Chapter 331: Love Is Unspeakable (Rong Chen)

"You wild seed, you're not my son, get out of ......"

"I want to give birth to you, it's useless, I don't want you, get out, get out......"

The hot slaps, the punches and kicks that fell on the body, from unbearable pain to gradual numbness, the small body curled up on the ground, trembling incessantly, and something silently flowing down from the eyes......

Cold.

Despair.

Mom, you can hit me, you can scold me, but you can't leave me ......

Mom......

Blood flowed down from the wound on his forehead, staining most of his face, and the damp and dark place diffused the smell of death, so intense. The pain in the body can be numb, what should I do if the pain in the heart is numb......

"I'm going to destroy you, forever...... hahaha......"

The subtle needles pierced the body, there was no sense of pain, but the feeling was more desperate than death!

weishenme is going to give birth to me? Gave birth to me, and weishenme didn't love me?

Someone was talking in their ears all the time, buzzing like flies. The voice got closer and closer, and became clearer and clearer: "Young master...... Master...... Young Master......"

you, young master!

A wave of his hand, the piercing pain made the man lying on the bed slowly open his eyes, it turned out that he broke off the infusion needle when he waved, and at this moment blood flowed out continuously.

The butler standing next to him looked at him with concerned eyes: "Young Master, you have a nightmare." ”

Rong Chen reached out to take the paper and pressed it on the wound, the snow-white paper was quickly dyed red, his careless eyes swept over him, and he lowered his eyes: "You have been calling Madame's name." ”

There was a storm in his calm eyes. He had that dream again, and at the age of 12, he was completely in hell and could only live in cold darkness forever.

That nightmare haunted him for so many years, destined until the day he died.

The housekeeper brought a towel and handed it to him: "Young master, tomorrow is Madame's death day." ”

“…… So? He wiped the cold sweat from his neck with a towel, and his voice was cold without a trace of temperature.

"She's your mother after all, go see her!" The butler said earnestly.

Rong Chen threw the towel on the ground and smiled coldly: "Have you ever seen a mother infect her son with HIV!" ”

The butler's face turned pale, and he was speechless when questioned.

"Get out!"

The butler sighed secretly and packed up his things and left the luxurious room.

Rong Chen got out of bed, stepped barefoot on the cold floor, walked to the window and opened the purple curtains with a "bang", the warm sunlight quickly drove away the darkness in the room, and also made his cold and hard outline clear.

The dazzling sunlight made him subconsciously close his eyes for a few seconds, and after slowly adapting, he opened his eyes and saw clearly the shijie outside, hustle, bustling, and warm, but it had nothing to do with him.

It's autumn, but the temperature hasn't dropped at all, and it's time for that person's death in a few months. How long has it been since I've been to see him?

Bai Yan, Bai Ziyan, that clean and warm man. The only light and heat in his life disappeared, and he fell into the cold and dark abyss again!

Really, it's so lonely!

***

Rong Chen put the flowers in front of the tombstone, because his face was even more pale and bloodless after the fever, he sat next to the tombstone, smoking cigarettes one by one.

He almost couldn't remember how he and Bai Yan met.

Oh, it seems like one night, he got drunk, threw off the bodyguard who had been with him all day, and sat on the side of the road. Sitting on the side of the road in the middle of the night in the middle of the winter, there was no one else but neuropathy.

In fact, in the eyes of everyone, he is more terrible than a psychopath.

I don't know when a car stopped in front of him, and a man in a black woolen coat walked down, he stuffed the black thermos cup into Rong Chen's hand, and his elegant voice sounded in the night: "Drink some hot water!" ”

Although Rong Chen drank a lot of wine, his consciousness was still very clear, and he could see the face in front of him clearly through the dim street lamp, delicate, clean, and gentle.

He didn't know why, and suddenly said: "I have HIV, are you afraid?" ”

Especially the strange man who is still holding his hand! Rong Chen thought that he would show disgust or avoid escaping like a snake and scorpion, but he didn't.

"It's okay, it can't infect me." He replied calmly, without a trace of panic and fear, let alone disdain and disgust, as if the man in front of him was no different from ordinary people.

"What's your name?" Rong Chen clenched the cup in his hand, subconsciously avoiding physical contact with him.

"Bai Ziyan." In the dim light, he said his name lightly, and there was a slight smile on the corner of his mouth, like the same light of heaven and earth, the sun and the moon, brilliant and dazzling.

"Can you take me in for one night?" The ghost said this sentence in a daze, maybe he wanted to test him, or what, even Rong Chen himself didn't know.

Bai Ziyan was stunned, he didn't expect him to say this, and he didn't speak for a while.

Rong Chen was surprised when he saw him, hooked his lips and sneered, he knew that no one on this shijie would not be afraid of himself, not treat himself as a virus, and stay away......

