This New Year in the palace is really too unflavored, although it is also a lantern, but a New Year is very quiet, and now it is the third day of the first month, and all kinds of festive decorations in the palace have been put away in a panic. The peach talisman board at the entrance of each palace, the general charcoal, the door god, the god of fortune, the ghost judgment, the gold and silver eight treasures in the house, and the money dragon...... All of them were pulled down by countless hands anxiously, the brocade fell to the ground, and countless footprints were stepped on in an instant, but no one cared at all, there was no longer the wealth and leisure of the past in the palace, accompanied by a series of orders, the footsteps ran back and forth in an orderly manner, filial piety clothes, filial piety hats, white flowers, white cloth...... Soon, the red color in the palace disappeared, and the female officials who came and went in Qianqing Palace, Qingning Palace and other places had already lit white lanterns.

Now that the edict should have been prepared, Xu Xun looked at the boundless night outside the window, and speculated on the big and small things that were progressing in the palace without emotion in his heart: with Liushang, Aunt Qiao, and Mama Zhou, as well as the assistance of the twenty-four yamen, after the initial panic, the situation should be able to be controlled quickly. The next thing is naturally to do what should be done, the emperor's funeral is all in order, and there is no need to worry about money, in fact, it is not difficult to do.

But the edict is a problem, the emperor went so suddenly, who will be elected as the minister, the outer court is indispensable to fight openly and secretly, he didn't make an edict at all in the summer, he had a high fever, he couldn't wake up, and then he woke up and his illness was cured. This time, there will be no edict, it has not come to this point at all, so ...... The last words are missing.

The last words can be missing, but the edict cannot be without, in the summer, Xu Xun listened to the queen mother and the cabinet ministers on duty - it seems to be Nanyang, talked about it. If the emperor is ill and does not leave a word, then the edict must be written by the three ministers of the cabinet, and the candidate for the minister of Gu Ming, Sanyang naturally has a share, and the rest of the British public Zhang Fu must occupy the first one, and who else, Xu Xun does not know. Now that I think about it, it should be a joint decision between the Queen Mother and the Cabinet, and the power will not be given to the Cabinet alone, and a few more people will be found in the civil ministers.

The edict has been agreed, and there will not be any big problems, Xu Xun is a person who has read history books, the emperor died violently, this is not the first time it has happened, the bolt is still young, and he is not competent for political affairs, so the queen mother - no, now it is time to say that it is the queen mother, the dynasty is in charge, the curtain is listened to the government, and when the emperor grows up, he will return to the new emperor. The difference with ordinary rural people is probably only that the candidates for this curtain to listen to politics are determined strictly according to their seniority, unless the queen mother is also too sick and old to listen to politics, otherwise it will not be the queen mother's turn. So although Empress Sun succeeded in surviving the emperor, her good days were far from coming. In the future, I have to continue to boil my mother-in-law to enjoy happiness, and now that there is less of the emperor's constraints, my mother-in-law is in power, who knows how she will rub her?

Before that, I was afraid that everyone had never thought that the emperor was still in front of the Queen Mother, and now that the Queen Mother is back in power, I don't know how many people will secretly regret the miscalculation......

Xu Xun lowered her eyes, smiled at the gold and silver beads on the table, she picked up a gold earring and put it in her hand, played with it for a while, and suddenly thought of the pair of ruby butterfly earrings that Concubine Zhaoyi gave her in the past.

After she was buried, I don't know who the pair of earrings will fall to? There is a seventy or eighty percent possibility, it will be left to a little bit, I believe that even if someone wants to steal the softness she left behind, the immortal master will come forward to defend it. - It is unlikely that the queen would do such a thing, she will not fall to this point, but she is a member of the six Shangzhong, and may want to take advantage of the fire to rob.

Hey...... In fact, what does it matter if it can be passed on to Diandian's hands? As a princess, she is loved by the Queen Mother, can she still be treated badly? Even if the queen mother goes, the queen may not be embarrassed by her little girl, there is an immortal master to maintain it, and Mama Qian is raised, with or without her mother, she can live well, how can she take this wealth in her eyes? Even if there are real troubles, it can't be solved by a little gold and silver. - Now that the emperor is gone, even if there is a trouble, I am afraid that she will not be able to solve it, without the emperor, how can she be more than Mama Qian? With her or not, it may make no difference, after all, Diandian is still young, even if she will cry for a few days at first, after a long time, she will naturally slowly forget about her.

