a truth: when people die, the lights go out, and the emperor goes, his intentions are suddenly worthless. If Wu Meiren hadn't committed a major crime, Xu Xun was afraid that even Zhuang'er might not be able to keep it now, let alone anything else, she really couldn't think of any residual value that she could give to the queen to use.
The queen's eyes were even brighter, and Xu Xun suddenly realized that the light between her eyebrows was not out of joy - with her feelings for the emperor, it was really impossible to be really happy at this time - the reason why the queen was so excited at this time was because she was angry, but from her words, it was clear that she was suppressing her anger and trying to make the most stable judgment.
What is it that makes the queen so nervous? Xu Xun's brows gradually gathered. The queen also looked at her closely, and she said in a deep voice, "I want you to knock on the door of Chang'an Palace on my behalf, and ask Sister Hu to come forward and enter Qingning Palace to say something!" β
Maybe she knew that Xu Xun had been trapped in the house for the past few days and didn't know anything about the outside situation, but she was just stunned, and then quickly added, "Please change your mind and support the old lady as the emperor!" β
Xu Xun stood up and exclaimed, "What? Does the old lady have other intentions? β
She reacted quickly - King Xiang was still in the capital and had never left!
"Who is in Qingning Palace now?" She didn't wait for the queen to answer, so she immediately changed the question, "King Xiang won't be inside!" β
"No, in the Ten Princes' Mansion, after the eldest brother went, he came in and cried once, and after the news came out, he went back immediately, and he never entered the palace at all." Now that everything has been said, the queen no longer hides it, her face is almost so heavy that she can drip water, she took a breath, suddenly slammed the table, and said angrily, "King Xiang is a parent, isn't Zhu'er a grandson?" National inheritance, what a big deal! It's really obscure that she has such a funny idea! She's trying to force the bolt to death - she's not afraid that she will go underground and see her big brother? It's a shame that the eldest brother is merciful to her everywhere...... If he knew, he didn't know how sad he was at this time. β
Saying that, he couldn't help but choke a little, Xu Xun listened, and was also silent: Few people around the emperor have lived up to him, although the queen mother has lived up to it, but after all, it is not impossible to say, this act after going, from the emperor's point of view, can be regarded as a loss of mother-son affection. If you think about it a little deeper......
"I'm afraid that the old lady has already done this." She said in a low voice, "Otherwise, in the summer, King Xiang will not be summoned to Beijing." β
"That's what I thought of naturally." The queen was only sentimental for a moment, and then returned to normal, she looked at Xu Xun coldly, "Although you and I have a disgrace, but this is not the time to care about this, I will not lie to you, you are not in danger of being buried at present, and then if you put aside all your dignity and beg her bitterly, for the sake of the dots, maybe she will spare you from being buried, maybe it won't...... I can't say right now. If you don't help me, there is a certain chance of survival, and if you help me, if you fail, I may not be able to keep you. There are two paths in front of you, you can choose for yourself! β
She was very calm this time, and even explained the risks considerately, and even threw out information that was unfavorable to her. Xu Xun seemed to catch a bit of information from her words, she pondered for a moment and asked, "What does it mean that there is no danger of being buried at present?" β
"I've already been martyred, without you." The queen said happily, "Now the group of little sluts in Yu Nanyuan has not been disposed of, but once the old man frees up his hands, it will be a matter of time, if you want to be martyred, you will be executed alone, or with them, it is possible." But then again, without you in the first batch, maybe she didn't plan to bury you in her heart...... This matter has no impact on the situation now, only she can make a decision, I don't know what she thinks, maybe she just forgot about you, maybe she wants to wait for the future to take care of it calmly, maybe she didn't plan you to die. β
"Have you already been martyred?" Xu Xun involuntarily raised his voice, "All-all-who are they?" β
The queen pursed her lips and said indifferently, "All the famous ones have been martyred, but you and I are the only ones left." β
All gone? Xu Xun couldn't find his voice for a while, although he had thought that at least half of the people would be difficult to escape, but he really didn't expect that it would be so fast and so ruthless......
"I remember Emperor Wen's time, and he waited at least a monthβ" she stumbled.
"Oh, yes, Emperor Zhao was not in the capital that time." The empress said, "Emperor Yinwen did not do it properly, and she felt embarrassed. Emperor Zhao didn't do that that time, the minister of civil and military affairs did not resign, and the emperor did not come forward, as soon as Emperor Zhao went, he gathered in the side hall of Jingyang Palace, and we sent it outside, and hanged it together. lest they know that they are going to die, and their thoughts do not belong, and they will lose the face of heaven at the funeral. β
Xu Xun glared at the queen, and only after a while did he say, "That, immortal ......"