"Yes, yes!" Bai Ziyan felt that he might have misunderstood something, and paused: "My apartment has just been renovated, it may be a bit messy!" I hope you don't mind! ”

Rong Chen was shocked!

That night, he really lived in Bai Ziyan's apartment, Bai Ziyan also made a supper for him at night, two bedrooms, only one bedroom had a bed and a quilt, Bai Ziyan gave him the room, and he made do with the sofa all night.

Rong Chen didn't sleep in Bai Ziyan's bed, and he didn't even dare to sit. He has never been such a person, weishenme is not afraid of himself, weishenme does not avoid himself, and he has to be so good to himself.

"Aren't you afraid of being infected with HIV by me?" The next day, Rong Chen asked him very bluntly.

Bai Ziyan was making breakfast with a calm and calm expression, he said: "HIV is mainly found in the blood, semen, vaginal and tract secretions, milk and juice of infected people and patients. ”

In the past, HIV was really a scary thing than ghosts, but now that science is advanced and medicine is developed, HIV is not so scary, and there is no need for patients to be discriminated against!

Rong Chen stood stunned in place, his faint voice hit the deepest part of his heart word by word, no one had ever used such a peaceful attitude and such a casual way to get along with him for so many years......

Anyone who knew he had HIV avoided him as if the air around him was filthy!

Without the slightest hesitation, he went into the kitchen and threw all the dishes he had used last night on the floor, breaking his chopsticks in half and throwing them into the trash.

Bai Ziyan was stunned: "What are you doing here?" ”

Rong Chen's face was expressionless, and he didn't dare to look at him with his lowered eyes: "I will buy a new one for you!" I didn't sleep in your bed last night, you don't have to change the sheets. And - xiexie! ”

The words landed, and before Bai Ziyan could react, Rong Chen had already walked out of the apartment.

The sun was shining brightly and enveloping him, his body trembled involuntarily, his eyes were swollen and astringent, and something tried to flow out of the corners of his eyes. He had been in Hell for so long that he had almost forgotten what warmth was like.

Bai Ziyan, Bai Ziyan, this strange and clean and warm man, for the first time, made Rong Chen feel that he was a person and still alive-

The next day, Rong Chen personally went to buy a set of dishes, and stood hesitantly at the door with a bag, not daring to knock on his door. Bai Ziyan is not afraid of HIV in his body, but he is very afraid, afraid that one will accidentally infect him!

After all, he left the bag at his door, turned around and was about to leave.

The closed door suddenly opened, and a man in a white shirt and black trousers stood at the door, looking at his back, and said lightly: "Since you are here, you will have lunch with me, anyway, I am also alone." ”

Rong Chen's steps paused, and he looked back at him with disbelief in his eyes, it turned out that he had seen them all.

Bai Ziyan pursed his lips and showed a warm smile, he saw Rong Chen standing at his door hesitating, waiting for him to knock on the door, but he didn't expect that Zuihou Rong Chen still didn't have the courage.

Who would have imagined that the young and decisive underworld master of the Rong family would stand in place at this moment, at a loss.

Bai Ziyan walked over, grabbed his wrist and pulled him directly into the house.

Such an understanding, such a warm and clean person, crashed into the depths of Rong Chen's heart vigorously at the beginning, turning the world upside down, and there was no peace.

But Rong Chen also knew that such a self was not worthy of standing by Bai Yan's side.

He didn't come to see Bai Yan very often, once in a while, he didn't stay here for the night, and tried to avoid physical contact with Bai Ziyan; Later, Bai Yan was busy with work, and the number of meetings became less and less.

Rong Chen didn't feel lost at all, he already knew Bai Ziyan's identity, and he knew who Bai Ziyan liked. I was secretly happy in my heart, while Bai Ziyan and himself were the same kind of person, they were also very sad.

is sad that he is like this, and he will never be liked by Bai Ziyan.

He knew Bai Ziyan's secret, and naturally he would not hide his secret. Bai Ziyan is such a person, clean and gentle, and unconsciously makes you believe in him unconditionally and rely on him.

He is not the heir of the Rong family, but he is an illegitimate son of the head of the Rong family in the previous generation, his mother works in a nightclub, and inadvertently became the head of the Rong family, and became greedy and wanted to tie up this man, so she moved her hands and feet on the condom when she had a relationship, so there was Rong Chen on this shijie.

The Rong family didn't admit this illegitimate child at all, the woman was out of shape because she gave birth to him, the Rong family didn't give her much money, she worked hard to pull a child to grow up, and her temper became worse and worse, she didn't dare to quarrel with the Rong family, nor did she dare to offend the people in the nightclub, so she sprinkled all her anger on Rong Chen.