So that's it, Xu Xun thought, she spent too much time fearing this day, dwelling on this day, but when this moment really came, when the breath of death sprayed on the back of her earlobe, she lost her emotions. It was like her fate, she had waited too long, and when it finally came, there was not much emotion left, and she was much calmer than she had expected.

There is no edict, there is no word, in everyone's hearts, he still has a long, long time, and these things can come back slowly. Emperor Wen's illness dragged on for at least ten years, and no one expected that he would only have so many days. No one knew that he had spared her from being buried, coupled with Zhao Zhaorong's addition of oil and vinegar, the moment the Queen Mother turned her eyes to her, Xu Xun knew that his hope was already very small.

Before the emperor died, she took care of him single-handedly for half a month, and in this half month, except for her and Ma Shi, no one could stay by the emperor's side for a long time, even the imperial doctor, who used Liu Taiyi, and she asked her right for a long time, and then she took care of the emperor alone for one night...... The next day, the emperor ordered Imperial Physician Liu to take care of the doctor and use his prescription. Who's to say there's no she's struggling here?

If you want to add to the crime, there is no excuse, not to mention that the emperor went so suddenly, and the person who took care of him was originally a melon field and plum, and it was difficult to tell clearly. Even if the emperor is a natural person, the palace eunuchs who take care of his death often have many deaths, and the reason is very simple: before death, you must be on your side, which shows that the trust is favored, as a servant, you should also kill yourself to repay, lest the master have less people to call underground. Even if there is no Zhao Zhaorong's statement, the situation is not optimistic, not to mention that her voice completely cuts into people's psychology: the illness started suddenly, the action was sudden, and the trip went suddenly, I am afraid that there is another article behind this.

There are some things that can't be found out clearly, and it is impossible to find out clearly, and those who make a storm can only discredit the court, but it does not mean that the Queen Mother will let go of the possible real murderer.

If she had a good relationship with the Queen Mother, if she didn't take care of the emperor, if she was far away in Yong'an Palace at the time of the incident...... Maybe she still has to be buried, after all, the Queen Mother can tolerate her, but it does not necessarily mean that the Queen can tolerate her, now she is the only mother of the Bolt, and she is always more liked by the Bolt than the Queen Mother, if the Queen Mother takes this into account, she may not sacrifice her as a stepping stone to improve relations with the Queen.

The corners of Xu Xun's lips hooked up a faint smile, and her fingers drew around the table, outlining complex lines. Life is like this, every road is full of dangers, who knows where Zuihou leads? Even if she gives birth to a son, the son may die, he may be taken away; Even if she was friendly with the Empress Dowager and the Empress, the cabinet might be suspicious of the cause of the emperor's death, and would attempt to force her, a traitorous concubine with a bad reputation among the ministers, to be martyred, as a disadvantage to the inner court, and even maybe none of this happened, the emperor had spared her burial a long time ago, and she could have unfortunately contracted the disease and died of malaria...... Of the thousands of roads in the harem, perhaps nine out of ten lead to death, and no matter how you go, this is an inevitable end. Personal will, in front of this overwhelming fate, is just a decoration, whether it is outwitted than dry, better than immortals, and even the earth-shattering blessing of giving birth to a prince, whether it is decadent, exciting, calculating, or infatuated, what is the meaning at this moment? In a few days, I don't know how many people's fates will come to an end, and their stories have come to an end.

In that case, what's the point of complaining? At this moment, sit down and take stock carefully, looking back on the past, in the past 20 years in the palace, she has lived quite smoothly, lived quite freely, and still lived her own taste. If you endure humiliation and bear the burden in order to live, hide a knife in your smile, and kill your original self in order to survive, and replace it with a more decent, sharper, and more calculating self...... And then today it is the same death - if so, then it is called failure, it is called irony, right?

No matter how it ends, no matter how you die, what does it matter? Xu Xun was suddenly shocked to find that she was ready, and she believed that she had gone through a good journey. She has had confidants, friends, relatives, enemies, and even ...... Even if she had a lover, compared with the court, and most people in this world, although she was always locked up in this world, she could be regarded as living the three flavors of life, living vigorously, and living like a person.

As for gold, silver, jewelry, wealth and glory, what is the matter in front of all this?

She lowered her earrings and paced to the window again. In her heart, she thought of the moonlight in Yuhuatai - she had also told the emperor that she felt that the moon in the south should be rounder and bigger.