"You also know that if you want to be exempted from the funeral, there must be some special circumstances," the queen still maintained her steely calm, "Although she has a daughter, but the son of the woman is gone, and she usually lives in a simple place, and she doesn't please her at all, how can she avoid it?" Besides, they are all low-level concubines and concubines, and they are not like words, they always have to go to the high-level support scene. β
"She's so good and you're a group of Jinfeng ......," Xu Xun said with difficulty.
"I was too busy to take care of myself at that time, so how could I have the leisure to take care of this matter." The queen snorted, "She has been blessed for more than ten years, and she won't suffer any loss." I heard that there are four or five of the martyrs who have just been selected to enter the palace, and they entered the palace in the spring of this year. Where should these little girls go to cry? β
Xu Xun is the one who hosts the palace affairs, how can he not know about this batch of candidates? Originally, it was chosen in the summer, but I didn't expect that when I encountered malaria, no one had the heart to deal with them, and the delay was a year. The final election was just completed a year ago, and because the emperor was not happy, Xu Xun and Ma Shiyi were all in charge, and a few were selected to determine the name. Unexpectedly, after these ten days, he would have to be martyred for someone he had never even met......
She wanted to ask why, but she knew that it was also in vain, weishenme didn't put it back? Weishenme is not changed to a female officer? weishenme does not reward the vassal king - these weishenme, there is only one answer, that is, the queen mother does not want to, and all the other reasons are just because of this one thought, to find out. There was no last resort, no reluctance, no even care, no trade-off, just because of the Queen Mother's frivolous and harmless thoughts, their fate had ended on the night of the third day of the first lunar month.
After being in the palace for so long, in fact, she should have gotten used to it.
"Then Zhao Zhaorong-" She was still a little puzzled, "The old lady won't even have her-"
"She was the first to die." The queen sneered, "I don't know what she knows about the shallow things that are high in the sky!" The symptoms of the eldest brother's death are exactly the same as those of Emperor Zhao, according to Imperial Doctor Ran, even Emperor Wen went like this. There is a disease in the blood, if you take care of it, before Emperor Zhao died, it was not the old lady who served on the side, this means that the old lady also has a problem? β
Zhao Zhaorong shouted that, which was really in line with her style of becoming inflammatory, and her quick reaction was a must. Only Xu Xun didn't expect that there was a previous relationship, she realized that when Empress Weishenme analyzed the possibility of martyrdom, she didn't count the emperor's illness, Emperor Zhao had not died for ten years, and there were many old people in the palace who were in their prime, and the queen mother couldn't and couldn't slap Zhao Zhaorong's words in the face, this sycophant was slapped on the horse's leg.
Xu Xun shook her head, no longer dwelling on this issue, she said, "That's it, let's not talk about the funeral, just talk about the current situation of Qingning Palace." How far has this matter been done to change the king of Xiang? What the eldest brother's edict says, you tell me carefully. β
The queen smiled bitterly, "It's been a mess these days...... I'll tell you from the beginning. β
The emperor died suddenly, the first thing was naturally to find someone, although his family is basically here, but the Son of Heaven is different after all, the Queen Mother's reaction is also very standard, first do not report the funeral, but immediately urgently recruit the three cabinet ministers and the British public into the palace, everyone in the initial shock and grief, naturally have to sit down to discuss the issue of the edict. All the procedures are similar to Xu Xun's conjecture, and the edict is also very simple, it is nothing more than national affairs, the queen mother and queen are in charge, the eldest son of the emperor, what to do about funerals and other conventional issues.
Although this edict is the emperor's tone, but the queen mother is also not the slightest master, must be the cabinet ministers draft the edict, the heir emperor is small, there is nothing to say, at that time it was very smooth to draft the edict, waiting for the seal to be issued, and then the minister naturally withdrew and began to handle the funeral, the queen mother is also busy with all kinds of trivial matters here, such as the funeral or something, everything seems to be in order - the result is that night, the queen mother repented, and actually withheld the edict and did not issue it, convened Sanyang into the palace to discuss the matter, and had the intention of establishing King Xiang as the emperor, The reasons used are all ready-made: the state has a long monarch and the blessing of the society. King Xiang has always been virtuous, and he is more suitable to be the lord of the dynasty than the young and untalented bolt.
This kind of thinking naturally cannot be agreed with by Sanyang, but there is no edict, and the emperor is not theoretically dead, and he can't take the next step, so he is frozen here now, the emperor has gone to the sixth day, and it is almost the first seven, and the funeral has not yet begun, but the people of the world know from various channels that he has passed away, it is conceivable how turbulent and panicked the current court situation should be, and how much discussion is in the palace.