Before the age of twelve, Rong Chen's memory was that his mother was drunk and betrayed his lust, and he was beaten, and he was infamous as an illegitimate child, and he was humiliated and tortured.

Because her mother has been selling her soft body for a long time, she didn't know which man was infected with HIV, and the owner of the nightclub knew about her situation, so she naturally wouldn't let her stay, she lost her job, she suffered from AIDS, she was devastated, mentally disordered, and her beating and scolding of Rong Chen intensified!

On the night of her twelfth birthday, the woman was nervous again, and beat and scolded Rong Chen for no reason, almost beating him to death, and the punch and kick were all her strength. Rong Chen was beaten down and curled up on the ground, trembling uncontrollably, clenching his fists tightly.

He can endure his mother's beating and scolding, no matter how painful it is, as long as his mother doesn't leave him, he only has his mother, the only relative.

That night, his mother was extremely crazy, not only beating and scolding him, but also pricking herself with a needle, and pricking Rong Chen's wound with a needle stained with her own blood, so that Rong Chen would also be infected with AIDS.

She hated that man, and even Rong Chen hated it too!

He really didn't understand at that time that Weishenme's mother wanted to choose to give birth to him, and since she gave birth to him, Weishenme didn't love him?

Rong Chen suddenly felt that he was very likely not to live. That's fine, this life was given by her, so let her take it back!

Fate was not so lenient with him, he was taken to the hospital with two ribs broken, a leg broken, his forehead and arms, covered in wounds, not dead.

The mother went crazy and jumped from the 7th floor and died on the spot.

The man finally appeared, and he brought Rong Chen back to Rong's house from the hospital, but did not give him any identity and care. Rong Chen is still a garbage, dirty existence in the Rong family, no one will give him a good face, everyone looks at him with such disgust, and he is undisguised.

weishenme？

weishenme Some people have the right to be born, but they have to bear the fate of being abandoned first? Weishenme wants him to send people under the fence and endure humiliation and torture to survive?

weishenme no one to love him? If not, can he be allowed to love himself selfishly?

Let him drag these people, this filthy Rong family, to sink in hell together.

It took him half a year to get the man's gaze to stop, and it took him five years to establish his shili in the Rong family, during which he already knew that his mother had infected him with HIV, and at that moment he really wanted to destroy the entire shijie.

Those who could have given him warmth, all they gave him was coldness and despair; Why did those who were originally his dearest people repeatedly push him into the abyss!

What exactly is Weishenme?

It doesn't matter, he won't let anyone know that he wants to live, because before he dies, he wants this group of people to die first or live better than to die!

That man's wife and son tried their best to kill him, and he survived all his life, not only infecting each of them with HIV, but also causing incest between mother and son. Oh, and the two sisters who are arrogant and arrogant, aren't they very noble on weekdays? Oh, then he will let them show their most lewd and slutty sides, so that everyone can see their lewd and slutty appearance under men!

When the man arrived at Zuihou, he found out that everything was done by Rong Chen, and he couldn't believe it.

Rong Chen is not afraid, because this man is also dying, and from now on the Rong family is his, no one dares to humiliate him anymore, and no one can ignore him anymore!

He personally pushed those who had the same blood on his body into hell and gave them a taste of hell. Everyone died in extreme pain, his hands were stained with the blood of every relative, he was an emotionless monster, the most bloodthirsty head of the Rong family in the past generations!

In the bloodline of the Rong family, he only left the second young lady's son, Rong Yu!

Rong Yu is the only clean child in the Rong family, and there is only a kind child in his heart. After his death, the Rong family belonged to Rong Yu, regardless of whether Rong Yu accepted it or not.

***

Bai Ziyan didn't have any surprise after knowing all this, and he didn't accuse Rong Chen of being cold-blooded, BT. Those clear eyes looked at Rong Chen, who was indifferent and numb and talked about the past, but he felt that he was too lonely.

Rong Chen has lived too lonely for so many years.

He said: "Rong Chen, their deaths were caused by themselves, and they have nothing to do with you. But what about the future, are you going to continue like this?

Rong Chen was stunned by his question, and after that, he didn't think about the future at all. Will someone like him still have the word "later"!

"Rong Chen, forget the past and be a good man. I'm sure you can do it. Bai Ziyan's good-looking facial features were smiling, his clear and clean eyes stared at him, and the flickering light was called - trust!

Since then, Rong Chen has concentrated on managing the Rong family, and has never killed an innocent person indiscriminately, and is even willing to secretly reach an agreement with Long Pei to escort Long Pei, because Long Pei's safety is Bai Ziyan's safety.

It's not that he hasn't looked for Bai Ziyan over the years, but he doesn't dare to stand in front of him, afraid that his feelings will be discovered, he will refuse directly, and he is also afraid that too much contact will make him unable to control this suppressed and impulsive emotion, and then unintentionally hurt him.