But now Yuhuatai will not have much moonlight, it is the third day of the first month, the moon is only a wind, the thick clouds densely cover the starlight, the palace city in the twilight is so dark, only the light of the lanterns, shaking far and near unhurriedly, from time to time there is a dull bell: the night is late, even the female officials who do things go to sleep. Presumably, the decorations in the palace have been removed, and the funeral bell has also been ringing all over the country along with the messenger, and their business today can be regarded as finished.

Dead emperor, it is finally a big deal, Xu Xun's thoughts are like clouds in the sky, blown away by the wind, she thought for a while: I don't know if the eldest brother's mausoleum has been repaired. For a while, I thought: Now, do you know that something happened to your father? I hope she doesn't cry too much, and I hope Mama Qian can persuade her.

If the Queen Mother hadn't been too ruthless, or if the immortal master could help, maybe they would have let her meet the children before the funeral. Xu Xun thought: I don't know when they will come to force me, and how will they die, hang or poison? To deal with the inner palace maids, at most, these two things are used. If it is the same as before, when the eldest brother's funeral is finished, and then let me go to Jingyang Palace to hang myself, then there will be at least ten days and half a month. After all, now that the weather is freezing, the funeral can be held in a grand manner. Besides, most of the yamen are on holiday, and those etiquettes will at least be delayed for some time.

In this case, there should still be a chance to see the child, and it may not even be released to salute, anyway, the Queen Mother is not afraid that she will run away, behave more obediently, and maybe live back to Yong'an Palace. Xu Xun thought: If this is the case, then you can also stay with the children for a while, it is better not to talk to Diandian about this at the beginning, or teach her more about how to behave in a way.

What should I say to her? She sorted out thousands of words in her heart, she had so many things she wanted to tell her daughter, so many problems she wanted her to change, so many things she wanted to tell her, but she couldn't organize a speech at all. There is also Zhuang'er, this child is already careful, and he is not close to the adoptive mother around him, without her, he will be even more lonely in the palace, he should be asked to trust a few more people, open his heart more, and don't be so serious......

Only when she thinks of her children, she is slightly reluctant, and as for others, she hopes that they can have a good future. I hope that Imperial Physician Liu will not be implicated in her guilt - alas, but he is the emperor's chief doctor, even if there is no him, I am afraid that he will not be exempt. This time, he was mistaken. As for Hua'er, Zhao Lun and others, they have a lot of savings over the years, and there is still a little bit of it, and they can also rely on her shili, presumably Mama Qian will take care of the old man. Not to mention her mother's family, the concubines who were buried in the past, their families have always been treated preferentially, and without her, they have less worries about her being implicated in an accident, and they can enjoy wealth and prosperity.

Everything can be regarded as a result, and there is still a pen, ink, paper, and inkstone in the side room where she is being held, Xu Xun calmed down, grinded the ink and wrote slowly: A little bit of my daughter, I am not afraid of 10,000, I am afraid of what happens, my mother is afraid that I will not be able to see you, so I will take the opportunity now to leave you a few words......

This night, she didn't close her eyes much, gave a little letter, and halfway through writing, her mind was scattered and she couldn't continue. I want to rest, as soon as I close my eyes, I think of the picture when the emperor died, a little sleepy, and suddenly disappeared, this room is very warm, and there is no need to curl up to keep warm, but Xu Xun wants to curl up, wants to throw himself into a warm embrace, and is patted and rested. She hadn't cried since the emperor left, as if a piece of wood had been stuck in her throat and poked hard behind her eyes, she couldn't sleep, she couldn't cry, she couldn't eat, all the needs of daily life were forcibly interrupted by this fact, and only when she thought of her own death could she be distracted for a short time and not think about it.

The emperor died.

There are no superfluous thoughts, feelings, feelings, sighs, just these four words, she is not sad, really not, maybe she is too shocked, maybe she doesn't believe it at all, Xu Xun even avoids thinking about it, she sometimes has a little delusion, thinking that she is still in Nannei, back to the days when she was imprisoned ten years ago. At that time, her mood was also very calm, and she was just as happy to accept the pessimistic situation ahead, she was locked in a room, and it was also a cold winter.

And the only change is that the emperor was still very happy to live in the Qianqing Palace at that time, ruling the country, doing the wrong thing or the right thing...... It doesn't matter, all that matters is that he is still alive, living where she can't see, bearing her love and hate, disappointment and regret, and influencing the entire Shijie to make changes with his will and character.