"Now she lives in Qingning Palace with her bolt, and she doesn't see the cabinet much." The queen said in a deep voice, "I don't see King Xiang either, the cabinet has asked her to meet several times, but she has not responded." I've been there a few times, and the results go without saying. β
This is the first month, there is no official business, otherwise the palace affairs will be suspended, Xu Xun looked at the queen, and asked solemnly, "You tell me honestly, do you think she wants to establish the king of Xiang, is it out of public intentions or selfishness?" β
Needless to say, it's really for the sake of the community. After all, King Xiang has a good name, and he has many sons and good health, and he is definitely more suitable for managing national affairs than the bolt who doesn't seem to be very smart and doesn't know if he can raise it at all. Xu Xun judged with his common sense that this must be more haode for the country, and it was naturally accompanied by more complex power and palace struggles, such a big country, such a small child, how can people rest assured?
As for selfishness, there is nothing to hide, Bolt was raised by the queen, naturally close to her, grandmother is not as good as Mother, now I can't say anything, wait for Bolt to be two years older, I start to have an idea, the queen's status naturally rises, and being the queen mother is sometimes not as comfortable as being the queen mother. Besides, if King Xiang succeeds to the throne, he will definitely be filial to the Queen Mother, as long as the Queen Mother lives for a day, she will be the supreme existence in the Inner Palace, and she will definitely be far more proud than the emperor when he or after he ascended the throne.
"Does it make a difference?" The queen asked rhetorically, and she seemed to smile and said, "If I were her, I was afraid that there would also be considerations for both public and private affairs, but it was difficult to say which one would prevail." β
"It's a big difference." Xu Xun said coldly, "If it is selfish, Sister Hu will come forward to persuade her, maybe she can get a little effect, and push the door of Qingning Palace open for you, and then you go over and kowtow to admit your mistakes, this matter is not without room for maneuver." If she is public-minded, do you think her determination will be shaken by a little affection with Sister Hu? - At the gate of this Qingning Palace, you haven't knelt down. Isn't the relationship between you and her even deeper? β
"Can it be the same, I took the initiative to turn my face with her, Hu Shi, she still feels a little indebted......" The queen hesitated slightly, but immediately made up her mind, "I don't know what she thinks now-but I can't care so much, a dead horse is a live horse doctor, how can I fight!" β
She turned around and forced Xu Xun to look at her, and said coldly, "Today, I am more and more exposed, she may have had a lot of things to do and forgot about you, but if you go to Chang'an Palace, she will no longer forget your existence...... Do you want to go to Chang'an Palace or not, you choose! β
Xu Xunshu smiled and said, "If you go out, you may die, and if you stay, you may die, what is the use of asking me if I want to die?" β
The queen sighed, "If you really want to go with the eldest brother, I may want to save you even more." You don't want to go with him, but I'm a little reluctant...... Who said this question is useless? β
Her feelings for the emperor were too complicated, Xu Xun didn't know how to comment, she said, "Then why did you bother me just now?" You broke into here, how can you hide it from the Queen Mother, even if she originally forgot about me, isn't this about to be reminded? Do you want me to go with you, or don't you want me to go with you? β
The queen was poked by her, and she was not ashamed, she was silent for a while, and suddenly sighed, don't look at Xu Xun, and said in a low voice, "I hope you will go with me for the sake of the eldest brother." β
Even if the emperor and her are becoming more and more estranged and empathetic, even if there are extremely complex emotional entanglements between the two, in the end, she still hopes that the imperial concubine he loves can put aside her life and death for him, or hopes that the feelings he pays to others can be responded to, and they will not be let down again.
Xu Xun comprehended, she looked at the queen, she really had mixed feelings, and after thinking for a while, she shook her head and sighed, "Forget it, if you want to go, you can go, what so much nonsense." β
As she spoke, she went to pick up her thick jacket - although it was cold, no one came to deliver clothes, and it was fine indoors, but once she had to go out, she had no choice but to wear the red clothes that were festive for the Chinese New Year.
Only then did he stand up, and the back of his hand was held down by the queen again.
She looked up at Xu Xun, her eyes gloomy like water, and asked softly, "Tell me, who are you going out for?" β
Xu Xun sighed again, she felt tired from the bottom of her heart, and she didn't care about polishing her words, so she said casually, "Just do what you want, for whom-how do I know?" β
The queen was slightly stunned, then she didn't ask anymore, and when she saw that she was going to wear the red jacket, she frowned, and then raised her voice and called, "Mama Zhou come in!" β
After a while, Xu Xun wrapped and brought Mama Zhou's jacket, and together with the queen, he hurriedly walked out of the courtyard, bent his waist, and got into the queen's Fengluan warm sedan chair.
Before I knew it, the snow began to fall again, and the pieces of hexagonal crystal sparkled and fell on the stone floor, and in a short time a thin layer accumulated, and in the first quarter of the moon that had just risen into the sky, a sedan chair surrounded a few people, and hurriedly walked towards the long street to the west.
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After eating, I went to write about the prosperous age~