You must know that on this shijie, the only one he is unwilling to hurt is Ziyan.

How many lonely and lonely nights, he drove alone downstairs in Bai Ziyan and hid in the dark, quietly watching Bai Ziyan in and out of a hurry, and seeing the soft outline from a distance, which made him extremely satisfied and gratified.

He has been watching Bai Ziyan's despair and helplessness in the dark being tormented by this relationship, if there is a choice, he wants Qin Nansi to die more than anyone else, but he also understands that if Qin Nansi has something, Bai Yan must be the most painful one.

Bai Ziyan is white, Rong Chen is black, he doesn't want to pollute the white himself, but if he knows that the result of Zuihou is to sacrifice Bai Ziyan's life, he would rather break Bai Ziyan's wings and be imprisoned than watch Bai Ziyan fall deeper and deeper.

Bai Ziyan returned to New York, Rong Chen also went, secretly followed him, and saw him standing between heaven and earth, and he couldn't tell what it was like in his heart.

If it weren't for the urgent matter in China that called him back to deal with it, he would have stayed in New York to accompany Bai Ziyan in his own way, but he didn't know that that goodbye would be a farewell.

If he had known earlier, he would rather use the entire Rong family to destroy the whole Shijie than let Bai Ziyan alone, let alone let those ugly and disgusting women hurt Bai Ziyan so much.

When he received the news, Bai Ziyan's body had been sent for cremation, and Gu Mingxi and Your Excellency were present throughout the whole process.

But now that his light is dead and gone, what kind of shadow is he?

The results of the forensic investigation said that Bai Ziyan committed suicide due to depression, he didn't believe it, and everyone didn't know, but he knew that Bai Ziyan would never commit suicide.

He sent a lot of people to investigate, and with great effort, he finally targeted Qin Nansi's wife, Huang Rong, and it just so happened that his wife was also investigating this matter, and he knew everything.

Ye Ni left it to his wife to solve, and he wanted to solve it himself, so that Bai Ziyan couldn't fall in love, and he was painful and depressed - Huang Rong!

He is a fierce beast lurking in the dark, putting away his claws, gently weaving a romantic and beautiful net, watching Huang Rong fall into his trap step by step, you can imagine how painful it will be when she knows the truth!

Every time he pressed on Huang Rong's body and listened to her lewd screams, he felt extremely disgusting, but in order to torture Huang Rong and avenge Bai Ziyan, he had to insist on continuing to be disgusting......

zuihou he finally confirmed that Huang Rong was in love with him, Jihua was completely successful, and the moment he saw Huang Rong collapse, the dullness that had been suppressed for a long time in his heart evolved into a sense of block, and the sin finally bloomed the most gorgeous flowers in the dark, fragrant and fragrant.

After that, life became calm and boring again, no one dared to approach him, no one understood him, not even a person to talk to him! Hearing that Qin Nansi was doing well, he opened a café with his son, he couldn't help but go to see it, and when he saw Qin Nansi, he couldn't help but say hurtful things......

Bai Ziyan was killed by him, he still has the face to live on this shijie, and he can live so well! Again and again provoked, humiliated and ugly again and again, Qin Nansi never reacted, as if he had never heard it.

Rong Chen vaguely understood that Qin Nansi was also dead, and his heart followed Bai Ziyan to death!

It turns out that Bai Ziyan is dead, and the most painful person is not himself, so it's good, it's good.

***

When he heard the news of Huang Rong's death, his heart was empty, he was full of anger and hatred in the past few years, trying his best to torture her, seeing her more and more painful every time, his heart was full of joy.

But when Huang Rong died, what should he do, and who should the hatred point to. Huang Rong is dead, and he doesn't even have anyone to hate.

Lingding was drunk, and he didn't know that Weishenme wanted to go to Qin Nansi's shop, and maybe he felt that there was no reason to see him in the future.

Sometimes, tears are not sadness, they are just an empty emotional catharsis.

Before dawn, he went to Bai Ziyan's cemetery, sat by the tombstone all day, and was taken back by his subordinates at night. slept on a warm bed, with the black thermos cup that Bai Ziyan gave him when they met for the first time.

That night, he slept soundly, without bloody death or killing.

He had a dream.

I dreamed of the man who was clean and had a warm smile and said, "In the next life, remember to be a good person." ”

In the next life, be a good person.

He woke up in the warm sunshine and silently recited a sentence: In the next life, remember to be a good person.

That morning, for the first time in his life, he cried silently, and tears rained down.

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Young Master: This is the first time I've written BL and ended in tragedy, and it's also the first time zuihou has written BL. I've always felt that it's hard for people to live on this shijie, and it's even harder for people like Baiyan Nanji to live. If you have Bai Yan and Nansi around you, even if you can't bless them, please don't hurt them.