What's the difference? Xu Xun said to himself, even if he died, he was still changing the world and changing everyone's life, at least, he changed her life, without him, they couldn't exist for too long, and she would soon go with him.

Under the nine springs, life and death go hand in hand...... When he asked this, he was so sincere that he didn't even believe that she could be reluctant.

Xu Xun couldn't help but laugh, she stood up and walked to the kang to sit down, and began to eat her cold breakfast.

She was not abused, however, the diet during the mourning period was not abundant, according to the rules of etiquette, at this time it was still during the period of filial piety, Xu Xun could only eat gruel, of course, the meat was not seen, and it was difficult to say whether there were side dishes or not. The treatment given to her by the inner court is far more than the regulations, at least it is still white rice, but there is no meat and vegetables, these rice are cold when they are delivered, and they are only slightly warm in the house for half a day, but Xu Xun doesn't care, anyway, she can't eat the taste good or bad now.

Where she was imprisoned, Xu Xun himself didn't know, after Zhao Zhaorong shouted so loudly, the Queen Mother locked her in the side hall of the Qianqing Palace, and then it didn't take long for her to be taken into a sedan chair and come down to such a room. She was guarded by sturdy servants who were silent and unfamiliar, but they took good care of her, but never spoke to her. Xu Xun thought she would starve to death at first, and then whitewashed it as a 'hunger strike', because no one had brought her food the day before, but later it turned out that she thought too much, and the Queen Mother should have been so busy that she forgot about her, and then all the supplies were normal, and they just didn't let her out.

Since she started, at least three days have passed, it seems that the Queen Mother does not plan to let her participate in the funeral, even if it is delayed, it should start to go through the process at this time, the first crying spirit is missing the imperial concubine, and it is necessary to make some explanations to the outside world. So, should it be to wait until the funeral is over, or to Jingyang Palace, or to give medicine and white silk here?

Xu Xun writes letters every day, even if it may not reach Diandian's hands, but this is the only thing she can do. However, she has not completely given up hope now, I believe that the immortal master will at least give her a little care, and she should be able to guess what her greatest wish is before she dies.

What would death be like? Sometimes she also thinks that if she takes poison, she may be in pain for a while, and maybe at that time, she will feel that the end of everything is a comfort. If you hang yourself, it's faster, and if you do it properly, you may not even react, and everything will be gone. What will happen to Shijie after death? Will there really be a heavenly court, a yellow spring, or just eternal silence? Maybe then she won't have any thoughts—when she's dead, she's gone.

Xu Xun has a feeling that Zuihou is a possibility to be true, maybe this sounds a little bizarre and makes people very unwilling. When the body is destroyed, the soul is no more. -- What is the flesh compared to the vastness and richness of the soul, and how palpable is it? The two must be interdependent, and after the body of the weishenme no longer breathes, the soul will also die? This makes people feel that it is not very fair, and it makes people feel that there is a lot of room for discussion, but she has already understood that many unfair and ruthless possibilities will come true in Zuihou. People's mental strength and efforts have not changed at all, and this cannot be moved by manpower.

The key is only to see how to look at it, the key is to only look at the life you have lived, in those extremely limited things that you can choose for yourself and change for yourself, in time, whether you can make yourself satisfied.

At this point in life, we can deeply understand what it means to be 'wrong and hateful'. Maybe he took this step without malice, maybe he was even full of good intentions, maybe he was just a little willful, just a little selfishness...... It's just a little laxity, and the result is beyond human power to change, even if you do your best, you can't go back in time and make another decision. Maybe everyone thinks that there is an infinite future that can make up for the grievances at this time, and there are infinite results, which can comfort the distorted mind at this time, and everyone thinks that the future can make up for the past. But when I look back at this moment, I understand that the regrets of the past have nothing to do with the future, wrong is wrong, disappointment is disappointment, every moment of self-disappointment is deeply engraved in the bottom of my heart.

Xu Xun has thought about a lot of things that disappointed her, she has wavered, entangled, distressed, and degenerate, but the things she finally did were worthy of herself, she was really gratified, at this point, what relatives, children, lovers and confidants, they had to wave goodbye, in front of death, only she could accompany herself, fortunately, she had not disappointed herself. This, in addition to self-effort and perseverance, already needs the cooperation of fate, and her luck is not bad after all.

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